Never let your fear decide your fate.

Never let your fear decide your fate. by pinklipstiiick featuring a suit trousers

(Flashback)

I shoved my hands into my pockets, leaning my back against the wall as the guy walked around his desk and sat down. "Please have a seat," He motioned across the table towards one of the seats in front of me. I complied and sat down, watching him shuffle through his papers while a sweat broke out on his forehead. My eyes left him in favor of looking out of his office window, white everywhere; while walls, white computers, girls in crisp white dresses that clung to their bodies. I felt like I'd died and gone to heaven, and for a computer nerd like myself, I guess Apple kind of was like heaven. "Ah, here we go. Peter, right?"

"Nolan," I corrected him, wondering how the hell this guy had managed to score a job here. 

He let out a sigh and set his forehead in his palm. "Looking for the Reese paperwork?" A voice said from behind me and when I turned, I was sure I'd died and gone to heaven. My eyes dropped down the girls body. Eh, girl wasn't the right word; she was a woman in every sense, curves in all the right places and fuck was she beautiful. She cleared her throat and my eyes left her breasts to return back up to her eyes, just in time to catch her glaring at me. 

"Yes," Jeff jumped up to grab the papers from her hand, making his best effort to rape her arm in the process. "Thank you Eva, I'd be lost without you." She made what sounded like a snorting noise, turning on her heels and shooting me another look before leaving. My eyes, Jeff's too - I was sure of it, fell to her ass as it swayed out of the office. God damn. "Don't even think about it with that one."

I turned my head back towards Jeff Jeffries, he must have been an unplanned baby to be named something so awful, and I lifted a brow, "Excuse me?"

"She's a bitch," He said bluntly, shuffling my paperwork in my direction; the usual W-2 form, a benefit packet, etc. It was official. "Married to the job type... I'm sure she wouldn't know fun if it bit her on the ass."

"Well I wouldn't mind being fun if I got to bite her on the ass," I joked with a smirk and he laughed, pretty sure we could both be fired for this sort of talk. But he was the HR rep, so who would he tell?

"You have to watch out when saying that sort of thing around here," He replied, still grinning. "But Eva aside, the rest of us are all pretty cool. A few of us guys even have a softball team, play every Thursday night." I drifted out of the conversation and looked back through his window, wondering if I made the right choice changing careers. Most people worked hard and didn't come even close to how much I had accomplished in the music industry... I needed a change. I needed to challenge myself. ".... Nolan Reese."

I blinked and looked at him again, "What was that?"

"I said welcome to Apple, Nolan Reese," He repeated with a grin.

(Present)

Leaning my back against the wall, I kicked the door closed with my foot and watched Eva type what sounded like a million words a minute. "Do you have a question or are you just here to watch me work?" She asked, breaking into a smirk and then biting her lip to conceal it. 

"Usually you like when I watch you," I retorted, trying not to get hard at the mere thought of her hand between her legs. The woman was a vixen though, she knew what she wanted and never settled for less. I admired that about her. And her body? I admired that too. 

She shook her head but her cheeks turned the slightest shade of pink, "So you're here to talk dirty? Couldn't you wait a few more hours when we're off?"

I chuckled and moved my hands to my pockets, "Actually, I'm dodging my office since its full of freshman who know jack shit about computers. I thought you might enjoy some company."

She stopped typing and leaned her back against her leather chair, staring at me with an unreadable expression on her pretty face. "You want to hide here, you're not really offering company," She grinned at me as she crossed her long legs, them catching my attention immediately since I'd much rather be between them then talking.

I moved my eyes back to her face, the right corner of my mouth lifting to give life to one of my lopsided smirks, "I would, but you wouldn't let me interrupt your work to have some fun."

She faked a frown as she looked up at me through thick lashes, "I must be really bad if I don't let anything distract me from what I'm doing."

I let out a sigh and ran a hand through my hair before I took a seat from across her desk, "If I didn't get to fuck you I think my ego would be pretty bruised right now."

"Thank god your pretty ego is all good instead," She said back and this time smiled, getting up to walk over to the door and lock it, "And just for the record, I'm not the only one married to her job."

I ignored her words completely and glanced at the door before gluing my eyes on her again, a grin already playing on my lips, "Why did you lock the door?"

"I don't want freshmen here," She said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world, raising one brow at me.

"You're really no fun," I pointed out, teasing her. Maybe she wasn't fun at work, but once you got her out of those stuffy clothes? It was a whole other story.

She walked to the window and opened it instead, reaching for the box of cigarettes in the pocket of her blazer. "Why are you looking at me as if I'm growing two heads?" She asked when she noticed my expression.

