Fight fear for the selfish pain, it was worth it every time.

Fight fear for the selfish pain, it was worth it every time. by pinklipstiiick featuring a leather dress

Jo killed the engine as we stopped in front of our Hampton's house, a smile on his handsome face as he turned to me. "I don't know if I'm ready to go back inside," He confessed. 

I grinned at him and reached for his hand, squeezing it while I unbuckled my safety belt with the other, "Didn't you miss our cuties?"

He nodded, since it was easy to miss our girls. It was spending time alone with each other that he missed and I did too. Even if our date had been short, it was badly needed. "They're sleeping now anyway," He grinned back at me as he leaned into me, staring into my eyes and tempting me. 

"I hope so. My dad didn't call...is's a good sign right? Or it's a bad one? What if something's so wrong that he couldn't even call?" I started, anxiety showing in my tone. 

My husband sighed and laced his fingers with mine as he turned his body in my direction, "When we went out the twins were sleeping already and he can handle Sienna for a few hours." Since my father had broken his engagement to his last girlfriend, after finding out that she wasn't really pregnant, he seemed to be content with being a granddad and was finally starting to accept that he wasn't getting any younger. Also he was really trying to get closer to me, so when he had asked if he could come with us to the family's beach house to help us with the girls, we couldn't really say no. "He did that before," He added, having a point since I rarely trusted anyone with all of my girls.  

"Yes but there was always Jake around too," I protested, bringing up my brother in law which, surprisingly enough, was the best babysitter Sienna could have. Just her, because we didn't trust him with the twins yet. 

He pushed my hair off my face, his smile still in place, "We're here, let's go inside and check if everyone's alive." 

I glared at his choice of words, "Don't make fun of me." 

He poked my boob, trying to make the moment lighter since it had been a great night and neither of us wanted to ruin it. "Never baby," He grinned and I rolled my eyes but smirked too eventually. "Kiss me first, then we can go."

I leaned close enough to press my lips chastely against his, grinning as I pulled back slowly. 

He shook his head and forced a serious expression, "I think you can do better than that."

"You think or you know?" I lifted an eyebrow and moved across the center console to sit on his lap, straddling him the best I could with my chest pressed against his. 

His arms wrapped loosely around my waist and we stared at each other for a moment, that electricity between us still there and never going away. I was only 18 years old when I first saw Jo and since then, I knew that he'd always be the one for me. Sure there were bumps along the way, but I'd go through it all over again if it meant spending the rest of my life with him. "Kiss me and I'll let you know," He grinned and slid one hand up my back to keep my body in place against his.

I lowered my head and parted my lips, sucking on his bottom lip first and taking my time since time was never on our side. My hands tangled in his hair when I slid my tongue into his mouth to deepen our kiss, letting him swallow my moans as I got turned on just from kissing him. When I broke the kiss, my lips traveled down to his neck, "Well?"

"A little better," He replied and I bit into his skin gently. "Oh, are you being kinky now?"

I pulled my head back and shook it, trying to bite back a grin, "I was going to let you get lucky tonight, but now you'll be lucky to even get cuddles from me."

He raised one eyebrow at me as he let his hands travel down my back to stop on my ass, "Please, like you could ever resist me." 

I struggled to keep a straight face, my body pressing against his since he was right. "I could, I just don't want to," I explained and let a silly grin play on my lips eventually. He knew the effect on me, but I loved playing around with him. 

"Same difference," He shrugged and grinned back at me before pressing his lips against mine again for a quick kiss. The attraction between us was the same we had always had, if not stronger. It was crazy how far we'd come and everything we'd been through. We could literally overcome anything and our love would only be stronger.

"Well, aren't you a cocky husband?" I retorted as my hands moved down his chest, my fingers playing with the buttons of his shirt. 

"Aren't you a cocky wife?" He said back while his erection strained against his jeans, making them tighter and me a hell of a lot wetter.

"Lies, I don't even get many compliments anymore," I protested with a small pout on my lips, pressing my hips against his and making him groan. 

"That's the lie instead!" He widened his eyes in fake offense before breaking into a grin and dipping his nose into my neckline, his lips making their way to my breast to bite it. 

