something about the way you move

something about the way you move by ssaarah

I looked in my closet and sighed. Everything looked so. Mom. Or professional. There was nothing that really said girls night out anywhere. I used to have a hundred little black dresses but where was I going to wear them now? I gave up and got into my car, the sensible one of course, not the sporty one I'd always dreamed of having when I had the money, and drove to my baby sisters place. She opened the door and looked back at me.
"You look like shi.t." I told her seriously. She shrugged.

"Yeah well you don't look much better. Let's just watch movies in our sweatpants." I shook my head.
"No. My son is camping all weekend with his class, I'm all caught up on paperwork and you said you wanted to act normal and I NEED to act normal. Please Lila."
"Fine." She sighed, turning around and walking towards her closet. "Did you bring something to wear?"
"No I need to borrow something." She blinked.
"Your tits are way bigger than mine, you'll stretch everything out." I narrowed my eyes on my sister.
"Look I know you're upset about Travis-"
"I don't want to talk about it. If I even think about it I start crying and I'm fucking sick of crying." She said seriously. "You want to slut it up tonight? Let's do it."
"Why do you even have so many dresses like this?" I asked, looking down at myself in the tight red spaghetti strap dress that hugged my body and ended right before my knees. Lila shrugged, zipping up the back to a slinky silver mini dress. My sister really was a knock out.
"Holy shit Colb you look hot." She widened her eyes and I turned to the mirror, barely recognizing myself. Lila winked at me before walking towards her bathroom. That's when my phone went off.
"What are you doing?" the text from Jax said with a smiley face emoticon. I held up the phone to the mirror and snapped a quick picture, curious of a males perspective.
"Going out with my sister. What do you think?"
"Holy shit Colbie you can't go out looking like that!!!!" I blinked and looked back at myself. I mean I wasn't 19 anymore but I thought I cleaned up pretty nice. Even if it wasn't age appropriate I deserved to have one night of fun right?
"Why not?" Jax started typing and I waited until his answer popped up.
"Because every man who sees you like that will only be thinking about fucking you!!" I widened my eyes and licked my lips. I knew what I wanted to say, but did I have the guts to?
"Is that what you're thinking about?" I asked, sending the message before I lost my nerve.
"Colbie -.-"
"Is that a yes or a no?"
"Stop." I grinned and leaned against the wall as I wondered how far I could push him.
"If you do think about it...is it long and slow where you're seeing how deep you can get or is it hard and fast and even faster when I beg you for more?" There was no response for a moment, not even the little icon to show he was typing. My whole body felt hot and I felt wild, like I hadn't since high school when I'd sneak out of my room to go hook up with the senior I'd been seeing behind my brothers back. It had been a long time since any man had made me feel sexy but Jax? It was like safe flirting. I knew nothing could really happen which is what made it that much more exciting.
"Colbie O.O"
"If you're worried about us then why don't you come with? We're going to Aura." I said, naming the club my sister had suggested. I knew very little about the clubbing scene, it was basically impossible to go out for more than a cocktail at a fancy dinner when you were raising a son on your own.
"Good god. Yes. I'll meet you there." I grinned and slipped my phone into the too small purse that Lila had given me.
"Ready?"
"Yeah. Jax is going to be there." Lil looked at me for a beat.
"He's there a lot." She said finally, and I followed her outside her place.
"What do you mean?" I asked as she slid into the passenger seat of my Jeep.
"I mean he goes there a lot." Lila said again.
"Oh." I pouted, though I wasn't sure why and Lila turned the radio on to some loud top 40's station that she sang along to the whole way there.
"Come on." She grabbed my hand and walked straight past the long line of twenty and thirty somethings.
"Lila what are you-"
"Hey Jeff." my sister reached up to kiss the huge guy on the cheek.
"Lila, and friend. Who is this lovely creature?" He asked, with a much softer voice than I would have pictured.
"This is my sister Colbie. Busy tonight?" He shrugged.
