feels so good to be bad

feels so good to be bad by ssaarah

“Here’s the birthday girl!” I exclaimed, pulling Scar into a hug as she grinned.

“The cupcakes are amazing. I'm so happy you managed to make them alcoholic too.” She winked and I chuckled.

“Yes I'm very talented.” I grinned, leaning in and giving her a kiss on the cheek.

“So where is he?” I bit down on my lip and shrugged.

“Not here yet I guess-“ and then I felt an arm wrap around my wait.

“I don’t think I’ve ever seen this many people in an apartment before.” Nick smirked and turned to my friend. “You must be Scarlett.” He grinned, offering up his hand. “I'm Nick.” She nodded, looking him up and down and smirking.

 “I guessed.”

“Happy birthday.” He handed her a card from his pocket and he shrugged as I beamed at him. She grinned.

“Thanks.” She set the card behind her where a bunch of others had gathered and turned back to us. “So I'm hoping your intentions with my Brooke-“

“Don’t worry, I plan on sticking around.” He turned and pushed my hair out of my face slowly, making a shiver go through my whole body.

“Actually I was hoping your intentions were to save her from this epic dry spell.” Scar replied, making me glare at her.

“Scar!!!”  Nick chuckled and my stomach clenched, got even his laugh was sexy…

"I'll try."

"I'm sorry about her." Scarlett raised a brow at me,

"I'm not! I'm serious. End her dry spell please. She's starting to get really annoying” Oh my god.

 "Stop it now." Nick grinned,

"It's okay babe." I sighed, "Let's go get you a drink." I said, pulling her away from Scarlett who I glared at.

"God, I'm so embarrassed."

"Don't be. I thought it was funny… And I'm not opposed to her suggestion." he gave me a small wink and I felt hot all over.

“God, you're going to kill me you know that, right?" Nick smirked,

"I hope not tonight. I was thinking… maybe I can help you clean up after everybody leaves?"

"I don't think there will be much to clean…" That was a lie, the place was already a disaster but then….oh but then Nick was kissing me. Hard, a long perfect kiss that made my knees totally weak.

"I wasn't really thinking about cleaning…"

"Okay…" I breathed out.

"Brooke! We need more ice!" I looked up and saw Mase standing over us still pressed together.

"Oh, sh.it, sorry." He gave us a small smirk.

"Mason." I glared.

"Sorry." He shrugged again. "Is this the guy? Have you ended the dry spell yet?" I just groaned,

"I tell you and Scarlett way too much." Nick grinned at the two of us,

"I'll take care of the situation."

“Thank god for that.” Mason smirked and I glared at him.

“How do you even know we need ice? You’re late!”

“The drunk brunette at the front said something. You seen Scar?” I nodded.

“She’s over there waiting for you.” Mason’s lips twitched upwards and I rose a brow at the look on his face.

“She said that?” I shook my head.

“Of course not.” I laughed before turning to Nick while Mason went off to find Scar. “I’ve got to do some hostess duties.” I replied before grabbing a few shots on the counter and handing him one. “To birthday’s.” I grinned and he clinked his class with mine before leaning his body closer.

“To that dress….” He trailed off slowly both of us taking back the shots before he leaned over to place a kiss against my neck and leave me totally aching for him…

“Nick….” I moaned as his thumb traced the outline of the cutout in my dress, just below my breast.

“I’ll come with you.” He grinned, pulling back as I led him into the kitchen and got the ice from the freezer, pouring it into a large bucket before filling it with beer and wine coolers, taking another shot since I was suddenly super nervous. Did I want Nick to come home with me tonight? Hell yes….but god it had been so long I didn’t even know what to do…

“You’re going to be wasted.” Nick smirked watching me as I grabbed two beers and handed him one.

“Easier for you to take advantage of me.” I winked and he laughed but shook his head as his hand went back around my waist.

“I think I’d prefer you begging for it.” He said in a low voice. I couldn’t help it…I groaned slightly right before Nick pressed his lips against mine.

“I don’t think that will be an issue.” I whispered softly, almost falling on my heels and grinning up at him. “Oopsy.”

“How much have you drank before I got here.” I shrugged.

“It’s a party!” I grinned and shimmied a little making him laugh.

“Damn you are cute as hell.”

"Cute?" I asked, biting down on my lip.

"Extra fucking cute." I felt tingly all over and I pouted at him.

