even when I lose I'm winning

I killed the call with Travis, sighing to myself since he was in a state he not only refused to get out from, but he refused to admit it either. That meant that tonight he wouldn't go out with him. I texted Colbie, ready for my daily dose of teasing.

"What are you doing?"

What I got back was a picture of an extremely sexy Colbie, her body wrapped in a dress that didn't leave much to the imagination. "Going out with my sister. What do you think?"

"Holy shit Colbie you can't go out looking like that!!!!" I texted her back even though, of course, she could. She was just...wow.

"Why not?"

"Because every man who sees you like that will only be thinking about fucking you!!" I pointed out, it being obvious. Hell I was thinking about that too.

"Is that what you're thinking about?" She asked, surprising me.

"Colbie -.-"

"Is that a yes or a no?"

"Stop." I texted back and ran my hand though my hair. This wouldn't lead anywhere and maybe I needed to stop torturing myself.

"If you do think about it...is it long and slow where you're seeing how deep you can get or is it hard and fast and even faster when I beg you for more?"

I considered not to answer back, but after a few seconds, I gave up. "Colbie O.O"

"If you're worried about us then why don't you come with? We're going to Aura."

"Good god. Yes. I'll meet you there." I said back without thinking twice.

I smirked to myself as I felt the excitement building up, dropping my phone on my bed while I grabbed a white shirt and a pair of dark jeans, wearing them before slipping into a pair of boots and a navy jacket. I still couldn't believe that after weeks texting and sexting with Colbie I was going to see her...of course I had seen her at the kids' game, but it was kind of hard to have a decent conversation when her son was around. Or a flirty conversation. That was the thing exactly, she had a son, and I had zero chances with her, no matter what Lila said. And that started another chapter, Lila, my brother's beautiful ex who was just as sad and heartbroken as the man she had left was, only she let it out differently. Thank god. With all those thoughts stirring in my mind I drove to the club I knew well, skipping the line since the bouncer worked with me during the day and going straight to the bar counter where hopefully I'd meet the girls. "Are you going to make me wait long?" I texted Colbie, feeling my lips curve into a grin, because it was as if I was back being 16 and it was really fun.

"No." Her voice made me lift my head and as soon as my eyes took her in, I almost had a heart attack. She looked...ugh.

But then I moved my eyes to Lila, who was just as beautiful, only her face had the signs of the pain she was dealing with. "Hey." I offered a smile to both of them, leaning into Colbie first to press an innocent kiss on her cheek as my hand landed on her hip gently. Innocent my a.ss. She smelt like paradise and she was a goddess, while I was dying to put my hands on her. "You two look gorgeous." I said honestly, my eyes bouncing between the sisters. Every man in the club had to be jealous of me.

Lila stared at me with her green eyes, them being so sad, and her bottom lip trembled just so slightly. "Why do you have to look so much like him?" She breathed out, looking as if she was having a hard time not crying.

I reached for her tiny body and enveloped into a hug, holding her tight against my chest as I pressed a kiss on her head, "If it will make you feel better you're allowed to scream at me, or hit me, or anything you want." I told her while my eyes were on Colbie who looked as worried for her sister as I was. I felt as if Lila was a little sister to me too and with a heartbroken sister Colbie and I had no chance to end up naked. We wouldn't have it anyway, but still.

Colbie smirked a little, biting her lip in a sexy way as she kept her eyes on me. "He'll even pay for all our drinks."

"I'll do everything you want, tonight I'm at your mercy ladies." I pulled my head back to look down at Lil, grinning at her and hoping my being silly would help her mood, at least for a couple hours.

Lila gave a forced smile to me and turned back towards the bar. "This night is for Colbie not for me." She said finally.

"The hell it is." Colbie glared at her. "It's for both of us." She said instead.

"Is he here?" Lil asked me, wincing even though she also looked hopeful.

"No cutie." I shook my head, feeling bad for her.

"Is he out at some other club with women rubbing all over him?"

I shook my head again. "He's at home last time I heard." I looked back at Colbie, wanting to have some distraction because I didn't really know if my brother was home and I didn't want to lie to Lila.

She sighed. "Okay well let's start drinking then." She smiled, the fake smile didn't really fit her.

"Deal." I ordered shots and Colbie glanced at me.

"I haven't taken a shot since college." She admitted.

