the mood it changes like the wind, hard to control when it begins.

the mood it changes like the wind, hard to control when it begins. di sassy

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Cami folded her arms across her chest and grinned as Gabe plugged his nose and jumped into the pool, her breathing stopping for a few seconds until his body reemerged again and he waved at us with a proud smile on his face. "Did you see that?!" He asked, eyes bouncing back and forth between both myself and Cami.

"You're amazing," She said with enthusiasm as he nodded, our little fish fitting in perfect and already wanting to spend the entire day in the sun.

"Can I go off the diving board yet?" He asked and pouted, his pout looking a lot like his mom's and that was why I wasn't immune to it. I never would.

She glanced at me and widened her eyes, no words needed for me to understand her terrified expression so I just shrugged my shoulders, "You should practice jumping in a few more times... The diving board could be pretty scary."

Gabe's head snapped back as his little hands gripped onto the ledge of the pool. He looked back at us with understanding eyes and nodded, "You're right papa, I'll practice with bellyflops!"

"Thank you," Cami said quietly, glancing sideways at me and biting her lip. 

Everytime she did that? I went a little more crazy, and that was a lot to say. Since our last night at her place I had been obsessing, replaying the hours we had spent together frame by frame as if it was a movie, focusing on the parts where my lips were on her neck, her legs tangled with mine, her mouth so close and tempting. Her panties. Still, I was managing to act like a gentlemen, keep the cuddling innocnet for real even if it was taking everything in me. I wanted her, I wanted to kiss her, to make love to her, to hold her close and never let her go, only she didn't show any sign of interest in that way. Or maybe it was just me. I was losing my mind. 

"I'm fine with playing bad cop every once in a while. Just don't make it a habit," I grinned when she turned her head to look at me.

She parted her lips to speak, right when a tidal wave of water interrupted her. She looked at the pool as I laughed beside her, Gabe's head already popping above the water and a chuckle escaping him. "I got you maman! You're soaked!" He grinned wide, looking pleased with himself.

"I noticed," She said flatly and shook her head. "No more bellyflops."

"Actually, you have a snack waiting for you in the kitchen," I said and she lifted an eyebrow, as if she hadn't even realized what time it was. I took it as a good sign, as if she was too relaxed to notice or wonder.

Gabe got out of the pool and walked over to her, letting her wrap him up in a towel, "Can I watch my shows while I eat?"

"You can baby," She told him and kissed the top of his head, walking over to the lounge chair that still had her towel from yesterday draped over it. I watched her situate herself on her stomach, her eyes following Gabe as he darted inside. The body of a goddess and a heart of gold, what else could a man want in a woman? I didn't want anything, or anyone, else. She folded her arms in front of her and smiled at me, "Time to relax."

"Come swimming with me," I said with a smirk, hoping that our son would busy himself enough for us to have some time alone. If we were lucky he would even nap.

She bit down on her lip and watched me step in the water, "I think I'll watch and enjoy the view instead."

I shook my head as I stretched my hand in her direction, set on convincing her. "You can't. Come on, don't leave me alone."

"Sure I can instead." She wrinkled her nose then smirked, using one hand to shield her eyes from the sun and look at me, "And you're not alone, I'm here."

"It's either you join me or if you want to watch you have to pay." I said seriously, not even considering to take no as an answer. We were halfway through our first week, our skin was getting darker and our hair lighter, somehow we even had a routine now that basically followed Gabe's needs and left us little time for us. That was night, when we watched a movie or read a book side by side before going to bed. And that was when my trouble started, because my hands itched to touch her and I had to keep them to myself instead.

Her smirk got wider as she caught the tip of her tongue between her teeth, giving me an amused look. "I'm more than willing to pay, if you're lucky I could even slip some bills into your speedo."