"You know that smoking is not allowed in here."

She grinned as she glanced up at the smoke detector, "Mine doesn't work...ops?" She shrugged as she set one cigarette between her lush lips before offering me one, "Come on, break the rules and be fun."

"Are you really lecturing me on being fun?" I grinned and stood up, walking behind her and grabbing her hips instead of the cigarette. Pushing her tight body hard up against mine, I used a hand to push her hair off to one side then pressed my lips against her skin softly. "And don't get me started on breaking rules. I'm pretty sure you wrote the book of all the rules."

She tilted her head in my direction and blew a perfect O shape of smoke in my face, a smile on her lips as I cut the kiss short and pulled my head back. "You know how I feel about having sex at work," She winked at me, always the tease. 

"Then why'd you lock the door?" I asked again and this time, she rolled her eyes.

"I told you already. Don't you ever listen to me?" She turned her body to face mine, leaning her ass against the windows ledge.

I grinned and shook my head, "Give me one."

"Say please," She shook the box a little, as if trying to tempt me.

"You know that words not in my vocabulary," I retorted and snatched the box from her hand, letting one fall onto my palm and bringing it up to my mouth. She tossed me the lighter and I said a quiet thanks, having learned some manners from my mom... back before my step dad required her attention 24/7.

"I didn't hear you," She set her leg between my legs and tossed me a coy look.

"I said thank you," I repeated, blowing some smoke out the window. 

She clutched her lips around the cigarette, inhaling deeply as she stared at me with an unreadable expression on her gorgeous face, "So you actually have manners. I'm shocked," She grinned, words coming out of her mouth mixed with smoke.

"I do, just not in bed," I retorted as my grin matched hers, my hand grabbing her thigh from its back and keeping it in place so that she could feel my dick.

"Don't trick me into talking dirty now, you're not getting any now," She raised one eyebrow at me, her words serious but she took a few seconds more to rub her knee against my forming erection before setting her foot back on the floor. 

I groaned quietly, blowing smoke out of my nostrils before speaking again, "You can be pretty boring you know that?"

"Is that why you came hiding here? Because I'm boring?" She retorted, not offended even a little because she knew that she wasn't boring. Maybe not exactly fun, but not boring either. 

I shrugged and leaned against the window ledge as I pulled away from him, looking outside at the view which really wasn't much of one. "Your office was the closest," I said as my lips curved into a small grin.

"Lies." 

"Your door is next to mine," I shook my head as I turned it back in Eva's direction to make eye contact. "You know that."

"I was trying to find another explanation but now you just hurt my feelings," She faked a pout before taking the last drag of cigarette and tossing it out the window, blowing the smoke out the corner of her mouth and straight into my face.

I wrinkled my nose and tried not to cough, hating the smell of smoke so much that I was tempted to kick the habit  based on it alone. "That is disgusting," I said flatly and she stared at me with those big doe eyes and her pout still in place. That look killed me. I swear, it did things to my dick. "And stop giving me that face."

"What face?" She widened her eyes even more and stepped between my legs, setting her hands on my thighs.

I grinned and shook my head, taking another drag of the cigarette but unlike her, having manners and blowing it sideways and out the window. With my free hand, I cupped her ass and pulled her closer. "You're giving me the same look you make when you're begging for more," I answered back and flicked the cigarette butt out the window. 

Her mouth fell open before curving into a smirk, "I never beg for anything."

"Are you sure about that?" I raised a brow and dropped my eyes down her body, thinking how if the freshman boys out there got one look at her, they'd never want to leave. Honestly, I wouldn't blame them. 

"Only when you play hard to get," She joked and I laughed, shaking my head again.

"That would have been you."

"Me?" She raised one eyebrow at me, inching her hands up my thighs and closer to my crotch to tease me deliberately. She was one hell of a tease. "Please, I always give you what you want."

"Really? I doubt you're going to give what I want now," I retorted as my eyes glanced down to where her hands were, my free one cupping her other cheek before squeezing her ass.

"It depends on what you want," She said with a shrug as she played innocent. Truth was, both of us knew that sex in her office was off limits... such a shame too since I was a man with needs. But I liked challenging her and she liked teasing me anyway.

I turned Eva in my arms, my hands going to her hips to press her ass against my growing erection. "You're a smart girl, I'm sure you can guess," I said into her ear, my lips brushing against her skin just so slightly.

"Are you being shy now? Do you talk dirty only when you're naked?" She asked with a smirk after turning her head to look at me from over her shoulder, setting her hands on mine and taking them off her hips before she pulled away from me.

