Sometimes, I still need you.

Sometimes, I still need you. by pinklipstiiick featuring strappy sandal heels

(flashback)

I listened as the front door opened then closed, grabbing my clutch from off my bed as Ben went straight to Gabe's room. It'd been a full year since we broke up, I was thankful that he was still in my life while the rest of me broke down a little every time I saw him. I still loved him, a part of me knew that I always would. One random hook up and a somewhat serious relationship later, it still hadn't gotten easier. Dante helped a lot... I mean, he was gorgeous, successful on paper, and treated me like a princess. What more could I ask for, right?

I left my bedroom door open and headed for the smaller room down the hall, finding Ben sitting on the edge of Gabe's bed and rubbing his back even though he was fast asleep. I guess that sometime between throwing a tantrum and now, he'd passed out. The entire day had been a nightmare, one of those days where I questioned if I could do this. I loved being a mom, Gabe was my life, but it was hard... especially the part where I was now a single mom and not even 21 years old yet. "Is it bad that I'm a little relieved he's finally asleep?" I asked quietly, smiling at my boys and seeing the love for our son in Ben's eyes and his actions.

He tilted his head in my direction and widened his eyes a little, "You look nice."

"Thanks, you do too. As always," I grinned and let my eyes scan his flawless body, remembering what every inch of it looked like underneath his clothes. After being with someone for so long it was hard to forget, especially when that someone looked like Ben. I tore my eyes away from him, opening my clutch and putting my phone inside of it, "He hasn't slept all day. On top of his fever, he's been teething. I gave him his medications and he should be out for a while but -"

"Take a breath Cami," Ben said in a reassuring voice, grinning at me before looking back at Gabe and covering him with the blanket he had already managed to kick off. Pressing his hand against his forehead, he pulled his head back and leaned his head down to kiss him, Gabe not even moving an inch.

"I should probably cancel and just stay home," I said seriously, the idea of putting my pajamas back on and cuddling my sick baby sounding a lot more appealing than a party for a firm. The downside to dating a lawyer? His friends were either extremely boring or a little too creepy.

He stared back at me for a moment before parting his lips and shaking his head, "Go have some fun."

I smiled and crossed my arms over my chest as my ex stood back up, "Do you want a drink? I still have some time and god only knows I could use one right now."

"No thanks, but I can make you one," He offered and smiled back at me as we both walked out Gabe's room.

I used my best pout as I looked at him, my arm brushing against his while we headed to the kitchen, "And you'd let me drink alone? I thought your parents taught you better than this."

"That sounded weird," He raised one eyebrow and we both broke into a chuckle, the air around us shifting.

I waved a hand in the air as if dismissing his words, "I just meant that it'd be a lack of manners." I sighed with a straight face, a fake one, that quickly turned into a more silly one. I cherished the moments when we could get over our past and just be silly together. I missed him, I truly did. Living in the past and always wondering how things would be if we did everything differently? I did that constantly. 

"I beg your pardon Cami, I didn't mean to forget my gentlemanly ways," He glanced at me, opening the cupboard nonchalantly where he knew I kept some alcohol stocked. It was weird that he knew my apartment good enough to know where most things were, sometimes it was like it were an extension of his and his an extension of mine, when the reality was far from that instead. We lived separate lives, saw different people, but that glue called Gabriel still kept us together. The worst part was that half the time, I couldn't even remember why we broke up in the first place.

I hopped on the kitchen table and kicked my heels off in the process, my long legs dangling and distracting him from the aligned bottles. "Does it mean you'll join me?" I asked in that soft voice that usually had him get on his knees for me.

"Yes," He gave in. "What do you want?"

"I don't think I have much of a choice," I said from behind him then paused. "I'm pretty sure that I didn't buy any of those, it must have been Chloe."

"In one of your crazy nights I guess," He said back and reached for a bottle of rum, then grabbed two glasses.

"Yeah the ones when she gets all the craziness while I just miss Gabe instead," I smirked at him as he looked at me and got a bottle of a strawberry flavoured drink from the fridge. The truth was, I wasn't a crazy party girl. Despite my sisters many attempts to find me a new guy and Chloe's at getting me to have a little fun from time to time, I'd much rather be at home with my son.

"He misses you too," He reassured me with a smile, pouring white rum and the fruity drink into a glass and just rum into the other before opening the freezer and getting some ice. Silence filled the room and when he turned around to give me my drink, his eyes getting maybe a shade darker as he looked at me. My bottom lip was captured by my teeth, my hair falling over my slender shoulder, and my own eyes dark as I stared back at him, trying to think of Dante instead of how good Ben looked. Or how long it'd been since the last time we were together intimately. "How long do you have before you go?" He asked causally, breaking into my thoughts.

