i need your love

i need your love by ssaarah

I growled as I watched yet another lady go into the office. What the fuc.k?
 
“Jake….” Vi looked at me with a worried look. “Are you okay?”
 
“She got here after us!!!” I said through my teeth. “What the hell are they waiting for?” I let out a breath and Vi didn’t do anything but stare at me, and then she started chuckling. “What?” I blinked at her.
 
“You’re being so cute Jakey.” She whispered, reaching over and pressing a kiss against my cheek.
 
“Also I don’t like the way that guy keeps staring at you.” I added, ignoring her kiss and sweet words because I was on edge. I wanted to know for sure about our future, and I wanted to make positive everything was okay with Violet before I’d feel normal again. If I ever would.

“That’s because I'm not wearing panties and he looked up my skirt.” Vi said casually as she opened a magazine and flipped through it. My head snapped to her.

“What?!” she let her eyes flick to mine and gave me a fake innocent face that made me relax, knowing she was definitely joking.

“What?” she asked, batting her lashes as I smirked and shook my head.

“You’re such a tease cutie.” I reached for her hand and pressed a kiss against her palm, still feeling impatient, but knowing if she was relaxed? I should be too. Or at least I should fake it. Vi let out a sigh as she leaned her head against my shoulder, and squeezed my hand.

“I was trying to distract you love." she said quietly even as I could see she was just as nervous. Damn I didn’t want to make this harder on her.

"You did." I said back softly and pressed a kiss on the top of er head, "But fuck, I feel like we've been here since forever." I muttered on a second thought.

"Be patient Jakey." Vi said softly, looking up at me through her thick lashes and looking so beautiful.

"I barely know what that word means." I admitted with a serious face that got Vi laughing. "What?!"
she lifted her head from my shoulder and reached up to poke me on the nose.

"Stop with that." She grinned. "And you'll learn to be patient when we'll have our baby." Just at the word baby I felt my annoyance dissipate.

"I hope so." I said in a soft voice before frowning, "What if I'm not?" Vi rolled her eyes as a woman came out into the room.

"Miss James." she said in a quiet tone, motioning to us to go inside. I jumped up as she spoke.

"Finally." I muttered under my breath though I knew Vi heard because she snuck up behind me.

"Behave bear." she warned and walked past me into the doctors room.

“It looks like you’re here for a pregnancy test.” The doctor smiled politely. Vi nodded.

“I took three home pregnancy tests and they were all positive, it’s really more to see if everything’s okay.” Her doctor grinned.

“Of course. Let’s get a urine sample and  some blood work then it will just be a few minutes.”

“So an hour.” I said under my breath and Vi shot me a glare that would be frightening if I knew she wasn’t harmless.  The doctor laughed though.

“I know you must be impatient, but I assure you I’ll be doing my best to be quick.” I nodded and gave her a fake smile as she left. Vi stood up.

“I swear Jake if you’re like this the whole time? I'm not letting you be the dad!” I burst out laughing and pulled her into my body.

“You’re so sexy when you’re angry at me.” I replied, seeing my girl be herself cheering me up instantly.

“Oh stop it! I have to go pee in a cup.” I pulled back.

“And you ruined it.” I replied in a monotone even though I was still grinning at her. She rolled her eyes but I could see a hint of a smile on her pretty face as well. She left the room for a few mintues and then came back and sat next to me, her legs bouncing. “You should be more patient love you’re having a baby.” She glared at me before a nurse came to take her blood.

"Hilarious." She said flatly, keeping a straight face even though  I could see her biting back a grin. The nurse held her arm and she turned to look at me as I held my breath, not liking seeing my baby in pain ever.

"It won't hurt." The nurse said quietly, not really helping until I realized it was done and Vi had barely blinked. I relaxed and squeezed her hand softly,

"Are you okay?" I asked. She shot me a grin, probably knowing I wasn’t a big fan of doctors in general and nodded.

"I'm great. How long will it take to have the result?” Vi asked the nurse softly.