I let out a laugh, looking past her to check on Gabe through the glass window facing the pool. He was sitting on the couch and was eating so slow that I was sure he'd fall asleep way before finishing his snack. When my eyes went back to her I caught her looking at me chest and I couldn't help but give her a cocky grin that rarely touched my lips. "I don't accept money." I said seriously stretching my arm further in her direction, "But you have a choice. You can swim with me, or you can cook and wash the dishes tonight."

Her mouth dropped open, "That's not fair! Cooking and cleaning? No." She protested, even though the look on her face was too silly for me to take her seriously.

"Swimming with me can't be that bad, I'm begging you!" I frowned at her, being as silly as her as I dropped my arm along my side, "You even gave my arm a cramp."

"Okay, fine!" She gave up finally, her grin back to its place while she got up and walked over to where I was, her thin body shivering when she stepped in the water. "It's cold!"

I raised one eyebrow, my gaze dropping on her chest and staring at her hard nips poking though her bikini top. The things I wanted to do to her...I was going straight to hell, but at this point I didn't even care anymore because this was hell. Staying away from her was hell. "I can tell." I said simply, not able to bite my tongue.

"Ben." She said back in a tone that showed absolutely nothing, biting her lip and folding her arms over her chest, which didn't really help my case. 

I watched her cheeks getting red, a smile making its way on my face. "Don't be shy, it's just me." I said quietly and reached for her arm, giving it a gentle tug to pull her closer to me. One moment she was almost brushing against my body and the moment later she was pushing me into the deep water, catching me off guard and pressing her hands against my shoulder with all her strenght. My head disappeared under water as I let her play with me, but I wrapped my arms around her legs on my way back to the surface, lifting her body easily and throwing her in the water a second later, before she could even guess my intention. It felt so good, it was as if we were kids again.

"I'm going to kill you!" She said in a threatening voice as she re-emerged, her hands flattening her hair back and her eyes flaming with fury when she found me laughing at her. She looked exactly like when she was 10 and I did the same thing. Even back then, I loved her, even if I was 12 only.

Just as I was expecting, she swam to me, ready to fight but I blocked her before she could even start, wrapping my arms around her body. "No please." I said quietly as I smiled into her eyes, my heart speeding up like it did everytime we were so close.

"You'd deserve it, meanie face." She faked a pout before breaking into a small grin, her arms sneaking around my neck as she relaxed in my hold. She was just so gorgeous, she tool my breath away.

I held her tighter and didn't move my eyes from her, "Sorry cutie." I said, smile still in place as I brushed my nose against her but this time what followed wasn't a kiss on her cheek. I captured her lips with mine, softly, gently, tentatively, too lost in the moment to resist her. And god they felt so good. I pulled my head back after what felt like forever, even if it was just a few seconds, my heart close to explode because I didn't know if I had done the right thing, but I had done what I wanted instead.

Cami held her breath and leaned her chest into mine, her body responding to mine but the rest? Her face was blank, her mouth not letting out a sound. I wondered if I had gotten everything wrong, since we had started sleeping together I had the feeling that there was a chance that she could feel for me what I felt for her, that one day we'd both be able to admit how in love we still were and forgot all the other problems, including how our son would deal with us. 

"Cami," I started while her lips parted with her eyes locked on mine and before I could add a word, her mouth was back on mine, this time kissing me harder and making me forget everything. My hands dropped down to her ass, lifting her body up so her legs could wrap around me, not able to hold back this time. The damage had already been done, if there was any, so I'd better take this chance to have her, even if for a bunch of seconds, even if it could be the last time.

Her tongue slipped in my mouth and mine in hers, both of us fighting for dominance and it was killing me. The bond we had been ignoring for years was still there, stronger than ever. Her arms were wrapped tight around me and when she broke the kiss her lips moved down to my neck and she was breathing hard. "Oh my god," She whispered, which was usually a good sign, but right now? I had no clue.