"That's because you've become boring!" Lila teased and her sister rolled her eyes. I didn't know Colbie much, but I guessed that having a kid when you were a teen brought you away all of the fun.

"Well fine then. I'll have two." She grabbed Lila's and downed it before downing her own too.

"Easy." I smirked, not wanting to have to bring them home shitfaced because that would ruin my night.

"You two should go dance." Lila suggested. I turned to raise a brow at her, I didn't really want to leave her alone. "Colbie keeps stealing my drinks, if I want to wallow in drunken misery? I have to actually drink something." She reached into her purse to grab a bigger bill to hand to the bartender. If Trav had seen her acting like this, he would've flipped and dragged her away from the bar. But I wasn't my brother, and if Lila wanted to get drunk I couldn't really stop her.

"Can you keep an eye on her?" Colbie asked the pretty brunette behind the counter.

She nodded and walked up to Lila. "Heartbreak?" She asked.

Lil nodded. "Sucks."

"I got just the drink." She winked at Colbie and she grabbed my hand, pulling me out to the floor where the rest of the crowd was grinding against each other.

"Will she be okay?" I asked and felt nervous, not sure about how much I liked the idea of a drunk Lila left alone with all the guys there were in the club.

"She needs some time to process without someone who looks like you around." She teased and I groaned. Now I understood how Travis felt in high school when everyone said he looked like me.

"I don't look that much like him." I pouted and she laughed.

"You're right, you're way better looking." She said seriously.

I grabbed her waist to pull her close, liking her answer and liking even more her body in such a close proximity. "Do you know how jealous every man here is of me?" I growled in her ear, noticing other men's eyes on her.

"That's just because I'm dressed like a hooker." She laughed.

"God you have no idea how f.cking sexy you are do you?" I said instead, only pointing out the obvious.

She blinked, looking surprised. "No." She admitted, shaking her head.

I looked down at her and laughed softly, because that made no sense. You had to be blind not to see how sexy she was. And gorgeous. And amazing. And I wanted her so fucking bad...but what did they say? You always wanted what you couldn't get. "So what did you think when you bought this dress? That made you look innocent?" I asked, smirking.

"It's Lila's dress." She confessed and for a moment I swore I saw her blushing a little too, then again there was no much light into the club.

"It looks great on you." I said seriously and grabbed her hand, making her pulling away a little before spinning her body and reaching for her hips as I pulled her back against my chest, doing my best not to just glue her ass against my hips.

She turned her head a little, "Thank you. Maybe I won't give it back to her." She smirked then she had to realize how close our faces were, because she turned her head.

I smirked at her reaction and kept moving to the music with her, our bodies in perfect sync and I couldn't help thinking about how great we'd be in bed. "Good idea. I say either you wear this one, or nothing." I said against her ear, knowing I was pushing it already. With any oher girl by now? I wouldve made a move already. She wasn't any girl though and I owed her some respect.

"Jackson..." She trailed off as she turned her head again to look at me as if she didn't want to her what I was saying. As if she was almost shy. "It's hot in here, isn't it?" She added, trying to change the subject but only making things worse.

"You're hot." I said matter of factly, spinning her body once again so that I'd be looking at her gorgeous face. She looked up at me with her gorgeous eyes, sliding her hands up my chest slowly, not saying a word. "Why are you looking at me like this? I already told you you're hot one million times." I added, smirking and feeling like an idiot.

"You wrote that. There's a difference." She said back, tilting her head to the side as she smirked back at me.

"It was about time we stopped texting like teenagers." I shrugged and held her tighter when some jerk behind her bumped into her. My hands were itching to explore more of her perfect body, I was behaving instead. And going crazy. "We should leave that to Will and Rob."

She seemed to get serious at the mere mention of her kid, which wasn't such a kid anymore. I saw him and my nephew and I could see myself and my brothers at their age. Being 14 was great, being over 30 had other perks though. "Oh god what he'd say if he saw me like this." She shook her head.

"You're a mom, but a very young gorgeous one. You deserve to feel sexy and have fun." I smiled at her, remembering why I wasn't already psuhing my hands under her skirt. Will. She was a mom. Bot goddamn it, a mom I wanted to see riding me. "And!" I added, smirking as I tilted my head down a little, our noses almost brushing, "We're doing nothing bad." For now. I added in my thoughts.

"We are in my head." Colbie breathed out and my hands tightened against her.