"Not too busy for you." He winked and let us in, despite groans from the people still in line.
"When did you get so popular?" I teased and she shot me a grin.
"I've always been." She winked. "Drinks?" I nodded, pulling out my phone and seeing Jax's message.
"Are you going to make me wait long?" I grinned and then looked up as I saw him at the bar. He was dressed in just a white t shirt and dark jeans practically shoved into dark boots but he was easily the most gorgeous man there.
"No." I said and he lifted his head to look at me before turning to look over Lila too, his face softening with sadness as he recognized my sisters fragile state. I wondered if Travis was feeling the same way.
"Hey." he smiled and then leaned in to kiss my cheek, hish and landing on my hip in a move that was probably intended to be more innocent than in felt. "You two look gorgeous." he said, bouncing between Lila and I. My sister was just staring at Jax, her eyes glassy and her mouth trembling slightly.
"Why do you have to look so much like him?" She breathed out, looking as if she was having a hard time not crying. Oh fu.ck. Jax reached out for my sister and pulled her into a big hug. I knew how close they'd gotten and I smiled as he kissed the top of her head.
"If it will make you feel better you're allowed to scream at me, or hit me, or anything you want." he told her, shooting me a sympathetic look because I wasn't really sure what to do with Lila. She'd never really been heartbroken before. She'd never cared so much.
"He'll even pay for all our drinks." I added, smirking and thinking we might as well make tonight about fun.
"I'll do everything you want, tonight I'm at your mercy ladies." he pulled his head back to look down at Lila, grinning at her with a silly look. Lila gave a forced smile to Jax and turned back towards the bar.
"This night is for Colbie not for me." She said finally.
"The hell it is." I glared at her. "It's for both of us." I said instead because yes, I had wanted this night, but it had been her idea to start with. Luckily it had fallen on the one weekend where I could pretend like I didn't have any responsibilities.
"Is he here?" She asked him, wincing even though she also looked hopeful. I had to admit I wasn't really sure why she had left Travis. I knew that she had been insecure in the relationship and I knew that feeling better than anyone. But she had told me that Travis had never been unfaithful to her and when I saw them together? I saw how in love they were. But then I didn't really know love did I?
"No cutie." Jax shook his head.
"Is he out at some other club with women rubbing all over him?" She winced. Jax shook his head again.
"He's at home last time I heard." He looked back at me and I wasn't sure if that was a lie or not, but I was glad he'd said it either way. Lila sighed.
"Okay well let's start drinking then." She smiled, the fake smile she'd gotten really good at.
"Deal." Jax ordered shots and I glanced at him.
"I haven't taken a shot since college." I admitted.
"That's because you've become boring!" Lila teased and I rolled my eyes even though her words hit me hard.
"Well fine then. I'll have two." I grabbed Lila's and downed it before downing my own too.
"Easy." Jax smirked.
"You two should go dance." Lila suggested. Jax turned to raise a brow at her. "Colbie keeps stealing my drinks, if I want to wallow in drunken misery? I have to actually drink something." I reached into my purse to grab a bigger bill to hand to the bartender.
"Can you keep an eye on her?" I asked the pretty brunette. She nodded and walked up to Lila.
"Heartbreak?" She asked. Lil nodded.
"Sucks."
"I got just the drink." She winked at me and I grabbed Jax's hand, pulling him out to the floor where the rest of the crowd was grinding against each other.
"Will she be okay?" Jax looked nervous, but nobody knew my sister better than I did. Not even our brothers.
"She needs some time to process without someone who looks like you around." I teased and he groaned.
"I don't look that much like him." He pouted and I laughed.
"You're right, you're way better looking." I said seriously. Jax's eyes went dark and he grabbed my waist to pull me close, my body literally feeling lit up like a Christmas tree when he touched me.
"Do you know how jealous every man here is of me?" He growled in my ear. God being really with him was so much different then just texting. His voice did something to my stomach.
"That's just because I'm dressed like a hooker." I laughed.
