cbc; it's funny you're the broken one when i'm the only one who needs saving...

cbc; it's funny you're the broken one when i'm the only one who needs saving... by ssaarah

I poured some creamer into a coffee cup and stirred slowly, adding it to the tray and then setting a vase of violets as a finishing touch. Okay I was totally and completely whipped. But I was going to do anything I could to make things better for me and Vi, I didn’t know how anyone moved past what…well what was basically a denied proposal. The thing was if I actually thought about it? I wanted to marry her. I was just caught off guard and to this day I didn’t think it was for the wrong reasons…but that didn’t mean I didn’t love her. I loved her more than I loved anything. I pushed the door open and leaned over my girlfriend, pressing a soft kiss against her forehead.

“Morning gorgeous.” Vi’s eyes fluttered open and she sat up, looking at the tray of breakfast and smirking.

“Is it my birthday?” she asked groggily, running her hands over her eyes and pushing back her hair. God even now she was the most beautiful woman I’d ever seen.

“Does it have to be a birthday for me to spoil you?” she shrugged.

“It does if you don’t want me to get used to it.” She grinned running the pad of her finger over the flower petals softly. “Violet’s are pretty.” I nodded.

“Yes.” I agreed, though I was only interested in the one sitting next to me on the bed. “And get used to it all you want.” She looked back at me and set her hand on my cheek, smiling though honestly the smile didn’t quite reach her eyes and I knew she knew what I was up to. But what else could I do? I’d do anything to keep her happy, I even thought about proposing to her but I felt like it would mean so much less now, like it was a pity proposal. That wasn’t fair to either of us.

“You’re amazing Jakey.” She whispered, leaning over and pressing a kiss against my lips. “I love pancakes.” She smiled, taking her fork and digging in right away.

“Do you? I'm so glad I had no idea.” I teased.

“Yeah right, you know nothing about me." Vi joked before stabbing more food on her fork and filling her mouth.

"Or everything." I smirked back at her as I watched her closely, god her lips were so tempting always…..I had to keep myself from jumping her basically 99% of always. I let my hand drop to her knee and squeeze it just sating my body by touching hers in some way.

“Definitely everything." she glanced up at me, and I thought I saw my Vi in her eyes. She looked happy and adoring….but only for a few seconds before I saw the insecurities cloud her eyes again. Sigh.  "Did you have breakfast baby?" she asked, breaking the silence.

"I had a coffee." I answered, still wishing there was some way to prove that I would always be hers, that even imagining myself with anyone else was impossible to me…but I didn’t know what I else to do.

"That's not breakfast." Vi frowned and stuck the fork into the pancakes before bringing a piece to my mouth, smiling at me. "We can share." I didn't argue and opened my mouth to accept the food, managing to smile in the process before chewing,

"Pretty good, uh?" I asked, giving her a cocky grin. Vi leaned over and kissed the corner of my mouth slowly.  

"Delicious. You're perfect in one million ways Jakey." she whispered before pulling her head back again. I almost wished she didn’t think that if only because then she wouldn’t think she was always close to losing me.

"You're perfect." I said back in a honest voice, regretting instantly, not because I didn’t believe it, but because I could feel her doubt, feel her insecurities eating away at her as she denied me. I hated how a simple compliment from me could make the air so heavy, so I reached out and pushed her hair back, changing the subject. "What do you want to do today?" I asked eventually. Vi stuffed my mouth with the last bite of her pankcakes before giving me an answer,

"Nothing..." she trailed off, not sounding like her at all. We usually went out on Sundays since it was the only day we were both free, she dragged me out even when the weather sucked, but today….today we were post denied proposal. And I was paying for it.

“Okay….so nothing as in really nothing? Or nothing as in I do nothing and you get mad later for doing nothing. Or….” I winced. “Even worse! Nothing meaning you want to deep clean the apartment…..” Vi’s face turned into a slow smile.

“You’re being silly!” I shook my head.

“It would only be silly if all those things had not happened except for actually doing nothing!!” I protested, wanting to make my baby happy, but women? Sometimes they just expected you to know what they wanted. And although Vi was unlike most women? She was no exception to that rule.

“I mean actually nothing baby.” She replied, setting her hand on my chest and smiling before taking her spoon to the grapefruit on her tray but instead of scooping out a bite she squirted the front half of her body and squealed. I smirked and leaned in, pressing my lips against the grapefruit juice right above her breasts.