"Teasing me here is very different from teasing me on the phone Colbie." I said as softly as I could against the loud music.

"I'm not teasing." She admitted, but I knew she was instead. She would never go all the way with me.

"No?" I asked skeptically.

She slid her hands up my chest and wrapped them around my waist. "You never answered my question...." She reminded, the change of subject only proving me right.

"Which one was that?" I asked, my hand resting safely against her lower back.

She grabbed her phone and scrolled up to the text where she'd asked me if I'd thought about fucking her, and how if I had, showing it to me and grinning.

"You want to know if I think about fucking you?" I growled, grabbing her phone and shoving it back to her. "Yes. Look at you. Of course I do."

"And?" She whispered.

"You tell me first." I replied, moving my hands to her hips and holding tightly.

She bit her lip then ran her tongue over it as she thought about it. "I have a removeable shower head." She said finally. I widened my eyes and waited for her to go on. "You might be on my mind when I'm using it." She admitted, her face blushing furiously.

"Colbie you can't talk to me like that in my face." I groaned and felt my jeans getting a little tighter than before. "I don't have much restrain, you know."

She bit down on her lip hard, "Sorry?" She said but looked as if she was pleased.

"Now all I can think about you naked under your shower thinking about me." I groaned again, my hands inching slowly and dangerously down very close to her perfect ass.

"Do you think about me?" She asked instead, on a mission of torturing me apparently and giving me a bad case of blue balls.

I flashed her a grin, liking how she was talking with no filters. She wasn't like the other girls who acted all sexy to hit on me...she was sexy. And she was a woman, which made a big difference. "Since we started texting? A lot." I paused as I pulled her body closer to mine, bowing my head down to press my lips against her ear. "I think about you riding me until I go crazy, that's my fave." I confessed.

She pressed her hands against my chest to force me to pull back a little, her face flushed and her eyes dark. "I think I need a drink." She said seriously.

I laughed but nodded, "I think you need something else. And so do I." I said as I grabbed her hand, leading her through the crowd on the dance floor, it being a lot more crowded than when we had started dancing. A group of crazy girls came towards us and I pressed Colbie against the wall to protect her from those cows, my body shielding her from the rest of the club.

She swallowed, the tension between us incredible. "Are you going to make it to the bar?"

"Don't you like staying like this?" I asked back, grinning before pulling back and leading her towards the bar counter once again, my hand holding hers tightly.

"Colbie!!!" Lila grinned at her sister above a giant fishbowl I assumed was 80 percent pure alchohol.

"Hi sweetie." Colbie kissed the top of her head and the little sister grinned up drunkenly at her.

"I'll find love again right?" She asked, my chest tightening a little.

Colbie sighed. "Of course you will."

She grinned and pushed her sister her drink. "Try this it's so yummy." Colbie took a sip and coughed. Girls. "Jax!" She yelled out of nowhere.

"What's up?" I smirked.

She pointed to the redhead who was coming up to the bar with a big grin on her face. Fuck.

"Baby!" She wrapped her arms around my neck and laid a big kiss right on my lips before I could even process what was happening.

"Hi." He said, looking at her with less than amusement.  I grabbed her by her hips and pushed her back, wondering what the fuck was that. We weren't seeing each other or anything. "I haven't heard from you in so long." She said, even pouting a little.

"Because he got a girlfriend." Lila said through giggles, reaching for her glass from Colbie again and drinking from the straw.

The redhead raised one eyebrow at her, "Nuh uh you're Travis' girlfriend." She pointed out and that was enough for Lila to deflate and look on the verge of tears again.

Colbie slid her arm around my waist, shooting a fake smile to the other girl, "I'm his girlfriend now, so disappear and no one will get hurt, okay?"

The redhead widened her eyes, "So that's why you having called me in weeks? Asshole!" She yelled at me before storming away. Ugh why couldn't I spend a night without some drama??

"I'm sorry about that." I said to Colbie, genuinely embarrassed that my reputation had followed me here. Why was I embarrassed though? I liked women and that was mystery...I realized that I wanted impress her. No, correction, I wanted to make a good impression, which was something different that didn't happen much. Ever.

She shrugged, leaving me wondering what she was thinking. "No problem." She said simply as we both turned to Lila who was back in her misery.

"Hey." I caressed her back softly, hating seeing her like this. In my opinion though?

