towering trust, insatiable lust

I knocked on Colbies door, shifting my weight from one foot to the other as I waited, wondering if it was a good idea coming over without having being invited. But I wanted to see her and I have been waiting all week, almost counting the days until the game because I was sure I would've seen her there...she wasn't there instead.
"Jax?" She blinked her eyes as she opened the door, looking surprised and a little embarrassed too, her hands tugging at her cardigan to close it around her body.
"Lila told me you couldn't come to the game because you didn't feel well..." I trailed off, scratching the back of my neck, "I wanted to know if you were okay, if you needed something."
A smile widened her lips and her eyes got warm as she stared up at me, "I'm fine. I just have a headache." She answered quietly.

"That's not too bad." I said back, reaching for the lose strand of golden hair thar had fallen from her bun and pushing I off her face gently. "Did you take meds?"
She leaned into my touch just so slightly, nodding slowly, "I'm fine really."
"Are you contagious?" I asked as I shot her a grin, my hand cupping her face and my head bowing down to kiss her lips chastely. I wasn't asking for more, I knew she was keeping me at distance, but getting to see her and kiss her even if was only for a bunch of minutes was already enough. Correction, it was better than nothing. I understand she had a son and everything, it wasn't stopping me from wanting her though. How could it? She was fun, smart and gorgeous. Great in bed too.
"It's just a migrane." Colbie said softly, almost leaning into me. Almost. She kept holding back and it was driving me crazy because for once I wanted to let it go all instead.
"Who's taking care of you?" I asked, running my thumb across her lower lip and making her lean in further.
"I'm a big girl Jax I can take care of myself. Will texted that the team won."
I nodded, ignoring the part where she basically told me she was okay without me too. Of course she was, but if I were her, I'd be better with me. "They did." I agreed. "Can I come in? I have soup." I asked, watching her as she licked my lips and nodded as her stomach growled. I laughed. "I'm right on time it seems."
She blushed and I looked around at her place, as she let me in, the curtains drawn and all the lights were off. "I'm sensitive to light when I get my headaches." She admitted.
I winced and reached for her, pulling her into my arms. "I'm sorry." I kissed her forehead then her eyelids and she moaned, finally giving up to my touch. I tilted her head up, cradling her face in my hands and studying her beautiful face.
"My meds make me a little woozy." She admitted, her cheeks a bright red.
"Where's your bedroom?" I asked, wanting to take care of her because she was just too cute.
She nodded down the hall and I scooped her up in my arms easily. "It's only a few feet I could have walked."
I shook my head. "Nope." I set her down in the middle of her bed and wrapped her up in all her covers. "Rest while I heat up your soup."
"I can help, you don't know where anything is." She interjected.
"You are really awful at letting someone take care of you." I laughed, hoping she'd stop soon though. "I can find my way around."
She sighed and let her eyes close, "Thanks."
I glanced at her one last time before I made my way to the kitchen, thinking about how weird it was to be here. I had never been to her place just like she had never been to mine, but I had imagined it many times. Correction, I had immagined her many times, all the times she texted me and told me what she was doing I'd picture her on the couch, in her bed, in front of the fridge...reality was different. She wasn't though. It took me less than 5 minutes to heat up the soup, 3 spent moving my eyes around her kitchen and smiling at all the pictures of her and Will. You could see very well that he was his mother's son. Heading back to her bedroom, I noticed how photos were literally everywhere, covering walls and tables, showing to whoever might walk into that house all the love that lived there.
"Sit beautiful girl." I said softly and smiled at her, approaching her bed.
She did as told, leaning her back against the headboard and keeping her eyes on me. "I doubt I look beautiful right now." She said with a grin, accepting the soup from my hands and tilting her head down to inhale its smell. "It seems good. Did you make it?"
"You're beautiful instead." I told her as I sat on the edge of the bed, dropping my hand on her covered knee while I watched her, "And no, I didn't. But I could and it'd be even better."
She shot me a grin after swallowing, "Can you cook?"
