I really wanna love somebody

I really wanna love somebody by nadiaa featuring a blackberry case

I was mindlessly looking through the records in the station as I organized each one alphabetically. I was exhausted yet I still had another 5 hours of work.

I heard the door open and I turned towards the entrance, "Hi can I he-" My eyes spotted Brooke standing there in front of me, "What are you doing here?"

"I just-" Brooke sputtered out as she nervously moved her bag from one shoulder to the other awkwardly.

"You just what? Got done screwing your ex and came to rub it in my face?" I spat out harshly, not being able to look at her in the face. I was still entirely pissed over what had happened, but I was also upset… I liked her.. a lot.

"Okay… I deserved that." She nodded, walking closer to me, but I stepped away, "Look… can I please try to explain?"

"Explain what? Because I pretty much saw all I needed to when you had his tongue down his throat." I said bluntly, still bitter about the whole thing.

She looked down and the ground, "Nick, please just listen to me!"

I took a seat, "Fine. Go ahead." I said, not wanting to hear anything, but if she wouldn’t leave me alone, then I'd listen.

"What you saw was bad, but if you could just let me explain, you'll understand!" She pleaded.

I eyed her, "Didn't I just say you could explain?"

She licked her lips, "His name is Nolan and he's my ex… The one I've been hung up on..." She trailed off, "He came in and said all these things that I had been wanting him to say for months. It was like a dream come true and honestly I thought it was what I wanted and you were the last thing on my mind. Then he kissed me and I didn't feel anything! It was nothing, and then I pushed it more, wanting to feel that same thing that I did before, but still nothing. All I could think of then was you!!" She pleaded.

I rolled my eyes, "I'm not going to fight for a girl who doesn't want me."

She shook her head, "I do want you!! That's the thing. When I was kissing him, all I could think of was kissing you…." She trailed off.

I raised a brow, "Really?"

She nodded before she kept on, "I've been an idiot." She replied, shaking her head, "I wasted months moping after the guy I thought was the one… but you brought me out of that." She smiled, "The way you treat me is better than Nolan, better than any guy I've ever met and I can't believe I lost you." She swallowed.

I hoped she was being sincere, because I believed her, "Brooke…" I trailed off, running my hands through my hair as she took a step closer to me.

"I want to fight for you Nick… because I do want you. Every part of me wants you." She pushed her hair back, "Just being this close to you makes my stomach flip. I know we haven't been dating long and it's not like I think you're the one or anything, but the way you make me feel? It would be stupid of me not to try and find out."

I ran my tongue over my lips and tried to figure out what I wanted to do… I liked Brooke and I couldn't deny it, "I don't know Brooke…" I said quietly, unsure of myself.

She swallowed, "I'll keep fighting." She gave me a small smile, "God you had to wear glasses today didn't you?" She asked me.

I raised a brow and looked up at her, "I always wear my glasses at work."  I said confused.

"Such a turn on." She admitted as a blush creeped onto her face and all I could think about was kissing her.

I ran my hands through my hair before scratching the back of my neck, "Yeah?" She nodded as I grinned, "Well, you're one to talk, it's hard to be mad at you in that dress…" I said honestly as my eyes roamed all over her body.

She took a step closer to me, "Then forgive me…" She said softly, "Please…" She leaned in and pressed her lips softly against mine.

I tried not to react, but I couldn't help it as I deepened the kiss and then pulled away slightly.

I swallowed, "Don't make a fool out of my Brooke…" I breathed out against her lips.

She shook her head quickly and looked into my eyes, "Never… I swear."

I licked my lips, "Then I guess I can understand a moment of weakness when it comes to exes…" I trailed off.

She exhaled, "Thank you… I was almost expecting you to just say no…" She bit her lip with a small smile.

I smirked, "Is that why you wore this dress?" I asked her, "Because I couldn't say no after I saw you in it?"

She grinned, "Maybe…" She kissed me once more as I heard a throat being cleared.

I pulled away as my boss was staring at me with a smirk on his face. I gave him a sheepish smile, "Can I go on my lunch?"

He nodded, "Yeah. Be back in 30."

I nodded back at him as I turned back to Brooke as she grinned at me, "Speaking of lunch. I had an insurance policy." She pulled out a tupperware box out of her purse, "If you didn't like my dress, I brought you cheesy chicken to win your heart."

I grinned, "Wow, you're pretty close to perfect, aren't you?"

She smirked, "Maybe."

I nodded, "Well let's go out for a few minutes. I need a break..."

"I'm really sorry." She swallowed and shook her head. 

I grabbed her hand and squeezed it tight. She didn't need to say anymore. I understood exactly what had happened now.

I pulled her into my body and tilted her head up, "I think you've said it enough."

She gave me a small smile as I grinned back at her, "I don't know what came over me. It was like I had wasted so much time trying to get over Nolan that I hated the thought that he wasn't really the one." 

I nodded, "I guess I get it." I shook my head, "But god, walking in on that was fucking awful."

She nodded, "I wanted to be with you that night. I was so nervous and I drank way too much." She shook her head again.