I freed my lip from my teeth and shrugged my shoulders, setting my palms on either side of me on the counter, my drink resting beside me. My eyes moved towards the clock above the stove as I felt his eyes on me, scanning every inch of my body as I crossed my legs. I had ten minutes left, and still, it didn't feel like enough. "Half an hour," I said and moved my eyes back to him, grinning when I noticed his eyes on my legs. The fact that he still checked me out occasionally? It felt good... honestly, when I saw him half naked in ads? I couldn't stop looking.

He tore his eyes away from my body and smirked, looking at the drink beside me, "Not in the mood anymore?"

I widened my eyes at him, my mind going to the naughty side.

"Your drink," He motioned in the direction of my drink with his in his hand.

"Oh," I replied and picked it up, taking a sip and wrinkling my nose a little. I was such a bad drinker, what an embarrassment. Ben on the other hand found it funny, a grin on his handsome face as he watched me swallow and then take another long sip.

"Too strong?" He stepped closer and leaned his side into the counter beside me. "I can always add more juice if you can't handle it."

"It's great instead," I stuck my tongue out at him then grinned, holding the glass while I let it rest against my thigh. "I'm surprised you had no plans tonight."

"Who said I didn't?"

I bit down on my lip again and shrugged at his words, imagining the night he had planned before I called to beg him to help me with Gabe. The fact that he dated bothered me still. Sure I had Dante now, but I don't know, just one of those things I guess. I grew up so used to living in my moms shadow, a former model who was still stunning.. now my ex dated model after model, it crushed what confidence I had left. "I could have had Chloe watch Gabe," I said quietly.

Ben shook his head, "Any time I can get with him, I'll take it. Plus I'm not sure my sister could handle a sick baby," He added with a smirk. Chloe had changed a lot in the past year, but I still worried about her.

"Good point." I grinned and eyed the drink in his hand, kicking his leg softly with my foot, "Are you going to drink that or is it just for looks?"

He smirked at me, keeping his eyes on me as he downed his drink in one long gulp, emptying the glass and not even blinking. "What?" He asked, scrunching up his face in a silly expression.

I laughed, my chest vibrating and his eyes moving to my breasts. "Oh nothing," I said as I struggled to compose myself, crossing my legs and biting down on my lip.

"Am I wrong or you just kicked my leg?" He raised one eyebrow, setting his glass on the counter and gravitating closer to me. I felt it in the air, the electricity between us, the attraction still so alive I felt an ache between my legs.

My teeth freed my bottom lip and allowed my mouth to curve into a smirk, my eyes still on him, "I thought that a strong man like you could handle more than a baby kick."

"A baby kick?" He asked and it was his turn to laugh.

"It was a tiny one," I shrugged and hid my smirk behind my glass, sipping my drink slowly and making a face that had him grinning whether he realized it or not.

He moved in front of me, his hard body towering mine as he tilted his head down to brush the hair off my face. "I thought you were a strong woman too," He said in a low teasing voice.

I held my breath, feeling his touch everywhere... or at least wanting to. The attraction? Usually it was easier to ignore. I couldn't deny how I felt for Ben, anyone who knew me saw it in my eyes whenever I looked at him, but we knew our boundaries and where to draw the line. "Don't let my tiny body fool you, I am," I grinned wider then bit my lip again, setting my glass behind me before glancing over his shoulder. I was late now, ten minutes late to be specific. Ben's eyes followed mine and he found the clock, looking back at me and looking defeated. "I'm in no hurry," I added quietly, wishing I could read his thoughts.

He swallowed and nodded his head, "It must be my lucky night." Silence filled the kitchen as he lifted his hands to cup my face, cradling it, the contact enough to send a wave of need and desire through my body. When I nodded as I looked up at him, my fingers wrapped around his wrists not to push him away but to keep them in place, needing even the slightest touch from him since it had been too damn long. He inhaled deeply, leaning closer and brushing his nose against mine, staring at me and smiling before he closed the little distance between us and pressed his lips against mine in a soft kiss.

It was wrong, I knew it was wrong, but nothing had ever felt so right in my life. I let a wave of emotions wash over me as I parted my lips, bringing my free hand up to his head and tangling my fingers in his hair to hold his head against mine. Our tongues slipped into each others mouths, neither of us missing a beat like a year hadn't passed and we still knew exactly how to react to one another. "Ben..." I broke the kiss, keeping my eyes wide and on his even though our lips were still touching.