"My mother insisted to teach me how to make broth for when I'm sick." I paused, making a face, "It was either that or she'd come over everytime I don't feel good."
She let out a small laugh, looking genuinely amused, "Aren't you going to the infamous Sunday dinner tonight?"
I shrugged, never missing one...but there was always a first time for everything. "I told my mom I'd be late or I wouldn't go at all." I said carefully, still not sure about how much Colbie wanted me there with her.
"You don't have to skip that to stay here." She paused from eating, leaning her head against the headboard of the bed and looking at me with a serious expression on her face, "I can stay alone, I've always had."
"I know I don't have to." I squeezed her knee gently, "But I want to stay. And I know you're indipendent and you can take care of yourself too, but isn't it nice having someone else to do that?" I asked softly to prove my point. Or to convince her and avoid to beg her to make me stay instead. Will was at my parents along with Lila and his beloved Rob, Colbie had nothing to worry about and we could enjoy a few hours together.
"It's nice to have eye candy." Colbie smirked.
I laughed as I placed a cool towel on her forehead. "You're being silly."
"I'm having dirty doctor fantasies, I'd hardly call that silly."
I rose my brows, my brain working in another direction and to a fantasy where she was a sexy nurse instead. "You'll have to tell me about those."
She shook her head. "Nope." She grinned, looking happy even if you could tell she wasn't at her best. "This is good." She said, having some more soup.
"Good." I pointed out quietly.
"Wont your family miss you?"
I shrugged, missing a family dinner was a big deal in my mom's opinion, it wasn't a tragedy in mine instead. "My family sees me all the time, I don't get to see you."
She flashed me a smile. "You saw me once already this week." She pointed out, biting her lip as I thought about the sexy time we had spent together.
"Not enough." I said seriously and wondered how much would be enough.
"Thank you." She said softly, setting down the empty soup bowl and pulling me into her bed next to her.
"What are you doing?" I asked quietly, never knowing what she had in mind.
She nuzzled into me. "Making up for when I didn't cuddle you last time."
I didn't say anything, but grabbed her waist and pulled her closer.
She set her head on my chest and tangled her legs with mine, "You smell good." She admitted.
"So do you." My hand ran up and down her body gently, making her sigh.
"Its the room, I lit lavender candles."
I tilted my head down, inhaling deeply and pressing a kiss on her soft neck before smirking, "No, it's you."
She broke into a giggle I wasn't expecting, her whole body trembling, "It tickles."
I pulled my head back to shot her an amused look, "You want to kill me with your cuteness." I pointed out and felt my grin widen.
She pouted, "I thought I was sexy instead."
"You're always sexy." I said seriously.
She sighed, shaking her head, "Even sick in my pjs?" She paused, "I don't think so."
"I think so instead." I retorted and cupped her face gently, kissing her lips softly and feeling her shiver in my hold, "Are you cold?"
"Maybe a little." She breathed out, her face flushed.
I took my sweater off, giving it to her, "That will help."
She accepted it and slid it over her tiny but curvy body, the view of her in my clothes taking my breath away. I was liking her more and more than I thought I could. "Thank you. But you're helping too." She said with a silly satisfied smile on her pink lips.
I laid back next to her, pulling the covers over our bodies before tucking her safely under my arm, against me as our legs tangled together. "I can't even remember the last time I spent time in bed with a girl without doing anything." I confessed, letting out the part where I thought it felt so good too. This was all that had been missing with other girls. I couldn't explain it, but there was a connection, some kind of simplicity no matter how things weren't simple at all instead.
"You don't want to fool around?" Colbie asked, shooting me a surprised face.
"You're sick." I laughed.
"I have a headache. Did you know orgasms are natrual pain killers?"
I laughed again. "I know now. How about you sleep a little and if you still want painkillers when you wake up I'll work some magic." I offered.
She grinned as she nodded and then jumped when her phone rang.
"You don't have to-"
"I'm a mother Jax I always answer the phone. Hello?" She cut me off before I could even finish my sentence. I'd give her a pass, but just for now. I watched her smile and I guessed it was her son. "It's Sunday Will, you have school tomorrow." She sighed, looking torn. "Let me talk to his mom." She said before she set down the details with my sister in law and then hung up to turn back to me."Looks like I'm all alone tonight."