A giggle escaped me as I tangled my hands with his hair, so turned on right now, "What are you doing?" 

"I'm saying hi to my babies," He grinned against my skin before looking up at me and for a moment I felt as if we were back to when we were just back together, when we had no care in the whole world. Now, years later, we were parents and busy ones. As amazing it was, it was also exhausting.

"Your babies huh?" I smirked at him, watching him cup my other breast with his hand to knead it. 

"Yes," He said simply, squeezing it and making me moan. I'd currently stopped feeding the twins and my breasts were still extra sensitive. And huge. A please grin appeared on his face as he watched me break, one of my straps falling down my arm and exposing more cleavage. "Mine."

"Are we going to fool around in the car before going in?" I lifted an eyebrow while trying to force a serious expression, nuzzling my head against his neck to conceal the grin that had made its way onto my face. I parted my lips and scraped my teeth against his neck, placing one of my hands between our bodies to cup him through his jeans. 

A groan escaped his throat and he set his head against the headrest to give me more access, "I hope so."

"I feel like we're sneaking around," I grinned against his skin, kissing up the front of his neck. My hands unzipped his jeans and I slid one inside, running my fingers along his long length and feeling the ache grow between my legs. "It's turning me on..."

"Not an easy task," He said sarcastically, grinning back at me before my lips crashed down against his.

"Mm," I moaned into his mouth and deepened the kiss, listening to the silence around us as I focused all of my attention on my perfect husband. 

His tongue played with mine as he slid his hands behind my back and all the way down to my ass. "Ry," He groaned when I broke the kiss, my hand stroking him slowly as if I couldn't stop touching him. 

"Yes baby?" I asked with an innocent expression on my face that didn't match my actions at all, my chest pressing against his as my back arched. 

He grinned at me, reaching for my panties and playing with their hem, "I think that the last time we had sex in the car it was when we made Sienna." 

I remembered that night perfectly and how bad I wanted him since it had been too long. "No more babies for a while now," I said back seriously and my hand went still before I broke into a grin and started stroking him again, teasing him. 

"Maybe we should get out the car then," He groaned, his fingers ripping my panties and making me gasp, the sound enough for him to grin as wide as I was. 

I frowned, struggling to pull his erection out of his boxers but it seemed to be an impossible task, "I said no babies, not no sex," I sighed, my tone showing my frustration since I wasn't being successful. "Help me," I added with a pout. 

"I had an idea baby," Jo announced, unlocking the door and pushing it open, "Get out." 

I raised one eyebrow suspiciously but slid my hand out of his pants, "What do you have in mind Jo?" 

"Don't you trust me? Come on Ry, get out!" He urged, watching as I finally did as he asked and he followed behind me a second later. Reaching for my hand, he forced me to walk in the opposite direction of our house and toward the beach instead. 

"Where are you bringing me?" I grinned, excitement showing in my tone.

He looked back at me with an eyebrow raised, "Where's your trust?"

I bit my lip and shrugged, "It's hidden under my dress... maybe you should undress me and look for it."

Jo laughed and wrapped both arms around my waist, coming to a stop as our feet sunk into the sand. I'd always loved coming to the Hamptons, even when I was little. But now? Now it felt like that had been an eternity ago and this was our place now, the home where we spent our honeymoon night and the first place all of our babies vacationed. "That sounds like a good idea," He breathed against my neck, making a shiver run down my spine. 

"Mhmm," I mumbled, tilting my head back to stare at him and smile. "I'm full of those."

"Are you?" He asked and slid a hand up my spine before yanking my zipper down, all the way to my ass. 

"You know it," I grinned and pulled away from him, reaching behind me and unclasping my bra. I let it drop on top of my dress, kicking my heels off and adding them to the pile of clothes. "Are you going to join me?" I asked quietly, walking backwards toward, trying not to shiver at how cold it was despite the hot summer weather even though it was night. 

"Maybe I'll just enjoy the show," He grinned as he kept his eyes on my body, them caressing me from head to toe while his hands unbuttoned his shirt quickly before letting it fall on top of my clothes. It was like my own personal striptease, my husband the sexiest man alive.  

