i'll wear out the words i love you and you're beautiful

"Vi?" I asked as I came out of the CBC building to see my girl waiting for me.

"You're late." she glared at me, but still let me bend over to kiss her lips softly. Damn she was so sweet. Even when she was mad at me.

"So were you, then we found out it was because you're pregnant." I teased her and she rolled her eyes.

“Hilarious." she smiled and pushed her hair out of her eyes,

"What are you doing here baby?" I asked.

"Did you forget?"

“Didn't you have your yoga class?" I let my eyes roam her body, she was dressed in yoga clothes, the slight swell of her stomach making me grin.

"I did and now we're supposed to go to the doctor." she snapped, and I blinked at her.

"Isn't that on Tuesday?" I furrowed my brows, knowing she was mad but I had been trying hard. There was a lot of stuff to remember when you were having a baby.

"Today is Tuesday!" she retorted and hit my chest, then made a fist in my shirt and pulled me into her, kissing my mouth hard and totally acting crazy but when crazy made her kiss me like that? I was totally fine with it.

"Sorry love. I whispered against her lips.

"It's fine. You'd be so lost without me." she said pulling back to let me lead her through the street.

"Hell I would." I grinned back at her as I tangled my fingers with hers.

 "Why don't you have a car?" she asked suddenly out of nowhere. I looked back at her, used to her silly outbursts that seemed to mean nothing but were really just the end of a conversation she was having with herself in her head.  

"I do have a car, it's at my parents." I pointed out slowly.

"I know that." She sighed and shook her head, "I mean, maybe it's time to have it here. We might need it when we'll have our bean."

“We can’t let the bean in that car, we’ll get a new one!”

“What is it with you and wanting all new things for the baby.” She smirked, “New apartment, new car, next you’re going to want to move to the suburbs.” I winced at her.

“No I think both of us had enough suburbs growing up.”

“I agree…..you know we might find out if it’s a boy or a girl today.” I looked back at her.

“Really?” my heart jumped. ‘I thought you said you wanted to find out when you had it.” She shook her head.

“That was the pregnancy hormones  that also thought a natural birth would be a good idea.” I laughed.

“Yeah I was up for waiting but I'm not up for a water birth in my kitchen.” She made a face.

‘No please. But I don’t want to wait. I want to know if bean is a Jax or a Little Lily.” I grinned and kissed her lips.

“Me too.” I agreed. “I decided I don’t want a girl anymore.” I frowned.

“Why not cutie bear?” she asked, squeezing my hand.

“She’ll be your daughter Violet. I don’t want to have to deal with another Violet in high school. One was hard enough.” I thought as soon as I said it that her hormones would get the best of her and I was about to get yelled at. But instead? She just broke out laughing.

“Oh Jakey, you’re going to be such a cute dad.” She grinned and I made a face.

“I had to beat up a lot of boys in high school for you. I don’t want to do that again.”

“Mmm well if bean is a girl let’s just hope she doesn’t have my poor taste in men.” She grinned, leaning into me.

“Or let’s hope her best friend realizes what’s in front of him a lot sooner.”

 "Yeah, my best friend was a dummy." she said trying to be serious before laughing.

"Hey, I'm not!" I protested in a groan, making a show for my silly girl. She bit down on her lip, trying to conceal her smirk as she squeezed my hand,

"You're not anymore because you're my boyfriend." She said in a teasing tone.

"Duh." I rolled my eyes then chuckled too before pressing a quick kiss on her cheek, "You're silly."

"Silly and pregnant, that's me." she grinned as patted her tummy gently, relaxing next to me. "I want a girl too though." she added as an afterthought.

"...too?" I raised one eyebrow at her.

"At some point we'll make other babies Jake." she shrugged, and I felt myself swell up with pride. I loved that she wanted to have more kids with me. "Probably planned ones but still." I smiled genuinely, feeling the urge to propose again but still knowing it was the wrong time.

“This is just the beginning baby." She nodded  and then got the dreamy look on her face I was used to when she was talking about us.

"It is." She said softly as we walked into the hospital. "Maybe we'll have a bear first and then you won't have to worry because he'll protect our flowers, if we'll have any."

“No one else but me would understand that sentence you know that.” I laughed and she giggled more.

“I know I was just thinking that.” She cringed. “Ugh I hate hospitals.” I kissed the top of her head softly.

“Me too.” We reached our doctors office right on time and Vi tapped her foot impatiently as we waited after the nurse took all her vitals.

“What’s wrong baby?” I asked, looking at her warily because she had her no nonsense face on.

“That nurse said I was looking more and more pregnant every time!!!” she shouted. “The bit.ch.” I struggled not to laugh.

“Well you are starting to show love.” I commented.

“Fu.ck you.” She narrowed her eyes and this time I had to bite my tongue since when Vi was pissed off but not really at me it was kind of….well hot.

“Later.” I winked and right before she was about to snap back at me Dr. Morrison came in.

