there's never a wish better than this

there's never a wish better than this by ssaarah 

“Vi?” I called out as I took off my shoes and hung up my keys. I wasn’t sure if she was back from therapy or not but I heard her shuffling into the room and smiling at me.



“Hi.” She grinned walking up and kissing my lips. “How was work?” I shrugged.



“Not as good as being with you.” I said honestly, wrapping my arms around her waist and pulling her in for another kiss.



“Duh.” She wrinkled her nose and I chuckled at the cute look before she pulled away.



“I was just making dinner.” I blinked.



“You mean you were ordering it?” I asked skeptically. She shook her head.



“No I made pasta.” I looked over at the stove where there was indeed pasta boiling and a creamy sauce in a pan next to it. “I learned on tv.” She grinned, looking super proud of herself. I was still a little weary but it did smell good.



“I'm impressed.” I admitted, walking to the bathroom to take a shower before I ate since it was like 1 million degrees outside. I showered quickly, a little worried of the fire that could happen with Vi at the oven but when I reached into the cabinet to pull out my after shave my eyes stopped on a box. A pregnancy test. I reached for it, noticing none were taken but I knew they weren’t there yesterday. I wrapped a towel around my waist as I walked out into the kitchen.



“Mmm, maybe I’ll skip dinner and eat you.” Vi said, giving me a wicked grin that I ignored as I showed her the box.



“What’s this?” she blinked at it and then just shrugged.



“I'm a little late it happens all the time, but when you’re on the pill my doctor says to have some tests on hand just in case since the hormones and everything can mess up your period.” she said it offhandedly so she obviously wasn’t all that worried about it. But if she bought them she must be more than a little late. I swallowed.



“How late?” I asked never having been in this situation before.



"Two weeks, three top." she answered quietly and walked closer to me, setting her hands on my chest, "Dinner's ready now, forget it." I wrapped my fingers around her wrists to push her away gently, shaking my head because I felt a little betrayed.



"You didn't tell me anything."



"Because there's nothing to tell and I wasn't keeping it from you, or I'd hide the box somewhere." She explained though now I knew she was annoyed, I could tell in her fake tone and her forced smile. But she could be mad all she wanted this wasn’t something we could just forget about.



"When did you get it?" I asked.



"Yesterday." she answered and her face turned from fake calm to real serious. "Jake it can happen, mostly if a girl goes through a hard time and you know it hasn't been easy for me lately. I was really stressed and...you know."



"I know." I nodded slowly knowing it could be a finicky thing with girls…."But that doesn't make me feel better anyway." Vi sighed and ran her hand through her hair,



"I'll take the test and you'll see that there's nothing to be worried about, okay?" I nodded again, that was all I wanted.



"Okay." She smiled and kissed me swiftly.



"Get dressed so that we can eat." she said softly. Wait she still wanted to eat?!



"Now." I said instead, not moving an inch. When she furrowed her brows I went on. "Take the test now."



"Jake it took me hours to cook, can we eat please? Please." She was begging me and I felt bad but not bad enough to stand down. It would take not more than a few minutes anyways. “There's nothing to worry about, it happened to me before."



“So then it won’t be a big deal to take it.” I assured, handing her the box. She groaned.



“You’re being ridiculous.” She set it on the counter and grabbed my hands. “Let’s eat I worked so hard!” I cupped her pretty face.



“I'm super grateful and impressed baby but if you want me to focus on dinner you’re going to have to let me know if I'm about to be a dad or not.” Vi rolled her eyes.



“So dramatic. I'm not pregnant!” she yelled but grabbed the test and headed into the bathroom. I waited outside, pacing in front of the door. After about 10 minutes I knocked.



“Are you okay?”



“The first test must have been broken I'm taking another.” I furrowed my brow, wishing I could look at her and not a door.



“Broken?”



“Or I did it wrong….” She trailed off.



“How many ways are there to pee on a stick?” I asked feeling myself smirking.