"Baby," I faked a pout, taking a few steps back and shivering when the water hit my feet, "It's so cold, I need you to keep me warm." 

His grin only got wider as his gaze focused on my hard nips, a smirk playing on my lips. "I can tell," He said while taking his shoes off, his pants next. 

I cupped my breasts and pushed them together, shooting him a naughty look as I bit down on my lip, "Ops." 

He laughed as he walked over to me, our bodies crashing together immediately as he kept me balanced in his strong arms, mine sneaking around his neck quickly, "Hi baby." He smiled at me, holding me as tight as possible. 

"Hi," I smiled back at him and let him kiss me while he gently forced me to walk backwards toward the water. 

He slid his tongue between my lips, finding mine and playing with it as his hands trailed down my back to cup my ass. I tightened my arms around his neck and jumped up to wrap my legs around his waist as well, his muscles flexing to keep me in place as he broke the kiss. "Too tired to walk?" He asked in a teasing tone, always loving to have me so close instead.

"Too cold instead," I answered honestly and smiled at him once more before nuzzling his neck.

"Wasn't this your idea?" He asked and I could hear the smirk in his tone, imagining the sexy expression on his gorgeous face. 

I shrugged and pulled my head back to look at him and sure enough, there it was. "What did you have planned instead? Sex on the beach?" I lifted an eyebrow and parted my lips to make a perfect O, playing innocent even though I was already naked an in his arms. And my thoughts? So far from innocent. 

"We can do both," He grinned and raised both eyebrows at me, "Or are you playing innocent? That face doesn't really work on you."

"I think you're wrong," I wrinkled my nose and nuzzled his neck again as he walked a little deeper into the water and cursed under his breath. I grinned against his skin and pressed a soft kiss.

"I'm never wrong," He said in a more serious tone and spanked my ass lightly.

I ignored his words and pulled my head back to grin at him, "You're lucky you have me keeping you warm."

"Not really," He grinned, his eyes on me as he kept walking really slowly since, admittedly, the water was pretty cold.

"How do you dare Joseph?" I said and my mouth dropped open even though he knew it was all a silly show, especially the use of his full name. Which he hated. 

He squeezed my ass in his hands and took advantage of my parted lips by capturing the bottom one with his teeth, nibbling before freeing it. "How do you dare calling me Joseph?" He asked back with a smirk to let me know he was joking. 

I ignored him completely and pouted, "Ouch." My legs tightened around his waist when the water hit his hands and my ass, even colder than I'd imagined.

"You look like Sienna when you make that face. You don't want to ruin our sexy mood, right?" He asked as his grin got wider.

I chuckled lightly and my face changed completely, loving when my husband was silly with me. "No please, I need sexy time with my husband," I said seriously as I pressed my hips against his growing erection.

He groaned as his hands moved up my sides, sliding between our bodies to cup my soft breasts. "Are you sure? Aren't you too cold?" He asked and watched me closely as his thumbs brushed against my hard nipples.

"Freezing," I grinned and leaned my chest against his, looking into his gorgeous eyes. "Will you warm me up?"

"Isn't that what I'm doing now?" He asked with a serious face, my body both shivering from how sexy my husband was and how cold the water was. Honestly though, I was adjusting to the temperature quickly. 

I pouted as my eyes dropped down to his soft lips, "I think a kiss would help..."

We went deeper into the water and Jo tilted his head slightly, pressing his lips against mine and kissing me hard. Adjusting my body with his hands, he guided me down onto his erection, his dick sinking deep into me and making me moan into his mouth. Fuck did he feel good. "God Ry," He groaned as he broke the kiss, moving me up and down on him so deliciously slow. 

"Fuck," My head fell back and I closed my eyes, moving as best as I could to get more of him. "We need more nights out like this."

He trailed his mouth up my throat, sucking on my skin in the process while his hands guided me at the pace he wanted me to be. "We really do," He groaned when he pulled me all the way down, my hips bumping against his and it felt like pure bliss. "I miss being crazy with you."

His words got my attention and I lifted my head again to look at my perfect husband, seeing the same man I fell in love with when I was 18. "I know, if only we didn't have three little girls," I managed to say between moans.