"Look at me," I said quietly, but she did the opposite by kissing my neck, teasing me like I had the other night. If I had thought I was going crazy before, now I was beyond that point. Her lips parted enough to bite down gently on my neck, sucking as a groan left my mouth. My palm slid flat up her back and found the strings of her bikini, messing with them as I tried to untie it. "Jesus," I groaned at the knotted strings as her lips kept moving on my neck and up to the place behind my ear that used to be our special place. During all these years we had been through a lot, good times and bad times, but right now all I could think about were the good ones, because I wanted them back.

She pulled her head back and my eyes found hers again, her chest still heaving up and down as I searched her eyes for what neither of us were saying. "I double knotted it," She said finally, her words making no sense to me. I gave her a blank look, since I wasn't expecting that at all. "My top... the strings I mean," She went on, her cheeks burning furiously.

I pushed away the confusion starting to grow in my thoughts, knowing that if I didn't want to ruin everything or make a fool of myself I had to react in the right way. I let out a laugh, a small one and a little forced, trying to make the moment lighter even if it was hard. "It makes sense, you can never know if someone's trying to get you naked." I joked, wanting to ease the tension between us even though in all honesty I didn't know what to think. She hadn't even be able to look at me, then she had kissed me, and now she had stopped me. Maybe I should have gone slower, but I couldn't help it, I wanted her desperatly.

She bit down on her lip and the look into those big dark eyes got so intense that I was having a hard time not glancing away. "Ben-" She started, but I wasn't ready to hear what she wanted to say. Hell I didn't know what to say myself.

"It's okay cutie." I cut her off with a smile, my hands cupping her face as I set my forehead against hers, back to be the Ben who try to be innocent. I hated it. "Let's get out before your hands get all pruney."

She slid her hands down my chest, her face unreadable, "You always worry too much."

"Says the overprotective mom." I raised one eyebrow at her, doing my best to sound causual when truth was I was dying to know what she was thinking. When she finally smiked a little and shrugged, but didn't say more, I went on. "I always worry for the people I love." I added.

"But I'm fine." She protested in a quiet tone, almost giving me the impression she didn't want to get out really. I didn't want that either, but I also didn't want to f.uck up the chance I had with her by going too fast or telling her everything I had on my mind. It was too soon.

"We can lay down under the sun for a while until our cutie wakes up, okay?" I suggested and waited for her reaction. I stared into her eyes and when she nodded, I leaned a little closer since I wanted at least another kiss. I needed to find a way to know where she was in this situation. Her head angled just so slightly, enough for me to know that I could kiss her. And I did, parting my lips to capture hers again, so many feelings going through my chest as I kept it soft and innocent, before pulling away regretfully but with a smile on my face. "Perfect."

"The kiss or cuddling under the sun?" Cami asked, surprising me again. Before I could answer, she walked over to the pools ladder and started climbing out, while I followed, keeping my body as close to hers as possible.

"Both," I replied while she grabbed a towel for me first and held it out. Taking it in my hand, I used my other hand to grasp her waist and turn her body so her back was facing me. The towel wrapped around her body but stayed open in the front, my hands drying her stomach first while she leaned her back into me. They moved slowly down to her thighs with my body pressing hard against hers, since the more time it passed the more I realized that she wasn't against me being all over her. At all.

"Ben..." She trailed off with my name coming out as more of a moan than a whisper. 

"Do you want to lay the towels out or go back to the lounge chair?" I asked instead, trying to not get too carried even though my hands were now wrapped around her middle.

"The chairs," She replied. She turned back around, lifting her head up to look at me, "You don't need me to dry you off?"

My lips parted, considering her offer which was of course a very tempting one, but I smiled instead of speaking, bending my head lower to kiss her forehead. "You're going to kill me Cami," I said with my smile still in place, reaching for her hand as I pulled away and leading her over to the chairs.

"Me? I'm doing nothing," She said honestly and innocently.

