drunk in love

"Tara, there's a guy who's asking for you at the counter." Dennis said as he popped his head into the kitchen.
My thoughts went straight to Andy and I had to lean against the table a moment. I hadn't talked to him in weeks, if not months but it wasn't for his lack of trying, it was because I didn't want to. "Is it Andy?" I managed to ask, my voice cracking and betraying me.
My friend shook his head, "Nope. But he's still hot. Gorgeous even." He smirked at me.
I rolled my eyes and followed him into the bakery. Relief washed over me when I spotted Jaden, Caleb's brother, only to be replaced a second later by worry. Why was he here? What did he want from me? I wore a smile of fake confidence as I headed to the counter. "Hey. I wasn't expecting to see you here." I told him softly and that was true.

if i fall for you, i'll never be the same.

I walked up and knocked on the door to Tara's bakery, not really knowing what I was doing there but knowing I needed to be. It was closed, so I walked around the back, seeing Tara walk out the back.
"I knocked on the front but it was closed." I said as she walked up to me.
"Yeah." she nodded, setting her hands on her hips and taking a deep breath, "I'm closing early tonight."

this is what you came for

I felt Caleb's lips press a kiss against my collar bone, it waking me and also making me wiggle and groan. I wanted to sleep some more. “Not yet.” I muttered.
He chuckled and nuzzled into where my neck met my shoulder. “It’s morning.” He pointed out, his voice low and warm waking me slowly. God he was impossible to resist.
“I didn’t hear an alarm go off.” I winced and opened my eyes slowly.
He grinned at my face, “It might be a little earlier than usual.”
I pouted. “Why would you do that to me?”

new romantics

Caleb tried to keep his eyes on the road as he drove into the city with me next to him.
"What?" I asked, looking at him with wide eyes as I noticed he kept stealing glances of me.
"You look incredible tonight. That dress is something." He commented, his expression giving away the kind of thoughts he was having.
"You've seen me in less." I laughed, my hand smoothing the black dress I was wearing that was kind of conservative but showed my legs and my curves.
"That's the point. Everyone else at the party will only get a hint of how perfect you are. Only I'll be the one who knows what you look like without it." He winked and I laughed again.
"If you're just going to picture me naked then everything I wear will be good." I replied as I bit down on my lip.

I know I said so

5:00 A.M.

The alarm on Caleb's phone jolted him awake and he blindly reached for it on his nightstand to turn it off while I cursed it in my head. He glanced next to him, smiling as he looked at me blinking my eyes open.
"Morning." I smiled and then curled up against his chest, nuzzling my head against him.
He wrapped his arm around me and pulled me closer. "Hey." He kissed the top of my head and closed his eyes for a second, only waking up again when his second alarm went off 15 minutes later. I didn't move, didn't make a sound either, I just enjoyed staying into his arms a little longer.
"I guess we should get up." I smirked and he sighed dramatically. "I thought you were a morning person." I laughed, sitting up and looking down at him.
"I am but lately I don't really want to get out of bed." He confessed.
I grinned, because I was just the same and I knew the reason. "I wonder why that is?"
He shrugged. "Maybe it's the new sheets I got? Or it's just the holidays are busy and I'm a little more tired?" He offered and I narrowed my eyes. "Probably though it's the pretty girl who's all soft and warm and naked....." He trailed off, switching our positions and running his hands up my thighs.
"I'm not naked." I laughed and he fake pouted down at me.
"Why not?" He asked, leaning down to kiss the spot on my neck that he'd learned made me crazy.
I shivered, tangling my fingers with his hair as a wave of desire made me feel very awake all of a sudden. "Because we have to get up." I protested weakly, opening my legs and allowing him to position himself between of them.
"Already?" He asked in a low groggy voice, his mouth travelling down until the fabric of the t-shirt I was wearing stopped him.

je m'en fous

I tapped my fingers against my lips as I stared at the door of Caleb's office. It was closed and no sound came from the inside, but I knew he was there, since he wasn't anywhere else and his car was parked in front of his winery. So that just bought me some time to decide if I really wanted to get inside of not. Of course I wanted to see Caleb, even though he had stopped by earlier at my bakery, but there was something that felt a little off...he was amazing, as always, but after his decision of not sleeping with me on what he said counted like a first date I had some doubts, first of all because we had already slept toghether before, plenty of times, and then because...why? I just didn't get it. I understood when he said we had to take things slow since our past relationships had been awful, only I felt as if he was putting some distance and that led me to wonder if he was freaking out already. It was almost as if he wasn't my boyfriend, more like we were still in the phase of dating when nothing is official. And no sex. Aside this kind of thoughts that left me full with doubts and insecurities, there was another kind that left me really annoyed and secretly waiting for some silly revenge. Which was what I had on my agenda for today...maybe. I thought about the last time I had slept with him, his sweaty hard body against me, his soft lips pressed on my skin as if he couldn't get enough, his strong hands claiming every inch of my skin...the thought was enough to send a shiver through me. I was pmsing too, which made it even worse, meaning I wanted him real bad.

