happy ending

I let out a long sigh as I realized I was awake, but kept my eyes shut while I wondered if Jake was still asleep. I felt his strong arm wrapped around me and his hard chest pressed against my back and our bedroom was quiet, so quiet it almost felt unreal.
As I slowly opened my eyes they landed on the framed picture on my nightstand and I found myself smiling at the picture of my kids, our kids, Jackson and Rosie. Never in my whole life I had imagined I would have had two kids by the age of 30, but here I was instead.
"Oh so you are awake." Jake whispered in a groggy voice as he lifted himself a little, just enough to kiss my shoulder and follow my eyes. "It's weird not having them around, is it?" He asked a moment later, reading my thoughts perfectly like he always did.

always and forever

I took one last deep breath as I squeezed Jakes hands that were resting on my stomach before we both stood up, said bye to the future parents around us and walked out the building. I had been obsessed with yoga for about two years now but since I had gotten pregnant I had decided to join a special class, forcing Jake to be with me. He, being the amazing man that he was, hadn't argued about it too much.
"That was a good one, wasn't it?" He asked, grabbing my hand as we walked down the street, a smirk on his face that said it all.
I narrowed my eyes on him, my free hand on my belly, "You're happy just because we only have two more lessons left." I said but smiled when he made a silly scrunchy face that I loved so much.
"I swear I learnt so much that now I could start a class myself." He smirked at me, looking amused by his own words.

I saw the surprise, the look in your eyes

"Violet?" I heard Jake's voice coming from the other room and a second later the door slammed shut. My baby was finally home.
"I'm in the bathroom!" I shouted, smiling to myself, happy to have him back since.
"Hey beautiful." He looked around at the candles lit and the bubbles up to the top of the tub with me lying against the bath pillow. Now, the way he was looking at me? Meh, so I pouted. "What's wrong?"
"I'm not beautiful I'm a whale!!!!" I protested, overreacting, but that got him quickly out of the rest of his clothes to slide in behind me. "Oh and yes you still look like an Armani model while NONE OF MY CLOTHES FIT ME ANYMORE!!!" I hid myself against his arm, just wanting some confort.
"Well then we should go buy you some new ones." He suggested, his offering to go shopping proved to me just how much he loved me.

don't ever question if my heart beats only for you, it beats only for you

don't ever question if my heart beats only for you, it beats only for you by sassy

I waited in front of CBC building, arms crossed against my chest and lips curved into a pout, fighting the urge to just go inside and grab Jake by the shirt and drag him outside. Unfortunately, I couldn't do that, I was trying to be wiser and that was a reason why I had decided to wait outside, knowing that if I saw him even talking to his coworker I'd go nuts. And pregnant women needed to stay calm instead...but god I couldn't even listen to his radio show without hating that chicken of co-host of his. I glanced at my watch once again before taking a deep breath, even closing my eyes and focusing on my state of mind. Inhale and exhale, inhale and exhale...

Untitled #1406

Untitled #1406 by sassy

Jake pulled up in front of his parents house and turned towards me. “You ready?”
I nodded as I pouted, looking down at my chest. “My boobs hurt.” I admitted, looking up at him as if he could do anything about that. He couldn't, mostly not now, but I was big on sharing my feelings and sensations, even the silly ones.
“Do you want me to massage them?” He tried not to grin and I broke into a laugh.
“Yeah I'm sure that’ll help.” I shook my head and got out of the car, forgetting that lately everytime I got up too quickly I got dizzy. Like now.
“VI!” He yelled as I swayed and bolted out to grab my waist and pull me into him. Thank god for him.

sunshine it's a friend of mine

sunshine it's a friend of mine by sassy

 Jake growled as he watched yet another lady go into the office, his brows furrowed together in a frown and he looked as if he was about to turn the place upside down. “Jake….” I looked at him with a worried look, since he seemed to be close to have a heart attack or something. “Are you okay?”
“She got here after us!!!” He said through his teeth. Oh good god. “What the hell are they waiting for?” He let out a breath and I didn’t do anything but stare at him, and then I started chuckling. “What?” He blinked at me.
“You’re being so cute Jakey.” I whispered, reaching over and pressing a kiss against his cheek.
“Also I don’t like the way that guy keeps staring at you.” He added, ignoring my kiss and sweet words because he was on edge. Thank god men couldn't get pregnant, they'd be a hell worse than women.

he's my sun, he makes me shine like diamonds

he's my sun, he makes me shine like diamonds by sassy

“Vi?” I heard Jake call out a second after the door slammed closed.
I turned in his direction and smiled, genuinely happy to finally have him back home. It had been a long day, work being the easiest part and therapy the hardest, but despite how tired I felt I also felt really positive and full of energy. “Hi.” I grinned walking up and kissing his lips. “How was work?”
He shrugged. “Not as good as being with you.” He said honestly, wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me in for another kiss.

this is a portrait of a tortured you and I

this is a portrait of a tortured you and I by sassy

“Hey baby.” Jake set his work bag on the counter and reached into the fridge for a waterbottle before joining me on the couch.
I watched him from the corner of my eye, admiring how handsome he looked in his works clothes, but then again, he always was. Still, that wasn't the reason why I was so in love with him, why I wanted to spend the rest of my life by his side, he was an amazing person and, no matter if he disagreed, he was just perfect. Things were still complicated between us, but I knew that I'd never let him go for any reason. “How was work?” I asked eventually.
He shrugged and pulled me into him so I was leaning against his shoulder. “Same as usual. Did you know American idol is thinking about hiring judges from past American idle seasons next year?”

will you still love me when I got nothing but my aching soul

will you still love me when I got nothing but my aching soul by sassy

I woke up from my dream slowly, my mind going back to a foggy consciousness while I rolled over onto my back and stretched my arm, expecting to find Jake's hard and warm body. Nothing instead. I had no idea of what time it was or where he could be, what I knew was that it was Sunday and he always slept in on Sundays. I could try to convince myself that it was just a coincidence, that it was nothing, but the more I thought about it the more I got sure that not having him with me right now had a lot to do with him denying my proposal a few days back. I decided not to think anymore as I forced myself to keep my eyes closed to ignore everything, but just when I was drifting back into my sleep a pair of soft lips kissed my forehead.
“Morning gorgeous.” Jake's warm voice woke me up again, spreading a nice feeling in my chest.
My eyes fluttered open and I sat up, looking at the tray of breakfast he was holding and smirking. Coffee, pancakes, flowers and Jake? That was something I didn't see delivered to my bed all together often. “Is it my birthday?” I asked groggily, running my hands over my eyes and pushing back my hair. I immediately felt relieved, he was with me and it was all that mattered. Also, he was being the perfect boyfriend he always was.
“Does it have to be a birthday for me to spoil you?”
I shrugged, thinking that maybe we were okay and I was just being overdramatic. “It does if you don’t want me to get used to it.” I grinned, running the pad of my finger over the flower petals softly. “Violet’s are pretty.”
He nodded. “Yes.” He agreed, keeping his eyes on me. “And get used to it all you want.”