I tossed my head over my shoulder to look at her with an eyebrow raised. I might have been the one kissing her first but nothing? Nothing my ass. "Should I take all the blame now?" I asked and my smile turned into a smirk since her innocent act didn't match her actions at all. If I wasn't wrong, she had moaned because of my touch less than 5 minutes before.

She bit down on her lip and nodded her head, stopping next to the chairs when I did but still holding my hand. "I think so. You know I'd never kill you." She said as she tried keeping a straight face and failed, breaking into a grin.

I sat on one of the chairs, throwing one leg over the other side of the seat to make room for Cami. "Well, since I'm the one doing everything and I'm basically trying to kill myself I better enjoy it at least." I said in a playful tone, giving a gentle tug to her arm, "Come here."

Her smirk only get wider and she didn't protest, instead she sat between my legs immediatly. "Don't die please, it'd be awful to see you dead." She said back as we kept being silly which was always what we could do better over having a serious conversation.

"Eh." I sighed, my arms wrapping around her waist as she adjusted her back against my chest, her ass basically resting on my dick and making me suppress a groan. I tilted my head down and nuzzled her neck, inhaling her sweet scent and letting my hands explore her flat stomach, "I don't know if I can survive. Or resist."

"Then don't," Cami tilted her head to a side, setting a hand on top of mine. I never had idea of what her next move could be. Or if she was about to stop me again.

"Don't survive??" I laughed as she tilted her head to look into my eyes again, her eyes bouncing back and forth between mine and my lips. If she wanted to kiss me as bad as I wanted to kiss her, she had to be pretty frustrated too.

She wrinkled her nose, "No silly."

I kept my eyes on her but nipped at her neck, "Then what?"

"Don't resist," She clarified with a smile, using her free hand to grab a fistful of my hair and gently yank my head closer to hers. Wasting no time, she pressed her lips against mine. Finally. It was like when we were both teenagers and we couldn't keep our hands to ourselves, when she was my whole life. Her hand dropped down my neck, landing on her own neck while she kept kissing me, her fingers working at the knot around her neck. The strings dropped and it fell around her waist, her other hand guiding mine up to her breasts.

At that I about died. I wasn't expecting that, but it was exactly what I wanted. I kept my lips glued to hers as I cupped her breast gently, kneading her soft flesh and groaning when she moaned, the sound music to my ears. When my fingers found her nip, I furrowed my brows and broke the kiss to stare into her eyes. "What's this?" I asked, the tone of my voice surprised as I angled my head to look at her breasts. There, shining under the rays of sun, there was a piercing I had never seen before. Of course. "Good god Cami." I widened my eyes a little, the view so sexy my breath caught in my throat and my d.ick getting harder on the spot.

She bit down on her lip and blushed, her gaze following mine before going back to my face. "I got it a while ago." She confessed in a small voice, almost shyly, her tone not matching her actions at all. That was exactly what drove me crazy about her, the perfect mix of innocence and naughty.

"Fuck it's so hot." I muttered under my breath as I gave it a tentative small pull, making her moan again. Her back arched against my chest and her head leaned against my shoulder, my free hand adjusting her body so that now she was straddling one of my thighs and her arm was around my neck. "I want to bite it." I groaned.

"Do it." She breathed out, her chest heaving up and down in anticipation as her whole body felt on fire. 

"You couldn't get any more sexy even if you tried." I sucked in a breath as I tilted my head down and parted my lips to take her pierced nip in my mouth, my teeth capturing it while my tongue teased its tip. My free hand traveled down her stomach and slid to her upper tight, massaging her skin slowly while I felt my brain shut down completely. I lost it, there was no turning back from this point, all I wanted to do was her and worship her until she'd come against my hand, moaning my name and forgetting anyone else.

Cami bit down on her lip and kept her eyes locked on me and my movements, my tongue darting out to tease her nipple had her moaning again just like I knew she would. Dropping her eyes down to my hand, she breathed a little heavier and watched it inch closer to her pussy. "I think I could instead," She whispered and my eyes flicked back up to hers, leaving me wonder what her next move would be.