bulletproof

I glanced at my watch, then grabbed my phone, checking whatsapp as I tapped my foot against the floor nervously. More like impatiently. Caleb wasn't even late, but I couldn't wait to see him for the first time since we had decided to give ourselves a chance, it was also the first time he came to my new apartment so I had put on a pretty dress, I had cooked dinner and now I felt that excitement I hadn't felt in so long.
I darted to the door as soon as I heard footsteps and I opened it, not even thinking that if it wasn't him I'd look like an idiot. But it was him instead, in all his glorious hotness. "Hi." I smiled wide, trying to control myself but I was afraid I was failing.

you were right all along, something's gotta change

I got up from Andys bed and felt underdressed immediately, as soon as the chill air of the room hit me. To my defense, I was really underdressed, almost naked more likely, but it wasn't just a physical thing...I felt exposed, vulnerable, and willing to close myself off instead. I had been like this since Caleb, the only moments when I felt better were the ones where Andy was with me but then again, it wasn't that I felt better really, I just didn't feel anything. He made me talk, he made me come, he even made me laugh a little occasionally, for a few hours I could forget all the rest of my life until it was morning and my misery and anxiety were still there. I wished I could say that not seeing Caleb was helping me...it wasn't. I missed him, more than I missed John to be honest.
"Hey, what are you thinking about?" Andy's low and groggy voice almost made me jump.

I took a deep breath and rang the bell of Travis' house, still debating if it was a good idea to show unannounced, but then again he was my cousin and we were close...I just hoped he wasn't too busy.
"Hi!" Lila opened the door instead, she grinned reaching out and pulling me into a hug that surprised me but then I sank into it, hugging her back like an old friend.
"Hey. I'm sorry to just drop by..." I started, feeling as if I needed to apologize.
She shook her head. "Are you kidding? Surprise visits are one of my favorite things." I smiled and followed her into the living room, loving how she was, so cheerful and cute. "Can I get you something to drink?"
"Coffee?"

I can give you everything that you want

I rolled over onto my side and opened my eyes slowly, almost squealing when my eyes meet Caleb's. My stomach flipped and I couldn't help but smile, no matter how hard I bit down on my bottom lip. What was I doing in his guest house, in bed with him, not able to say no when it was time to go to sleep? What were we doing? I didn't even want to start guessing.
"Morning." He said in that low groggy voice that made my toes curl for how both sexy and cute it was, his hand lifting to push my hair behind my ear gently and moving the sheet covering him in the process, the view of his naked and perfectly sculpted torso reminding me that we didn't just slept. When I thought about, the only sentence my brain could come with was oh my god. My mind went completely blank.

don’t want for us to end where do I start

I walked out the back of my bakery, wiping my forehead with my arm after setting a box on the ground, the one with the things I wanted to throw away, while most of the other ones with my stuff were still in the part of my bakery I used as a office even if it was basically a hole. I kept my eyes on Caleb shamelessly as I noticed him walking towards me, his expression a questioning one, his brows furrowed together. I hadn't seen him much since our last talk and I didn't know if it was because of what had happened or for other reasons, but I was determined to keep our friendship intact. Even if rejection still burned.
"I knocked on the front but it was closed." He said once he was close enough for me to hear.

I'm feeling this

Caleb opened his door and saw me standing there in my little green sundress, holding a whole basket full of pastries. When things in life got hard, I baked. And Caleb not coming over after spending the night inside of me was definitely a good reason to cook like a crazy person. "Hi." U smiled and blushed a little, my eyes looking up at him.
"Hi." He looked over in my basket. "Are you feeding a small army?"
I blinked away from him and looked in my basket. "Oh! No I always bring the extras I have to the battered women's shelter but I thought I'd see if you wanted anything first."
He widened his eyes and shook his head. "Not if I'm taking them from battered women I don't!" He exclaimed which made me laugh. "I'm sure you could have one instead." I licked my lips. "How are you? You didn't come see me."

my pressure on your hips, sink in my fingertips

I was taking a long walk instead of sleeping pills when I noticed the lights at the bakery still on and I walked up to it, knocking on the door.
"Hey, what are you doing here?" Tara asked, her eyes dark and sad.