"God you have no idea how fucking sexy you are do you?" I blinked. I was pretty, I always knew that, and sure in high school I had been the cheerleader and dated the football star. But that same guy left me for a woman who was barely legal. Cheated on me. Did I think I was sexy? Not really.
"No." I admitted, shaking my head. Jax laughed as if he thought I was kidding.
"So what did you think when you bought this dress? That made you look innocent?" he asked, smirking.
"It's Lila's dress." I confessed, my body getting hot as I felt silly.
"It looks great on you." he said seriously and grabbed my hand, pulling me away before spinning my body into him, his hands reaching for my hips this time as he pulled me back against his chest.
"Thank you. Maybe I won't give it back to her." I smirked before realizing how close our faces were to each other and turned my head quickly, focusing on dancing instead.
"Good idea. I say either you wear this one, or nothing." he said it against my ear and my whole body shivered.
"Jackson..." I trailed off as I turned my head again to look at him again, the bold Colbie and the shy one warring with each other. "It's hot in here, isn't it?" I asked, the shy Colbie winning out in the end, but Jackson didn't miss a beat.
"You're hot." he said, spinning me out and and then back in this time so we were facing each other. I couldn't help it, I reached for him and slid my hands up his hard chest slowly. "Why are you looking at me like this? I already told you you're hot one million times." he added, smirking down at me.
"You wrote that. There's a difference."
"It was about time we stopped texting like teenagers." he shrugged and held me tighter when another couple bumped back into us. "We should leave that to Will and Rob." Oh god. Just the mention of my son and I realized how crazy I was being.
"Oh god what he'd say if he saw me like this." I shook my head.
"You're a mom, but a very young gorgeous one. You deserve to feel sexy and have fun." he told me, looking like he wanted to reach for me but thinking better of it. "And!" he added, smirking as he tilted his head down a little, our noses almost brushing, "We're doing nothing bad."
"We are in my head." I breathed out and his hands tightened agaisnt me.
"Teasing me here is very different from teasing me on the phone Colbie." Jax said as softly as he could against the loud music.
"I'm not teasing." I admitted, the alchohol hitting my bloodstream and giving me courage I didn't know I had.
"No?" I slid my hands up his chest and wrapped them around his waist.
"You never answered my question...." I reminded.
"Which one was that?" He asked, his hand resting safely against my lower back. I grabbed my phone and scrolled up to the text where I'd asked him if he'd thought about fu.cking me, and how if he had, showing it to him and grinning.
"You want to know if I think about fucking you?" He growled, grabbing my phone and shoving it back to me. "Yes. Look at you. Of course I do."
"And?" I whispered, leaning in closer and feeling my heart beating so fast I thought for sure he could feel it.
"You tell me first." He replied, moving his hands to my hips and holding tightly and I bit my lip then ran my tongue over it as I thought about my admission.
"I have a removeable shower head." I said finally. Jax widened his eyes and waited for me to go on. "You might be on my mind when I'm using it." I admitted, my face blushing furiously. The thing was? I was no prude. I loved sex. Hell I was a pregnant teenager so clearly I wasn't virginal. But I'd only ever been with one man in my life and I hadn't been enough for him. And Jax? He was 10 times the man that Nick had been. And 100 times more gorgeous. Especially in person, hot and hard and he smelled so good. I literally wanted to strip us both naked in the middle of the dance floor. But I knew that wouldn't happen. With all his talk? He would never want a single mom and he wasn't my type either. It was just fun. A little way to get my sexy back.
"Colbie you can't talk to me like that in my face." he groaned. "I don't have much restraint, you know."
"Sorry?" I lied, since I kind of liked pushing him.
"Now all I can think about is you naked under your shower thinking about me." he groaned again, his hands holding me tighter and if I wasn't mistaken, inching lower and lower.
"Do you think about me?" I asked and he flashed me a grin.