“Violet, Jake, nice to see you.” She grinned and Vi instantly put her happy face back on. “16 weeks! How do you feel?”

“Glad that I'm not nauseous anymore.” Vi admitted. That made two of us. The doctor laughed lightly.

“Yes I get that a lot.” She nodded, squeezing a tube of white gel onto her tiny tummy bump. “Now are you two interested in knowing the sex of the baby now?”

“Yes!” We both agreed eagerly.

“Great! Sometimes if the baby is positioned correctly 16 weeks is long enough to find out so let’s see.” She rubbed the sonogram against her and Vi jumped a little.

“Cold.” She grinned and I squeezed her hand as the sigh of our bean came on the screen.

“Oh god Jake look.” Vi squeezed my hand back and the doctor watched the screen for a few moments.

“It looks like the heartbeat is normal, everything looks good….the baby seems to be in a strange position but….oh there it is!”

“There what is?” I asked, suddenly scared but Dr. Morrison just pointed.

“Well there he is I guess I should say.” She grinned.

“It’s a boy?!” I asked and I actually felt a little dizzy.

“It’s a boy.” She agreed. “Congratulations.”

"Thanks." I said, almost still in a daze and not realizing I had said anything until I heard it.  

"Oh my god, a boy." Violet whispered.

“Are you okay Violet? You're a little pale." The doctors words pulled me out of my shock and I blinked back at my girl, my heart speeding up as I worried.

"Yes, just a little dizzy." VI admitted but then took a deep breath and broke into a huge smile. "I'm fine."

"I suggest you to eat something as soon as you're out of here, to absorb the news better." She smiled back at us, pressing a button on the keyboard and producing a piece of paper as big as a Polaroid, giving it to me and I just stared at it. "Your baby is perfectly fine, you'll have to come back here in a few weeks, I'll make sure your appointment will be taken by my assistant." She went on since none of us was talking. I was still staring at the picture. Never in a million years did I ever imagine being here right now…..looking down at a picture of my son inside of the woman I loved more than anything in the whole world. I was so lucky.

 "Thank you." Vi managed to say and got up in a sitting position.

"I'll see you soon." The doctor offered a warm smile and then shot me a knowing look before I blinked back at her.

"Thank you again, bye." Vi said as she practically dragged me out of the room. "Earth to Jake, are you here?"

 "Kind of!" I said quietly.

 "Can I take a look at our little Jackson too?" she asked as she peeked at the picture which was more like a black and white mess, but if you looked better you could see the shape of our bean. "Is he as handsome as his dad already?"

“He’s so tiny.” I said looking wide eyed at my girl.

“Yes he fits in my tummy here.” She grinned setting her hands on her still quite small stomach.

“I'm a dad.” I said looking straight ahead of me.

“Yes.” Vi nodded, grabbing my hand and squeezing it. “Are you freaking out a little?”

“I don’t know how to be a dad Vi.” I said seriously, running my free hand through my hair. “I'm a terrible example.”

“No you’re not.” Vi said with a hint more seriousness in her tone.

“Vi-“ I started but she put her hand up to my mouth.

“We’ve both done shi.t that we both hope bean never does Jake, but that doesn’t make us bad parents. Plus we’ve learned from our mistakes.”

“Jackson.” I corrected.

“What about him?”

“We don’t need to call him bean anymore. We know he’s Jackson.” Violet took that moment to jump and make a little squeaking sound. “What?!”

“Oh my god Jake he moved!” she exclaimed. “He moved and I felt it!!” I grinned.

“He must like his name.” I smiled wide. “Did it feel weird?”

“It did. But wonderful.” Vi’s face was flushed and she looked dreamy and gorgeous. “Like popcorn popping.” I laughed and cupped her face, kissing her hard on the lips.

“Lets go shopping.” I offered.

“What?” she looked at me like I’d lost my mind.

“We know it’s a boy we can go buy boy things now!” She looked at me like I was speaking Chinese, which made sense I usually hated shopping but something about making a life for our son had it not seem too bad now.

"Boy things?" she echoed my words and I shrugged.

"You know, all those tiny onesies..." I trailed off, moving my hands to try and describe but I was never too good at charades.

"We'll have to buy a bear one too. With ears and everything." she grinned and I started thinking about a baby dressed as a bear. Damn the thought was cute.

"We're having a baby bear." I smirked at my love from ear to ear, "Jax the baby bear."

"That sounds so silly. And so adorable." Violet laughed and then sighed, "We need to finish his room first though."

"I don't know if we'll be able to." I said slowly, still thinking that we should move into a bigger place but for some reason Violet was attached to ours.

"I already threw away tons of stuff." she waved my hand in the air as if it was nothing, even though I knew better.

"Even your shoes?" I asked, faking a shocked look and knowing I was right when she pursed her lips together.

"I sent two huge boxes to my parents." she admitted eventually.

"Vi!" I shook my head and sighed, "Did you tell them about the baby too?"