"Is that all? Guys don't like cute girls." Nick smirked,

"You are also incredibly gorgeous and insanely hot."

 "Then why haven't we had sex?" I pouted again, the liquid courage egging me on.

"Because we're not rushing into it…" Nick trailed off, not really looking like he was believing what he was saying.  

"I'm tired of waiting. Please come over tonight." I said seriously. Nick nodded.

"I can't wait…" he grinned. I gave him a big smile  and then threw my whole body into the kiss I pressed against his lips.

"God, I can't wait."

**

"Are you ready to go?" I pressed my body against his and grinned.  

"I am…" Nick nodded, trailing off awkwardly.

"You're still coming over right…" He swallowed and looked around before nodding.

"Definitely… Unless you don't want me to." I shook my head quickly a little tired of trying to convince him to sleep with me. If he wanted to then he wouldn’t need so much convincing right?

"God no. I want you to come. I might be drunk, but I know exactly what I want." Nick smirked,

"What's that?"

 "You." I said seriously, giving him what I hoped was a sexy grin before I grabbed his hand to lead us out but before I could get to the door someone started knocking on it.  We both furrowed our brows cause it was 4 am. I opened the door and two cops stood in front of us.

"Oh shit." I said under my breath, "What can I do for you two gentlemen?" I asked, smiling and trying not to sound like I was totally wasted.

"Who's the owner of this apartment?"

 "Not me!"  I exclaimed quickly, "I'm sorry, my friend." They raised their brows,

"Can you go get her?" I nodded, "

“Of course!" I replied quickly, shooting a look at Nick before walking to Scar’s bedroom which is where she had to be she wasn’t anywhere else.

"Scaaaaar!" I shouted as I banged on her door, looking over at the cops who were checking everyone’s ids. Damn it. No answer, but I could hear her in there just open the door! "SCAR!!" I yelled again,  but this time Scar opened the door, wearing not her birthday outfit we’d so carefully picked, but a hoodie and nothing else. And if that wasn’t enough? Mason was behind her. In her bed. Naked.

"Mason?" My eyes widened and Scarlett glared at me.

"What?" she said back in a semi annoyed tone, I had clearly interrupted them together and it was taking me a second to wrap my head around having my two best friends…together. I blinked at Mase again and then looked back at Scar.

"The cops are here... those girls in your class? Yeah, they're 19. The cops want to talk to you." Scar froze and blinked at me, groaning as no one spoke.

"Wait a sec." she muttered under her breath as she finally spoke, turning to grab a pair of shorts from off the floor and sliding into them quickly before joining me in the hallway not saying anything else.

"I swear it feels like one of those movies." I whispered,  trying to joke but also still being tipsy and not realizing what I was saying exactly. Scar gave me a look and shook her head.

“Go back home!” she said seriously as I caught Nick’s eye. Honestly? She didn’t need to ask me twice.  "Let's go." I said quickly as I started to pull her into the hallway.

“Where are we going?” he asked, pushing back my hair since I had been trying to blow it away. Damn I was drunk. But good news? I was no longer nervous! Kind of….

“Upstairs.” I grabbed his shirt and pulled him into the elevator, hitting the button for my floor.

“You’re drunk babe.” He chuckled, shaking his head as he leaned down to press a kiss against my lips.

“Just tipsy.” I replied, biting down on my lip as I looked back at him. “You’re so hot….” Nick laughed.

“I hope that’s not just the tequila talking.” I shook my head.

“I wanted to fuck you the first time I saw you.” I admitted, okay the word vomit might be the tequila, but at least I was honest. Nick grinned, a cocky smile that left me almost aching between my legs.

“Did you?” he reached for my waist, leaning in and kissing up my neck before nipping at my ear.  “I’d be lying if I said I didn’t think about it too…..” I groaned and leaned my body closer to him, desperate for more friction between my legs to ease the ache.

“Yeah?” I breathed out as he nipped at the pulse point at my neck. Fuck.

“Are you kidding? You were wearing a tight little skirt and showing off those long legs….there’s not a guy on earth who wouldn’t have thought about them wrapped around him…” His words alone were sobering me up, but in a good way, in a great way, I hadn’t felt so sexy in ….god I couldn’t even remember.

“I want them wrapped around you…..” I whispered as the elevator dinged and he regretfully peeled his body away from mine.