I groaned from behind me, wanting nothing more than to bend her over her desk and fuck her hard. "What will you do tonight?" I asked instead.

"You hopefully," She said as she walked over to her desk, opening a drawer to grab a handful of wrapped candies. "Want one?" 

"I'm more interested in you sitting on your desk while I eat whats in between your legs," I replied honestly, following her over to the desk and flopping down on the chair across from her. It was more comfortable than the chairs I had in my office and I wasn't even the slightest surprised. 

"I know," She replied with a smirk, pushing her breasts together after sitting down and leaning against the desk a little, enough for me to still see her cleavage. 

"But since that's not an option, what are you eating?" I asked and watched her plop a candy into her mouth. 

"Butterscotch," She answered and used her index finger and thumb to flick one in my direction. 

I caught the candy and peeled it from its wrapper, tossing it into my mouth and sucking. Nodding my head, I smirked at her, "Sweet, but you're much sweeter.... as long as you don't open your mouth."

"Lies," She bit into her bottom lip, looking sexy and vulnerable, even if only one of those words applied to her. "You love when I'm loud."

"Unfortunately only inside voices are allowed in your office," I sighed.

"Are you getting frustrated here?" Sge asked as she leaned her elbow against the desk and set her chin in her palm, staring at me.

"I always am with you," I retorted, my lips curved into a teasing smirk.

"Lies again," She made a show of rolling her eyes and sighing before leaning back against her chair, "Would you rather talk about something else?"

I raised an eyebrow, "Like what?" 

She shrugged but let a smirk play on her lips, "Work? Any complaints? Sexual harassment to report?"

"What happened to Jeff? Wasn't he the one taking care of that part of HR?" I asked with a hint of amusement in my voice because if anything, I was the one who could get fired over sexual harassment. 

"I got him fired and stole his place," She said nonchalantly, never being one who bragged about her success or how I got it, but Jeff was kind of a douche. 

I let out a small laugh as I shook my head, "Damn." I paused and shot her an amused look, "Should I be scared of you? Are you like the praying mantis?"

"If I were I would have bitten your head off," She answered as she grinned at me, "And you're too handsome for me to fire you and find a replacement. You'd be hard to top."

"You top me just fine," I said back, my smirk widening as I kept my eyes on hers, trying not to think about how good she looked riding my dick.

"Understatement of the year," She answered seriously.

"Cocky now, are we?" I retorted with a grin.

She nodded her head slowly then gave her shoulders a slight shrug, "I blame you. I take my clothes off and you start showering me with compliments..."

I laughed and shook my head, "You wish."

"I wish?" She widened her eyes while still grinning, "Did you not tell me that I had the nicest body you've ever seen?"

"I believe I said that you have the nicest ass I've ever seen," I corrected her... although in all honesty, she had the nicest body I'd ever seen also. But you couldn't tell girls that kind of thing without them getting huge egos over it. Those kind of compliments always came back to bite you on the ass.

She faked a pout and looked back at me with those dark eyes, "Wait, what's wrong with my body?"

My eyes dropped down to her chest again before flicking back up to her eyes, "Nothing... absolutely nothing."

"I guessed so," She said flatly and looked back at her computer screen, clicking away on the keys with a semi annoyed look on her face. 

"This is when you compliment me back," I cut into her thoughts since she obviously wasn't planning on saying anything more, looking at her with a dead serious expression on my face

She tried not to grin, biting down on her lip instead, "No." 

"You're so ungrateful."

"You get as many compliments as I do," She finally let a smirk play on her mouth as she gave her attention back to me, letting me know that she was just messing with me.

"I don't know what you're talking about," I said back stubbornly, curious what she meant.

She tossed her head back and closed her eyes, "Yes Nolan, yes! You're so big...oh god!" She moaned softly then opened her eyes, taking in my body and looking like she was eyefucking me, "Your body is so perfect! More!" She broke into a grin and raised one eyebrow at me, "Does that sound familiar?"

I blinked while staring at her before breaking into a laugh and shaking my head, "You're a little too good at faking it. Do I have anything to be worried about?"

She grinned and bit down on her lip again, flicking her eyes back over to the computer screen, "Mmm..."

"Mumbling isn't an answer," I said flatly, still playing around with her since I knew enough that when I made her cum, it was for real. Her screams still echoed in my ears sometimes, she was that loud. And how hard she'd cum against my dick? Definitely not fake.

"I've faked it before..." She trailed off and clasped her hands in front of her on the desk, pushing her breasts up and together again. I wanted to bite her. "But never with you."

