11.30.2013

Untitled #1055

Untitled #1055

Untitled #1055 by ssaarah




“What’s wrong?” Parker surveyed me over his beer and I gave a shrug.
“What do you mean?” He rose a brow and took a swig before looking over where Reese was dancing with what looked to be a group of college cheerleaders.
“I mean this birthday last year by now I was telling you to stop dancing on the tables and put your coat back on.” He smirked, and I laughed as I pushed my hair out of my eyes.
“Maybe 23 is my grown up age.” My oldest brother smiled but he was looking at me pretty seriously. Parker had always been more of a father to me than the rest of my brothers, taking our Dad’s spot when he died and always being there for us even though his business was so successful.
“Come on Tiny, tell me what’s up. It’s not Riley is it? I kicked his ass once I’ll do it again.” I smiled at my brother and shook my head.
“I dunno, you’re getting pretty old.” I smirked as Parker glared at me. “Riley and I are taking a break from….each other…romance wise.” I added, though the fact that he wasn’t even at my party was telling me that maybe we weren’t friends anymore either.
“Finally dumped him?” I rose a brow at my brother. “Come on Lila, you were never as into him as he was into you…..I don’t think I’ve ever seen you into any guy as much as they were into you to be honest….” I thought about Travis and my stomach clenched, knowing that at least one man had way less feelings for me than I had for him. But that would mean admitting I had feelings for him. And I wasn’t going to do that.
“I'm fine Parker. I'm just busy at work and with my art…I'm just a little more mellow this year.” He opened his mouth but I held up my hand. “Please go talk to that pretty girl in the left booth so that she stops pouting.” Parker looked over and her whole face lit up.
“Well if you insist…” he reached over and kissed my cheek. “It’s your birthday Lila, have fun, drink too much, dance. It’s the one night I won’t freak out about it.” I laughed as he walked away and I surveyed as my other brothers, flirted and charmed everyone in the bar, even Will was dancing with one of my friends from the gallery. Trenton men were irresistible no matter how old they were.
I glanced outside and did a double take when I saw Travis walking to the door with a girl hanging all over him. My stomach clenched hard as I watched her do the classic “I just slept with you and I want you to love me right away” dance that was so obvious it made me want to throw up. What the hell?! Why did I care? It wasn’t like I thought I was the only woman he was sleeping with, he made it perfectly clear we weren’t exclusive, and while he clearly could pick up slu.tty women everywhere, I had no desire to even dance with another man. God I hated that.
I watched as the girl reached up to kiss him, wrapping her arms around him. His hands immediately went to her waist and I gripped my glass tight before I watched him push her away before his eyes locked right on mine. I should have looked away, should have ignored this but I couldn’t….I just stared at him. Before I knew it the girl was coming back into the bar, tying an apron around her waist. She was pretty, kind of, nice body and long dark hair but she wasn’t really anything special.
“He was cute.” I teased, playing the girlfriend to see if I could get anything out of her. She looked up and blushed, biting her lip.
“That’s an understatement.” She laughed. “And oh my god in bed….” She shook her head. “There aren’t even words.” She admitted, looking at my drink. “Refill?” I swallowed down the annoying feelings and nodded before I noticed my phone ringing. Travis. What kind of game was he playing?!
 "What do you want?" I snapped without a formal greeting.
"Come outside." He ordered quietly but firm, demanding like he always did. Fu.ck him.
"No."
"I give you ten seconds or I'll get inside and drag you out myself." I rolled my eyes and set my phone back in my purse as I sipped my drink, though even though I had already decided not to let Travis fu.ck with me, I actually believed his threat to come in and despite the fact that I now officially hated that waitress? It would suck to be her and see the guy she slept with immediately move on. It wasn’t her fault Travis was who he was. So I sighed and set my purse on my shoulder before walking out of the bar and watching Travis as he stopped moving towards it. See? He was not bluffing.
“Took you long enough.” He growled as though it was so annoying I didn’t follow orders right away.
“What do you want?” I asked, folding my arms over my chest and glaring at him.
“Why are you here?” he nodded his head towards the bar and I blinked back at him.
“To eat and drink.” I replied in the same monotone. Travis’ own glare softened and he smirked slowly as he took a step closer.
“Still such a smartas.s….” he trailed off slowly, his eyes taking me and making me feel….who cared because I wasn’t going to focus on it.
“Always. Did you need something?”
“You didn’t answer my question.” I widened my eyes and licked my lips.
“I did answer it. Maybe not good enough for you, but then say that.”
“Lila.” He warned and I swear I was about five seconds from exploding on him. He had to be the most infuriating man I had ever met.
“I'm friends with the new bartender Travis why does it matter?!” He looked at me as if he was picking apart my answer to see if it was good enough.
“Okay.” He nodded and I grabbed the cigarette from his mouth and stomped it out with the toe of my heel. “Do you have a problem?” he asked, raising a brow as I looked back up at him.
“Yes.” I answered, not explaining because I didn’t need to.
“Will you come here a lot now?” he asked casually though I could see he was interested.
“Why do you need to choose a new bar to pick up sub-par women in the off chance that you’ll have to bear a few moments with me?” I spat back.