“Don’t be such a smarta.ss Jacob.” She snapped.



“Okay Violet.” I retorted. “Do you need anything?” There was silence on the other side of the door so I figured I shouldn’t press it and piss her off more. Another 10 minutes went by. “Vi?” No answer. “Baby are you okay?”



“Um….” She trailed off and I knocked again.



“Let me in.” I heard the door unlock and I followed her inside where she was standing and followed her gaze to the counter where all three tests were laid out next to each other. Each bearing the same word.



Pregnant.

Pregnant.

Pregnant.



Oh my god.



"There must be something wrong with them." Vi said and managed to move, grabbing all of three and tossing them in the trash before brushing past me. I watched her as she walked back to the kitchen.



"How-" I cut myself off, so many words happening in my head but all I could see was those tests.

Pregnant.

Pregnant.

Pregnant.



"You're on the pill right?" I asked eventually. Vi rolled her eyes.



"Yes I am Jake." She answered flatly as she looked at her cooking. Why was she mad at me right now?



"Did you forget to take any?" I went on, my mouth feeling dry as I tried to process.



"No." Vi started doing something in the kitchen but I wasn’t paying any attention.



"What are you doing Vi?" I asked like a moron as I watched her throw things away.



"What do you think? I hope you're not hungry anymore." She spat back, and I felt hurt and confused but neither emotion overwhelmed my shock.



“Are you mad at me?” I asked, confused about why she wasn’t…..anything. She wasn’t anything 3 minutes after we found out we were going to be parents. Vi and I. With a baby.



“You ruined tonight Jake!! I worked so hard and now the pasta is ruined!” I blinked at the oven because honestly? Dinner was the last thing on my mind.



“We can make more.” I said offhandedly, though I couldn’t have eaten anything right now if you paid me. Violet groaned in frustration and then ran into our bedroom, slamming the door behind her. I stood there for a second. Pregnant. That’s what all three tests had said. It was super unlikely that all three tests were false positives. But Vi seemed to be more upset about dinner than anything else. I swallowed as I followed her, opening the door and seeing her curled up on my bed.



“Go away!” she yelled but I ignored her. I laid on the bed behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist, ignoring her struggles against me until her back was against my chest and she finally stopped resisting.



“I'm sorry if I ruined your night.” I said seriously, not wanting to ever upset the girl I loved.



“I worked really hard.” she said in a quiet voice that sounded nothing like her at all.



“I know. I'm so damn lucky to have a woman like you.” I kissed the spot right under her ear.



“Well now you’re lucky enough to go hungry.” She pouted. I wondered how long we were going to keep talking about dinner and not about our future instead. It was one thing if she didn’t want to bring up marriage again. But this was about another life too.



“I’ll go out and buy more pasta, it doesn’t take that long to cook. Do you want anything else?”



"No." she snapped at me, staring at the wall. "I'm not hungry." I reached out my hand rubbed her flat stomach, making her flinch automatically and a shot of hurt go through me.



"You need to eat."



"I'm tired, I want to sleep instead." she said stubbornly, still not being a partner with me, and I knew I was still in shock but she didn’t have to be mad at me. Not when I needed her. When I knew she needed me too.



“Vi, turn around and look at me..." I whispered, pressing a kiss on her neck. She sighed but did as I said eventually, biting down on her lip as her eyes met mine.



"Yes?"



"We need to go to the doctor." I said in his best forced calm voice, though I knew she knew me as well as I knew her. She groaned and rolled on her back, pulling away from me.



"It's night, we can't." she retorted.



"We can go to the hospital." I insisted as my arms wrapped around her. I needed to touch her to be close to her even if she didn’t want it right now. Or even if she wouldn’t admit to wanting it. She shook her head and this time it was my turn to roll my eyes.



"Vi, we need to know if there's our baby inside of you!" she blinked and I saw a multitude of thoughts going through her head through her pretty eyes.