"Prove me wrong," I said back, grinning and letting my thumb play with her nipple. She leaned her back against me and guided my mouth back to hers, letting me taste her lips against after what had felt like forever when it had been just a bunch of minutes instead. I had been wanting her for so long that now even a second without her seemed too long. "I'm waiting," I said with my lips still pressed against hers, my lips curved into a smile.

"How?" She gave me her best innocent face before smirking.

"That's up to you," My grin widened as I placed my lips on her neck and kissed up it, her eyes closing for a moment but the expression on her face still giving her away, twisted in pleasure. The fact that she wasn't looking at me though, worried me a little.

"What are we doing Ben?" She asked point blank, confirming my fears. She was thinking a lot more than she showed.

I pulled my head back slightly, just enough to look her in the eye again. I was still turned on, sill willing to pleasure her, but she had just stopped a hell of a question. I knew what I was doing, what I wanted, but I was clueless about Cami and what this meant to her. "Does this feel wrong?" I asked, doubt in my voice since I was afraid she was starting to regret this already. "I can stop Cami."

"It feels right instead," She said quietly and smiled, adjusting her back against me as she pushed her legs apart. Keeping her eyes locked on mine, I slid a hand into her bikini bottoms and making it obvious what she was doing.

Once again, she got me confused, her words from seconds before so heavy and her actions not leaving room for a decent answer instead because she had to know that with her touching herself I woud never be able to even think about it. Still, it was there, in the back of my mind, bothering me. "You're making me lose my mind." I confessed even if it was no mystery at that point, my dick so hard against her a.ss that it was aching and begging for release, only I was willing to put her and her pleasure before my own, even if that meant I'd have a bad case of blue balls. But what was new about that?

"Touch me Ben." She demanded in a sexy whisper, her head perfectly nestled against the crook of my neck while her hand moved under the fabric.

I wrapped my arm around her chest, pushing her breasts together and groaning at the view, as my free hand reached for the string of her bikini bottom. "I want to see you." I said quietly and awallowed, giving the strap a tug and hoping it wouldn't be double knotted again or I'd look like an idiot. I was lucky this time and I undid the knot easily. I held my breath, my eyes watching closely as I pushed a side of the triangle shaped fabric and exposed her p.ussy and her hand. I nearly died. Again. "F.uck Cami."

"You're making me do all the work." She flashed me a sexy grin, her cheeks bright red as she turned her head to the side to moan against my neck before she started sucking on my skin.

"Only because I'm not sure if you want me to help you." I said in a quiet tone, admitting my insecurities. My hand wrapped around her arm and moved down her silky until I found her own hand.

"Yes." She breathed out and stilled, her fingers letting mine covering them as she nibbled at my neck.

"Let me take care of you." I said in a voice that resembled more a groan, even though it wasn't just my lust for her talking. I wanted to take care of her in innocent ways too. My fingers tips finally made contact with her pussy, dipping into her wetness and causing a low growl escape my chest. "Fuck you're so wet."

Cami shut her eyes and moaned again, this time louder and deeper at the same time, if it made any sense. Her hand slid up to her clit and she rubbed it while I pushed two fingers inside of her and pumped them back and forth, slowly, while I was lost in the view. "For you," She breathed out, scraping her teeth against my neck and shivering. "Oh my god."

My lips moved down to her neck and her head rolled back, her pussy already clenching around my fingers and I had barely started. "And tight," I growled in her ear, her eyes fluttering open to find mine on her. She tightened up against my fingers again and I groaned, "Are you trying to kill me?"

"No," She smiled, tangling her free hand in my hair again and trying to keep me as close to me as possible even if it never felt close enough for me. "I want you so bad right now..."

"I'm right here," I replied with a grin, flicking my eyes down to where our hands were, hers still rubbing and mine pumping. It felt so good it was unreal.