"Since we started texting? A lot." he paused as he pulled my body closer to his, like I was tiny, before he leaned down to press his mouth against my ear. "I think about you riding me until I go crazy, that's my fave." I pressed my hands to push back, the visions of him naked underneath me as I used his body were potent.
"I think I need a drink." I said seriously.
"I think you need something else. And so do I." he said as he grabbed my hand, leading us through the crowd on the dance floor, it being a lot more crowded than when we had started dancing. A group of what looked like high school girls came towards us and Jax pressed me against the wall to protect me from be trampled.
"Are you going to make it to the bar?"
"Don't you like staying like this?" he asked back, grinning before pulling back and leading me towards the bar counter once again, my hand tightly in his.
"Colbie!!!" Lila grinned at me above a giant fishbowl I assumed was 80 percent pure alchohol.
"Hi sweetie." I kissed the top of her head and she grinned up drunkenly at me.
"I'll find love again right?" I sighed.
"Of course you will." She grinned and pushed me her drink.
"Try this it's so yummy." I took a sip and coughed. It was indeed mostly flavored vodka, but at least it seemed like my baby sister was having a little more fun.
"Jax!" She yelled out of nowhere.
"What's up?" He smirked. She pointed to a redhead who was coming up to the bar with a big grin on her face and the hugest tits I'd ever seen. And I had pretty big ones.
"Baby!" she wrapped her arms around his neck and laid a big kiss right on his lips. Fu.ck. What was I thinking? He had one million girls he could be with way more experienced and less involved than I was.
"Hi." He said, looking at her with less than amusement. Huh. She was hot I wonder what his problem was. He pushed her back and looked at her with wide eyes.
"I haven't heard from you in so long." She said, even pouting a little.
"Because he got a girlfriend." Lila said through half drunken giggles, reaching for her glass from me again and drinking from the straw. The redhead raised one eyebrow at my sister,
"Nuh uh you're Travis' girlfriend." She pointed out and that was enough for Lila to deflate and look on the verge of tears again. Shit. I didn't know this girl? But I already didn't like her. I had to make her go away fast. I reached for Jax and slid an arm around his waist, shooting the girl a fake smile.
"I'm his girlfriend now, so disappear and no one will get hurt, okay?" The redhead widened her eyes,
"So that's why you having called me in weeks? Asshole!" She yelled at Jax before storming away. Dramatic.
"I'm sorry about that." he said, scratching the back of his neck and looking wildy uncomfortable. I shrugged.
"No problem." I said simply as we both turned to Lila who was back in her misery.
"Hey." Jax reached over to run his hand up and down her back softly. "Don't think about what she said." She spun on the stool she was sitting, nibbling at her bottom lip and struggling not to cry again.
"You two would make gorgeous babies together." She said out of nowhere, making me and Jax blink, then laugh because drunk Lila had no filter at all.
"If only your sister actually let me try." Jax grinned at me as I stepped away from him but he wrapped an arm around my shoulders to hold me in place. I wasn't complaining.
"Uhm, no thanks. Been there, done that." I reminded everyone, including myself. Jax wiggled his brows at me.
"You're not interested in practice, for the sake of it?" he asked and I shook my head. Lila let out a giggle that sounded like she was a kid again.
"I swear Jax, seeing my sister turning you down is hilarious." Jackson brought his hand to his heart.
"My poor ego is getting bruised."
"It's about to feel better." Lila said, looking at me with a mischevious look I knew all too well.
"Don't you start...." I trailed off but she slapped her hand on the table with a smirk so wide I bet it would stick that way.
"I'm cashing in my bet." She grinned. "Colbs here owes me one dare that she's not allowed to turn down. That's what my family does when we win bets." She explained to Jax.
"Interesting. What are you cashing it in for?"
"Kiss him!" She said pointing to Jax. "With tongue. Like you mean it." She set her head on her hands and I sighed.
"Damn it Lila." I groaned and then grabbed Jax by his shirt, pulling him in and pressing my lips hard against his. Even though it was mostly fake? My whole body felt it. from my toes to my fingertips I felt his mouth on me.
