You make me crazy, you make me wild

You make me crazy, you make me wild by nadiaa featuring a skull purse

"Cam, why did I let you talk me into this?!" I breathed into the mouthpiece of my iPhone, as I was in the cab on the way to the restaurant. 

I could feel her smirking on the other line, "Because you forced me to go on a blind date."

I sighed, "You already knew him and I was there with you! You forced me to go out all alone to meet a random guy who might just stand me up."

"First of all, you are hot, so he'd be crazy to stand you up. Second of all, I wanted to but I have Gabe so I can't."

I breathed out, "Fine. Just tell me it's going to be okay. Just I'm freaking out."

She laughed, "It's funny to hear you like this."

"Shut up Sis." I growled, "I haven't been on a date in over a year. I'm nervous."

She sighed, "You're going to be fine. He's a great guy, one of Dante's friends… I promise it will go well."

"Fine, I'll call you after with details."

"Good luck." She said, hanging up as the cab pulled out in front of the restaurant. I paid the driver and stepped out as my heart started racing. It was a friday night and totally busy, so I wasn't sure who 'he' was. I knew his name was Dominic and that was it.

I walked inside and it was just as busy as I walked towards the hostess stand before I was stopped my a handsome gentleman.

"You must be Mila!" He said as I looked nervous, "Don't worry, I could tell cause you look so much like Camille. I'm Dominic, but most people just call me Dom."

I bit my lip and smiled, "Yeah. Nice to meet you Dom."

He placed his hand on the small of my back as he guided us towards a table, "I got us a table already. What do you drink?" He asked, pulling my chair out for me to sit down.

"Just a glass of sauvignon blanc." I said with a smile as he beckoned the waiter over, taking our drink orders.

"I'm really glad Cam set us up." He grinned at me, "She told me you just got out of a relationship… but I didn't want to wait. Who knows how long you'd be single."

I chuckled, "I don't think I'll be in a serious relationship for a while… I just want to have fun." I blinked my eyes at me, "But not too much fun." I said quickly, hoping he didn't get the wrong idea.

He nodded with a laugh, "I understand."

I swallowed, "And I'm really nervous. I haven't been on a date in a long time…"

He smiled and nodded again, "Relax. No pressure."

"Thanks." I sighed as my eyes caught a familiar face.

"Hey." Ames said, walking up to Dom and I's table and pulled me into a hug.

I pulled away, "Dom, this is my friend Ames. Ames, this is Dominic, my date." I smiled as Dom shook his hand and then Ames motioned to the girl he was with.

"This is Laurel, she works in PR at BMM." He said as she smiled and then looked at me.

"You're Milena Schon!" She said excitedly, "I'm totally addicted to your blog.

I smiled back at her and appreciated it, "Oh thanks." I said, feeling my cheeks warm, "Your shoes are amazing."

She beamed and started going on and on about how they were her first pair of Louboutin and she worked so hard for them. I couldn't lie, they were insanely gorgeous and I was envious. We just kept talking until Dom interrupted us.

"Hate to break up the girl talk but did you two want to get a table with us? Is that okay Mila?" He asked me.

I nodded with a big smile, "Of course!" I said happily as Ames and his date squeezed in next to us; Ames and I sitting next to our dates, but also next to each other, our legs brushing each other.

"I didn't know you were back to dating Mila?" Ames grinned at me as he placed his napkin over his lap.

I laughed, "Camille set us up." I told him, "She's incredibly head strong, plus I owe her." I grinned at Dom, making him smirk.

"Thanks?" He asked with an eyebrow raise.

I giggled, "I'm kidding. I think it was time. I wouldn't come on this date if I didn't want to come." I told him honestly as I placed my hand over his and nodded.

"I know Mila. So how do you two know each other?" He asked as he nodded to Ames and I.

"Family friends. We grew up together and now we work at the same modeling agency." I told him, "Basicalbmmly he's always there." I nudged him, teasingly.

"I'd like to think of it being as the little squirt is always there, not the other way around. I was born first."

I rolled my eyes, "Funny."