"Not yet." she said hurriedly before changing the subject, "I think I want the room a light baby blue and white with cute bears painted on the walls."

“Good subject change Vi but I'm not buying any Winnie the Pooh stencils until you tell your family that we’re having a baby.” Vi’s whole body language changed and she ran her hand through her long hair.

“You’re right we should go shopping. I need makeup.” She replied in a cold voice that I recognized too well as crazy Vi.

 “For what?” I played along with her game and she shot me a look.

“To fix the bags under my eyes!” I shook my head.

“Good idea let’s do it.” I challenged her even though her face was flawless and we both knew it.  She glared at me and I took a step closer, pressing my finger against her forehead as she glared at me. “You should get some cream for the all wrinkles you’ll get from glaring so much too.” 

“Do you want to be slapped? Is that what you want?”  I totally closed the distance between us, tilting her head up with my finger on her chin.

“Your parents can’t say anything, ANYTHING that is going to make having this baby less special. They can’t say anything that will make you a bad mother, they can’t say anything that will make our baby less than perfect. The worst they can be is happy because then we’ll have to see them more.” I added and Vi’s face softened as I saw her smirk at me.

“I don’t want them to disappoint Jackson too.” She said finally in a whisper.

“That’s up to them baby. They still get to know.”

"I'll send him an e-mail." she shrugged nonchalantly, as if that was the most sensible thing in the world.

"Vi, no." I groaned.

"They still get to know." She replying with that fake innocent face she did so well but never fooled me.

"Do whatever you want Vi but I'm telling you, the longer you avoid the problem the worse is going to get."

"God, fine Jake!" she grumbled, and I could tell by the look on her face that she thought I’d ruined her day. "I'll talk to them." I ignored the change of mood, used to it by now.

"Good girl. I can come with you."

"Nope, I'm going alone." She shook her head.

"Why? It's our baby Vi." I said seriously feeling possessive of my girl and my son. If anyone was going to upset them I was going to be there. Vi just shrugged.

"I need to do it alone. If they'll take the news in the right way we'll go visit together another time."

"But you're pregnant-" I stared but she cut me off with a glare.

"I'm pregnant so what? I can still do everything, I'm not a fat whale who can't even walk yet." she snapped at me, sounding like the silly pregnant woman she was. I just chuckled.

"You'll never be a fat whale crazy woman." I grinned at her.

"We'll see." She smirked back, "I can go by train and we can meet at your parents at night when I'll let your mom spoil me and then we can go back home by car. Your car."

"Since when you like planning so much?" .

"Since I'm a mama bear" she sighed before laughing like she’d told a silly joke.

“I'm still going with you.” I replied after she’d stopped laughing at herself like a super cutie.

“No.” she narrowed her eyes.

“Sorry babe but you’re not going to convince me to do that alone.” She folded her arms across her chest and stopped in front of me.

“I don’t want you to be there.” I ran my tongue over my lips and then reached for her waist, pulling her flush against me and tangling my hands in her hair.

“There is no “I” when it comes to the baby boy inside of you Violet. It’s always we. Always us. No matter how awful or annoying it would be, even you decide some day you don’t want to be with me anymore, when it comes to Jackson, it’s always we.” Violet blinked at me and then threw her head into my chest.

“Jake I’ll never not want to be with you. Ever.” She said muffled against my shirt. I held her tighter and smiled, kissing the top of her head.

“Well that will make it much easier so I'm happy.”

“You’re not holding me hard enough.” She pouted and I could see the vulnerable look on her pretty face as I lowered my head to her ear.

“If I was to get closer we’d be a few seconds away from giving a show to the rest of the people on the street.”

“So, good for them.”

“So are you going to let me come with you happily or angrily?” I asked, ignoring her last statement and knowing that lately she’d want me and two seconds later not want me at all.

"Happily, I guess." Violet sighed, relaxing in my arms finally and nuzzling against my chest. I loved when she did that. I pulled my head back to peek down at her with a grin.

"You guess?" she set her chin on my chest and stared up into my eyes.

"Do I really have any choice?"

"You do, I just gave you one." She rolled her eyes and I grinned wider.

"If I let you come me with angrily it would only make things worse."

"My girl's becoming so wise." I said as I faked a straight face before breaking into a smug grin, always pleased when I was winning since it happened so rarely.

"So wise I think I deserve a prize." she grinned at me and I couldn’t help but smile back even wider, things between us were so good lately, I only hoped it would stay that way especially when we’d have a tiny baby to take care of.

"Isn't going shopping with me a prize already?" I smirked back at her.

"That's the prize for Jackson, not for me." Wow. Now that we knew he was a boy and had a name it made him so much more real….

"What do you want baby?"

"You being my slave for 24 hours." Violet said seriously, making me just laugh.

"I'm already your slave." She grinned like a silly girl then pulled away, reaching for my hand and tangling her fingers with mine.

"I love how that sounds."