She had made a mistake. But still. "Don't think about what she said."

She spun on the stool she was sitting, nibbling at her bottom lip and struggling not to cry again. "You two would make gorgeous babies together." She said out of nowhere, making me and Colbie blink, then laugh, our laughter enough to make me laugh a little too because of her nonsense.

"If only your sister actually let me try." I grinned at her, at first realizing that Colbie was still leaning against my side and then noticing she was slipping away instead. So I wrapped my arm around her shoulders and held her in place.

Colbie rolled her eyes, even thought she looked amused, "Uhm, no thanks. Been there, done that."

I wriggled my brows, "You're not interested in practice, for the sake of it?" I asked and she shook her head.

Lila let out a giggle, I could tell she was enjoying the little show we were giving her. "I swear Jax, seeing my sister turning you down is hilarious."

I brought my hand to my heart, "My poor ego is getting bruised." I said and did my best to keep a serious face, failing and smirking instead.

"It's about to feel better." Lila said, looking at Colbie with a mischevious look. She needed to stop drinking.

"Don't you start...." Colbie trailed off but she slapped her hand on the table with a wide smirk while I stood there, completely clueless, and wondering what was going on..

"I'm cashing in my bet." Lil grinned. "Colbs here owes me one dare that she's not allowed to turn down. That's what my family does when we win bets." She explained to me finally.

"Interesting. What are you cashing it in for?" I asked, curiosity in my tone.

"Kiss him!" She said pointing to me. Oh man, we were back to high school. "With tongue. Like you mean it."

Colbie sighed and I just watched in amusement because there was no way she was really doing that. "Damn it Lila." She groaned instead and then grabbed me by my shirt, pulling me in and pressing her lips hard against mine. I was surprised, but revocered soon. Damn.

"Colbie." I moaned against her lips and felt her hands up my chest, the her arms wrapping around my neck as she slid her tongue into my mouth. She tasted like candies and smelled like flowers. I wrapped my owns arms around her, pulling her closer as I cupped her jaw, deepening the kiss with my tongue gaining dominence over hers, going crazy over one simple kiss. Her hands moved back down my shirt to slide underneath it, pressing flat about my stomach, the move surprising me once again. Apparently, I wasn't the only one wanting more.

"Holy shi.t." Lil's voice pulled Colbie away from me a little too soon. I had forgotten she was there to be honest.

"Sorry." Colbie blushed.

Lil shook her head. "Damn." She said, her eyes widening.

"Yeah." I said softly, my head spinning for how the night had took a sudden unplanned turn..

"Um. I have to go to the bathroom." She said, bolting away.

"Go get her!" Lila said from behind me and it took me less than a second to follow the advice I was giving myself too.

Walking fast toward Colbie, I reached for her hips and pulled her against my chest, "Where do you think you're going?" I said against her ear, my voice coming out a lot lower than I expected.

She didn't resist, but when she turned around, she was barely looking at me. "To the bathroom." She said in a breathy voice, blinking her eyes at me.

I raised one eyebrow and let a little smirk play on my lips. "Really? Because it looks to me that you're running away from me instead." I said in a teasing tone, not wanting things to get awkward just now when I was starting to think I could actually had a chance with her.

She pursed her lips together before relaxing, running her fingers through her blonde hair. "I'm embarrassed." She confessed, and I appreciated the honesty. "I kissed you just like that, out of nowhere..."

"Did I complain?" I smiked back at her, liking how despite not being a little girl anymore and being a mom too, she still have some kind of innocence...that wasn't even the right word. She was genuine.

A small grin played on her own lips as she shook her head, "No."

I shrugged, playing it cool but refused to let go of her. "It was only a kiss, nothing to be embarrassed about. Correction, a great kiss." I said seriously.

"I'm not like this usually." She sighed, then leaned her forehead against my chest, seeming to be embarrassed all over again.

I grinned to myseld and lifted her chin with one finger, forcing her to look back at me. Once her eyes met mine, I smiled, then angled my head to press another kiss on her mouth, this time a lot more gentle and innocent than before. Kind of. Our lips molded against each other's perfectly, heat was radiating from our bodies and the air around us was just electric. "I like how you are." I said against her lips, smirking.

She smirked herself, her hands resting on my stomach, "I like how you just kissed me."