"Colbie." He moaned against my lips and that only feuled me on, sliding my hands up his hard....god so hard...chest and wrapping my arms around his neck as I slid my tongue into his mouth. He tasted like scotch and mint and smelled even better. I felt his arms around me , pulling me closer as he cupped my jaw, deepening the kiss with his tongue gaining dominence over mine and oh my god I had never been kissed like this before. Never. My hands moved back down his shirt to slide underneath it. His stomach was flat and toned, hot and hard against my skin.
"Holy shi.t." Lil's voice pulled me away from him like he'd shocked me.
"Sorry." I felt my face flush and Lil shook her head.
"Damn." She said, her eyes widening.
"Yeah." Jax said softly.
"Um. I have to go to the bathroom." I said, bolting away before I could embarass myself more. I'd never had that kind of reaction to a man before. Especially not from a simple kiss. Before I could get there though I felt a pair of strong hands grab my hips and then I was pressed back against Jax's hard body.
"Where do you think you're going?" he said against my ear, his voice sounding even sexier than usual. I turned around, but didn't look directly at him.
"To the bathroom." I said in a breathy voice, blinking back up at him.
"Really? Because it looks to me that you're running away from me instead." he said in a teasing tone. I pursed my lips together and then tried to relax, after all that's what this night was about right? I ran my hands through my hair and shrugged.
"I'm embarrassed." I confessed, "I kissed you just like that, out of nowhere..."
"Did I complain?" he asked and I felt myself start grinning as I shook my head.
"No." he shrugged but didn't let me go.
"It was only a kiss, nothing to be embarrassed about. Correction, a great kiss." he said seriously.
"I'm not like this usually." I sighed, then leaned my forehead against his chest, enjoying the clean male scent of him. I felt him lift my chin with his hand, forcing my eyes back into his. Then he was moving down to press his lips against mine again. It felt like our mouths were meant for this, heat enveloping our bodies as we kissed and kissed and it felt like eletricity was charging our embrace.
"I like how you are." he said against my lips, smirking.
"I like how you just kissed me."
"Should I do it again?" he asked, leaning into me further, but before he could press his mouth to mine again a seriously upset Lila walked to us. She looked on the verge of tears. Again. And really drunk too.
"This guy kept hitting on me and he was cute but really, I can't do that. I can't just go back to flirt with random guys, it's too soon." She started talking real fast, sounding confused and heartbroken as she shook her head. We pulled away from each other to turn to my sister instead.
"I think it's time to go home cutie." Jax told her softly.
"We can catch a cab." I said, nodding but Jax shot me a look that told me we wouldn't be doing that at all.
"I can drive you two home." he said seriously.
"He has a truck." Lil said as if that made sense to anyone.
"I sure do." he wrapped his arms around Lila and kissed the top of her head. He reminded me of our brothers with her but with me? There was nothing sisterly about the heat in his eyes when he looked at me. But that was a terrible idea. Right
"Did I make a mistake?" Lila asked, putting us both on the spot. She hadn't talked to me about what really happened, and I wasn't sure how much Travis had told Jax, but if I was being honest? God I didn't know. I didn't know if I saw them together in the long run, but I know when she was with him? It was the happiest she'd ever been. Maybe I was just a pessimist about love.
"Does it matter?" I asked finally, knowing that it was too late to go back on it now. As much as my sister was questioning her choice? She was too proud to go back on it and beg for him back, even if she might want to.
"You do....you think I should have stayed with him. When he wouldn't tell me anything, when he didn't want to move forward with us!"
"Oh sweet girl." I shook my head and Jax half carried her out to his truck. "Sorry." I mouthed towards him. He shook his head as if he didn't mind and soon I was tucking a sleeping Lila into my guest bed, which was better than her crying herself to sleep like she had been for the past couple nights.
"What happened with them?" I asked Jax as we made it down to my living room. He shook his head.