“I couldn’t have planned that better myself.” I smirked, pulling back and grinning wickedly back at her. Vi’s face wrinkled even though she was still smiling.

“Maybe you did plan it you sneak.” She replied grabbing more grapefruit in her spoon and then catapulting it at me. I made a face of mock shock.

“You’re going to get the sheets all dirty.” I chastened. Vi shrugged.

“We’ll was them then.” I groaned.

“You do want to clean today.” I said, wishing I could feel happy and supportive of that but liking the idea of staying in bed with her even more. Vi sat up straighter as she looked at me.

“Because you know how much I love cleaning, right?" I shrugged and ran my hand through my hair,

"Sometimes you go all crazy and start blabbing about how dirty the apartment is, or untidy, then you run around like a mad woman until everything is just like you want it to be." she laughed a little since it did happen and totally out of the blue.

 "I am only if I know that your parents are coming over." she retorted as she shook her head but that was silly because they didn’t care. "And that's not the case."

"But-" I started and she cut me off, placing her hand on my mouth as she stared at me.

 "Also you're the one who usually take care of this place, you're a good housewife." I smirked against her palm as I gave her an amused expression.

"You should learn from me." I muttered against her hand, Vi sighed dramatically and then threw her hands into the air.  

"See? YOU are the one who wants to clean." she said before we both broke into a light laugh.

"No one wants to clean then." I said softly as I scooped Vi closer to me, wrapping my arm around her shoulders to pull her into my body. She adjusted against me, setting her head on my chest and breathing slowly.  

"No one." She repleated. Silence filled the room for a few second, a peaceful one, as I ran my fingers through the silk that was her hair.  

"We're okay...right?" I asked quietly.

"Sure baby." She whispered back.

“That doesn’t really convince me.” I admitted, my chest feeling tighter as I winced and looked at the foot of the bed.

“Jake….” She trailed off, setting her tray of food carefully on her dresser table.

“I'm so sorry.” I said, looking up at her. She sighed and straddled my body, setting her hands on my shoulders.

“You don’t have to be sorry for anything. I love you.”

“And see I know that! I know every time I look at you that you love me, every day you prove it to me. But it’s not enough for you. I must be doing something wrong if you don’t see the same things when you look at me.” I said it seriously, since it had been something on my mind for a while. Why she couldn’t see herself reflected the way I did. Hell she probably shouldn’t she’d be the worlds cockiest most self centered woman if she did.

“That’s not true at all.” She shook her head, looking confused though. I shrugged.

“I just don’t know what more I can do.” I said seriously. “I’ll try harder though. Every day I’ll try harder.”

“Jake you’re perfect….” She cupped my face. “You are.” I batted her hands away, grabbing her waist and tossing her back in the center of the bed so I could stand up and pace.

“No I'm not!!!! I'm not perfect Vi, stop putting me on a fu.cking pedestal! I put my work first, I'm possessive, I'm anal, I'm admittedly a flirt which we’ve already gone over, I'm not perfect. And I know that you’re not either but I think we’re perfect for each other anyways so what do we have to do to get you over this?!” Vi blinked as she processed what I had said.

"Jake I swear I'm this close to slapping your face." she said when she finally spoke, her eyes narrowed on me.

"Uh?" I muttered unintelligently, stopping in my tracks and looking at her with a confused expression. "What are you talking about?"

"First of all, I'm on top of you, trying to console you or I don't know, and what do you do? You push me away." She managed to snap and pout at the same time as she crossed her legs and glared at me. I smirked, wanting to know what she really meant but she held up a hand to stop me. "I'm not done."

"Go on."

"I have a question for you." she announced, but then didn’t say anything. I cocked one eyebrow at her, amused at her tone of voice but confused at her words.

"Oh can I talk now?" I asked in a sarcastic tone, but her glare was enough to make me stop, "Okay."

"Let's say I wake up one morning and you're at work already." she paused, and I nodded at her. "I don't feel good, my head is spinning and I get sick-"

"Are you pregnant?" I cut her off, widening my eyes.

"God Jake, no!" she snorted, as she ran her fingers through her hair. "If in that situation I called you, would you come back to me?"

"Of course I would." I said seriously and she beamed back at me.

"See? You don't put your work first, or at least not with me." She paused. “I can live with you being possessive and anal, one is cute and the other is silly, the only thing I have a problem with is you being a flirt with every girl you meet but I guess I'll have to learn to live with that too." I reached down and cupped her face.

“It’s not even flirting to me….it just is to you….I don’t want anyone else.” She shrugged.