"Why were you nervous?" I asked, sitting down at the picnic table across the street as she opened the tupperware and handed me a fork.

She blushed, "I don't really know."

I took a bite and immediately groaned, "Damn Brooke…" I shook my head, "This is so good. All is forgiven."

She laughed, "Apparently food is the way to your heart."

"When it's this good? Definitely." I scarfed more down.

She grinned, "What do you usually eat?"

I shrugged, "Usually frozen pizzas… or hot pockets." I grinned.

She shook her head, "That has to change." She grinned at me, "You have to get something with nutritional value in you and I need to work on some skills… so you're going to test all my food."

I smirked, "Is this how it's going to go now? You're going to boss me around?" I winked.

"You'll be eating more delicious food." She mentioned.

"Deal." I grinned, "So tell me… why were you nervous?"

"Nervous when?"

I eyed her, "At Scarlett's birthday party. Why were you so nervous that you had to drink?"

She swallowed, "It had been a while Nick… I was scared as I was a bit rusty. I mean the only action I've had in the past few months was with my vibrator." She spilled out, making me smirk, "Sorry, I didn't mean to say all that, but honestly, you make me so nervous when you're just around me, and the thought of sex even made it worse."

I smiled, "We don't have to rush-"

"No!" She interjected, "I mean, I don't want to wait…" She bit her lip, "I want you… as soon as possible."

"Are you sure? Like I said before, I don't want to pressure you at all."

"See that!" She exclaimed, "That's what keeps making me nervous."

I rose a brow, confused, "What?"

"You being all Mr. Good Guy, trying not to pressure me and everything. Kind of makes me feel like you don't want me."

My eyes widened, because that was far from the truth… I was trying to fight how much I liked her.

"What?!" I said loudly, wanting her to know that that was the farthest thing.

She smirked, "Stop worrying if you're pressuring me… stop worrying if I'm nervous or if I'll regret it. I want you. Show me what you want. Stop being the good guy Nick."

I tried to think about anything but her naked, but my d.ck reacted anyways, "F.cking hell Brooke." I growled out under my breath.

"What?" She said innocently.

"I have to be back at work in 20 minutes!" I exclaimed as she laughed.

"Oops." She bit down on her lip, teasing me.

I swallowed, trying to keep my thoughts under control as all I could think of was her legs wrapped around my waist as I pounded into her.

I nodded, "Okay… how about tomorrow? I have the morning shift, but afterwards, I'm free…"

"Really?" She asked with a small grin.

"Are you not wanting me now?" I joked.

She shook her head quickly, "God no… I know I want you Nick… Really f.cking bad." She licked her lips and all I could think of was them wrapped around my d.ck.

"Then come over to my place tomorrow… I have the next day off." I told her, "We can spend all night in bed… not sleeping." I smirked.

She let out a small groan, "You know, if you keep talking like that, you might not get back to work today."

I grinned, "I need my job, so I won't try to tease you much more."

She let out a sigh, "Shame…"

I nodded, "I know, all I want to do right now is be f.cking you right now Brooke…"

A blush creeped on her lips as she breathed out, "Damn it." She swallowed, shaking her head as she looked down, "Talk about something not sexy."

I laughed, "Okay." I said, but all I could think of was something dirty, especially since I couldn't stop glancing at the tight dress she was wearing…

"How have you been?" I asked, scratching the back of my head, not knowing what else to say, "I honestly haven't stopped thinking about you. Wondering where you were and what you were doing."

"I went to Vegas with Mase." She said to me and my eyes perked up.

"You went to Vegas?"

She nodded, "He had one of his crazy VIP 'I'm an internet mogul' parties and I tagged along as part of his entourage." She smirked at me, but my stomach turned at the thought of her being in Vegas with him. I'm sure people hit on her and it made me sick to think about it.

"That sounds like you were dancing around him in a bikini while he and his buddies got high and drank too much." I said bluntly, but she laughed out loud.

"More like I watched him turn down girl after girl while sexting my best friend and I got super wasted to forget about how I'd possibly lost the best guy who'd ever been into me."

I gave her a small smile, "Yeah?"

She nodded, "Mason might think I'm an alcoholic at this point…" She trailed off.

"Mason's an idiot." I smirked, making her laugh.

She nodded, "He is, but the weekend really made me miss you… I didn't even want to be near any other guy…" She covered my hands with hers.

I nodded, "I'm sorry I made you feel like you had to drink that way…"

She shook her head, "It's nothing I didn't deserve. It just made me realize that I really like you."

I nodded, "I couldn't stop thinking about you either." I said honestly, "I was pissed, but still I missed you."

She bit her lip, "Really?" I nodded, "God, that makes me feel a thousand times better."

My phone started beeping. I took it out of my pocket and noticed a text from my boss telling me to get back.

I sighed, "My break is over."

She pouted, "Damn…"

I stood up, grabbing her hand as we walked back to the station, "Don't worry… you're coming over tomorrow, right?"

She nodded, "Definitely and I can cook you dinner."

"Sounds amazing." I smiled, I leaned over and kissed her deeply.

"Thank you for forgiving me…" She breathed out against my lips.

"No problem beautiful."