"No." he answered simply, grinning, just to piss me off.
"No what?" I asked, glaring even though I knew he’d ignore it.
"Is that your friend?" he asked, looking behind into the bar. I followed his gaze and say Derrick looking out with a death glare. I tried not to laugh as I turned back.
"No, that's my brother."
"Uhm." God I hated when he said uhm.
"Scared Travis?" I teased, though I knew he wasn’t.  
"Nothing can scare me." he answered simply and sighed, feeling annoyed all over again. I looked away wondering why on earth I was still standing out here with him. "Come on Lil, get in the car."
"What?!"  At first I was shocked, was he seriously trying to get me to go home with him right now? Asshole. "Hell no."
"Scared of a dejavu?" he challenged, and even though I was so mad I could hardly stand it I couldn’t help but flashback to his hands and mouth all over me in his front seat as he took me hard and deep. It had been so good….so annoyingly good.
"I can't leave my own birthday party." I said instead, watching as he let my words soak in.
"Is it your birthday?"
That's what I said." His surprise waned as he grinned slowly, easily, a look that was effortlessly sexy on him and I'm sure he knew it.
"Are you finally turning 18?" he teased but I just glared at him, not in the mood for his antics. Before I could move away he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close to him, kissing my cheek so softly it sent a chill through me. "Happy birthday Lil." He whispered, his body so close to mine distracting but it was way easier to be mad.
“Did you really think I would get into your car?!” I asked, still furious.
“You liked my car last time.” I shook my head.
“My god what is wrong with you?!” He blinked as if he had absolutely no idea what I was talking about.
“Right now it’s that you’re yelling at me.” He smirked, clearly not bothered at all but amused instead.
“Do you honestly think I would go anywhere with you right now?” I asked. He shrugged.
“You usually don’t mind having me around Lila.”
“Oh, so you want to be friends.” I asked, tilting my head to the side. “We’re friends now is that it? Because last time you told me we weren’t.”
“What exactly is it that you’re so upset about?” he asked, taking a step closer to me and damn it his scent and the proximity of his body still made me a crazy woman despite how awful he was.
“Nothing Travis.”
“Hey where’d the birthday girl jet off to?” Reese’s voice rang out and I turned around.
“Just talking to a co-worker.” I said, faking a smile. “Get back to your party.”
“You sure?” he glared at Travis, who didn’t seem that affected. Admittedly they were evenly matched, about the same height and build, Reese being the biggest of my brothers, but Travis was seriously underestimating how over-protective he was.
“Don’t worry he’ll be leaving in a second. The party need’s its second best-looking Trenton to make up for the best looking one not being there.” I winked at him and he laughed, though his eyes were still on Travis before he went into the bar.
“He doesn’t like me.”
“He doesn’t know you.” I replied. “If he did he’d hate you.” I added before sighing. “Travis what do you really want from me?” Travis slipped his hands into his jeans and shrugged.
"Nothing really." He replied. “I didn't even know you were here, it's not like I'm stalking you."
"But you called me." I paused, crossing my arms against my chest again. . "And forced me to come here outside."
"I didn't know it was your birthday." He said eventually and I felt my eyes roll on their own accord.
"Why do you say it as if it explains everything? It explains nothing Trav!"
"I had no intention to ruin your birthday party, trust me." he said seriously and glanced away, something I noticed he did before he got really angry. Good. We had that in common.
"Then you probably shouldn’t have called me!"
"You're right." He admitted as he reached for another cigarette and set it between his lips, stepping away from me, but still giving me his attention. Ugh his eyes were so gorgeous.  "I'm sorry Lila, go back to your party and have fun. I grabbed his cigarette again and stomped on it.
“Those won’t kill you fast enough so you should give up on trying.”
“I'm going to ask you one more time Lila. What is your problem?” he rose a brow at me and I just stared at him shaking his head.
“I swear you stand there looking at me as if I'm just another crazy girl, like I have no reason for ever being upset and I'm probably just PMSing!”
“Are you?” he was so lucky I didn’t hit him. Honestly the only reason I wasn’t was because the last time I tried to we ended up naked. That was not happening again.
“No. Do you seriously have no consideration for other peoples feelings?! What if you had come in to get me? How do you think that poor girl would have felt. God I hope she doesn’t see me out here with you.” Travis did a slow double take.
“Are you talking about the waitress?”
“Was there another woman you fu.cked today too I should have mentioned?” He took a step closer to me and looked down into my eyes with a curious expression.
“You’re angry for her feelings Lila? Or your own?”
“Admittedly you could have shot me a text message or something, but I knew what I was getting into.” Travis just grinned.
“What would that text message say?”