I gave her a look as I let her adjust against my body again. I didn't know if that was a veiled invitation or she was just pointing out a fact. "Do you sleep alone often?" I asked eventually, testing the waters.
She broke into a grin, "Every night."
My grin matched hers as I pulled my head back to get a better view of her gorgeous face. "What a smartass. You are Lila's sister after all."
"Is it bad?" She asked, faking a frown that didn't last long. I shook my head. "No I don't. Except for the occasional nights when Will stays over at Rob's."
I processed that information, another piece to add to the puzzle named Colbie. If I thought about it, I didn't know that much of her, but I felt like I did instead. It was weird. "And do you like when that happens?" I went on, trying to figure out what to do with my night myself.
"No, I miss having Will around." She answered, this time more seriously.
"It makes sense." I commented quietly as I leaned my head back on the pillow we were sharing, taking some time to think.
She propped herself up on one elbow, setting her cheek on her hand as she stared at me. "I bet you're never alone at night."
"I hope you wouldn't really bet because you'd lose." I offered a small smirk, not wanting this conversation to take the wrong turn. She already had a bad opinion about me as it was, not that I didn't deserve it, but still. "I like my bed too much to share it."
"Is it comfortable?" She asked, a teasing smile on her lips as I nodded, "Is mine too?"
I pushed a lose wisp of her hair behind her ear, looking into her eyes. "I think so, but I might have to spend the night here to be sure about that..." I trailed off, mentally keeping my fingers crossed.
"Not if you're a bed hog." Colbie laughed.
I watched her in amusement, "I'll share I promise."
She hummed a little as she slid her hands up my chest to wrap around my neck. "I'm not sure what we're doing Jax." She admitted, making me hold my breath a moment. I hoped she wouldn't ask me because I didn't know either. What I knew was that I was liking it, no matter how the odds were against us. "But I don't want to stop." She added.
"Baby..." I nuzzled her neck and held her tighter, feeling her relax then tense then curse. "What?" I pulled back to look into her face, wondering what was going on.
She blinked as if realizing just now what she had said. "Oh." Her face flushed. "I um." She shook her head. "It's nothing."
"Tell me." I said quietly yet firmly. I wasn't asking, it was a command.
She took a deep breath before speaking. "I keep comparing you to Nick." She admitted. "Even when things are awesome, I'm thinking about him and that feels....unfair."
"Nick was your ex-husband?" I asked and she nodded. "What do you mean comparing?"
She let out a long sigh and shrugged. "Like just now you called me baby and I thought how precious that made me feel. Nick never used pet names."
"So you're comparing me and I'm coming out better." I grinned, though I was still serious.
"Everytime." She agreed. "But...It's making me question why I let myself fall for him at all, or if I even did, what if the only reason I was with Nick was because of Will....and if that was the reason then am I just as bad of an example to him as Nick? Nick ran away from us and sure he cheated on me but if we weren't meant to be together anyways I'm showing Will it's okay to settle if it makes life easy?" She stopped to take a breath since she was talking so fast. "Sorry, I don't know why I'm telling you all this."
I looked down at her and smiled, still keeping her against me but not moving. "I like hearing you talk." I commented quietly, meaning it. For the first time I was genuinely interested in what a girl had to say and that said a lot.
She kept a serious expression on her face, "Isn't it boring you? I'm talking about my son and my messy past..." She trailed off as if the admission costed her and I couldn't blame her. Her ex was to blame, no doubts about that.
I shook my haid, "It only means I'm getting to know you and it's exactly what I want." I smirked at her as I watched her eyes soften a little. "And if you want my opinion? I think you're a great exemple for your son." I added.
"You don't really know me Jax...you said that yourself." She commented slowly, always finding a way to disagree or just not to be easy with me. I had to work with her and even if sometimes it was frustrating, it was challenging too and I liked that.