"Should I do it again?" I said, leaning into her further, but before I could press my mouth to hers, a seriously upset Lila walked to us. She looked on the verge of tears. Again. And really drunk too.

"This guy kept hitting on me and he was cute but really, I can't do that. I can't just go back to flirt with random guys, it's too soon." She started talking real fast, sounding confused and heartbroken as she shook her head.

I pulled away from Colbie regretfully, once again, and looked at Lila. "I think it's time to go home cutie." I told her softly.

"We can catch a cab." Colbie said, nodding.

I gave her a meaningful look, which meant that I didn't want to let her go just yet. "I can drive you two home." I said and I hoped they both knew I wasn't giving them any other choice.

"He has a truck." Lil said as if that made sense to anyone.

"I sure do." I wrapped my arms around Lila and kissed the top of her head before placing her in my truck and getting myself inside then starting the engine.

"Did I make a mistake?" Lila asked, putting us both on the spot. She hadn't talked to me about what really happened, and Travis was just the same, it was too bad that they couldn't see how good they had been to each other and had decided to let it all go to waste. I knew that it had been Lila taking the decision, but Trav had to have some faults too.

"Does it matter?" Colbie asked finally.

"You do....you think I should have stayed with him. When he wouldn't tell me anything, when he didn't want to move forward with us!"

"Oh sweet girl." Colbie shook her head and Jax I parked before half carried her out to my truck. "Sorry." Colbie mouthed towards me.

I shook my head because I didn't mind and waited while she was tucking a sleeping Lila into her guest bed, which made me feel better because I didn't like the thought of her being so miserable and alone.

"What happened with them?" Colbie asked me as we made it down to her living room.

I shook my head. "I don't really know." I admitted, trying to walk past her but ending up at the end of the hallway pressed up against her.

"Sorry....narrow hallway." She breathed out.

"I'm not complaining." I leaned closer but she somehow managed to wriggle out of the way and walk to the living room.

"Thanks for the ride. Sorry it wasn't the night out we really planned."

"What had you planned?" I rose he brow at her and she shrugged, tugging on the short hemline of her dress.

"Cheering Lil up? Having a night out for myself for once? I guess I got to make out with a hot guy so I knocked one thing off my list."

"You think I'm hot?" I shot her a cocky smirk and she rolled her eyes.

"Don't even try to act like you don't know you are."

"What else was on your list?" I asked instead.

She licked her lips as she turned and found me in her space again. "I just wanted to feel like myself again." She admitted softly, moaning slightly when I grabbed her waist and pulled her closer.

"What does your old self feel like?" I asked, my free hand pushing back her hair.

"Like an irresponsible crazy girl with nothing to worry about." She laughed. "Like that will ever happen." She swallowed. "I love being a mom and I love my job, but I never got to just be me. I never went to college, didn't have the chance to get drunk instead of studying for my finals or have a one night stand with a frat guy. I always had to be good."

"And you want to be bad?" I asked, my voice even lower than usual.

"Sometimes." She admitted.

I suppressed the urge to move my hands on her body, but damn my fingers were itching to push down her dress. Or up. I wanted to see what that cloth was hiding for me. "Can I help you with that?" I asked instead, my voice giving me away.

She bit down on her lip, not aware of the effect that had on me. "What are you suggesting?" She asked in a breathy voice.

I noticed how her chest heavved up and down, a clear sign of her heavy breathing, and a clear sign that I had some kind of effect on her too. Of course I knew I was attractive, that girls liked me, but Colbie seemed, in a way, unreachable. "It depends." I answered cryptically,

"On what?" She looked up at me through her eyelashes.

"Will I see you again?" I asked this time, finding myself wanting that to happen.

She parted her lips, then closed them again, distracting me. "You saw me plenty of times before tonight."

"You know what I mean." I retorted, boring my eyes into hers as my thumbs traced circles against the fabric separating my skin from hers.

"Don't you like texting with me?" She asked back, deflecting and shooting me a teasing smirk. God knew how much my balls didn't need more teasing.

I broke into a smirk myself, because despite how frustrating it was sometimes, it was a challenge, it was different, and it had kept me interested for weeks. "I do but I think I like seeing you more." I said and my hands reached for her arms gently, leading them around my neck before I wrapped my own arms around her waist. She didn't pull back, bit seemes hesitant too.

"What do you want from me Jackson?"