"We wouldn't be so happy," He smiled at me before kissing me again, allowing himself to be cheesy for a moment.

"We're crazy for having them anyway," I smirked as I set my hands on his shoulders, shooting him a grin which I tried to conceal by biting my lip when I moved up and down, doing all the work perfectly even if it wasn't an easy task.

The friction of his dick inside of me, combined with the new angle and how he kept hitting my spot, made me moan in pleasure and want to scream. Jo took his hands away from me to watch me move, amazement showing on that face I loved. "You drive me crazy instead," He said seriously as his eyes dropped onto my breasts floating in the water, his hands reaching for them immediately and his head bowing down to take one in his mouth greedily.

"God Jo," I said in a scratchy voice, rolling my hips and biting down on my tongue to keep me from screaming. Lifting an eyebrow, he bit down on my nipple, my pussy tightening around him in a vise like grip. He made me lose control, I lost myself completely when he was inside of me. 

He smirked at me and bucked up hips up, hitting my spot and making me see stars before pulling his head back and letting his eyes wander my body all over again. "We just started Ry... where's that stamina I love?" He pinched my nip and got another loud moan out of me. 

"You're driving me so crazy right now," I breathed out, still moving on top of him while his hands dropped down to my ass to help me move. "You feel good... so fucking good."

"Look at me," He growled, making me realize I had closed my eyes.

With a smirk on my lips, I opened my eyes and stared at my husband, feeling more in sync with him than we'd been in a while. With the girls keeping us awake and busy all the time, it was hard finding time for ourselves and while we used to be spontaneous like this? I couldn't remember the last time we had done something even slightly crazy. "Hi," I leaned into him to kiss his soft lips, my pace slowing down drastically until I was barely moving.
He let out a mix of a groan and a sigh, his mouth still on mine and his hands squeezing my ass. "Hi baby," He said against my lips before pushing me all the way down as he moved his hips to get as deep as possible inside of me, not wanting to leave even an inch between us.

"How do you still have this effect on me?" I asked with a smirk, cutting myself off to moan again as I planted my hands on his shoulders for support.

"Still?" He asked, amusement in his voice as he pulled almost all the way out of me, just to slip back inside a second later and nearly killing me from how good it felt. "We're not that old yet."

"Oh god Jo..." I breathed out and tossed my head back when he repeated the motion, each time being faster and deeper. "I'll want you always."

He tilted his head down, scraping his teeth up my neck, "I will too, even when I'll be an old man and I won't be really able to."

At that, I stopped moaning to look at my husband for a moment and laugh, wrapping my arms tight around his neck and pressing my chest against his. "You kill me," I said, my breathing labored and my cheeks red, a smile on my face too as, for a moment, neither of us moved.

"I love you instead," He said with a smirk that matched mine, only much more perfect, before kissing me once again as his hips started moving again.

I pulled back with a gasp as he hit my spot, coming so hard I saw stars. "Jo!" My head fell back and he kept pounding inside of me, not stopping until he was coming with me. I let my nails sink into his shoulders, biting my lip as I watched him lose himself, never looking sexier in his life. 

"Fuck Ryan," He growled, holding me against him as our bodies stopped moving after what felt like an eternity. 

I leaned my body into his and wrapped my arms around him in an embrace, afraid my body might turn to jelly and drown if I let go. "I'd say we should do that again, but I feel so old I'm not sure I could," I tilted my head back to grin at him, still feeling him hard inside of me and knowing I'd never get enough of him. Luckily, we had the rest of our life to do that over and over again.

He let out a laugh and shook his head, "Does that mean you don't want to go swimming right now?"

"I didn't want to go skinny dipping... I just wanted to fuck you," I admitted with a smirk. "I'm not sure I could even walk right now."

"Not while I'm still inside of you," He grinned and I couldn't resist that smile, leaning in to kiss him again. No wonder we had so many babies; I couldn't resist him. 

"I love when you're inside of me," I whispered with my lips still against his. 

"I love when I'm inside of you," He said back as he stared into my eyes, his tone matching mine only sexier. My husband was the sexiest man alive... And for that? I was the luckiest. "Are we going to stay like this forever?"