"More I mean," Her hand move up to her breast and she cupped it, kneading it while moans kept escaping her lips. Giving it one last squeeze, she dropped her hand onto my erection and ran it back and forth across my length, "Let me see you."

Her touch killed me, a low growl escaping my chest and making my whole body vibrate. "God Cami." I said unintelligenly, my fingers going deeper inside of her. Despite how much I wanted, craved, even needed, her hands on me, I knew that if she started I wouldn't be able to stop.

"It's only fair." She breathed out as she shot me a sexy grin, squeezing me gently in her palms.

It took everything in me to reach for her wrist with my free hand and pull her hand away from my erection gently, the move going against everything I wanted. "I wouldn't last." I confessed, "Let me take care of you, it's all about you now." I explained as I stared into her eyes. If I let her give me a handjob we'd end up fucking for sure and I wanted it, but I also wanted to take one step at time, enjoy every second of if without rushing into things. She parted her lips but before she could say anything I captured them with mine, kissing her tenderly yet deeply.

She rocked her hips against my hand, silently asking for more as she bit my lip and pulled her head back in the process. "Are you spoling me?" She asked in a breathy voice and smiled, letting me know that she was okay with my decision. Or at least I hoped so.

"I'm trying." I grinned at her, shifting my body and sliding my fingers out of her before grabbing her tingy body by her waist. "Turn around Cami."

She did as I said, straddling my lap while her eyes filled with anticipation. She was so hot and beautiful, she took my breath away. "I miss your fingers." She said coyly, a blush creeping on her cheeks.

I took in her body once again, my eyes traveling up and down then stopping on her face, "I miss you." I said simply and moved my hand back between her legs to push two fingers inside of her, "I want to see you come while you ride my hand."

Cami threw her head back and moaned, my hand on her cheek instantly to bring her eyes back to mine. Her hips were moving against my hand, spasming around my fingers tight while she set her hands on my shoulders, moving one to cup the back of my neck. "I'd rather cum against you..." She trailed off, biting down on her lip as her eyes dropped down my chest, all the way to my erection. 

The invitation was a tempting one, the most tempting actually, and the only thing that stopped me from saying yes was that I knew that it would happen eventually. "You will," I replied, tilting her chin back up to hold her gaze. 

"Your dick," She clarified and smirked, moving her hips at a steady pace. 

A grin played on my lips as I curled my fingers in her and she just about screamed, loud moans escaping her instead and making her groan. "I know," I said, not able to say anything more. 

"Oh my god!" Her breathing started getting heavy as her hips kept rolling, "When?"

"Be patient." I answered, pride filling me since her impatience showed me how much she still wanted me, how she wouldn't change her mind overnight to as soon as I was done with her. I would never be done with her actually. 

She set her forehead against mine then pulled back slightly to press a kiss against it, then my nose, and finally my mouth. She was barely riding my fingers now, still moving slowly on top of me but also focusing on my lips and pouring herself into that kiss. "I've never been patient when it comes to you," She whispered between kisses, deepening the kiss and letting me swallow her moans, letting me know it wouldn't be long until she came. "Fuck Ben," She cried out as my lips left hers in favor of moving down the front of her neck. 

I felt her coming against my fingers, clutching around them tightly as I kept pumping them in and out of her, my other hand reaching between our bodies to rub her clit roughly. I looked up at her face while my lips didn't leave her chest, planting kisses in the process while my fingers kept moving in the right way to make her orgasm last. And it did, my name falling from her lips again and again as she rocked her hips against my hand fast and her face twisted in pleasure, such a sexy one that I was hypnotised.

"Oh my god!" She said one last time before going still, her body collapsing on top of mine a second later and her juices sliding down my hand as a proof of how hard she had just come.