“Let’s go make it happen then gorgeous.” He grinned wickedly, grabbing my hand as I walked to my door but then….

“Shit.”

“What’s wrong?”

“I left my bag at Scars!” I cursed and he laughed.

“Don’t worry I’ll go get it.” I grabbed the spare key from under my door mat and nodded before he reached for my waist, pulling me into his hard body and kissing my lips hard, sinking his tongue into my mouth and kissing me with a passion that left me dying to see what was next. I felt his kiss everywhere in every part of my body…I could only imagine how good it would feel to have him inside of me. “God you taste good…..I can’t wait to taste more.” He grinned and I groaned as he smirked at the expression on my face. “I’ll be right back.” He kissed me again and I went into my apartment, biting my lip as I thought about Nick and deciding to pull off my dress to be waiting for him in the sexy lingerie I had underneath. I let the dress pool at my feet and kicked it away leaving me in black lace when Nick knocked on the door again.

“It’s open” I called out, feeling flush and heady when he walked in. But it wasn’t Nick. It wasn’t Nick at all.

“….Nolan?” My ex blinked as he looked at me.

“Fucking hell Brooke….” He trailed off, I still felt a little tipsy and I teetered on my heels as he walked up to me. “My god you look unbelievable….”

“What …why….where are….What are you doing here?” I asked seriously trying to clear my head.

“I um…” he started, but his eyes were on my body and I clapped my hands in front of his face.

“I'm not sure your fiancé would appreciate the way you were looking at me right now. “ he shook his head and looked back at me.

“That’s why I'm here I…but god you’re distracting…” I folded my arms over my chest and glared at him.

“What do you want?!” I exclaimed and he swallowed.

“I made a mistake. A huge one. I never should have left, I never should have let you stay here while I went away….I miss you like crazy Brooke…damn it I still love you so much.” And then he was reaching for my face, cupping it with his hand and pulling me into him, pressing his lips against mine. But…..nothing. No butterflies no ache, no pounding chest. It didn’t make any sense. I had been miserable for months over him, my heart broken, my life ruined…there’s no way his kiss could make me feel nothing. So I pushed it, kissing him back harder and wrapping my arms around his neck to try and feel even a recumbence of the feelings I got whenever Nick even touched my hand….but still….nothing. Oh my god. I was over him.

“What the fuck?” I pulled back and saw Nick standing there with my purse in his hands looking at me pressed up and basically making out with my ex. In my underwear. Oh shit.  I pushed Nolan away quickly, who shuffled back looking confused.

"Nick." I stared at him.

"Who's he?" Nolan asked, reaching for me as he chuckled but I pushed away.

"I'm a fucking idiot." Nick said under his breath before tossing my purse down and walking out.

"Nick, no!" I rushed out of the room as he hit the stairs,

"Don't leave! Let me explain!" he turned around and took a second to take me in, looking like it made him even more pissed off.

"You don't have to! That kiss explained pretty much anything I needed to know!" he yelled back.

"That's my ex! I thought he was you!" I said quickly and Nick raised a brow,

"Because we look alike, right?"  Fuck….god how was I going to explain this?!

"No, that's why I invited him in and he was saying all this stuff about him regretting breaking up with me and then he kissed me! But I felt nothing. All that stuff that I thought I was still hung up on, was gone. I only like you." I was saying it fast and a little slurred and he just looked pissed off. Honestly? I couldn’t blame him.

"Well you showed it in an amazing way. I hope you're happy with him. Don't follow me please." I swallowed as he walked down the stairs, wanting to follow him but I didn’t even have a robe on what was I supposed to do? I walked back into my apartment and glared at my ex.

“Hey….what was that?” he asked, reaching out for me again.

“Nolan go home.” I spat.

“No…we….you.” I shook my head.

“We NOTHING!” I yelled. I had never yelled at him before. Ever. Even when he was leaving me all I did was basically beg him to stay. “You broke my heart Nolan!  For months I was a pathetic ghost of the girl I was!”

“I-“

“No just leave. I'm starting to realize that what I thought I loved? Wasn’t you. It was just the idea of you.”

“Brooke, you’re just upset, I love you. I'm not going to give up this time.” I groaned and shoved him out of my door.

“Stop ruining my life!!!” I yelled before slamming the door and locking it behind him. I just wanted to sleep…..and hopefully wake up from this soap opera nightmare that was my life.