I smirked as I pulled my head back, "I wish, but we have three little girls waiting for us." For a moment, I wondered if the girls were still awake but it had to be late. Hopefully my dad put them all down for bed already. I had no intention ending our date night so soon. 

"I'm sure they're all asleep," He retorted even though he knew that I had a point, gone were the days when we didn't have a care in the world, but life was perfect right now and I wouldn't change it for anything in the world. I adored my family, even my babies who kept me exhausted most of the time. 

"God I hope so," I sighed before letting out a small moan when he pulled out of me regretfully, my feet back on the sand but my body still anchored to his.

He lead me out the water, watching me the whole time and making me smile to myself. "We can finish in the bedroom what we started here if it's what you're thinking about," He said as he reached for our clothes and pulled away from me to put on his boxers while I grabbed his shirt, making him raise one eyebrow.

"Yes and I don't want to ruin my dress," I wrinkled my nose as I buttoned the shirt. 

Jo wrapped an arm around my shoulder, pulling my body against his as we walked toward the back of the house to avoid waking anyone up. "It's fine, you're the one who's going to wash my shirt anyway," He grinned while I narrowed my eyes on him, which only made him smirk wider. "I love you," He added, pushing the door open and losing no time by leading me inside the house, his arms wrapped tightly around me as he kissed me hard.

I smirked against his lips, responding by grabbing his hair and pressing my hips against his, a groan escaping him and making me want to take him all over again right here.

"Uhm-mhm," A low voice broke the silence, my father clearing his throat as we stepped into the hallway. Of all the people I'd want to run into at this particular moment? My dad was at the top of that list. 

Jo broke the kiss, watching as I blushed in the dark and tried to compose myself while he made no effort to hide what our intentions were. We're adults and married, of course we had sex.... but I didn't want my dad thinking about it. "Hi Dad," I said in a serious voice.

"I was going to get some water," He shot me an unamused look, his eyes scanning our bodies quickly before he shook his head. I felt like a teenager, getting caught sneaking in past curfew. "Good god you two," He muttered under his breath.

Jo ignored his words, keeping me pressed against him as he smirked. "Did you have a nice night with the girls?" He asked as if it was perfectly normal to be caught by your father-in-law, but honestly the two men were so close I don't think my husband even cared. Me though? I wish I at least had a pair of pants on. 

He raised one eyebrow at Jo, this time his turn to ignore him since he knew what Jo was trying to do. "I hope you're not so crazy to make other babies soon," He said flatly before turning away from us and walking back from where he had come from. Hopefully back to bed where he'd fall into a deep slumber and think he dreamed everything that had just happened. 

"Don't worry, we got that covered," He said loud enough for him to hear, getting a shake of head from him and a slap on his chest from me. He looked down at me with his best innocent face, a silly one at that, "What baby?"

"You're such a smartass," I said seriously and shook my head, just like my father had. If the next words out of his mouth were to compare me to my dad? There was no way he could possibly get me to put out again tonight. My mood would be done for.

"I must not be so bad if you're in love with me," He grinned at me and I finally grinned back. He had me there. Smartass or not, he was mine. "Let's get you into your pajamas and get comfortable in bed."

"Are you being innocent in case my dad's still listening?" I faked a serious expression, even lifting my eyebrow. We used to sleep naked together, but that was before the girls. With Sienna walking around now, she was always sneaking into our room and climbing into bed with us.

He shrugged his shoulders and kept his eyes on me, lifting me up effortlessly and carrying me up the stairs towards the master bedroom. "We're locking the door tonight," He said with a face that matched mine.

I laughed and nuzzled his neck, pressing kisses up and down it to tease him. "Do you want me to yourself all night?" I whispered in his ear, pulling my head back enough to catch him opening the door and then closing it behind us. He made a point of locking it, walking straight for the bed and laying me down on it. I held my breath for a second and watched him step between my legs, his hands running up my thighs before reaching the shirts buttons and starting at the bottom, working his way up to the last one which freed my breasts. By the time he lowered his head to press a kiss between my breasts, I was already worked up. "You didn't answer my question..." I managed to trail off in a breathy voice, biting my lip as I looked at his perfect body.

"Didn't I?"