"I shouldn't have -" He started and I grinned, thinking about how cautious he was the first time we had sex. I parted my lips again, cutting him off with another kiss, a small moan escaping me as his hand slid between my thighs. I wanted him to touch me so bad, I couldn't remember ever wanting something so bad. I deepened the kiss, if that wasn't the encouragement he needed, I didn't know what was.

Stepping closer, his palm slid flat up my thigh, his thumb finding my clit and pressing on it through my panties. I broke the kiss, throwing my head back and closing my eyes as I gasped for air, my chest heaving up and down since I was so worked up. "Don't stop," I whispered since I was afraid he might take my reaction in the wrong way.

"Are you sure Cami?" He asked and moved his lips to my neck, kissing and teasing as his other hand slid up my thigh, both hands gripping at the lacy fabric covering my pussy and pulling it down my legs. He shoved it into his pocket and pushed my legs further apart until my dress was hitched up, his head dropping down to kiss my thighs slowly with his eyes locked on mine.

I nodded my head and kept watching him, desperate to tell him that I still loved him but afraid that I might scare him away. I didn't want to be a random hookup to him, but the idea of missing out on this chance? I couldn't stop, I couldn't speak and tell him how I truly felt. "I want you so bad," I said instead, breathy since I still hadn't caught my breath. It was like he took it away from me.

"Prove it," He said back, my hands grabbing at his shirt to pull him back into a standing position. I tore at the buttons, ripping them off two at a time. My hands were itching to touch him, sliding down to his erection the second his shirt was hanging wide open.

"I need you inside of me," I cupped him through his jeans while my other hand worked on his zipper.

He groaned, my hands on him obviously feeling good and playing as a distraction. He reached for my wrists and forced me to pull away gently, lifting my arm to wrap them around his neck. When I looked at him with big eyes, he smiled at me, "Slow down Cami." He told me softly, his tone reassuring as he pressed another kiss on my lips. "Bed," He added.

I smirked as the word left his soft lips, feeling happy and sure of myself again as my legs wrapped around his hips quickly just as he dropped his hands onto my ass to pick me up, the move so natural like a year hadn't passed and we were still the same crazy teenagers in love. We weren't much older now obviously, but the love was still there... I felt it.

"Good idea," I whispered as he carried me to my room, my hips grinding against his and making him groan since the friction was unbearable.

"You look so sexy tonight," He said in a low tone, stopping in front of my bed and forcing me to get back on my feet and stand on the mattress. I watched him closely as his hands left my ass to ran up my back and reach for the zipper of my dress, pulling it down in a quick movement while I was already sliding my arms out of the sleeves. We were both impatient, needing to touch each other, make up for the lost time.

When the dress pooled at my ankles, leaving me in nothing but a lacy bra that left nothing to the imagination, Ben took a step back to admire my body. Seconds passed before his eyes went dark with lust and he reached for the bra to tear it into pieces. I kept studying him, engaging his reaction and I swear I saw a hint of anger there... lust taking over of course, but some anger hidden behind it. "Ben," I gasped, surprised as I looked down at him and set my hands on his strong shoulders, pulling him closer. I grinned, his mood and the shredded bra such a damn turn on, "Such manners."

He wrapped his arms tightly around my hips, his head just below mine. I had to remind myself how to breathe, his eyes not leaving mine as he pressed his lips from my throat to between my breasts. "You ruined my shirt, we're even now," He said and grinned before biting down on my stomach, breathing against my skin while I tried resisting the urge to shiver.

"Take it off," I moaned quietly then pushed the piece of cloth off his shoulders, forcing him to unwrap his arms around me regretfully and letting him finish what I had started. He let his shirt fall on the floor, his hands working on his jeans next but it was my turn to stop him, my mind on making this last since you never knew if it'd be your last chance. "Slow down," I grinned as I used his words against him.

"I'm already being really slow," He grinned back, watching me closely as I knelt down on the bed to take care of his zipper, my hands moving quickly and my eyes glued on his.

Pressing my lips below his belly button, I trailed them down his happy trail, kissing while my hands tugged his jeans and boxers down in one swift motion. My hands itched to touch him, my mouth watering to lick him, and my pussy was aching for that familiarity I missed. It was unbearable, but worth it... He was always worth it. I sucked in a breath at the site of him, resisting the urge to moan and grinning up at him instead. "So big," I whispered, not sure myself what to do next since there was so much I wanted to do to this man. I wanted to tease him to the point where he broke, give him exactly what he wanted and then more. I wanted him to regret us breaking up, remind him that no other girl could take my place... only if it were true.

