9.21.2015

I'm feeling this

Caleb opened his door and saw me standing there in my little green sundress, holding a whole basket full of pastries. When things in life got hard, I baked. And Caleb not coming over after spending the night inside of me was definitely a good reason to cook like a crazy person. "Hi." U smiled and blushed a little, my eyes looking up at him.
"Hi." He looked over in my basket. "Are you feeding a small army?"
I blinked away from him and looked in my basket. "Oh! No I always bring the extras I have to the battered women's shelter but I thought I'd see if you wanted anything first."
He widened his eyes and shook his head. "Not if I'm taking them from battered women I don't!" He exclaimed which made me laugh. "I'm sure you could have one instead." I licked my lips. "How are you? You didn't come see me."

9.14.2015

im gonna love you like i've never been broken

We walked out the doctors office in silence, finally, everything had gone well, without arguing, without fighting, but also without really connecting at all. I felt empty without him, even filled with our daughter.

9.10.2015

sweet disposition

We walked out the doctors office in silence, finally, everything had gone well, without arguing, without fighting, barely talking to be honest but it hadn't been awkward. Maybe we really had a chance to make this work.
"So..." Colbie trailed off, glancing up at me as we headed to our cars. "Everything's fine with our baby."
I nodded and smiled at the thought of my daughter, I was starting to get impatient to become a father, it was electrifying even if I still had so much to do. "Yeah, thank god." I said quietly, thinking about our Ruby growing healthy and strong and beautiful for sure. "When's the next appointment?"
"The doctor said her assistant will call me." She replied and I could tell she was lost into her thoughts, I didn't want to know them though.
"Okay good. Let me know." I told her before opening my car, my mind already going to what I was going to do later in the day.

9.07.2015

everybody's looking for that something

"Hey handsome." I smirked as I leaned into Travis' office. He was sitting at his desk, his suit coat hung up and his sleeves rolled up to his elbows. When he heard my voice he grinned and my heart skipped. He was so fu.cking hot it wasn't even fair.

you got me hypnotized

"Hey handsome." Lila smirked as she leaned into my office. 
I was sitting at my desk, working and not expecting to see her. When I heard her voice I grinned. "What are you doing here?" I asked, leaning back and making it obvious as my eyes traveled over her body. She was wearing a sleeveless blouse tucked into a tight black pencil skirt and high heels. So hot.
"I had a meeting downtown and thought I'd take you to lunch." She replied.
"I'll do you one better. I'm going home early." 

9.03.2015

my pressure on your hips, sink in my fingertips

I was taking a long walk instead of sleeping pills when I noticed the lights at the bakery still on and I walked up to it, knocking on the door.
"Hey, what are you doing here?" Tara asked, her eyes dark and sad.

9.01.2015

lost in you


I rolled my glass between my palms, staring at nothing as I considered lighting a cigarette, but I was drinking already and I didn't want to pass out when I was alone so late at night in my bakery and no one didn't even know I was there. No one knew where I was, no one knew that John and I were over because I needed some time for myself, to stay alone and think about it. I had given him an ultimatum, telling him that I couldn't keep waiting for him to give me attentions and time, that I was tired of feeling alone. I had homed he would have told me that he understood me, that I was right, that he missed me as much as I missed him, instead all I had got was him telling me that he couldn't change the man he was. That wasn't love to me, and major like that, without even a fight, we had broken up. I was now single, heartbroken and homeless too. I was swimming in a sea of sadness. Drowning more like it, even though I knew that our decision was for the best.