"I don't, but I see your son at the game every weekend and I also see him a lot at my brother's place." I started, knowing how to prove a point, "He's a good kid, he's well mannered, he's good at school too-"
"How do you know that?!" She cut me off, knitting her brows together.
I flashed her a grin, "Travis doesn't let them play if their grades aren't good." I said back and she seemed happy with the answer, biting down on her lip and nodded. Of course she knew that, silly girl. "So I do know you're doing a great job with him? And for the settling for something that makes your life easy? I'm no father but I doubt that keeping a baby when you're with a dick makes things that easy."
Colbie just looked at me in surprise before laughing. Good sign? "God he was a dick. He was such a dic.k." She shook her head.
"He was." I agreed seriously. "Lila says so all the time."
She laughed again but I could tell it was a nervous laugh too. The subject, of course, was a touchy one. "I try to keep him idealized so Will won't hate his father but god I kind of hate him." She admitted, widened her eyes and put her hands over her head. "Oh my god I can't believe I said that out loud I've never said it."
It was my turn to laugh as I pulled her hands away. "I think you're allowed to hate a man who cheated on and then abandonded you." I pointed out.
She sighed. "Yeah...." She nodded.
"You aren't the one to blame for your marriage falling apart Colbie." I said, guessing her thoughts.
"I just don't understand why he begged me to marry him if he didn't love me. If he wanted other women...I didn't get pregnant to trap him."
"Of course you didn't. And as for wanting other women? I honestly don't know what was wrong with him."
She scoffed. "You've never seen his secretary. She looks like a playboy bunny."
"That's not a valid excuse." I pointed out as I stared at the ceiling, my body completely relaxed as I held hers.
"You would like her too." She said back matter of factly.
I turned my head to look at her again, smirking, "I don't think you know me enough to know what my type is." I said to make the moment lighter but I was also loving how easily we were talking about serious parts of her life.
"What's your type Jax?" She asked and gave me a small grin back.
"You." I answered nonchalantly which got me a roll of her eyes. I took advantage of her silence to kiss her, "Marriage is a serious thing Colbie and I believe in that. If you're married you have to honor the promise you make."
She looked at me with surprise on her beautiful face, "I might have a heart attack, I can't believe I just heard a man saying that he believes in marriage."
I laughed at her words, poking her side because she was making me feel silly when she was silly instead. I meant what I was saying. "I grew up with two parents crazy in love, my older brother and his wife are inseparable...I don't see why I wouldn't have to want that." I explained.
Her expression turned serious again as her hand moved up and down my ribs absentmindedly, "Why aren't you married Jax?" She asked.
"I haven't found a good girl to marry." So far, I added in my thoughts, with my own great surprise.
Colbie laughed at me and I turned to her to give her a look. I was starting to get tired of not being taken seriously by the woman I was trying to date. It was frustrating and a little offending too. "Oh you weren't joking?" She asked, trying to hide her giggles.
"Um. No." I said seriously.
She sobered and turned to look at me. "But come on Jax you don't look for girls that are marriage material." She argued and I blinked at her, wondering where she had been hiding while I was with other girls. She couldn't know anything about the girls I had been with, except for one. "I mean the girl at the club was hot but she's not someone you bring home to your mother, and from what I've heard she's the best of your girls."
"Why do you do that? Why do you think I'm some asshole who sleeps with whatever walks up to me?" I asked, pulling away from her and thinking that maybe it was time for me to go because this thing wasn't going anywhere.
"I don't think you're an asshole." She replied. "I just think you're more afraid of commitment than you like to admit. There are plenty of good girls out there and you are an incredible guy. If you had wanted to settle down? You would have done it already." She shrugged.
"You really don't take shit from anyone do you?" I pointed out, finding her an excuse instead of arguing because truth was, I didn't want to leave, I didn't want to give up.
"I have 5 brothers. Of course I don't."
"I don't like the way you think about me." I admitted. She had to stop.
She reached out and pulled me closer to her. I didn't pull back, if anything I held her tighter than before. "I think you're amazing Jackson." She whispered softly as she set her head against my chest.