"I don't really know." he admitted, trying to walk past me but ending up at the end of the hallway pressed up against me.
"Sorry....narrow hallway." I breathed out, feeling my heart speed up as thoughts about my sister practically dissapeared.
"I'm not complaining." for a moment it felt like he even leaned closer and I somehow managed to wriggle out of the way and walk to the living room.
"Thanks for the ride. Sorry it wasn't the night out we really planned."
"What had you planned?" He rose he brow at me and I shrugged, tugging on the short hemline of my dress and itching to get back into my yoga pants. Ugh I was awful.
"Cheering Lil up? Having a night out for myself for once? I guess I got to make out with a hot guy so I knocked one thing off my list."
"You think I'm hot?" Jax shot me a cocky smirk and I rolled my eyes.
"Don't even try to act like you don't know you are."
"What else was on your list?" I licked my lips as I turned and found him in my space again. Not that I minded, but it did make me feel.....like old Colbie would attack him at any second and I couldn't let that happen.
"I just wanted to feel like myself again." I admitted softly, hearing myself moan slightly when he grabbed my waist and pulled me closer.
"What does your old self feel like?" He asked, his free hand pushing back my hair.
"Like an irresponsible crazy girl with nothing to worry about." I laughed. "Like that will ever happen." I swallowed. "I love being a mom and I love my job, but I never got to just be me. I never went to college, didn't have the chance to get drunk instead of studying for my finals or have a one night stand with a frat guy. I always had to be good."
"And you want to be bad?" He asked, his voice even lower than usual and it sent a shiver all the way through my body.
"Sometimes." I admitted.
"Can I help you with that?" he asked instead, his voice slightly rough. I bit down on my lip and wiggled, feeling like I needed to move or something.
"What are you suggesting?" I asked in a breathy voice.
"It depends." he answered cryptically,
"On what?"
"Will I see you again?" he asked softly.
"You saw me plenty of times before tonight."
"You know what I mean." he retorted, boring those eyes into mine as his thumbs traced circles against the fabric on my dress.
"Don't you like texting with me?" I asked back, deflecting and shooting him a teasing smirk.
"I do but I think I like seeing you more." he said and his hands reached for my arms gently, leading them around his neck before he wrapped his own arms around my waist.
"What do you want from me Jackson?"
"I love hearing your name coming out of your lips." he said, totally ignoring my question.
"Jax-"
"Uh." he said before he pressed his lips hard against mine, pulling away too quickly. "Come out with me tomorrow night." he asked against my mouth.
"....I don't want anything serious." I said hesitantly, knowing that with Jax it never could be. In the long run I needed a man who could commit, a man who wanted a family, a father for my son as well as a partner for me. But for the short term? I wasn't sure if I could deny myself from the pleasure of being with him, at least for a little while.
"I'm never serious." He smirked and I laughed, my chest growing tight for how much I wanted to say yes.
"I'll go out with you." I nodded and almost as soon as the words were out of my mouth he was kissing me, pressing against my body and dear god I could feel how big he was through all our clothes and I had clearly been missing out. I didn't even know they got that big.
"Good answer." I pulled away and pouted.
"I thought I said I wanted to be bad. Not good." I grinned and before I could stop myself I was unzipping his pants and sliding my hand inside, feeling the length of his erection against my hand and widening my eyes as he groaned.
"Colbie-"
"Please....I want to feel you..." Jax cursed and even just the sound of his voice had me aching.
"I'm not going to fu.ck you like this, here, with your sister upstairs." he said through clenched teeth but he didn't stop me when I dipped my hand into his boxer-briefs and grabbed on to his dic.k skin to skin. I didn't even know how to react, everything I was doing was basically instinct at this point. I hadn't given a hand job since I was 16 and definitley not with anyone like Jax but now suddenly I wanted to more than anything, he made me feel young and sexy and I loved it.
"We don't have to have sex to be a little bad do we?" I asked, looking up into his eyes, pleading with him to let me continue no matter how slu.tty or desperate that sounded.