"A few days for the blood test while you'll get the urine one in a few minutes." She answered politely as she put a band-aid on her arm, "You should eat something now, you look a little pale."

 "A few days?! How are we supposed to wait a few days?!" I spat out without thinking.

"You don't have any other choice." the nurse shrugged nonchalantly, as if she was used to men with no patience. Then again she probably was.

"You know that it takes 9 month to have a baby right? Because if you're already so annoyingly impatient for a few days I don't know how you can wait that long." she said with her eyes narrowed on me.

“It doesn’t seem long enough to get ready.” I said suddenly thinking of everything we had to do.

“It seems like the perfect amount instead.” She replied, opening her mouth to say something else but the doctor came in at that second and Vi squeezed my hand.

“Well congratulations, it looks like you’re about 5 weeks along.” She said grinning at us. I felt relief mixed with panic rush through me and when I looked at Vi she looked the same way. It was one thing to get used to the idea, a whole other to have a doctor tell you exactly.

“So then only 8 more months….” I trailed off, the time seeming shorter and shorter.

“Just about! I'm going to prescribe you some prenatal vitamins, and give you some information on different birthing methods. I'm also going to refer you to an OB-GYN for the rest of your pregnancy, she’ll schedule the first ultrasound.” This was happening fast. Really fast. And yet, as much as I felt nervous about being ready in time? I was so happy. I felt overwhelmingly happy.

“Do you know when we can find out the sex?” Violet asked, in a voice of her forced calm.

“Probably in about three months.” She nodded and I groaned but didn’t say anything because Vi was usually harmless, but a hormonal Vi? Was completely unpredictable. Not that I minded.  She nodded, her leg bouncing, giving away her excitement.

“Okay."

"If you need more vitamins or you don't feel good don't hesitate to call me and we'll schedule another appointment." she paused then lit up, "Oh! And of course you'll get a call when the blood test results will be ready." We said bye and finally got out of the office and I set my hand on the small of her back, leading her out.

"Are you okay baby?" I asked quietly.

"You've been awful." she snapped, narrowed her eyes at me.

"What?" I asked, blinking at her.

“You kept groaning and rolling your eyes like everything and everyone annoyed you." she pointed out. I looked down at her, reaching for her hand as we walked side by side.

"You're just looking for a reason to fight." I said slowly, knowing the look in her eyes, even if I had been a little annoying admittedly.

"Maybe….But that doesn't change the fact that you did really keep groaning like a rude bear."

“I know.” I nodded, pulling her closer to kiss her head. “I need to work on that.”

“You do!” she narrowed her eyes at me and I winced.

“I'm sorry love. I told you I'm not perfect.” She blinked at me and then rolled her eyes.

“No you still are instead, that dumb nurse kept looking at you.” I felt my mouth start to form a smile that I tried to hold down.

“Are you mad because I was rude or because a nurse was looking at me?” I asked, knowing my Violet.

“Does every girl have to look at you?!” she pouted and I looked down at her, she was glowing, literally, that thing they said about pregnant woman wasn’t bullshi.t. She had on barely any makeup and just a tee shirt with leggings but even with her pouty lips she was the most beautiful woman in my world. So I kissed her. I cupped her face and kissed her hard right in the middle of the street, pouring my love into the kiss, sliding my tongue into her mouth and sliding against hers until neither of us could even breathe anymore. I pulled back and she blinked. “What was that for?”

“Nothing I just couldn’t stop staring at you.” I shrugged, enunciating the last word and making my point without saying anything else.

“Oh Jakey…..” she leaned against my shoulder and tangled her hand in mine. “I feel weird.” I stopped and panicked for a second.

“Weird how? Are you nauseous? Dizzy? Do you feel sick? Do you think it’s the baby?” I could see her trying not to smile but for some reason she was losing.

“Stop, you’re freaking out. I'm hungry I think.”

“Okay what sounds good?” She licked her lips.

