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I straitened my tie as I took a look around at the party. I hadn't really done anything but host it, but still I liked to make sure the reputation of the winery was still in tact no matter how much my hand was in it. We were raising money for Water Conservation, my date Tina was the head of the charity. I honestly wasn't sure if she was interested in me for me or because it was a good venue for her events but what else was new? Dating wasn't a fairytale it was all about what was best for you, and she was beautiful and smart. That was enough for me. Well it wasn't. But it was enough for what I needed.
"You look deep in thought." I recognized the sweet sound of Tara's voice before I even saw her which was crazy since usually I could feel her presence. I was lucky I didn't because in her long evening gown I wouldn't have been able to give the speech Tina had written for me. I just barely stifled the groan as I attempted to keep my eyes on her face, but that was just as beautiful as the rest of her so really it was pointless.

1507

I walked into Caleb's winery like I had done many times before and let out a deep breath. It was crowded by rich shallow people, who were there for "charity" and I wasn't in my element at all, mostly when my man was late and I couldn't even talk to me. When my eyes landed on Caleb though, a smile widened my lips and I headed over him without thinking twice, grabbing a glass of wine on my way. If there was someone who could save my night was him.

"You look deep in thought." I pointed out, noticing the way his brows were slightly furrowed and the serious expression he was sporting.

"I didn't know you'd be here." He said with a smile, relaxing as he looked into my face.

"I came for the views and the wine." I laughed, holding up my glass of chardonnay and using it to wave my hand across the view.

but i can't spell it out for you no it's never gonna be that simple

I ran my fingers through my hair as I shook the hands of the newlywed couple who had just accepted the offer on their new condo in the city and turned to look for a coffee shop when I saw him. Jax grabbed a handful of wood and carried it effortlessly across the street to the construction area where the other men helped him nail it up to the outside of an old apartment building they were restoring. I almost lost my breath. He was sweaty and dirty as he peeled off his long sleeve shirt, revealing a sliver of stomach before he tossed it aside, leaving him in a black tank that showed off every inch of his sculpted torso. I felt myself walking towards him before I even realized I was.

“Hi.” I said breathily from outside the construction zone.

baby did I mention you're the only girl for me, no I don't need a next one

“Hey baby, what can I do for you?” I heard one of the guys working with me say. grinned up at me and I flushed as I looked down at my feet.
“Colbie?” I followed the voice that was so familiar to me to find my gorgeous and sexy girlfriend. That was unexpected.
“I was across the street at a meeting.” She explained, licking her lips.
“You know this girl Cole? She’s a knockout.” The guy shot her a wink and I rolled my eyes.
“All his girls are knockouts.” Another of my coworkers said, laughing with the rest of the crew.
“Yeah, knockout drunk.” The first one teased.
“Don’t you guys have some fucking work to do?” I asked, then came from outside the zone and smiled. “I’d kiss you but I’m gross.” I shrugged.
“If you don’t kiss me I might die.” She admitted, grabbing a handful of my dirty cotton shirt and pressing her lips hard against mine, kissing me like we were alone and not caring that we weren’t.

they dish the dirt, it never ends

Colbie
"Hi!" Lila rushes in, pulling her crossbody bag off and setting it next to her as she joins me in the booth of the new little cafe that opened downtown by my office. "Sorry I'm late." She smiles and reaches over the table to kiss my cheek.
"It's okay I finished up some work." I smiled. "You look tan." I pointed out.
"Trav and I went to the beach last weekend." She replied, smiling in the way that only a weekend away with a man could make happen.
"Ahh, no wonder you're all glowy." I smirked at her and she nodded.
"Damn right. It was awesome."
"I bet."
"Did you order drinks?" She asks, looking around for the wait staff. I nodded.
"Iced tea."
"Thanks." She smiled and ran her fingers through her long blonde hair.
"You're hair is getting long. And it's still blonde. I'm surprised." I point out and she laughs but shrugs her shoulders.
"My boyfriend likes it." She says casually.
"Mine has a thing for blondes too." I tap my chin as if I'm thinking. "Must run in the family?" Lila laughs again and I smile. Of all my siblings I'm closest to Lila, even though we're almost the farthest apart in age. Must be something about being the only two girls. Or maybe it's just her. Everyone I know can't resist loving my little sister. There's just something about her.