lost in you

I rolled my glass between my palms, staring at nothing as I considered lighting a cigarette, but I was drinking already and I didn't want to pass out when I was alone so late at night in my bakery and no one didn't even know I was there. No one knew where I was, no one knew that John and I were over because I needed some time for myself, to stay alone and think about it. I had given him an ultimatum, telling him that I couldn't keep waiting for him to give me attentions and time, that I was tired of feeling alone. I had homed he would have told me that he understood me, that I was right, that he missed me as much as I missed him, instead all I had got was him telling me that he couldn't change the man he was. That wasn't love to me, and major like that, without even a fight, we had broken up. I was now single, heartbroken and homeless too. I was swimming in a sea of sadness. Drowning more like it, even though I knew that our decision was for the best.

wanna keep you here

"So you like own this whole club?" The pretty blonde smiled at me and I laughed as I shook my head.
"No I'm just an investor." I replied, motioning to the bartender for another drink.
"So you're rich then?" She asked and I laughed again and shrugged.
"I'm not struggling." I admitted.

this summer's gonna hurt

I walked to the bar of the trendy club where I was supposed to meet my friend and saw Caleb instead, busy flirting with a very young blonde girl. Interesting.
"Caleb?"
He turned his head. "Tara." He widened his eyes. "Hi."
"What are you doing here?" I asked. "This place doesn't really strike me as your type."
He laughed because of course I was right. I was starting to know him very well. "He owns it." The blonde said, staring down me with a glare. "And we were just leaving."
"You own what?" I blinked, taking a second to look at the girl and then back at him.
"I invested in this club." He replied, shrugging.
"Seriously?" I looked around and then took a seat at the bar stool, my dress inching up my thigh so much the guy next to my started staring.
"Um yeah. What are you doing here?"

know everything about us

"You don't look happy." Caleb pointed out, walking up to me as I frowned at my beautiful cake.
"What?" I was shocked that anyone was there and broke into a smile when I saw him.
"What did that cake ever do to you?" He asked, shooting me a little smirk to let me know he was just teasing.
"Oh. No. The cake is perfect." I smiled. "But I made it so." I shrugged.
He laughed. "I would comment on your modesty, but I've had your cakes and they are always perfect."
I nodded. "Exactly."
He took a step closer to me and shot me a significant look. "So then why do you look upset?" He asked.
I shrugged. "Just home stuff." I shook my head and he visibly winced, so I laughed. "See you don't want to hear about it."
"No...I didn't." He sighed. "I don't want to be nosy is all." He admitted.
"You don't really seem like the nosy type Caleb." I laughed and then took a second to look over him. "You look so nice." I smiled.
"Do I usually not look nice?" He asked, looking down at his suit which was pretty similar to the ones he always wore.

everybody goin' out of they skins, see we get to the end but that's where we begin

I looked around my empty bakery. It was still too early to have clients, but it was weird that Caleb hadn't shown up yet, skipping what was now a routine. I glanced at the clock one last time, then made a coffee and decided that if Caleb didn't come to coffee, coffe would come to him.
I walked to his winery and made my way to her office, stopping a moment to study the expression on his face. He seemed...darker than usual. Worried. Annoyed. Still impossibly handsome, but still. "Bad day?" I asked.
Caleb looked up and kept quiet a moment, as if he was surprised I was there, then swallowed and shrugged. "Um. No. Maybe." He took a deep breath. "What are you doing here?"
"You didn't come in this morning. I figured you might need a pick me up." I said with a smile that was a little forced because he didn't look too friendly, reaching out to him with a bag and a to go latte cup.
"Thank you." He said seriously. Too seriously.

no title

I straitened my tie as I took a look around at the party. I hadn't really done anything but host it, but still I liked to make sure the reputation of the winery was still in tact no matter how much my hand was in it. We were raising money for Water Conservation, my date Tina was the head of the charity. I honestly wasn't sure if she was interested in me for me or because it was a good venue for her events but what else was new? Dating wasn't a fairytale it was all about what was best for you, and she was beautiful and smart. That was enough for me. Well it wasn't. But it was enough for what I needed.
"You look deep in thought." I recognized the sweet sound of Tara's voice before I even saw her which was crazy since usually I could feel her presence. I was lucky I didn't because in her long evening gown I wouldn't have been able to give the speech Tina had written for me. I just barely stifled the groan as I attempted to keep my eyes on her face, but that was just as beautiful as the rest of her so really it was pointless.

1507

I walked into Caleb's winery like I had done many times before and let out a deep breath. It was crowded by rich shallow people, who were there for "charity" and I wasn't in my element at all, mostly when my man was late and I couldn't even talk to me. When my eyes landed on Caleb though, a smile widened my lips and I headed over him without thinking twice, grabbing a glass of wine on my way. If there was someone who could save my night was him.

"You look deep in thought." I pointed out, noticing the way his brows were slightly furrowed and the serious expression he was sporting.

"I didn't know you'd be here." He said with a smile, relaxing as he looked into my face.

"I came for the views and the wine." I laughed, holding up my glass of chardonnay and using it to wave my hand across the view.