“But you’re so handsome Jakey….” She trailed off. “You could have anyone.” I grinned and pushed her hair back, leaning in to kiss her forehead.

“You could have anyone too….look at you.” Vi sighed.

“Only until they realized how crazy I am.” She gave me a face and I shook my head. She really underestimated herself.

“First of all? Guys love crazy women. The crazier the better.” I smirked and Vi blushed a little. “Secondly? You’re so fuc.king hot it wouldn’t matter if you were the craziest girl on earth.”

“Being pretty isn’t everything.” She said softly, though she was still smiling.

“True. You could have any guy you wanted baby.” I started again. “But no one will ever love you as much as I do. Never.”

“Oh Jakey…..” Vi beamed at me and I shrugged.

“You’ve been my best friend all my life baby. And now you let me do whatever I want to you so I'm basically the luckiest man on earth.” I added, smirking back at her. Vi bit her lip.

“Whatever you want? I'm such a good girlfriend.” I chuckled.

“I do return the favor. And apparently I'm pretty good looking so….” I trailed off with a slow grin, happy to see the spark back in my girls eyes even if it would only be for a little while. Eventually I’d make it be for forever.

"You're super good looking." Vi smiled, pulling me closer as she lifted herself onto her knees. "Like, the most handsome man on earth."

"Is that why you want to be with me forever?" I asked quietly, smiling at him and knowing I was sounding like an epic cheesefest but not even caring a little. I cupped her face and tilted it towards mine as she nodded.

"I have one million reasons." she said seriously, not letting go of my shirt but giving it a tug instead.

"Are you going to tell me?" I whispered, pressing a soft kiss against her plush lips.

“Wouldn't it take too long?" she smirked a little and I was glad she was back to being normal Violet….but for how long? I wasn’t sure.

"But now I'm curious." she kissed my lips once again quickly,

"Let's make a deal." she smiled, "I'll tell you one reason a day, so that I'll be sure that you'll be with me for at least one million days." I broke into a huge grin, reaching for her hands and forcing her to get up to pull her body against mine.

"Do you know how many years they are?" Vi shrugged,

"Probably barely enough." she grinned a little as she wrapped her arms tight around my neck.

“Are you sure you want to do nothing today?” I asked, kissing her nose and then pulling her body into my lap.

“Not nothing….” She trailed off. I grinned.

“Let me guess…..clean.” I teased and she pushed me back onto the bed and nodded.

“You guessed right. Spring cleaning it is…..maybe I’ll get a maid outfit.” I raised a brow at her and could feel a smile tugging at my lips.

“That would make things interesting….” I admitted, my mind already picturing her in an apron and heels and nothing else at all.

“It would make things messy all over again instead.” She replied setting her hands on my chest and looking sexy and adorable at the same time.

“I'm still not seeing a problem….” I trailed off, sitting back up and wrapping my arms around her waist. “Do you want to go to the pool?” I asked, knowing the pool on the roof had just opened up.

“Maybe….” She trailed off.

“It’s pretty hot, we could cool down, I’d grab a bottle of wine and you could wear that little black bikini?” she bit her lip.

“Is it live in Jakey’s dream day?” she asked me tilting her head to the side and letting her hair curtain over her shoulders.

“You don’t want to see me in a swimsuit?” I asked, mock offended before sighing. “Fine. I’ll just go pout in the living room and watch ESPN since you want to do nothing.” She raised one brow at me and kept the look for a few seconds.

 "And what would it be different from any other sunday?" my mouth dropped open,

"What I never do that!" I protested, then changed my mind, "Maybe once a month. Tops." She stared a me for a few seconds longer before chuckling.  

"You should see your face right now." she giggled.

"Oh you were making fun of me, uh?" I smirked back at her.

 "Ops?" Vi shrugged and smirked back at me. Fuck she looked like an innocent angel when she did that but I knew better so it was even hotter.

"You're not sorry." I shook my head before tickling her side, making her sqeal. "Such a bad girl." Vi wriggled in my hold, running out of breath already,

 "Jakey!!!" she protested. I stopped as I picked her up effortlessly and got up,

"You deserved that." She grinned and wrapped her arms and legs around my body.

"What can I do to make up for it?" she whispered against my lips before kissing them.

 "Black bikini. Now." I said seriously and set her back down on her feet before spanking her fine ass.  She massaged her cheek, biting down on her lip as she started for our closet,

 "Your wish is my command handsome bear." I grinned wickedly as I watched her go. A man could get used to that…..