"Did you forget?" He grinned back at me and let his eyes drop down my body as I set my palms flat on my thighs while I squeezed my legs together.

"No... never," I sunk my nails into my skin slowly and reached up for him with my other hand, holding his dick at its base and keeping my eyes on him while I sucked gently on the tip. His groans gave me more than enough courage, his fingers tangling in my hair while I kept sucking and moving my hand at the same time. Slow, so torturously slow, I might break first.

He made a hissing noise with his breath, watching me take every inch of him I could fit into my mouth. My hand moved to his balls, handling them gently as I caressed them one at a time, moving my head back and forth and back and forth. He kept getting harder, I swear he was so incredibly sexy I could barely stand it. "Are we still taking it slow?" He asked quietly, dropping one of his down my back and snaking it to the front of my body.

I pulled my head back and made a slight popping noise, looking at him through my lashes as his thumb brushed my erect nipple. I felt his touch everywhere. "Isn't that what you wanted?" I tilted my head to a side as he lowered his head to breath against my neck, my hand fisting his erection like I couldn't stop touching him. Honestly, I wasn't sure I could.

"I think you know what I want..." He trailed off, kissing his way down to my shoulder and sending a shiver through my body.

I kept moving my hand, stroking him while he teased me with his soft lips. "Tell me," I breathed out, biting my lip as I fell hard into a lust filled daze. I was so crazy about him still, how could every one see it but him? Why couldn't I just gather up enough courage to tell him? It made no sense to me how we could be perfect for each other and then just let it go.

He inhaled deeply, my hand not stopping since it'd been too long since I last touched him. "You," He said simply, his voice coming out more like a groan.

"I'm here," I said in a breathy voice as I tilted my head back to give him more access to my skin, but he pulled his own head back instead to look at my face and the expression on it.

Reaching for my wrist, he forced me to take my hand away from his perfect body then grabbed the other one. "Sit baby," He said quietly, the name slipping from his lips automatically while he pinned my wrists behind my back.

I did as he said, moving quickly and staring at him with a big grin on my lips and excitement in my eyes. "What do you have in mind?" I asked, squirming when he kneeled down on the floor and forced my legs open to step between them.

He took his time to answer, licking his way up from my navel to my throat as he looked up at me and let his gorgeous grin match mine. "You," He answered and waited for me to tilt my head down to kiss him, still knowing his signals perfectly.

I bit down on his lip as I pulled my head back, making him groan again and tighten the hold he had on my wrists. He drove me crazy. It felt like no time had passed, we didn't miss a beat. "Is it all you can say?" I asked, wanting him to devour me. One night wouldn't be enough.

"No, but it's true," He shook his head, positioning it between my legs. Using that same tongue, he licked up my pussy. A moan filled the room and I pulled my hips closer to his face as I wriggled my wrists in his hold.

"Oh my god Ben..." I trailed off, tossing my head back in complete ecstasy.

He kept his eyes on me, giving me a killer view as he teased me with his mouth. He moved his focus to my clit, sucking it as he pulled his head back and let it go with a smack of his lips. "You're so sweet," He groaned when I moaned again, my legs jolting a little when he attacked my pussy again, this time not losing a second and thrusting his tongue inside of me.

"Ben!" I gasped and my entire body shuddered.

The corners of his lips curled into a smirk as he kept his eyes on me and his tongue buried deep inside of me. Shaking his head a little, he curled his tongue and pulled his head back, "Shh."

I parted my lips and then bit down on my bottom lip before another word could escape me, before I could confess my love or ask him to never leave my bed. Or worse, scream. My chest fell up and down and a second later, his tongue was back inside of me. He was devouring me, bringing me closer and closer to an orgasm with every lick. I curled my fingers to make fists and kept my eyes on him, never having seen anything hotter in my life. This man amazed me, every single time. "Oh my god," I said in a whisper, moaning as I arched my back.

He moved his lips back to my clit and sucked, knowing I wouldn't last much longer by the way my pussy kept spasming. "Let go for me," He said so softly, his voice low and sensual.

"No," I said stubbornly, not that I had any control over it. When he touched me? My control went right out the window, I surrendered my body to him completely. "Not yet."

"Cum..." He scrapped his teeth against my sensitive clit and then nibbled on it. My knees buckled and my toes curled. "I want to feel you against my tongue," He said before sliding it right back inside of me. I saw stars, rolling my head back and shutting my eyes tight while he kept tonguing me. His grasp on my wrists tightened and my hips moved, a groan leaving him when I could literally feel myself losing control already. "Look at me."