"Come on Jake...the hospital can wait." she trailed off as it looked like the reality of the situation finally hit her and she was going through all the things in her head that I had been…..that I still was.



“You’re pregnant.” I said it. Neither one of us had said it out loud yet and she blinked.



“I don’t know how…” her eyes were wide, full of fear and something else I couldn’t quite put my finger on. I shrugged.



“We knew it was a possibility…” I trailed off.



“A small one.” She interjected. “Microscopic. You must have some seriously stubborn swimmers” she narrowed her eyes on me and I couldn’t help but laugh just a little.



“Oh so it’s my fault?” I asked, tucking her hair behind her ear.



“Yes.” She nodded and I didn’t argue.



“Still.” Still what though….still we were in the situation….still there was probably going to be a baby coming…..still…We were both silent for what seemed like a really long time.



“I'm going to keep it.” She said, breaking the silence. “….if I really am I mean.” I just looked at her. I knew she was going through some stuff but she wasn’t actually crazy.



“Of course we’re going to keep it!” I said back, almost shouting.



“We?” she asked, in almost a whisper. I looked back at her.



“Why are you questioning that?” I asked, pulling her waist farther into my body and holding her there.



“We aren’t ready…It’s not time…” she shook her head and looked down. “How did this happen?!” I tilted her head up slowly.



“We were careful Vi. It happened because it was meant to happen.” Even as I said it I knew I believed it more and more.



"It's impossible." She said eventually, shaking her head and I tried not to groan since I thought we were past the denial phase.



"Baby you saw the tests-" I started but she cut me off.



"Not what I meant." She set her hands on mine and took a deep breath. "Do you remember when I got that bad flu a month ago?"



"Yes, you could barely move and spent a week in bed, high on any possible med in the world." I answered, recalling those days, she was so sick poor baby.



"Antibiotics can do that." she explained and when I furrowed my brows she went on, "They can make the pill useless." I just stared at her blankly.



"You didn't know?"



"I just realized it..." she trailed off, and in a split second of doubt I wondered if it had been intentional, if this might have been another way of Vi’s to feel more secure but I hated myself for even thinking that when I looked into her confused eyes. "Oh Jake."



“Does it matter how it happened?” I asked softly, stroking her hair as she looked up at me with bright eyes.



“Uhm…” she trailed off. I swallowed and laid down on my back, looking at the ceiling.



“We’re going to need to move.” I said as I thought about everything that went along with having a baby.



“What?” Vi hovered over me slightly and looked down. I just blinked like obviously we couldn’t live here, it wasn’t big enough for a growing kid.



“We’ll have to move. For the baby.” I said again and Vi looked at me.



“We?” she asked softly.



“You keep questioning that…..do you think I would let you raise this baby alone? Do you think I would leave you?” I asked, wondering if she could think that, if she even really knew me at all.



“Uhm…” I shook my head and stood up as I paced the room.



“Exactly what kind of man do you think I am Violet?!” I asked, feeling rage all of a sudden. I had no idea if I would make a good father, but it sounded like she already knew. Why they hell would she want to marry me at all if she thought that about me? If she thought I would abandon her like that? She sat up and blinked at me, looking like she was about to cry as I paced the room.



“Jake, no." she choked out.



"Then what?" I snapped, glaring at her. She gave me a glare and I stopped pacing.



"Will you let me talk?" she asked through her teeth.



"I'm all ears."



"I never thought that you'd leave me or abandon me, you're a good man...perfect actually."



"I'm not perfect." I cut her off.



“Shut that fucking mouth!" she snapped, looking sure and confident of herself. Honestly it was hot, if the situation hadn’t been so serious I might have jumped her right then. "I just don't know how you'd react...hell I don't even know how I'm reacting."



"How are you reacting?" I asked carefully, sitting down next to her and dropping a hand on her knee as I looked into her eyes.