"You don't have to-" he groaned and I shook my head.
"I think I owe you from all the teasing I've done." I grinned as I stroked him slowly, pushing his jeans and briefs down so I could watch myself touching him which felt dirty and exciting at the same time. Sex with my ex had been vanilla at best and I found myself wanting to explore every dark desire I had with this gorgeous man in front of me.
"God..." He let his head fall back and I bit my lip as I focused on how hot and heavy he was in my hand.
"Do you put out on the first date or am I going to have to wait until after tomorrow?" I asked, visions of how I wanted him inside of me clouding my head as Jax groaned.
"Stop talking." he said sharply.
"You don't like dirty talk?" I asked, honestly wanting to know. I hadn't known I'd liked it until Jax honestly.
"I didn't say that." He looked almost angry and I stopped stroking him so he'd look back at me.
"Am I doing something wrong?" He groaned and kissed me hard as he pressed me up against my living room wall.
"I haven't cum in a woman's hand since I was a teenager Colbie I'm not about to start now." I grinned, understanding his reactions and reaching out to touch him again.
"But I want you to." I said seriously, the idea making my core tighen. Jax groaned again, leaning his forehead against mine and looking into my eyes. "If you want we could make it more even." I offered, making him raise a brow at me.
"What?" I slid my free hand down his arm, grabbing his palm and pulling it towards me to slide up underneath my dress slowly.
"You cum in my hand...I cum in yours." I whispered, waiting to feel him against me...it had been so long
"I can't." he groaned and I stilled, feeling foolish and embarassed.
"Why?" I breathed out, my stupid mouth betraying me again.
"Because if I start that now, I couldn't stop anymore, and god knows how much I want that, but there's your sister in the other room." he explained quietly, then his voice changed as he grabbed both of my hands and lifted them, pinning them on the wall and above my head. "But." he paused as he stared into my eyes. "I don't give a fuck about being even." he said seriously, his free hand reaching back under my dress, his palm running flat up my inner thigh and then brushing my panties, that alone enough to make me nuts.
"You're going to make me come even before you actually start touching me." I confessed in a whisper and swallowed.
"You'll come when the time's right." he said as if he owned my body and he could control it. I liked that thought. I loved it. Jax pushed my panties to the side and I groaned.
"Oh god." I moaned softly and leaned my head back against the wall, swallowing as I closed my eyes to focus on how good his touch felt.
"You're so wet..." he trailed off, his thumb tracing circles around my clit easily. "I wonder how it will be when I'll push myself inside of you." he asked in a rough voice added as he slid two fingers inside of me, mimicking his words as he looked down to watch his fingers dissapearing inside of me. Nothing had ever felt hotter than this. "I'm dying to know how it is to bury myself deep." he went on, his fingers pushing deeper and a louder moan left my body.
"Jackson you're killing me." I chocked on my own words as I moved my hips with his fingers, letting him fuck me anyway we could.
"Wait to say that for when I'll push my dick hard inside of you." he groaned and I could almost feel that too as his thumb pressed against my clit, making me cry out. Jax had his lips on me a second later as he kept teasing me, killing me...it felt so good, so so so good.
"I can't wait." I breathed out then bit down on his lip hard when he curved his fingers inside of me, damn did he know how to touch me.
"Yeah, like that Colbie." he muttered against my mouth as his free hand left my wrists to grab my knee, pushing it flat against the wall next to open me further for him. He pulled his fingers out of me and I whimpered until he used my wetness to tease my clit and then plunge back into me again at a faster pace. "I want to see you coming for me." he added, looking as consumed with lust as I felt.
"I-" I choked out, feeling so close and at the same time I knew I was about to get in my head about it again. It took forever for me with a man, I'd get almost there and then something would pull me back and I'd have to start all over. I didn't want that now. I wanted....I needed to fall over the edge with him....I just didn't know how.