"You think I'm a pig." I retorted.
She shook her head. "Nah, I think you're a guy." She looked up to me. "My brothers are just like you. Some of them are worse because they're celebrities." She sighed. "But they're still my favorite people in the world. And you're making your way up on that list pretty fast."
"The list of your favorite people in the world?" I grinned. "Wow."
She nodded. "I know, see? I think of you just fine."
I grabbed her waist and suddenly she was on her back, my body hovering over hers. "You are the kind of girl who men bring home to meet their mother." I said in a low voice.
She nodded and licked her lips. "Yes I know." She said in a monotone. "Which also makes me the girl you cheat on because I'm not the kind of girl you want just for fucking."
I suppressed the urge to groan, to pull away, to roll my eyes, because I was slowly start to realize that the reason why she had no faith in me was that she had no faith in herself. I didn't lack in patience and she was worth it anyway. So I kissed her instead, pressing her lips gently yet firmly until she was giving in, her body relaxing under mine. "I don't want you just for f.ucking." I said once I broke the kiss, my voice coming out lower than I expected as I looked into her eyes, "But I wouldn't cheat on you either."
She looked back at me through her lashes, "But we're not together." She pointed out and I was expecting that kind of answer.
"If we were, I wouldn't cheat on you." I said seriously, yet I was trying to sound nonchalant too. I was only speaking my mind. "I can't even think about seeing another girl right now."
"Let's see how long it lasts." She scoffed and I kissed her again, cutting her off in the best way. "Are you tired of hearing me talk?" She muttered against my lips.
"I'm going to kiss you everytime you say something I don't like." I said back instead, still trying to be playful about a subject that was touchy instead. "And no offense gorgeous, you don't know me enough to judge how I behave with girls, you don't know me enough to know really how different I am with me, but it's okay because I like you."
"Do you know me enough to like me?" She asked back with a brow raised, always trying to prove her point which was, of course, opposite of mine.
"Do you know me enough to know if I like you or not?" I retorted, using the same tactic of hers. When she was about to argue again, I stopped her. Again. "You should come to my parents dinner on the 26th."
"The day after Christmas?" She asked and in that moment I had no idea of what she was thinking, but I knew I wouldn't take no as answer.
I nodded as I offered a smile, "It will be fun. We always end up playing games...my brothers will be there, Lila too. And I wouldn't be surprised if Rob had invited Will already."
Colbie relaxed and smiled up at me. "That would be lovely." She nodded.
"Yeah?" I asked and felt a fire inside of me, just because she was saying yes when I was expecting her to say no instead.
She laughed. "Did you think I'd say no? I love your mom's cooking, Will has fun and I don't know if you know this but there are a lot of hot guys in your family." She tried to keep a straight face but I glared at her.
"Seriously Colbie?"
She laughed and nodded. "Actually yes, seriously." She admitted. I shook my head and she grabbed my tee to pull me closer to her. "You're my favorite." She whispered before kissing me hard, sliding her tongue into my mouth and moaning against my lips.
I groaned and gripped her hips, pulling her against me. If only she let herself go like now. She was amazing. "Who is?" I asked, my lips still pressed to hers.
"You." She whispered, kissing me again.
"That's right." I kissed her back, then pulled away to kiss her nose and her forehead. "How are you feeling?"
"All better, now I'm spoiled though."
I raised a brow at her, I didn't understand. "What?"
"I'm going to want cuddles and kisses every time I get a headache from now on." She teased me but if that was what she wanted? All she had to do was ask me. I'd run to her.
"I don't live far." I nuzzled her neck, not saying all I was thiking because I knew it'd freak her out.
She sighed. "Jackson?" She whispered, swallowing.
"Mmm?" I asked pulling back and pushing her hair out of her face.
"Don't leave."
I brushed my nose against hers softly, "I'm not going anywhere." I said simply and smiled, surprised to see her in such a vulnerable state. But if that meant she was done pushing me back? I liked it.
"I don't want to sleep alone tonight." She added as I noticed a fast breath leave her soft lips.