"So Mila, how's going to all those fancy fashion shows?" Laurel asked with a sparkle in her eyes. It was common when people met me so I wasn't turned off by it.

I nodded, "Yeah, it's pretty nice." I grinned, "I went to Versace's show last week and there were amazing gowns that of course aren't practical, but they were gorgeous none the less."

She grinned and nodded, "You are so lucky! Do you get free things and stuff?"

I nodded, "Sometimes." I smiled at her, "It's just really nice being in the front row seeing all of it. It's my passion."

"But you work PR, that has to be more interesting than watching boring clothes all day." Dom said with a small laugh. Wow. Thanks?

I breathed out, trying to keep calm… Not to say that didn't hurt…

Suddenly I felt someone take my hand and squeezed it. My head shot towards Ames who gave me a smile as his date and mine were off in their own world, talking about something.

I felt like we were in our own world until Dom interrupted, "What do you do Ames?" He asked, after what seemed like forever…

"Ames is BMM's lawyer." I said with a smile, making Dom widen his eyes as he let out a low whistle.

"So you work directly with the Lindsell's? Wow." He said as he leaned back in his chair, making me roll my eyes.

"Corey is my brother in law." Ames said with a smile, "So yeah, I'd say I work directly with them."

"Holy shit!" Dom swallowed, "So you're saying you know Chloe Lindsell? Her maxim shoot." He said, letting another whistle out and now I just really wanted to leave. It's not like I was here or anything… but thanks for commenting on how one of my closest friends.

"Chloe's one of my best friends." I said in a hard voice, upset at this all.

"Wow. I didn't know." He grinned at me as the waiter came over to take our orders. I was ready to head home.

I felt Ames fingers brush my thigh and it was like an electric shock, it felt so weird and great at the same time. It was a few moments before I felt Ames's fingers running over my thigh again. I stared at him and neither of us said anything… It just felt like the entire world was standing still and the only thing I could think about was him and his hand on me. We just kept eye contact.

"Shit, I have to take this." Dominic's voice said, bringing me out of my daze as he walked away. I felt almost breathless and barely noticed Laurel excusing herself to go to the restroom.

Ames thumb was still on my leg as he lightly caressed, "Ames…" I managed to breath out, but I felt paralyzed.

"Shouldn't you be going with her? Don't girls go to the bathroom in pairs?" He asked me.

I ignored his question, "What are you doing?" I breathed out once more.

"Tell me to stop." He said and I felt like there was a fire in me… What was this? What was all this about?

Suddenly both our dates reappeared and he pulled his hand away from me like I had the plague.

I swallowed, trying to gather myself, "What was that?" I asked Dom.

"Work." He shook his head as put the phone away. Suddenly I was having flashbacks to when that's all Braden would do.

I breathed out, "I need another drink." I said waving down the waiter, "Can I have a mai tai please?" I asked, needing something stronger than wine.

My heart was racing like crazy because of whatever just happened with Ames. I felt breathless and I had no idea what to say next. All I could think about was how his hand felt on my thigh. It wasn't too long before our food came out and we dug in. I thanks god because I was still confused about what to say next. I quickly dug into my surf and turf as I tried to not speak… 

"How's your steak?" Dom asked with curious eyes. Thank god he just asked me about the food…

I smiled, "Really good. Perfectly cooked medium and the shrimp is great too." I was someone who ate… a lot. I glanced at Laurel's garden salad and smirked to myself. Who wanted to eat rabbit food when this restaurant was the best in the city?

Suddenly Dom's phone went off again, "Sh.it." He cursed out, "I am so sorry Mila."

I nodded, "It's okay, take it."

He gave me an apologetic look as he walked off. I swallowed and sighed as I started stuffing my face with mashed potatoes. Nothing helped like carbs did.

"You okay?" Ames asked me, nudging me.

"I'm fine." I gave him a fake smile and all it did was remind me of Braden and what he used to do to me… Honestly I was thinking it was too early to date.

Dom walked back, "There's an emergency at work. One of my clients is freaking out and he's one of the best I have. I'm so sorry Mila."

I shrugged, "It's okay." I said with another fake smile, "I'm tired anyways." I lied.