I wrapped my arm around her body, taking in all I could. The way she was pressed against me, how her head was nestled against the crook of my neck, the still labored breathing making her torso heave up and down quickly...everything felt just perfect and I couldn't be more content. "Tired?" I asked, breaking the silence and tilting my head down to nuzzle her neck.

She slowly turned her head to finally look at me, her cheeks pink and her lips curved into a small smile. I had no idea of what was going to happen now, but I hoped it was something good. "No. I could do it all over again." She said in a breathy voice as her smile turned into a smirk.

At that I laughed softly, happy that there was no awkwardness between us. Hell I still had my fingers inside of her. "Are you sure? You looked as if you were about to faint." I joked because I knew that we couldn't have a serious conversation right now. I didn't even want to, I just wanted to enjoy the moment.

"Hey!" She protested and frowned, pinching my side with her bony fingers before running her hands up my chest and wrapping them around my neck.

"Ouch." I said with my grin still in place before sliding my fingers out of her, a soft whimper leaving her lips. "You're beautiful instead." I said seriously, staring at her glowing face then pressing a firm kiss on her lips.

Cami adjusted on my lap, my poor erection underneath her and my balls more blue than ever. Pivoting her hips, she grinded against me and I groaned into her mouth, tangling a hand in her hair to hold her head in place. Her lips parted more and I kissed her deeper, feeling as impatient as I had been when waiting to have sex with her for the first time. And just like back then, I knew now that time was still needed.  "God," I growled with my lips still against hers, sinking my teeth into her bottom lip and giving it the smallest of tugs. 

She grinned, playing with the band on my bottoms and making it nearly impossible for me not to give up and take her. "I need a shower..." She whispered with her eyes on mine, hinting that she wanted me to join her but I ignored that. 

"Me too," I replied and smirked, "A cold one."

"Won't you shower with me instead?" She tilted her head to a side, her hair falling over her shoulder as she looked at my body while I looked at hers instead. I wasn't sure if perfect was the right word to describe her, she was even better than that both on the outside and the inside. No wonder why i wanted her back, I didn't even know how I had managed to spend so many years ignoring the fact that I was still in love with her.

I slid my hands down to her back, resting just above her ass, "Oh, was that an invitation?" 

She nodded slowly, her nipples hardening against my chest. "Will you come shower with me Ben?" She said so quietly, almost whispering. With a grin back on her place, she leaned her chest into mine again and went straight for the spot behind my ear that I loved her kissing. "Please," She added, kissing the spot and then down my neck, both her words and actions driving me insane.

"How can I resist you?" I asked in a low groan, resting my head against the chair and closing my eyes a moment as I let myself go, lost in how she was making me feel.

Her kisses turned into small nibbles, her hands moving down my sides and stopping on my hips. "Don't." She said simply and with that? Fuck my good intentions, I wanted her too much.

I cupped her a.ss, forcing her to grind against my hips as I lifted them, "Where?" I asked and smirked, watching her as she pulled her head back to look at me, a spark in her eyes I knew well.

She glanced over her shoulder before staring at me again, her teeth sinking into her bottom lip, "I've always liked taking showers under the sun." She said with a fake innocent expression on her beautiful face.

I groaned again as I lifted myself in a sitting position, already thinking about the moment when I'd bury myself deeper inside of her, pressing her hard against the tiles. "Me too." I smirked at her as my eyes bore into hers, my lips pressing against hers when her smirk matched mine. I wondered how we looked from the outside, both half naked and grinning like idiots, tangled one with the other.

"What are we waiting for?" She whispered against my mouth, anticipation flashing into her dark eyes.

I parted my lips, holding her closer to me in order to get up when a tiny voice we both knew too well cut in the air. "Maman?" 

We froze, panic on Cami's face while I mentally kicked my ass for not considering that our son could have been popped out any moment. I didn't even want to start thinking about what that said about what kind of father I was. "Get in the pool, I'm going to find him." I said quietly, guessing that at least I had my clothes in place, even if that was just a triangle of fabric that made pretty obvious how bad I wanted her. My son had the worst timing, I wondered where he got that from.