I opened my eyes and moaned loudly, catching myself and biting my lip as I came hard and kept coming, his tongue moving inside of me and not stopping until every last drop was licked up. "Baby, come here," I said in a voice that didn't sound like my own.

He let go of my wrists and moved his hands to my ass instead, his mouth placing a trail of kisses up my stomach as we both smiled. "Hi," He whispered once his soft lips hit mine. It felt unreal, him back in my arms, me calling him baby just after he'd made me cum, it was as if the year apart never existed.

I wrapped my arms around his neck, smiling back at him wider as I let him move my body so effortlessly to the middle of my bed. "Hey," I said softly, my voice still breathy and my eyes shining as his pooled with lust for me.

"I'm not done with you," He grinned as he lowered his body against mine.

I smirked back at him and tangled my fingers with his hair, my dark eyes getting even darker because I wanted him so damn bad it hurt, "I hope so."

"Know so," He said as he ran his hands down my body, his fingers caressing my curves until they found my knees and stopped there, grabbing them to spread my legs open. He kept his lips pressed on mine and his eyes didn't leave me as he pinned my body to the mattress and rolled his hips, entering me in a swift motion.

It felt surreal, my body surrendering to his and fuck, he was so big. My back arched against the bed as I tossed my head back, my lips missing his immediately until they started moving down my throat. "Oh Ben," I breathed out, making fists into his hair as my eyes shut to adsorb the pleasure and how bad I wanted this moment to never end, how I couldn't bear the thought of losing him again when we'd be finished. It wasn't just sex and we both knew it. Maybe I read too into things and had been fantasizing about this for so long, but he had to be feeling it too.

"You're the best," He managed to say in a barely audible tone before sealing his lips on mine again, his hips moving in a steady pace as he pumped in and out of me again and again.

I moaned against his mouth and tightened around him uncontrollably, his groans like music to my ears. I couldn't get over how sexy this man was or how I'd forever be at his mercy. He could do anything to me, ask for any favor, and I'd always comply. Breaking the kiss, I sunk my teeth into his bottom lip to give it a gentle tug. "You drive me crazy..." I trailed off and moved my eyes to his neck, wanting my lips all over it. Instead, I moved my hand to the back of it and cupped it, flicking my eyes back up to his to hold the gaze me had on me.

"Still?" He asked, making me want to admit my feelings. We'd always been honest with each other, I trusted him more than any one else, yet I couldn't tell him that I wasn't over him.

"Always," I said in a whisper, moans following my confession as I shut my thoughts off in favor of enjoying the way he felt inside of me. It was perfect, epic even. Oh my god, I missed this.

A grin flashed across his face before he moved his head down to scrape his teeth against my neck. Goosebumps coated my flesh and I shivered, pushing my breasts toward him as my back arched off the bed. "Always?" He repeated as a question, sinking his teeth into my skin and getting a loud moan out of me. I tightened around him in a vice like grip and made him groan again, his lips moving down my body to tease my nipples.

"Yes," I moaned, still arching as he darted his tongue out to twirl around a nipple before capturing it with his teeth and tugging on it. "God yes."

He ran his tongue flat between my breasts and up to my neck again, leaving me at a loss for words because I was too focused on how amazing he felt. He slid his arms between my back and the bed, wrapping them around my waist to hold me pressed firmly against him when he rolled his hips, every inch of him buried deep inside of me. "Fuck," He managed to mutter against my skin.

My body shook in his arms, my hands clutching at his shoulders as I tossed my head back on the pillow. "Don't stop," I breathed out between moans, my pussy tightening even more around him.

"No, never," He groaned as he kissed my throat before rolling over onto his side and landing on his back, switching our positions while still being inside of me.

I set my hands on his chest and lifted myself up in a sitting position, my hips pressing against his in the process and making him growl. "Never," I repeated the word as I started riding him, both of us in too much of a daze to give a sense to what we were saying.

He glued his eyes on me, caressing every inch of my body while his hands ran up my thighs. "Faster baby," He said in a low and sexy tone, his thumb reaching for my clit and rubbing it.

"Ben... j'aime la manière que vous faites cela," I whispered and shuddered on top of him. My hips rolled faster, my hands on his body to keep mine from falling apart on top of him as I rode him hard.

"This?" He pressed harder and left his thumb resting against my clit. I swear I broke. I saw stars, I felt a wave of emotion pouring over me. While one part of me wanted to cry and keep him inside of me forever, the rest of me wanted to be a vixen and leave him wanting more. I wanted to be the best he ever had, ruin it for any other girl because the thought of him with someone else shattered me.