"I don't know, it's just so fast, so confusing. It's too soon, too unexpected." she paused and looked down at her stomach even if it was, of course, still flat. "But if I'm really pregnant I'd do anything for this baby...it's our baby Jakey." she glanced up at me and, eventually, she smiled. It was the sweetest most beautiful smile I’d ever seen and it was contagious. I reached out and put my hand on her stomach, splaying it there.



“Our baby.” I repeated, the grin getting more and more stupidly wide as I said it. Vi nodded, her grin still intact as she bit her lip.




“Oh my god.” I reached for her face and kissed her mouth hard.



“I always wanted kids.” I told her with a smile. “We were going to have them eventually right?” she blinked.



“You could have told me!” she smirked. “I knew this was your fault.” She added with a wink as I laughed.



“Do you think it’s a boy or girl?” I asked, the possibilities of seeing a little girl that looked just like the one I feel for when she was five running around our house or a little boy with her eyes, her smile.



“Don’t get too excited Jake we don’t know for sure yet….” She trailed off.



“3 tests is a lot to be wrong.” I said blowing that statement off. “We’re going to love that baby so much.” I said seriously.



“What….what if I'm bad at it?” she asked, her eyes wide. “My parents were awful.” I laughed at her.



“There’s no way baby. You’re going to be the most amazing mom on earth because you’re going to show our child all the love and support and friendship that you deserved too.” I saw a slow tear roll down Violet’s eye as she looked at me.



“You’ll be a good dad Jake.” She whispered, her voice breaking slightly. I grinned, more like beamed at her.



“My mother is going to freak out.” I said laughing at the thought of her first grandbaby.



“Oh my god she is.” Vi laughed and grinned as I looked at her.



“I should have already known baby….you’ve been so happy and glowing lately.” I reached out and kissed her lips hard. “Your boobs are going to get so big.” I smirked against her mouth.



"And so will get the rest of my body." she said back, her lips still glued against mine but that was just part of pregnancy. I furrowed my brows and sneaked my arms around her waist as I tossed my legs over her thighs so that now we were locked one to the other,



"You won't get fat baby." I said seriously, imagining her with a round stomach and thinking she’d probably just look adorable instead.



"Even if I will, I don't care." She bit down on my lip as she pulled her head back, making me groan,



"It will be worth it if I'll have a baby bear."



"A baby bear?" I repeated her words, giving her an amused look as I ran my hands up and down her thigh mindlessly. She nodded and that gorgeous smile was back as I pictured a little baby in our arms together.



"I can see him running around here already." Vi said eventually, motioning around the room.



"What if she's a baby flower instead?" I grinned as I leaned into her, kissing her again and again.



“You'll be in trouble." Vi joked and let out a chuckle, pulling away from me only to let her back fall on the bed. I laughed before the room filled with silence. But a perfect silence. "I thought that we'd have to wait a lot before having kids Jake, but now that we could have one...I really really hope to have it." She confessed in a whisper.



“Oh me too.” I said pushing back her hair and feeling my heart feel like it was about to explode at any second. “I need to love you.” I said seriously. “I need to love you right now.” Vi’s eyes went darker as she pulled for me.



“Yes….right now.” she nodded, pulling me over her on the bed and wrapping her legs around my waist, already grinding into them which was good since I would have ground into her if she hadn’t.



“You’re so gorgeous Violet…” I said kissing her lips over and over and thinking of her now flat stomach rounding out with my child inside of her. Our child. “I love you more than I’ve ever loved anything….anyone.” I said seriously and she grinned, her eyes glassy.



“You’re going to have to share the love now baby.” She whispered and I felt like my heart didn’t explode it just doubled.



“It would be impossible not to love something that came from you Violet.” I whispered, my hands pulling at the zipper on the side of her dress, desperate to see her body flush and glowing, desperate to show her how much I loved her.