“How about “Lila, I'm bringing home a girl who looks like she has Chlamydia, so feel free to be repulsed by me from now on.” I spat back as Travis started laughing.

 

“I thought you felt bad for her.” He grinned.

 

“You are the worst. Seriously.”

"I got that before."

"Yeah right, but let me guess, it doesn't bother you." I paused to narrow my glare on him. "Does it even exist something that bothers you Trav?"
"This is bothering me." he answered flatly.

"Oh poor Trav." I said in a sweet voice before glaring again. "Deal with it."

"Hell no. I did nothing. It's not my fault if we were in the same place at the same time, just like it's not my fault if it's your birthday and I didn't know."
"Because you never do anything, right?" I spat back at him. I was realizing how completely pointless this conversation was at this point. No one had the ability to piss me off so much.
"I'm thinking about a few things I'd like to do right now..." He trailed off, now taking his time to look over my body. I wasn’t a stranger to being checked out, but when Travis did it. It felt like he was already touching you. I reached out and hit him, hard, making him groan and look back into my eyes.
"Travis!" I yelled. "Don't you even think about it!"
"I'm not even free to think now?!"
"You were with that girl when? Less than one hour ago?" I questioned in a bitter tone as my finger pointed behind me.

"You're jealous." Travis said slowly.

 

“I'm not jealous Travis, I'm offended.” I said seriously, because did I want to be the girl he dropped off at the bar after fucking? No.

“Offended?”

“That you would even think I would go near you in the same day that you touched another woman. I like you Travis, god knows why. But I'm not going to be disrespected.” Travis took a step closer and his eyes got more serious.

“I respect you more than any other girl.” I swallowed thickly and tried to ignore the beating of my heart.

“I believe you.” I replied and ignored the impulse to reach out and run my fingers through his hair, completely going against everything I’d said today. “I don’t know why but I do.” Travis tilted my head up slightly, sending a shot of arousal straight through me despite how much I hated him today.

“I don’t know why either.” I felt like we were there for hours just looking at each other before I pulled away.

“I need to go back in. Do you want to come?” Travis took a deep breath, looking like he was considering it but then shaking his head.