"I'm sleeping with you." I said then thought f.uck it, I was going to say what I had in my mind, because I had nothing to worry. If she didn't believe me, I'd prove her wrong. "Not for tonight only I hope." I added.
She stared into my eyes and I could tell she was torn. "I don't know..." She trailed off.
"We'll see." I smiled at her, not letting her doubts touch me. Maybe I could believe in this thing between us for us both and convince her that I was right. "I promise I'll make no plans at all. I won't push you, I won't ask for too much...but you have to promise me that you know that if you want me to do something, anything, you just have to ask me and I'll say yes."
"You say that now, just because you know you'll end up inside of me by the end of the night." She said back, using what now I recognized as a tactic to push me away by making it sound like just a banter.
"I'd be more than happy even if I didn't." I shrugged nonchalantly, refusing to give up, "I mean it and I'll prove it to you."
She sighed and took a few moments to talk again, which I took as a good sign. "I don't understand why you're so stubborn about me." She said eventually.
I rolled onto my side, keeping her against me and kissing behind her ear, "I'd tell you, but you don't know how to take compliments." I smirked against her skin, breathing in her scent and realizing that yes, I was starting to want more.
"Depends on the compliment." Colbie replied, turning in my arms until she could climb into my lap.
"Does it?" I moved my hands up her thighs, brushing my thumbs against her skin innocently.
"Yes." She nodded and grabbed my tee shirt, pushing it up my stomach slowly as she kissed her way up my body.
"Colbie." My hands moved to her hair until she had pushed my shirt all the way up and I lifted my arms so she could strip it from my body.
"Like if you were to tell me I'm a great kisser? I'd say great was probably an understatement." She grinned and leaned in to kiss me with everything she had.
"I'd agree with you." I groaned against her mouth as my hands fisted in her hair.
"Okay, so this isn't a one night stand or a fling right?"
I shook my hea, not sure of what it was but sure of what it wasn't. "No."
She nodded, "Will you be my teacher?" She asked.
I blinked at her. "I'm pretty sure you're the smarter one between the two of us."
She laughed. "I mean about this." She grinded her hips into my lap. "I'm bad at dating and flirting and let's be honest at best I'm vanilla in bed. I only had one boyfriend before I got married and I'm no good at this. You are excellent instead."
"You're not vanilla." I groaned.
"I mean I'm not a prude, sure. I know the basic girl on top, guy on top, but that's pretty much it." She shrugged.
I grabbed her hips and pulled her beneath of me so our positions were switched. "You're pissing me off Colbie."
"Am I? It's kind of hot." She admitted, noticing how I'd pinned her wrists with my hands. "I've never been held down like this before. I want to learn everything."
I ignored her words, the way she was looking at me, how her nips were showing even through two layers of clothes. "Do you know what's a turn off instead?" I asked, my face hard and serious. I wasn't going to get mad, but I was really tempted.
She bit down on her lip and shook her head, "Nope. Tell me."
"When a girl asks me to teach her about sex only to use it with another man who's not me." I started, staring down at her and not moving, not letting go of her wrists either. "When you piss me off and think it's hot. If you think that's the right way to handle me, you're wrong Colbie. I'm okay with you trying to push me away because you can't admit out loud that you're liking whatever it's going on between us as much as I am, but I'm not okay with you doubting me or how I am with you."
"Jackson, I-"
"I'm not done." I cut her off, deciding that I was reaching my limit. I had a patience that was almost never ending but I didn't want her to get the wrong opinion about me. "Do you want me to treat you like the other girls? Do you want to be f.ucked knowing it's the last time?" I paused as I pressed my erection between her legs, getting a moan out of her, "Do you want me to use no gentleness and treat you like you're nothing but just a hot body I'll get tired,of after a couple hours?"
She watched me with wide eyes, probably surprised by how I was talking to her. It was out of character for me. "I...I don't. I do. I mean, I want you to give me everything...not for the last time."
I softened, lowering myself on top of her until there was not even one inch between us, "I can give it to you, only if you promise you'll let me. And I'm not talking about sex only."