"I love hearing my name coming out of your lips." I said instead, not answering at all because I didn't know what I really wanted, except for the obvious.

She had to notice the heat in my eyes, because I could swear she was holding her breath. "Jax-" She started, but cut herself off when she realized she was doing it again.

"Uh." I said unintelligently and smirked before capturing her lips gently, but without permission. Good god, she was driving me crazy. "Come out with me tomorrow night." I said lowly against her mouth, deciding that yes, I wanted to see her again, and no I didn't want to treat her like a cheap fuck. She was nice to be around and hot as hell, we could have fun in and out of bed.

"....I don't want anything serious." Colbie said hesitantly, looking terrified at the thought only and I wondered what exactly she was thinking. I knew one day I'd want a wife, kids, the whole family package, but she already had a son and I didn't know her well...I wasn't asking her to marry me.

"I'm never serious." I smirked to make the moment lighter.

She laughed, a sound I really liked. "I'll go out with you." she nodded and almost as soon as the words were out of her mouth I was kissing her, pressing against her body.

"Good answer." I muttered smugly against her lips.

She pulled away and pouted. "I thought I said I wanted to be bad. Not good." She grinned and before I could realize it was happening she was unzipping my pants and sliding her hand inside, feeling the length of my erection against her hand and widening her eyes as I groaned.

"Colbie-" More like holy shit.

"Please....I want to feel you..."

I cursed, both in heaven and in hell. "I'm not going to fuck you like this, here, with your sister upstairs." I said through clenched teeth but I didn't stop her when she dipped her hand into my boxer-briefs and grabbed on to my dick, skin to skin. It was as if weeks of dreaming were becoming true, I wasn't expecting that, but I also knew it couldn't last. Not like this.

"We don't have to have sex to be a little bad do we?" She asked, looking up into my eyes, pleading.

"You don't have to-" I groaned and she shook her head.

"I think I owe you from all the teasing I've done." She grinned as she stroked me slowly, pushing my jeans and briefs down so she could watch herself touching me. I was dying. No, I was dead already.

"God..." I let my head fall back, her hand feeling so damn good...and it was just a handjob. I wondered how far her skills could go.

She bit her lip. "Do you put out on the first date or am I going to have to wait until after tomorrow?" She asked.

I groaned again, "Stop talking." I  said sharply, aware that I couldn't handle this.

"You don't like dirty talk?" She asked, it sounding like a honest question.

"I didn't say that." I felt almost angry because I couldn't just fuck her there, against the wall, and I had to stop her even though I didn't really want to.

She stopped stroking me so I'd look back at her.

"Am I doing something wrong?"

I groaned and kissed her hard as I pressed her up against her living room wall. "I haven't cum in a woman's hand since I was a teenager Colbie I'm not about to start now."

She grinned, reaching out to touch me again. "But I want you to." She said seriously and I groaned again, leaning my forehead against hers and looking into her eyes. "If you want we could make it more even." She offered, making me raise a brow at her.

"What?"

She slid her free hand down my arm, grabbing my palm and pulling it towards her to slide up underneath her dress slowly. "You cum in my hand...I cum in yours." She whispered.

I shook my head, knowing myself and knowing that it was too much. If I had my fingers inside of her while she stroked me? I could be with my d.ick shoved deep inside of her as well, but with Lila in the other room? It couldn't happen. I wanted to make her scream, make her cum again and again, go on all night. "I can't." I said even though I was hating myself a little.

"Why?" She breathed out, both of us motionless for what felt like a neverending moment.

"Because if I start that now, I couldn't stop anymore, and god knows how much I want that, but there's your sister in the other room." I explained quietly, then my voice changed as I grabbed both of her hands and lifted them, pinning them on the wall and above her head. "But." I paused as I stared into her eyes, lust consuming me at this point because the anticipation was just too f.ucking much. "I don't give a f.uck about being even." I added, then my free hand went back under her dress, my palm running flat up her inner thigh. My eyes didn't leave hers and I smirked when my fingers brushed against her panties and she winced a little.

"You're going to make me come even before you actually start touching me." She confessed in a whisper and swallowed.

I let out a low laugh, my ego really pleased with her ammission. "You'll come when the time's right." I said and pushed her panties aside, feeling how wet she was for me. Dear lord.

"Oh god." She moaned softly and leaned her head back against the wall, swallowing as she closed her eyes, her face crossed by pure pleasure.