"No Lil." He answered quietly.

"Why?" I asked in a barely audible voice, sounding small and tired and nothing like myself. Travis reached for my cheek and brushed his thumb against me and even though I was still upset, it was so calming.  

"We both know it wouldn't be a good idea." I knew he was right, it would be no secret that there was something between us, not when our attraction to each other was so intense. My brothers would probably have a heart attack.

"Okay." I shrugged nonchalantly and bit down on my lip, wishing it were easier. Wishing that I didn’t care so much. Wishing that I could feel this way about some guy who felt those things about me too.

"Still mad?" he asked, reading my face wrong, "Upset?" he tried again, looking for the right word but I shook my head again. "I'm sorry if I ruined your night."

"Stop saying you're sorry." I snapped back and I saw a flash of anger in his eyes before he spoke.

"I mean it."

“Don’t you think it’s odd?” I asked, tilting my head to the side.

“What?” I stepped closer and again had to resist the urge to touch him in some way. I’d never felt that way about a man. If I wanted to touch him I did and if I didn’t I didn’t it was never so damn complicated.

“That you’re sorry for one. How many times does that happen?” Travis grinned.

“Touche.” His chuckle made my stomach flip and I swallowed before talking again.

“Do you usually look at girls like you want to eat them up even after you just got some?” He set his jaw at that.

“What are you saying Lila?” he asked, his voice turning dangerous automatically but there was nothing he could do to me, no matter how deep his voice got.

“I'm saying maybe you should bring home the girl you really want next time and not settle.” I winked and turned around so I could walk back to the bar, feeling his eyes on me, but turning at the door. “Oh and Travis?” I waited for a second, apparently he didn’t have words, either because he thought I was totally wrong and was stewing about it, or maybe I just left him without words. “You owe me a birthday present.” I winked and then let the door fall behind me, wondering what was happening to me, but pushing past it because some things were more important than gorgeous men who were too complicated for your own good. Like cake for instance.

257 comments:

  1. [omg :3]

    did you have fun?

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  2. i'd ask how your night was but "jasmine" already told me all about it.

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  3. so curious that you had to ask her?

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  4. not her face so much....*shrugs*

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  5. oh yeah, who's looking at her face? -.-

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  6. you could get way better than pretty.

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  7. do you want to make a move on her? why are you so interested?

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  8. *laughs* please. i'm way too good for her.

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  9. uhm all you want but if i'm hooking up with a girl she's gotta be a 10 and that girl was a 5 on a good day.

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  10. why would i be jealous? o.O

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  11. I have no idea because you really have no reason to

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  12. whats wrong with you today?

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  13. I think you're lying but okay

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  14. okay. what are you doing?

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  15. now there's a good visual :3

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  16. he knows you're talking to me? :3

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  17. does he have a girlfriend?

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  18. *laughs* how do people tell you apart? :3

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  19. is that different from you?

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  20. im just wondering what would have happened if he'd met me before you did.

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  21. we both know the answer to that

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  22. well i'm not attracted to him so im guessing the answer is my life would be a lot less complicated.

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  23. am I making your life complicated?

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  24. also there's nothing complicated

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  25. because you glare so much? :3

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  26. nothing. i forget how moody you are in the morning :3

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  27. i bet i could find a great way to wake you up if i was there.....

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  28. well i'd start by stripping off all my clothes.

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  29. then i'd strip the covers off of you and straddle your hard body.

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  30. and kiss your lips until i felt your hands on my body.

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  31. yes. is that a problem?

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  32. well at this point i'd be rocking against you slowly, taking my time to lick across all those sculpted muscles on your torso.

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  33. i'd be teasing you for a while travis.....eventually you'd have been super annoyed :3

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  34. a while? you wouldn't last longer than 5 minutes

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  35. i don't know i haven't had unrestricted access to your body yet....you don't know how much i want to take my time....

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  36. would you get too impatient?

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  37. good :3 then i'd look up and ask how you wanted me.