"That's always good to hear," I cracked a grin. "Can I have another one of those candies? I'm craving something sweet right now."

She rolled her eyes but dug back into the bag to toss me over two candies. "Did you skip lunch?" She asked and started typing again, making me curious what she was working on. I didn't know much about what she did, but how hard could HR be? It just sounded like a bunch of paperwork to me. 

"I didn't," I replied and kept my eyes on her. "What are you doing after work?"

"I thought we established that already..." She trailed off with an eyebrow raised, still typing quickly. The woman could multitask, I had to give her that.

"You were a little too vague for my liking," I retorted.  

"I said you, isn't that enough?" She raised one brow as she stopped typing and gave me back her attention.

I set my forearms against the desk and leaned into her from across the table, my eyes staring into hers, "No. I never know what kind of kinky you're up to until it happens."

She grinned wide, her gaze dropping onto my lips a moment, "You like any kind, so what's the problem?"

I noticed where her eyes were and shot her a cocky grin, "No problem, but it'd be nice to know at least where you'll unleash your inner freak."

She laughed and blushed a little, "Oh come on I'm not like that!" 

"I don't know about that," I grinned wider, cupping her chin and brushing my thumb against her lips, "My place?"

"You're not taking me to dinner?" She faked a frown and bit the tip of my finger, only messing with me since we didn't do that usually. Not that I'd have any problem with sharing a meal with her, but it'd only make things more complicated and none of us wanted complicated.

"No, I like you hungry," I said with a straight face.

She crossed her legs under the desk, her hand reaching for my wrist as she pulled her head back, "How come you make everything sound sexual?"

I shrugged, my grin back in place since that was exactly what I intended on, "I'm talented." 

"In more way than one," She said back.

"Ha!" I grinned wider, "You just did too."

She leaned back against her chair as she looked at me intently, looking lost in her thoughts. "I still think it's your mind which is always dirty instead. I'm an angel," She said eventually, faking an innocent face that didn't fit her at all.

I laughed at her words and shook my head, imagining her on her knees and wearing something white, complete with a halo. While the innocent act wasn't her at all, the whole angel thing could actually be pretty sexy. "You should dress up like an angel for me tonight," I said seriously, my grin still not having let my face. 

"And what do angels wear?" She asked and bit into her lip, leaning back into the table so our faces weren't more than a couple inches apart.  

"White lingerie... one of those little halos," I shrugged nonchalantly, trying not to get hard while picturing her dressed like that. God, she was so sexy though, it seemed inevitable. 

She rolled her eyes but kept grinning at me, "I don't think I've ever seen an angel in lingerie..."

"There's a first for everything."

Her eyes flicked down to her breasts for a second and then met mine again, "I'm wearing white lingerie right now."

"Show me," I retorted, knowing she wouldn't. That whole rule about no sex at work? It really fucking sucked. 

She shook her head slowly, "No."

"Tease," I said flatly.  

"Always so impatient," She sighed and got up, walking around the table and stopping in front of me. What I'd do for a lapdance right about now.

I raised one eyebrow, more like stared at her breasts since they were at my eye level. "Did you change your mind?" I asked hopefully, knowing the answer already.

She shook her head again but bit down on her lip, shooting me another one of those innocent looks that killed me a little every time. "No but I feel like I have to prove you I'm not lying."

I let out a low breath, it coming out of my throat as her eyes went a full shade darker. "Tell me how," I ordered, my tone firm like it was whenever I told her what to do.

"I'd rather show you," She said seriously and slid her hands under her dress, being careful with not showing anything as she pulled her thong down her long legs. She kept her eyes on mine, being one hell of a tease as she stepped out the white piece of lace and stuffed it into the pocket of my jacket. "I want it back tonight," She whispered into my ear.

"God Eva," I groaned, reaching for her hips and pulling her body closer to mine.

She grabbed my wrists to force me to pull back again, a wide smirk on her lips, "Tonight Nolan."

I shook my head and sighed, tempted to check the panties in my pocket to feel if they were damp. "You kill me," I replied and kept my eyes locked on hers before they dropped down to her breasts again, my mind already wondering what the bra she had on looked like. 

She ran her tongue across her lips before parting them, a small knock on her office door interrupting us. Giving me her back, she moved towards the door while my eyes caressed her ass. "What can I do for you?" She asked after opening the door, I wasn't even slightly interested in seeing who it was. 

"Would you be willing to talk to a few freshman?" One of the new HR girls asked, I couldn't ever remember her name but she smiled a little too wide and blushed every time she saw me. It was cute. 

"Maybe you could. They're closer to your age, aren't they?" Eva retorted, making a small jab at the girl who looked young enough to still be in high school.