"You're so wet..." I trailed off, my thumb tracing circles around her clit easily as I waited for her to look at me again. "I wonder how it will be when I'll push myself inside of you." I added as I slid two fingers inside of her, my eyes moving between where I was pleasuring her and her face, "I'm dying to know how it is to bury myself deep inside of you." I went on, my fingers pushing deeper as they followed my words and a louder moan escaped her lips.

"Jackson you're killing me." She chocked on her own words as she moved her hips with my fingers, letting me f.uck her in the only way I could right now.

"Wait to say that for when I'll push my d.ick hard inside of you." I groaned, my thumb pressing against her c.lit and making her cry out, my lips pressing against hers a second later to prevent her from screaming. My chest pressed against hers as I kept moving my fingers, loving how responsive she was, moving with me and letting me see the pleasure she was getting from me.

"I can't wait." She breathed out then bit down on my lip hard when I curved my fingers inside of her, massaging her from the inside.

I groaned one more time, reveling in her own pleasure. "Yeah, like that Colbie." I muttered against her mouth as my free hand left her wrist to grab her knee, pushing it flat against the wall next to open her for me. I pulled my fingers out of her, using her wetness to tease her pulsing clit before I pushed them inside of her again as I picked a faster pace, feeling how tight and ready she was getting. "I want to see you coming for me." I added, at this point gone completely crazy and wild for how sexy she was, how gorgeous she was, how bad I wanted her.

"I-" Colbie choked out, look both as if she was losing it and holding back. Either way, it was a damn good expression.

"Do you know how beautiful you look right now?" I growled into her neck. "I've never seen anything sexier than you bucking against my fingers, ah god Colbie when you're naked and beneath me I'll never be able to control anything I do."

She whimpered at my words, "Jax..."

My thumb brushed her clit at the same time I thrust up into her, knowing that was what she needed. "Show me how I make you feel.....now baby."

A second later, she was coming, hard, and she wasn't with me anymore. I could tell she was too into her own pleasure and fuck, it was so damn sexy to watch, all I could do was press my lips against hers to cover her scream while I led her through her orgasm. "Fuck." She whispered, choking out the curse as she let her eyes flutter open to mine.

"Just now....you were thinking something bad." I pointed out, noticing the frown on his face, an expression I never really saw on girls after I made them come.

"Just realizing I wasnt as broken as I thought." She admitted, leaning in to kiss me. "Thank you...that was..." She trailed off.

I smirked against her lips, keeping my body pressed against hers, "You're welcome. And the word you were looking for was epic." I said smugly before realizing what she had said before that. I furrowed my brows together, "Wait, what? Broken?"

She bit down on her lip and shook her head, "Long story." She said simply, as if I'd ever be happy with such a short answer.

I lifted her chin with my free hand, looking into her eyes, "Make it short and tell me." I said quietly.

"It's kind of embarrassing and personal and I don't usually open up to people I barely know, telling them my past." She explained simply and it was clear she didn't want to tell me. Only, that wasn't an option for me.

"Colbie I still have my fingers inside of you, I think we're past your usual behaviour." I retorted and smirked a little, moving my fingers and making her moan softly before I pulled them out of her.

She leaned her head against the wall, inhaling deeply. "It was never like this with my ex. It'd take me forever to get close and even when I did, I'd never reach my orgasm. Eventually he got tired of waiting and gave up, saying that maybe there was something wrong with me."

I let out a bitter laugh because damn, how could any straight gay give up on a beauty like her? What girls said about men was, sadly, true sometimes. We could really be idiots. "I just proved him wrong, didn't I? It wasn't you having any problem, it was probably him not knowing what he was doing." I said honestly before kissing her lips again, then added, "And I just got started."

"Just got started?" Colbie choked out, her eyes going wide and then dark again.

"Oh I can't wait to show you just how not broken you are...." I said, feeling so impatient...it had been a while since the last time I had been wanting a girl so much. Correction, a woman.

"You should leave before I jump you again." She said instead, only half joking.

I laughed. "It's a good idea probably." I said as I was moving closer, my hands cupping her face and threading in her hair before I brought her to my lips, kissing her with a hunger that she matched. "Night Colbie." I said softly, reaching up to kiss her nose before I fixed my still rumpled clothes and headed out of her house.