“From both of us.” She pulled my t-shirt over my head and moaned as I pressed my hips against her. “Love me Jacob….” I had never felt like this in my life. Like I could die of happiness. Who knew I wanted kids so bad…..or maybe it was just her. Just the girl who had me since the first day I laid eyes on her light golden curls and pouty lips.




“I always will. For forever.”



“You’re so smart baby.” I lowered my head, pressing kiss after kiss on her still flat stomach.



“Jake….” She moaned in a breathless whisper. I looked up and smiled into her eyes. Something had shifted between us, something really big. And it felt like it was for the better. I was never the man who though couples should have a baby to make their relationship work, felt like bringing a child into a broken family was never fair. But we hadn’t been trying, and we definitely didn’t feel broken, Vi ran her hands over my bicepts, then my stomach and our mouths met finally. I kissed her as hard as she was kissing me, so many emotions going into our lovemaking. More than I’d ever experienced in my life.



“It’s only you Vi. It’s always only been you.” I whispered, placing tiny kisses against her neck.



“I know….always.” she arched her hips into mine, pushing against me as I ground down into her hips, needing the friction, needing more but it wasn’t a race to an orgasm for any means. I just needed her. I lowered my head and pressed a soft kiss against the lace, my heart aching as she moaned. Then I reached down and grabbed her panties, slowly moving them down her endless legs before tossing them aside and coming back to her. Cradling her in my arms. So many times I wanted to worship her, to bring her to the edge again and again and make sure she knew she was loved more than anything, but my obsession with her had always made me take her much harder and faster than I’d intended. Today I would make up for it. Today I would show her how happy she made me, especially now that we were going to be a family.



“Take off your bra slowly Violet.” I whispered, cupping her face and caressing her cheek. “Let me see all of you.” Vi’s whole body was flushed and gorgeous as she arched her back and reached behind her to unclasp her bra. She looked deep into my eyes as her chest rose and fell. I felt like I had butterflies in my stomach. I’d been with her so many times but god just watching her take off her bra right now was one of the most erotic moments of my life.



"I can't believe this." she whispered back as she pushed the straps of her bra past her shoulders and down her arms, being careful to not expose anything yet, keeping me totally hypnotized.



“The baby?" I asked in a quiet tone, my hands massaging her thighs gently. She shook her head and cupped her breasts through the lacy material, lingering there a moment and killing me before she answered.



"Us." she said simply and at the same time she lowered her bra, slowly, giving me the view I wanted. Violet. My sweet Violet, Naked and vulnerable and so sweet.



"So beautiful baby." I said in a low voice. I hovered over her, setting my palms by either side of her head to prop myself up so we weren’t touching yet. And believe it, we're real, this is real. Forever Vi." She beamed up at me and I loved how happy she looked, how I could feel her happiness radiation from the heat of her body.



"Forever Jakey." She managed to breathe out. Her hands reached for the band on my boxers, her chest lifting off the bed just enough for her lips to capture mine in a slow tender kiss while she pushed them down my legs. I groaned softly into her mouth, our eyes still locked together when she broke the kiss and laid back down flat on the bed, running her hands up my arms.



"Love me." she said simply in a tiny voice, anticipation killing me since I had never wanted something so much. Ever. I held her body in my arms, running my lips up her stomach, in between her breasts and up her neck before placing soft kisses against her lips.



“I always love you.” I whispered as she spread her legs on her own and arched her back so my dick was resting against her. I tangled my fingers in her hair and looked deep into her eyes as I slowly pushed inside of her, savoring every inch, memorizing how it felt as I looked into her love soaked eyes. Violet breathed out slowly, never moving her eyes away from mine as she set her hand on my hips, pulling me forward, deeper inside of her.



“It’s never felt like this before…” she whispered, voicing my thoughts as I nuzzled her neck.



“I know it.” I agreed, pulling back to smirk down at her. “How can we still have firsts?” she laughed with me, before pulling my head down to capture my lips with hers. It hadn’t ever been like this before. We’d made love plenty of times but this? This was all love, love making way for the lust we had for each other, not the other way around.