My eyes met with the blondes and she turned red in the face, looking back at the exotic beauty in front of her once more. "Jeff was supposed to give some sort of speech..." She trailed off and looked nervous. Honestly, I'd be a little intimidated if I was her also. "But he's gone now and I'm too new, I'm not sure what I'd say."

"You'll think of something and you'll be great," She replied before closing the door on her, turning on her heels to face me once more, hands on her hips and showing off her perfectly manicured nails. 

"Ouch," I smirked at her. 

"What?" She asked with a brow raised. "I gave her a pep talk and told her that she'd be great." 

"Not quite."

"The only way to learn is to get out there and do something yourself," She said back, close enough for me to grab behind her knees and guide her back between my legs. 

"You should teach me something right now," I grinned at her as my hands inched up the backs of her thighs until they were cupping her ass. 

She raised one eyebrow at me and spoke slowly, "I have nothing to teach you." 

My grin got wider as my hands squeezed her perfect ass, "Nothing at all?"

She shook her head and reached for my hands, forcing me to pull away. "You already know everything," Eva answered and sighed.

"What's that sigh for?" I asked flatly, curiously. 

"You're frustrating me," She said honestly since it was no mystery how attracted she was to me and how little her resistance was whenever I was around. She had the same damn effect on me. 

I nodded, knowing exactly what she meant. "Your fault, not mine." I shrugged, "If only you stopped turning me down."

She glared at me, "You already distracted me enough."

"If you had gotten on your knees from the moment I walked in we would have been done already by now," I pointed out, running my hands through my hair and thinking about just that. Eva on her knees. Ugh. 

At that she smirked, crossing her arms against her chest, "Always so selfish Nolan."

"You would've touched yourself in the meantime, that's what I call a win win," I smirked back at her and got up, walking closer to her once again even if trying to force her into fucking at work was a lost cause and I knew it.

"I'm glad you're so full of ideas, I hope you won't forget them once we'll be able to rip our clothes off each other," She whispered and set her hands on my chest, moving them down my stomach until they stopped on my belt.

"What time are you off?" I asked, grasping her hips and pulling her against me to make her feel how hard I was already. 

"Five thirty," She answered and stared at me, biting down on her lip when she slid her hands under my shirt and brushed her fingers back and forth against the skin just below my abs.

I groaned quietly, practically already feeling the blue balls I'd surely get from her teasing, "I'm off at 6."

She licked her top lip, teasing me deliberately as she moved her hands back to my chest, "I can give you a ride home if you give me a ride back."

"A ride back to work in the morning?" I lifted a brow and grinned, "Or was that another sexual innuendo?"

"If you have to ask, then I'm definitely not going to answer," She shot me another mischievous grin that did things to my dick. I let out a sigh but kept my eyes on her, knowing they had to be a full shade darker than usual since she had that effect on me. "And don't give me that look," She added with her lush lips pursed together. Saying that her lips were perfect would be an understatement. Probably every man in the company had a fantasy including them wrapped around their dick at one point or another - I was lucky enough to make that fantasy reality. 

I shrugged my shoulders nonchalantly, "What look?"

"Like you're thinking about different ways to devour me."

I let out a laugh at her words, shrugging my shoulders once more, "Well now that you've put that thought into my head..."

"Don't play innocent Reese," She crossed her arms over her chest and pushed her breasts together. "It doesn't suit you."

A grin played on my lips as I glanced at hers once more, "Innocent? No one here is playing innocent."

"Then what's on your mind instead?" Eva lifted an eyebrow, her lips still slightly parted and damn, I'd give anything to know what was on her mind. Because mine? Well, I couldn't stop thinking about bending her over her desk as cliche as it sounded. 

"I'm thinking that I should probably get back to work," I replied, saying the opposite of what was on my mind.  

"Lies," She said back, looking unimpressed. 

I shot her an amused look, my brow raising slowly, "Are you trying to persuade me to be a slacker instead?"

She rolled her eyes, never one to admit how she liked what a smartass I was. It was all part of my charm really. "I was hoping you'd give me something to think about..." She trailed off in a whisper, letting me know where her mind was. 

"And distract you from work?" I smirked at her, "No."

At that she groaned in frustration, "Right, I should probably get back to work too."

I got up, my body just a few inches for her with her sweet perfume filling my nostrils. God damn, she smelt good. Tasted even better. "I'll see you later," I said as I flashed her a grin. 

Eva couldn't resist and grabbed my tie, pulling me against her to kiss my lips hard before pushing me away and smirking, "Get lost Reese."