I threw my head back and moaned his name again, "Oui! Oh my god, Ben." I set my hand on top of his, helping him to rub circles against my clit as I tightened around him and he groaned in pleasure, "Cum with me..."

"Not yet Cami," He moved his free hand to cup my ass, my hand letting go of his as I propped my hands back on his chest firmly, feeling his muscles flex beneath me and it was driving me insane. Pushing my breasts together, his eyes scanned my body again and he slid his other hand down to my ass, moving with me as I bounced up and down on top of him, closer and closer to my second orgasm. I would never get enough of him, he amazed me.

"Now baby," I said as a purr. Strong hands inched up my back and pressed against it, bringing my body closer to his. My lips found his neck as I kissed and sucked, focusing on his smooth skin and intoxicating scent instead of screaming. I wanted to scream so bad.

He reached for my hair with one hand, his fingers tangling with it as he forced me gently to move my lips where he wanted them. "You're going to kill me," He managed to breathe out before his lips crashed against mine, his hips lifting from the bed to pound inside of me hard and give me all of him while I kept mine in place. I felt paralyzed by the pleasure, not remembering anything but him. Love blinded me once, making my entire world revolve around Ben.. Honestly, not much had changed. We lived separate lives now, but that love was still there and fuck did it feel stronger than ever right now.

I moaned against his mouth as I tightened around him uncontrollably, my eyes closing then opening again when he gave a gentle tug at my hair. He wanted to see me break, my body and soul unfolding under his eyes and all for him. It was exactly what I'd give him, always eager to please.

My lips parted and he slid his tongue into my mouth with such passion and need that he was basically devouring me, still fucking me at a relentless pace until my whole body shook and I broke the kiss to gasp for air. "Ben!" I screamed his name once more before biting down hand on my lip, my orgasm hitting me hard and starting his. I was dreaming, this had to be a dream, it felt so perfect.

"Fuck Cami," He groaned and his hands left my hair to grab my body, keeping me where I was and offering support as we rode out our orgasms, his dick sliding in and out of me until every drop of him was poured inside of me.

When I was afraid I couldn't possibly move another inch, I collapsed on top of him, my body limp against his as our laboured breaths echoed in my bedroom. "Oh god," I whispered in a tiny voice, feeling my chest tighten at the mere thought of him leaving.

He caressed my hair gently, letting me bury my face into the crook of his neck because I was fearing that I might cry if I looked at him right now. I felt raw with emotions... still on my high, but always wanting more. "Can I sleep here?" He asked in a low tone, breaking the silence.

I smiled against his smooth skin, inhaling deeply before lifting my head and finding his beautiful eyes on me. "You can," I whispered back, eying his lips and pressing mine against them. I could feel the way he was still hard inside of me, the physical attraction between us never any problem. I fell hard for Ben even before he had gotten over his whole girls have cooties phase. For me, it was always him. He groaned as my hips moved on their own, much too greedily and too soon. I felt like I could go for hours though, especially since I wasn't sure what this meant or how long it'd last. "Oops," I grinned against his lips, capturing his bottom lip between my teeth and sucking on it as my hand slid down his chest to find the base of his dick. I held it gently, lifting my hips up and moaning softly until he was no longer inside of me.

"God, I'll never get enough of you," He growled and rolled the both of us onto our sides, his hard dick pressed against my stomach. I was wet, so fucking wet and ready for him. His hand slid down my thigh, moving my body and hooking it around his waist so his dick was now laying across my pussy.

"Good," I answered simply with a wicked smirk, watching his expression match mine and make my heart flutter.

"Good?" He repeated as I nodded, leaning my chest into his and kissing him again, so passionate I felt like I couldn't breath without him. My arms wrapped around his body, holding him close to me in case he might have a change of heart and leave. A moan escaped me, followed by more as his hips moved, his erection sliding up and down me as if he were trying to make his way back inside. Either that or he was a tease... he succeeded since I was aching for it.

"Ben..." I trailed off before he silenced me with his lips again, distracting me until a loud yell broke the moment.

"Maman!!!!"

We froze for a second, reality slapping us in our faces and reminding us that we had other obligations. Our bodies broke apart and we were both shuffling to get dressed, my mind shifting from Ben to Gabe who was still sick and then back to Ben and myself. I felt like a bad mother, which I knew I wasn't, but still.

"Maman! Thirsty!" Gabe barked out his order, both of us stopping for a moment as a nervous laugh left my parted lips.

Ben turned to me and coaxed me back into bed, kissing my forehead and pulling away slowly, "I can handle this. Get some rest."