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  38. it's fine I'll sleep after practice

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  39. call me if you need a real workout ;)

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  40. Sundays are for kids only ;)

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  41. you're not even a kid, you're a baby

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  42. *laughs* fine :3 have fun at practice coach.

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  43. what are you going to do today?

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  44. i'm going to my brothers for dinner.

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  45. you don't sound excited

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  46. my family is under the impression that i should quit my job and it's getting annoying.

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  47. they want me to pursue art full time. they don't understand that graphic design is art and forcing me to make my paintings a job would make me lose the magic in it. *sighs* my brothers are all about drive and power and money and i just don't care much about any of those things.

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  48. you're too stubborn to listen to them anyway

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  49. yes, it's a source of constant contentment. apparently my masters degree is worth so much more. :3

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  50. I can understand their point of view though

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  51. but if you had a sister wouldn't you rather she was happy?

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  52. yes but still. you're young Lila, it's normal for them to think they know what's best for you more than yourself

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  53. especially when you have 5 of them.

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  54. then stop being a whiny baby :3

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  55. you're such a typical man trav :3

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  56. of course I am, I'm a man

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  57. the boys are tired from all the holiday festivites i'm sure :3

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  58. they're going to run the whole time

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  59. there's one that grew tits through the holidays I swear -.-

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  60. *busts out laughing* oh god travis :3

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  61. he's going to run even more -.-

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  62. he'll thank you later :3

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  63. he's lucky he's still in the team -.-

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  64. such a strict coach :3

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  65. for pre-teenage boys? :3 do you even play real games?

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  66. if I don't they don't take me seriously

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  67. no one could not take you seriously trav, you're like the alpha of in charge male presences :3

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  68. lol :3 that's why i'm not having any

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  69. i guessed since you choose to be around them :3

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  70. theyre amazing *shrugs*

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  71. *grins* well will is :3 i don't know much about the others :3

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  72. I meant in general. will is a smartass just like you.

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  73. must run in the family

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  74. your brother didn't look cute though

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  75. did one of my brothers come to practice?

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  76. I saw him at your birthday lila

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  77. oh reese? no he's not so much cute as he is over-protective.

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  78. he threatened to shoot my prom date. he actually showed him his gun *rolls her eyes*

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  79. he's a homicide detective. so probably no :3

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  80. that's seriously too much

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  81. showing a gun to a teen

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  82. trust me i told him that.

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  83. also not professional at all

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  84. yeah we'll that was 7 years ago, he wasn't all that professional.

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  85. plus he had good reason to worry i guess, i was hoping to get some action :3

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  86. not a good reason anyway

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  87. colbie said when she was going to her first prom dad almost ran him over with the car :3

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  88. ...is your family all crazy?

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  89. just wait until your little niece starts dating and see how your brother loses it :3

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  90. we still have years before that

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  91. it'll go by faster than you think :3

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  92. is your brothers wife's gene's as impressive as your families? :3

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  93. then you're going to have a handful when your niece grows up ;)

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  94. i know you'll just get to laugh at your brother :3

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  95. maybe I'll be too busy with my own kids

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  96. *laughs* maybe you will :3

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  97. you don't seem like a guy who goes for cute girls travis.

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  98. I'm a guy who goes for girls.

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  99. but you obviously want children some day. planning on adopting so you can still fu.ck around the rest of your life?

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  100. sure....you'll only be fifty when your kids go into college if you had one now. you have plenty of time.....

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  101. if I'm sixty when they do I don't see where the big deal is

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  102. *shrugs* i don't want kids so i haven't thought about it much.

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  103. there's plenty of ways to get my cute kid fix without worrying about the responsibility of their lives. plus i've never had an emotional connection to a man worthy of monogamy and i wouldn't want to do it alone even if i did want them.

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  104. i'm pretty wise for a baby ;)

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  105. also pretty scared to have responsabilities, just like a baby :3

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  106. i'm not afraid of responsibility travis. i embrace it, but a child is more than a responsibility. It's your whole life.

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