"Take my food to go. I already paid for our meals. I am so sorry."

I shrugged and gave him a parting hug, "Don't worry about it."

I turned towards Ames and his date, "I'm let you two get back to your date and head home."

"Mila don't go home yet." Laurel spoke up, "I want to pick your brain." She grinned.

"Don't go home yet Milena…" Ames said slowly.

I sighed, "I don't want to be the third wheel on your romantic date." I chuckled, "I'll be fine." I told them as I packed up my food and started to leave, but I heard Ames voice.

"Milena, let me walk you home."

"You're date is in there!" I gave him a small smile, "I'm fine!"

"She told me to go with you… I think she preferred your date over me." He grinned, "Please let me walk you home."

I sighed and nodded, "Okay."

We walked in silence for a couple blocks before I looked over at him, "You… your hand…" I started, running my hand through my hair as I looked at the ground.

"That guy was an a.sshole. You deserve better." He said, making me blink at him. Why was he completely ignoring my question before.

"I think I might give up on men." I said with a shrug.

He nodded, "Good idea." He gave me a smirk that angered me.

"Now I'll just be in it for the sex." I smirked as his jaw set and he almost growled, "What?" I asked.

"That's a terrible idea." He retorted as I set my hands across my chest as we kept walking.

"It's what you do." I said simply.

"I'm not just in it for the sex." He argued back, but it was complete bullshit.

"Oh? you talk all this shit about how you're never going to fall in love again, that Odette was the one and the only one you're ever going to get, but yet you still take women out, you're still dating. If you're not just doing it for sex, what are you doing it for?" I said, angry.

"Fuck." He breathed out as he looked forward.

"I'm not judging you Ames. I don't expect you to be abstinent or anything." I joked, trying to relax the situation.

"Right…" He swallowed, "I'm sorry about tonight. I shouldn't have… I didn't mean to…" He struggled to say.

"Don't worry about it." I shook my head, my ego a little hurt, "I have nice legs, guys try to feel me up under the table all the time." I winked, trying to joke about the situation that actually did hurt my feelings. He just about growled and I took it back, "Kidding! But really don't worry about it." I shrugged, realizing that the most electrifying moment of my life in a very long time meant absolutely nothing to him…

"Okay…" He said scratching the back of his neck.

I swallowed, "I still don't understand why you're acting this way." I said, bringing up what happened at dinner again, not being able to let it go.

"What do you mean?" He asked and I was unsure if it was real or not.

I crossed my arms over my chest, "I mean first there was the brushing of the legs and then your hands were on my thighs? That's not a normal behavior."

"I don't know what got into me Mila…" He trailed off.

"Stop! Just stop bullshitting me Ames. You know why. I don't understand why you can't just tell me. Aren't we friends?" I asked, wishing it could be more than that.

"I think I was trying to comfort you." He looked away, "He was being an as.shole."

"Okay." I said quickly, irritated at the whole situation. I went on a date with a guy who couldn't stop talking on the phone or to another woman. Then this guy couldn't see me other than a friend… a sister more so than anything. Was there something wrong with me?! Because I couldn't keep a guy or even attract one worth a damn.

"I'm sorry Milena." He said and that pushed me over the edge.

I stopped and turned to him, hardening my face, "Stop saying that! One minute you're brushing your fingers on my skin and then next it's like I have the plague and you can't touch me."

"Milena-"

I interrupted, "No, don't say anything! Ames, why do you do this? You are so thick." I said, scoffing as I hurried off, but he kept following.

"Thick? What are you talking about?" He asked as I suddenly stopped and turned around, pulling Ames into me and kissing him on his lips, but it felt like we were cousins… He was so stiff and tightlipped that it made my stomach churn. It had to have been me…

I pulled away, "That Ames. That's what I'm talking about." I said walking quicker away from him, trying not to cry.

"Milena!" He yelled out, trying to stop me but all I wanted to do was go home and have some ice cream.

"Ames, please don't."

I rushed into my building and headed quickly to the elevator and stepped in before Ames could stop me. I just wanted to cry; was there something wrong with me?