“Jake.” She gave me a slow grin and I widened my eyes at her.

“I'm not sure I'm very filling…..” I trailed off making her just grin wider.

“I have to disagree with that.” She tilted her head to the side and it was my turn to try to keep from smiling.

“Oh? I thought you were mad at me instead.”

"Mad at you? Why?" she asked.

"The nurse." I grinned. "Are you having memory issues?"

"No." she replied reaching over to pinch my ass as she rolled her pretty eyes.

"Ouch." I grinned wider, squeezing her against my side, "I'm not sure if you were serious when you said you were hungry though."

 "I am. I can't wait for you to cook me something yummy." She said rubbing her tummy softly.

"Uh? I thought you wanted me." I raised one eyebrow at her as we stopped in front of our building and I slid the keys out of my pocket. Vi bit on her lip, giving me a sexy look that almost had me jumping her right there, wondering what was going on in the mind of my sexy girlfriend.

"Later jakey bear." she said suggestively and I watched her body as she walked into the elevator. I caged her inside of it, setting my hands on each side of her body as I leaned in to her.

"What makes you think that I'm going to cook for you?"

 "Because you're going to be a dad and dads cook." she said in a teasing tone but then her eyes got wide.

“My dad never cooked.” I countered, grinning even though I felt her tense.

“Jake.” She whispered, her eyes looking slightly terrified. “We’re going to have a baby.”  I grinned and cupped her face to kiss her.

“I know, I remember the doctor’s visit we just got back from.” I replied, smirking even though I felt pretty scared myself. Babies were really tiny. What if I lost ours?!

“A life Jake. That’ we’re responsible for. I’ve never been responsible for anything I'm going to fu.ck it all up and bean will hate me.” She was panicking, and I could tell so I led her out of the elevator, guiding her to the couch. I sat on the coffee table in front of her and squeezed her hands.

“I know it’s a little overwhelming. Trust me it is for me too. But we’re going to do the best that we can, and we’re going to love that little bean more than anyone!”

“I already do!” she exclaimed, her hand flying to her still flat stomach. “Is that normal?” she blinked and I gave her a sweet smile.

“I don’t know if it’s normal, but I feel the same way.”

“Yeah?” she smiled and I nodded.

“I want to pretty much keep you in bed and pamper you and make sure everything is okay 24/7” I admitted, keeping a hold on that was getting more and more difficult I had no idea how I’d survive when she started showing.

“Don’t you dare Jakey.” She narrowed her eyes. “I'm pregnant not crippled.” I sighed.

“I know it, but I just want everything to be okay and I don’t want you to be in any pain.” I winced.

“Yeah, I hear pushing out babies is real painless.” She said, her face going a little white as she did.

“I’ll be with you the whole time, you can keep kicking me if you want.” I teased, though I was only half joking. “Now what do you want for dinner?” she pursed her lips together and winced a little.

"Nothing." she said shaking her head, I leaned into her and reached for her hands, squeezing them lightly.

"But you wanted to eat." I reasoned out loud.

"Don't feel like eating anymore." She replied, letting her back fall against the couch. I felt nervous. I could handle mood swings, and drama but I didn’t know what I’d do if she got sick, I’d feel so bad.

"Are you okay Vi?" I asked, nervousness creeping through my veins.

"God yes! It's just that I'm not hungry anymore." she snapped back before her hand flew to her mouth and she gave me a guilty face. "I'm sorry baby." I let out my breath and got up, needing to be closer to her, sitting down next to her on the couch and pulling her into my body.

"It's fine..." I trailed off.

"I'm going to get worse Jake...you know me, I know me, it's going to happen." She said quietly, relaxing against me. "I'll have a lot to be sorry for." I laughed, her being moody was the last of my worries. As long as she and my baby were healthy? I was happy.

“I'm sure you'll find a way to make up for anything you might do." I smirked as I looked down at her and kissed her nose.

"Plus, as you said, I know you and I know how to handle my crazy girlfriend."