Cami slipped off my lap, easing her body into the pool and grabbing the ledge with her hands. "Will you hand me my bottoms please?" She asked and grinned, trying to make light of the moment as she reached for her top off the ground, struggling to put it on. I had never hated a piece of fabric so much in my whole life. 

"Yeah," I stood up, her eyes raking over every inch of m body as she bit into her bottom lip and stopped on my erection. Good god, she was driving me nuts.

"Thank you," She smiled at me and reached for my hand as I went to hand the bottoms over, her grabbing my wrist instead as she pushed her body up. "One more kiss?"

I cracked a grin and dropped the bottoms on the ground, tangling a hand in her hair and kissing her one last time, more chaste than the last few, but perfect none the less. "Papa!!!" Gabe's voice broke through the silence again and she pulled her head back, smirking as she lifted the bikini bottoms from off the ground. 

"You better go find him before he finds us," She told me, getting dressed in the water.

I took a deep breath, trying to remember that there was a kid out there, our kid, who needed our attention, but damn it was hard when I wanted to finish what I had started with his mom. "That's probably a good idea," I replied with my eyes on her chest, her hands reaching behind her neck to tie the strings together. My eyes moved back up to meet hers and then I smiled again, turning around and heading towards the house as I thought that we still had time to spend together alone, now it was time to be parents instead. I had no idea of what was on her mind, what she could possibly think about what had just happened, but I was more than positive that I'd talk to her about what I wanted from us and I wouldn't act like I had done in the past.

"Ben?" Cami said quickly, before I had the chance to get out of reach from her. I turned around with an eyebrow lifted, waiting for her to speak, an uneasy feeling setting in my stomach. "We're okay right? I mean, it won't be like last time where things got weird?"

I parted my lips then closed them again, understanding where she was going with that. As days had passed from that our last night together and stretched into weeks, months, years, I had started forgetting why I had let her go but I hadn't forgotten how stupid that had been from me. "Weird?" I repeated, stopping in my tracks ad I stared at her.

She nodded as she bit down on her lip, looking someway fragile. "You know what I mean." She answered quietly, her eyes not leaving mine and making my chest tighten, guilt spreading through me like poison.

I walked back to her, getting on my knees to cup her face in my hands. "I'm so sorry about that Cami, the way it went..." I trailed off, not able to give her a decent excuse and that was probably because there wasn't one.

"It's okay, it's in the past." She said hurriedly, as if she didn't want to hear what I was trying to say, "But now I was just wondering-"

I cut her off and pressed a kiss on her lips, my eyes boring into hers. "This is not like the last time, at all. I think we're okay...more than okay if you ask me." I said after pulling my head back just enough to talk.

A smile curved her lips and whatever that means, I hoped it was a good sign. Mine wasn't the best speech of the year but at least it was something. "Okay." She nodded, her face adorable as she leaned in for another quick kiss.

"Maman!!!" Gabe called out again, this time his voice a lot closer than before.

His beautiful mom broke into a grin, keeping her eyes on mine as I got up again, "He's so loud sometimes."

"I wonder where he got that from." I let my grin match hers as I ran my hands through my hair, my head turning around just in time to catch sight of out little man marching toward us with a frown on his face, "We're here."

"I couldn't find you." He said walking to me and wrapping his arms around my leg like he used to do when he was even more little and he could barely walk. 

Cami stretched her hand out and reached for his butt, pinching it. "Did you miss us?" She asked in a sweet tone that made me melt every time.

He pursed his lips together, letting go of me in favor of easying himself into the pool, his arms wrapping around her neck instantly. "A little." He admitted eventually, kissing her cheek and holding her as if he never wanted to let go.

I sat on the ledge of the pool, grinning at my cuties as I watched them. "Hey, leave some maman for me too."