Lila
"How's my favorite nephew?" I ask, leaning on my elbows as the waiter brings us our teas.
"Great." Colbie smiles. "He just got put in a gifted program." I gasp and clap my hands excitedly.
"Well it's about time. That kid is almost smarter than me." I say seriously as my sister chuckles.
"I'm not sure if that makes me proud or terrified." She admits. "Hows your collection coming?"
"It's good. It's different....but I like the change." I smile, loving how my work is challenging me again. "It's hard sometimes for me to push out of my boundaries but definitely worth it."
"You're so vague." Colbie laughs. "But I can't wait to see it."
"Derrick got cast in a WB show for next season." I say and Colbie nods.
"That's right, something about a rich family with a dark secret?" I nodded.
"That's pretty much all WB shows." I laugh. "How's Jax?" I add since I'd been feeling guilty about not calling him back but also still a little angry at him. He should be reaching out to Travis not me.
"Practically perfect." She sighs. "You haven't been running with him?" She asks. I wonder how much about Trav and his fight he's told her. I could see my friend wanting to keep Colbie out of the bad things in his life, but was that a real relationship? Fu.ck I keep judging them. It's not like I have it all together.
"I've been busy." I shrug and take another sip of my drink.
"Oh." Colbie frowns. "I thought you ran together a lot." I nodded.
"I'll call him tomorrow." I promise her and myself out loud. After all Jax was my friend, and I missed him. Even if he was acting like a jerk.

Colbie
I had a feeling she wasn't telling me everything but I wasn't really sure I wanted to know so I blew past it.
"But you had fun with Travis?" She perked up.
"God yes. I was about ready to tie him to the bed for a change I missed spending time with him so much." I blinked at my sister.
"Does he really do that?" I ask under my breath.
"Do what?" We pause to order soup and salads before I turn back to her.
"Tie you to the bed." Lila laughs.
"Oh. Yes." She smirks, and a rosy blush forms on her cheeks.
"....And you're into that?" I ask. She gives me a glare.
"I'm not sure I'm comfortable talking about what I like in bed with my sister." She admits and it's my turn to blush. "Also I'm pretty surprised Jax has never tied you up." She adds with a laugh.
"Why? Does he like that?!" I ask, almost too loud. She shrugs.
"I dunno. He just strikes me as kinda kinky I guess." I widen my eyes further as I think back on everything Jax and I had done. It was all completely mind blowing to me but if we were being honest it was kind of vanilla sex wise.
"Why?" I ask.
"......because he's a Cole?" She shrugs and then looks back at me concerned. "You look like I just stole all your barbies Colbs, what's wrong?"
"Jax isn't kinky with me." I admit. "At all." Lila folds her arms over her chest and sits back.

Lila
I suddenly feel as if I'd said the wrong things. Not that any of it wasn't true, but by the look on my sisters face I'd just opened an entirely new bucket of insecurities. And honestly I was kind of surprised. Tying me to the bed was one of the tamer things I'd done with Travis, honestly I'd assumed most people did that, especially Jax. The girls he was with before Colbie didn't look inexperienced.
"Is it bad?" I ask finally, knowing my sisters newly found healthy glow meant she was actually getting laid so it couldn't be all bad.
"No...." she trails off.
"That's not very convincing." I point out, leaning in. I have to admit I had a strange curiosity. I'd always assumed Jax would be as awesome in bed as he was out. If not more so.
"I mean for me it's epic." She says seriously. "But I don't have much to compare it to....do you think he's holding back with me?" I thought about it. That didn't really sounds like the Jax I knew but he'd also never dated anyone like Colbie. He'd never had feelings like the ones he had for her.
"I don't know." I admitted and she turned even paler.

Colbie
"Well what in the hell am I supposed to do!?" I ask, 'What if he gets bored?!" Lila reaches out and grabs my hands.
"Colbie, slow down." She says with wide eyes. "Jax loves you. He wouldn't dump you for that." She adds, reading my mind like always. "Do you do this with him too?" She asks gently.
"....do what?"
"Freak out over little things?" I pout. I did. I wasn't entirely sure why he hung around I was such an awful girlfriend. But god I loved him so much.
"This isn't exactly a little thing. You do remember my husband leaving me to have sex with a 21 year old right?"
"That wasn't because you weren't good in bed." She rolls her eyes. "It was because he was a fucking moron who thought with his tiny dick." I let myself smirk at her words. She always said the things about Nick that I wanted to, but felt bad because it was the father of my child. Still hearing someone say it was therapeutic.
"Still...."
"Do you want to be kinky with Jax?" She asks, cringing a little as she clearly tries not to think about it. That's when I stop and really think, putting a million different fantasies into my head at once....but they aren't all just sex...though a few very x rated ones are front and center. But what I really see is a life. A future.
"I want everything with him." I admit softly. Lila softens as her eyes widen and she shakes her head.
"Damn you really are in love aren't you?" She says almost in awe.
"Completely." I admit, feeling my eyes tear up a little at how deep my emotions run.
"Oh my god do not cry right now. Are you PMSing right now? Because you're the dominant one and if I hang out with you all day and you're PMSing I'm going to start like a week early." She snaps and I break out laughing as the waiter brings our fod, looking at us both awkwardly when Lil starts laughing too.
"Don't worry sis I'm not due till next week too." I say through my laughter.
"Good." She nods and bites into her salad. "Did you hear Reece got asked to mentor on Derrick's show?" And we're right back to family, moving on from our last topic. I wished I could move on like Lila, but god. What if......