I'll try to be good." She paused as she looked in a deep thought. "Maybe I'll start doing yoga, it might help me relax." She added and I let out a laugh before she started poking me. "Hey, I'm serious!"

“Baby I can’t wait for you to get crazier and bigger and everything because it means my baby will be coming sooner.” I said seriously, aching to tell her I’d changed my mind and wanted to marry her, but still wanting it to be about us, not the baby, even though it made even more sense under the circumstances.

“Oh my god how do you handle being so damn perfect all the time!?!” she asked, holding her hands in the air and huffing off.

“Is it annoying you?” I smirked, my eyes going to her ass as she walked away.

                               

‘Yes.” She said, looking back at me. “And stop looking at my ass.” I felt myself start to grin as I walked towards her.

“I will never stop looking at your ass.” I said seriously against her neck before placing a quick kiss against it.

“Jakey….” She whispered. “I'm so scared. Scared and nervous and happy at the same time and it’s overwhelming.” She leaned back and I wrapped my arms around her tiny frame.

“I know the feeling. But it’s mostly happy right?” she nodded.

‘I think I'm tied between happy and terrified honestly….you’re not because you don’t have to be pregnant.” She pouted.

“It’s true, but I’ll be with you every step baby. I’ll do whatever you want whenever. I’ll even eat the same as you. And no booze for me.” I winked.

"Please." She gave me a look and I blinked back at her.

"What? Don't you believe me?" she shrugged and grinned at me, cuddling closer.

"I do, but we both know how much you like drinking a beer while watching your silly sports on tv."

"You have a point." I admitted and sighed before pressing a kiss on her forehead, making her wrinkle her nose like a super cutie and make me wonder how our baby would look.

"I know my bear so well." She relaxed in my hold, sneaking her arm around my waist and god I loved how she felt in my arms.

"You don't need to eat what I eat or stop drinking."

"I feel like a but is coming."

"But I like the part where you'll do whatever you want whenever." she said with a grin spreading while she threw her legs over mine.  

"For some reason I'm not surprised at all." She laughed and beamed back at me.

"Because you know how much I love when you spoil me." she grinned and reached for my hand, tangling our fingers together as she set both of our hands on her belly. "And you'll spoil little bean too."

I reached down and kissed her stomach.
 
“I will. Too much probably.” I blinked as I pulled back and tilted my head as I looked at her.
 
“What?” she asked, looking down as I let myself grin slowly.
 
“Your boobs are bigger.” I reached out and held them in my hands. Yep. Definitely bigger.
 
“Jakey!!” she batted my hands away and looked down her shirt.
 
“They feel bigger too.” She made a face and I grinned wider.
 
“Get naked so I can see better.” I offered, reaching over to press a kiss against her neck but she batted me away again.
 
“No! I'm hungry instead!” I blinked at her.
 
“You JUST said you weren’t hungry anymore!” I protested reaching for her waist and pulling her back into me.
 
“I change my mind about changing my mind about being hungry.” She said simply and it was so cute I couldn’t help but laugh.
 
“Okay baby.” I grinned. “I’ll eat you instead how about?”

 "No."

"No?" she shrugged and kept a straight face.

"No, you heard it right." I pouted at her and she smiled. "Oh baby." She sighed, wrapping her arms around me.

"I almost believed you. Almost." She laughed and then rained kisses all over me, spoiling me even though I didn’t even deserve it.

"I'm just a silly girl."

"My silly girl." I clarified before flashing her a smirk, "Can I eat you know?" she laughed and ran a hand through my hair.

"No baby, I was serious about that."

"Bummer." I sighed having got myself excited before to be between her legs, "I know you'll change your mind later."

 "I will, I always do." She agreed.

"Because I'm your irresistible boyfriend." Violet laughed and nodded.

"Get up irresistible boyfriend, feed your babies."

"My babies." I echoed her, my heart filling with so much love it might explode at any second, "I love you." She kissed me again.

"We love you too."