When the door opened Ames was already standing there, making me groan, "Go home Ames." I told him as I brushed past him to get to my door.

"Mila…" He shook his head, "Why are you so upset?! What is going on?" He asked.

I turned around, furious and glared, "Are you fucking kidding me?! There is no way you could be so stupid." I shook my head as I tried to slam the door in his face, but he blocked it with his arm as he followed me inside, slamming the door behind him.

"I'm a lot of things, but stupid isn't one of them." He said, making me glare.

"Well you could have fooled me! One minute your hand is up my skirt and then next you're kissing me like I'm your great aunt Bertha!! What the fuck?!" I yelled at him.

"Are you mad because I crossed a line with you tonight, or because I didn't kiss you back?" He asked slowly.

"It's like you can't decide whether or not to resist me Ames, it's infuriating!!" I told him with a yell.

He narrowed his eyes, "I've been resisting you for five fucking years Milena. I'm not going to stop now." He said roughly as I was taken aback.

I just blinked at him, confused. What did he just say?

"I thought I was a sister to you…" I said in a slow voice.

He groaned and slammed his fist against the wall, making me jump, "I say that to try and convince myself. To try and not think of you as anything but a woman who is completely off limits to me. It doesn't work all the time. God the things I think about you… you would hate me."

I shook my head and ran my fingers through my hair, "Try me." I told him hard and strong, but he just shook his head, "You think you can scare me away? Try." I told him.

He growled and set his jaw, "Right now, I'm thinking about using the ties on your curtains to bind your hands above your head and then take you against the wall." Holy shit. That was all I could think about now…

"Tonight when your hand was on my thigh… Ames, I've never been more turned on in my entire life." I told him honestly, "Are you telling me I could have had more for five fucking years and you kept your hands off of me to be honorable?!" I screamed.

"I'm not good for you." He said roughly.

"Good for me?" I narrowed my eyes at him, "One haven't I told you more than once that you're an amazing guy-"

"I drove a women to take drugs! She needed drugs to be with me!! An amazing guy wouldn't do that." He shook his head.

I rolled my eyes, "Stop feeling so sorry for yourself Ames! Odette had problems because of herself! She's probably always had problems and it just happened to come out when she dated you." I sighed, "I know you hate hearing this, but you're a catch."

"And I'm just going to hurt any woman…" He told me, "Especially you."

I rolled my eyes, "You keep using that excuse! I'm not some delicate flower Ames. I'm an adult!"

"It doesn't matter. I grew up with you. I can take a chance on hurting some other woman, but not you! I refuse!! You're too amazing and special for that to happen.

I rolled my eyes, "I just don't understand why you think you would…" I breathed out.

"Because I'm emotionally unavailable!! Yes, I'm dating because I want to sleep around, but to emotionally involve someone in my life is hard! I don't want someone to fall for me when I can't fall for them."

I growled, "God, why are you so damn stubborn?! Who says that I need a relationship? What if I just needed some good old fashion sex?!"

He groaned, "Don't say that."

I shrugged, "Why not?! You want to know what I think? I am getting so turned on by the thought of you tying me up."

"Milena, stop."

"No! I haven't had sex in weeks and I would love rough sex right about now." I glared at him, egging him on purpose, "You wouldn't believe how wet I am…" I told him.

Suddenly I felt his lips on my mine, hard and long as he slipped his tongue gently into mine. It was a few minutes of pure passion and I just wanted him right now, but before that could even happen, he pulled away breathlessly.

"Is that what you want?!" He yelled out. My heart was racing a mile a minute as I nodded, "I can't. I will not hurt you and that's all I can see this ending it. You can't see it right now because you're hurt… but you will find an amazing guy who will treasure you. I just can't do that for you."

"Ames-"

"No Milena. I can see why you do think this is good, but it's not." He leaned over and kissed my forehead, "You will move on and it will be good for you. Just take time. I have to go." He said quietly as he walked out of my apartment, leaving me standing there like an idiot.

I could feel tears well up in my eyes as I grabbed a throw pillow and screamed into it, out of frustration.

STUPID BOYS!!!