“We’ll have lots of new firsts soon.” She whispered and I groaned, feeling myself harden inside of her as I thought of our future together. I lowered my head to take each of her breasts in my mouth, paying more attention to her body then I think I ever had.



“You’re going to be so beautiful….with our baby…” I kissed her hard, but slowly, exploring the corners of her mouth, her full lower lip, pressing my whole body against hers as I rocked back in forth inside of her so no parts of us weren’t touching. We were tangled in each other, and I never wanted it to end.



“Oh!” Vi’s eyes went wide and she lifted her hips up again and again as an unexpected climax rocked her body. It was the first time I hadn’t even realized she was going to come but when I did I watched her ride it out, helping her make it last. I had always known she was the most gorgeous woman I’d ever known, but she kept proving it to me every day. “Jake” she whispered with wide eyes as she came back down, but god watching her fall apart like that was so damn beautiful I wasn’t nearly close to done.



“Again baby…..I can’t wait to see that again.’ I said, wonder in my voice as I lowered my lips back to hers once more. Vi cupped my face in her hands as I slid my tongue into her mouth, sexy little moans coming from her as I kissed her.



"I want to feel you come inside of me." she moaned against my lips as I broke the kiss regretfully. I groaned at how damn good she felt and pulled almost all the way out of her only to push all me back inside of her a second later, groaning when our bodies met.



"I can't believe I waited for so long to get you." I murmured, feeling overwhelmed with all the emotions I was feeling.



"We were meant to be together." Vi breathed out, arching her back and wrapping her legs around my hips to pull me even deeper inside of her. I was barely holding on at this point.



"I always knew that." I whispered and flashed me a grin before I pressed my chest against hers, grabbing her ass in my hands to switch our positions, never ever wanting this to end.



"I love how cheesy I got you." Vi smirked a little as she set her her hands on my chest and started moving slowly.



"You're not any better." I teased before she tightened around me and I swear I was already seeing stars.



"God Vi."



"I love you Jakey." She had said it so many times before by now, but god every time I heard the words from her plush lips my heart grew more. I reached for her hands and we tangled our fingers together, our now locked hands staying floating midair as Violet moved her body up and down, guiding me inside and out of her again and again and again in what had to be the most epic moment of our life together. I was overwhelmed and I had never felt this good, never. "I love you so much." I sat up and held her, one arm going around her waist and one tangling in her hair.



“I love you too.” I kissed her soft lips once, twice and then a third time, feeling totally lost in her, drunk on her sweetness and her love. I leaned her back, pulling out of her as she moaned softly and laid down on the bed, her hair fanning out on the pillow and her breath still quick. I laid next to her, slowly running my hand over her stomach before pressing a kiss against it.



“What if they’re false positives?” she whispered, fear in her eyes as I smiled at her.



“One is a false positive baby, not three.” She still looked worried and I pressed a kiss on her forehead. “It doesn’t change anything. I feel the same way about you whether or not this is really happening. You’re my world Violet.” I blinked at her and realized something just then. What had I been thinking? How could I be so stupid as to turn her down when she asked to be with me forever. My god only an idiot would have turned down an offer like that. I had to marry her. I would never love anyone else but as I opened my mouth to ask for forgiveness and a promise I realized now it was too late. I would have to prove to her it wasn’t because of the baby growing inside of her and all because of her. It would have to wait even though the realization hit me so hard I wanted to run her to a chapel now.



“Jake what are you thinking?” I licked my lips and pushed back her hair.



“I'm thinking I want to make love again. And then again.” I replied, lowering my lips to her breast and sucking softly.



“When I’ll wake up from this wonderful dream remind me to tell you all about it.” She sighed and I looked up into her eyes.




“Remind me too.” I replied, and then I was kissing her deeply again as I thought of all the ways I needed to make her happy. Happy enough to forgive me. And to marry me.