I nodded my head, sliding my hand to his and giving it a small squeeze, "Ben?" He looked back at me and I could feel the mood shifting, the words I wanted to say so heavy on my tongue I felt like I couldn't speak. Tell him, I kept urging myself. Three little words that could change our lives, give our son the life he deserved and make us happy again. I smiled at him, the wrong words leaving me instead, "Thank you."

(present)

"Are you tired Gabe?" Ava asked from the other side of the big table, looking at my son who looked as if he was about to fall asleep in his plate.

He just nodded before setting his forearms on the flat surface and leaning his cheek on his hand, not being his usual mouthy self. Ben shot me a look as I shrugged at him, taking the last bite of my mashed potatoes, the eyes of the rest of our families on us. "We went to the park earlier, he couldn't stop running around," I said after swallowing, my words hopefully explaining his odd behavior. Gabe was always full of energy, sometimes it feeling never ending. But since school had been over for the summer, he was excited to have so much free time to play that he was always borderline hyper.

"That little man there is faster than me, he gave me a good workout," Chloe said with a laugh, winking at him and getting back nothing but a glance.

Ava made a silly face then grinned, getting up as her eyes moved from one guest to the other, always being the perfect host no matter if she hadn't cooked even half of the dinner. "Are we ready for dessert?" She asked with a smile on her face.

"Do you need help?" I offered, moving my eyes to Ben as he smiled at me.

"Corey will help me," She answered eventually with a smile on her gorgeous face.

All eyes moved to Corey who looked put on the spot. "Doubtful," Ben teased his father.

He muttered something under his breath and followed his wife, Ben looking back at Gabe and I. "You can have dessert too baby, happy?" I asked my son in a soft tone, worried since the word dessert hadn't changed his mood even a little.

"I don't want it," Gabe answered in a whisper, shocking us. He never said no to desserts or anything sweet, ever.

"Are you okay Gabe?" Ben asked quietly, leaning into him to set his hand on his forehead. "He's burning."

My lips pressed together in a thin line as my gaze moved from my baby to his father, "We should take him home."

Ben nodded in agreement, our son's health coming always first. "You're coming too, right?" He asked, reminding me that it was his night with Gabe.

"Yeah," I pushed my chair back and glanced briefly at Chloe who had a smug grin on her pretty face and an eyebrow raised. I shot her a look that told her to knock it off, looking at my own sister next who had a glare on her face. It was funny how opposite the two were, one wanting me to rekindle whatever flame was left between Ben and I while the other wanted me to move on and never look back. Only Ben would always be in my life, so things weren't so simple. "I'll grab his things."

"I'll bring them by Ben's in the morning," Chloe smiled at us, going so far to wiggle her eyebrows. I swear, she read too far into things. "Just get that little cutie home and put him to bed. Rest is the best thing for him."

I looked over at Ben who already had Gabe cradled in his arms, feeling my chest tighten for how good he was with our son. "I should tell my mom -"

"What's going on?" Ava asked in the doorway, returning to the room with her usual graceful elegance, even though her arms were full of enough desserts to lighten up any bad mood. "You're leaving? Is Gabriel alright?"

"He probably has a fever," My mom said, making her way over towards Ben to touch her grandsons forehead. Even with all the touching, Gabe looked well on his way to getting a good nights rest. His eyes were shut and his head was cuddling Ben's chest, mouth slightly open and his chest rolling up and down. He looked like an angel. "Cami, call me in the morning to update me on his health."

"I love you," I kissed her cheek as she pushed my purse into my arms. "Thanks for dinner," I gave a small wave to Ava and Corey, following behind Ben as he said goodbye to everyone at once.

"I see where we get it from," He smiled at me as I walked beside him.

"We have good parents," I smiled back, stopping as he opened the door for me and motioned for me to go first. I walked down the driveway to his car, opening the back and climbing in so I could be with Gabe. I waited for him to set up Gabe in the middle seat, me buckling him up as Ben climbed into the front seat. "You don't mind me staying over? I can sleep on the couch or in Gabe's bed with him."

"Then I'd have to worry about you getting sick and taking care of the both of you," He said as he started the car, pulling away from the house he grew up in and heading down the street.

I grinned at his reflection in the mirror before cuddling my sick son against me, "You'd take care of me?"

He tore his eyes away from mine and focused on driving, his lips curving into a smirk that matched mine, "Always cutie."

"You'd end up having enough of me," I said back in a silly tone that got him shaking his head.