"Do you know how beautiful you look right now?" He growled into my neck. "I've never seen anything sexier than you bucking against my fingers, ah god Colbie when you're naked and beneath me I'll never be able to control anything I do." I whimpered at his words, my whole body tightening up.
"Jax..." Then I felt his thumb brush my cli.t at the same time he thrust up into me.
"Show me how I make you feel.....now baby." And that was it, I was breaking apart, seeing nothing but colors swirled together as I felt his lips cover my scream. I'd never felt this before, like my body was strung so tight and then released into something so amazing I never wanted to come back down. How had he known what to do? How had he known his sexy sweet words would be the push I needed? With my ex it had taken so long he'd give up, saying there was something wrong with me. I had been worried he was right.
"Fu.ck." I whispered, choking out the curse as I let my eyes flutter open to Jackson Cole's gorgeous ones.
"Just now....you were thinking something bad." he pointed out, able to percieve everything about me for some odd reason.
"Just realizing I wasnt as broken as I thought." I admitted, leaning in to kiss him. "Thank you...that was..." I didn't even have the words. I felt so grateful for one silly orgasm I knew he'd think I was nuts if I tried to explain it. Jax smirked, and god I could feel every inch of him against me.
"You're welcome. And the word you were looking for was epic." he said smugly before pulling back and looking at me with concern, "Wait, what? Broken?"
"Long story." I said simply, biting dow on my lip and hoping he'd forget it. No such luck. he lifted my chin up and looked into my eyes.
"Make it short and tell me." he said quietly.
"It's kind of embarrassing and personal and I don't usually open up to people I barely know, telling them my past." I explained.
"Colbie I still have my fingers inside of you, I think we're past your usual behaviour." he pointed out and smirked a little, moving his fingers and making me moan softly before he pulled them out of me. I leaned against the wall and took a deep breath, preparing myself for this embarassing story.
"It was never like this with my ex. It'd take me forever to get close and even when I did, I'd never reach my orgasm. Eventually he got tired of waiting and gave up, saying that maybe there was something wrong with me." Travis let out a bitter laugh and shook his head.
"I just proved him wrong, didn't I? It wasn't you having any problem, it was probably him not knowing what he was doing." he said honestly before kissing my lips again, then added, "And I just got started."
"Just got started?" I choked out, feeling my eyes going wide and my body start tingling all over again even though I had the slight suspicion that he was wrong. Yes, Jax probably had more knowledge of the female body than my ex, but it wasn't just what he was doing to me physically...and that was a little terrifying.
"Oh I can't wait to show you just how not broken you are...." He said, a fire in his eyes I'd never seen in a man who was looking at me. I was so close to begging him to stay, to take me to bed now but I knew that was a bad idea.
"You should leave before I jump you again." I said instead, only half joking. Jax laughed.
"It's a good idea probably." but he was moving closer instead, his hands cupping my face and threading in my hair before he brought me to his lips, kissing me with a hunger that I matched. Was it like this for all his girls? Did he make them feel like one in a million for a few nights and then he moved on? How could he do that if it felt like this every time?
"Night Colbie." he said softly, reaching up to kiss my nose before he fixed his still rumpled clothes and headed out of my house.
"You are so busted." I looked up to see Lila standing in the stairway, her eyes glittering with mischief.
"How long were you standing there!?" She shrugged.
"Just for the sexy goodnight kiss, but something tells me I missed more than I saw." She grinned even though it was only half a grin. I could tell she wanted to do the girly sister thing and dish with me but it was hard when a. she was so heartbroken and b. the guy we'd be talking about was related to the reason she was.
"Oh come on little sis, you know I'm more boring than that." I teased, wrapping my arms around her.
"I want chocolate." she said seriously.
"Cake or ice cream?"
"Both. Ice cream on my cake. And I'm not letting you off the hook with Jax." I fake zipped my lips but we both knew I was trying not to grin like an idiot. For the first time in a long time? I felt like me again. I only wished I could help my sister feel the same way too.