"I don't want to use it with another man." Colbie said seriously, but didn't add more which was a shame because I wanted to know what she was thinking.
"No? Then why does it matter to you to be some kind of sex goddess?" I asked, pushing her to tell me more.
She swallowed thickly, licking her lips and letting seconds pass. "Because I want to experience everything with YOU." She admitted.
I felt at the same time relieved and not. "Why?"
"Because I'm afraid of the day when you'll tire of me." She confessed and I groaned as I leaned my head into her neck. "And because I'm addicted to being with you." She whispered softly.
"I'm not going anywhere Colbie. Not tonight, not tomorrow, not next week or next month. I am here. With you. When you need me."
"How can you say that?" She choked on her words. "How can you know someone better wont come along tomorrow? Someone, perfect for you, without a child she needs to think of first every time? I wouldn't even blame you if it happened...."
"That can go both ways. A man could come along much more suited for you than me, that doesn't make me want to leave you just because the possibility of losing you is there." I argued.
"I'm scared because I've never felt this way about a man. I've never wanted to tell someone, everything about me and everything I think and feel. I was married and I'm terrified of how much more I feel about a man I'm not even technically with. And that's not even talking about the sex which is so incredible I'm afraid you'll turn me into an addict. Even now when we're fighting I can feel...energy between us."
"That's not even fighting really." I said and a small smile played on my lips because I was already happy enough that we were talking through this. "You're telling me what you think and I'm telling you what I think too."
She let out a soft chuckle that was more to release some of the tension between us than anything else. "Isn't that what adults do?" She said back.
I nodded, letting go of her wrists and wrapping my arms around her, "I don't want you to be scared...I get that all you told me can be pretty terrifying-"
"Doesn't it scare you too?" She cut me off before I could finish, tilting her head back ago look at me.
"It could but honestly?" I explained, shrugging my shoulders, "I'm more interested in the good parts of this. Why should we start worrying even before we actually have something to worry about?"
"Because you could spend your time with a more simple woman." She said bluntly, giving me a serious look.
"Simple is not my thing. And I don't care, I like you and I want you." I retorted, never being the kind of guy who spent too much time thinking about consequences. That was my brother Travis' trait, not mine. Silence fell into the room for a moment and it hit me. Her words. I had let them slip away as if I hadn't heard them. "Do you want to be with me?" I asked, blinking at her.
"Is that really a question? Are we in high school?" She asked back with a smirk on her lips.
I shook my head, smirking myself a little, "You said you're terrified of how you feel about someone you're not even technically with." I answered as I got more serious again.
"Jax, we went on one date...officially. We don't know each other that well." She pointed out, being the reasoning one.
"I know, but if we didn't go on more dates because I didn't ask." I retorted, knowing she was a mom and everything but also I was starting to have the feeling she used that as an excuse too. Excuse wasn't even the right word. "If I could I'd take you out every night."
"Will is going to spend a few days with his uncle during the holidays..." She trailed off slowly.
I held her close, my hand cupping her cheek, "Let me use those days to prove you that I meant all I've said so far." I suggested.
"Yes." Colbie said simply and that was enough for me.
"I'm addicted to you too." I whispered against her mouth, arching my hips against hers again.
"Please..." She grabbed onto her ass to pull me closer and I groaned.
"Please what?" I shot her a cocky grin and she licked her lips and ground upwards against me instead of answering. That was a great answer anyway. I chuckled and grabbed her hips, pinning them down on the bed. "Here's your first lesson. I like it when you tell me what you want. With your words."
She blushed and bit down on her lip. "Should I be specific?" She asked as I pushed her top off her body.
I nodded, a little distracted to be honest. "Very."
She grinned wider up at me. "You might have to help me, do you prefer dick or cock?"
I widened my eyes and then groaned. "Fuck either." I leaned in and kissed her hard as she pushed down my jeans.
"I haven't even said anything yet." She laughed against my lips.
"You're a fast learner."
She rolled on top of me and pulled off her bra, tossing it off the bed. "You have no idea."