"I didn't in years, I can't see that happen anytime soon." He paused as he parked the car in front of his apartment building, "Or ever."

I smiled at his words and unbuckled my seat belt, climbing out of the car and then returning my attention back to Gabe who felt like a bag of bricks when he was asleep. It amazed me how such a tiny thing could be so heavy. Ben appeared beside me and smirked as I struggled, finally freeing our songs safety belt. I rolled my eyes before he had the chance to offer to help, "I got this." I sighed and finally took our son in my arms, pressing a kiss on his head in the process.

"If he'll wake up he'll be happy to see you," Ben said quietly before closing the door behind us and leading the way to the building. Gabe was now used to the way we shared him, but he never hid how much more he liked when we were all together and that was one of the reasons why I made sure that it happened as often as possible.

"I hope he won't, he needs to rest and feel better," I frowned a little as I brushed my lips against his forehead and followed him inside the building, straight to the elevator.

He let his eyes bounce between us as we moved up, a sad expression on his handsome face. I stared at him from the corner of my eye, sad because sometimes I felt like we were drifting apart. Of course things weren't the same with us as they had been years ago, but he was still one of the most important people in my life. He always would be. "He will, I heard that love cures everything," His lips curved into a smirk and set he set his hand on the small of my back, leading me out the elevator and into his apartment.

"You're silly," I smirked back at him and glanced around as we headed to Gabe's room, "I'm impressed, everything's so...tidy."

He scratched the back of his neck and shrugged, "I told you, I was a desperate housewife yesterday."

At that, I laughed, trying to suppress it when Gabe let out a snort. "What I'd give to see you like that," I whispered and kept my eyes on Ben as he got our son's bed ready while I worked on getting him out of his clothes.

"Not happening," He whispered back at me as he handed over Gabe's pj's, his eyes glued on me as I finished dressing my baby. Once he was all ready, Ben covered him with his blanket and I pressed a kiss on his cheek before we both walked out of his room as quietly as possible. He glanced at me, "You can find something to get changed into in my closet and there's a new toothbrush in my bathroom. You can have my bed too, I'll sleep on the couch."

I smiled and nodded my head, "Thank you Ben." I kept my lips parted, but exhaustion swept me quickly and made me forget what else I wanted to say. When he didn't add anything more than a nod and a smile of his own, we parted ways; me heading towards his bedroom and him for the living room. I pushed his door open and went straight for his closet, taking my dress off and leaving it discarded on the ground while I fingered his shirts and picked out a basic vneck. I slid it over my head, bending over and taking my shoes off slowly as I heard footsteps behind me.

"I forgot I need pajamas too," He grinned at me, dropping his eyes down to my ass for not more than a minute.

I grinned and kicked the heels aside, adding to the pile of my things. "Help yourself," I said and left the room to leave him to change, making my way into the bathroom and washing my face first and then brushing my teeth. With a sigh, I walked back into his room, catching him tossing his shirt into a laundry hamper. Wearing nothing but sweatpants, it was hard not to stare... I was only human and my ex always had the most perfect body. "Are you cold? Your nipples are hard," I smirked, acting silly as I climbed into his bed with my eyes still on his hard chest.

"Because you're not good at sharing blankets," He joked back as I pulled the blankets up to my waist, rolling on my side to keep my eyes locked on his.

Without another thought, I reached over to pat the other side of the bed, "We're adults, I think we can sleep in the same bed."

He let out a laugh and disappeared into his bathroom, leaving me alone in his room while I turned to the other side and rested my eyes. Minutes had passed before I heard the lights flick off, the bed moving as I looked over my shoulder at Ben beside me in the bed. Okay, not necessarily beside me since he was all the way on the other side, but still. His cologne was distracting enough to make his presence known. "You didn't change your mind already, did you?" He asked when he noticed me staring, the moonlight giving me away.

I rolled back over to face him, shaking my head and giving him a smile, "No, of course not."

He rolled onto his side, not tearing his eyes from mine and making me wonder what he'd do if I cuddled him. I didn't though. "Good," He said quietly, his voice so calming I closed my eyes and nodded. "Are you tired?"

"I am," I said with a yawn and my eyes still shut. "Tomorrow we should take Gabe to his doctor, make sure he's alright."

"Okay," He started, not sounding as tired as I felt. He was a superdad and I was lucky to have him on my side. "I have fashion week at the end of this week. I'm leaving for Milan on Thursday."

"Mmm," I mumbled, trying to listen but falling asleep. "Fashion week is fun."

He let out a soft laugh and pressed his lips against my forehead, making me smile instead of wrinkle my nose, "Get some rest Cami."