I was born sick, but I love it

I walked towards my brother's house, stumbling a little because I was tired, I was heartbroken, and I was a little drunk too. No, I wasn't drunk, but I had drunk a little, just enough to swallow away some of my pain. I didn't know when it'd stop, I was so close to crawl back to her and ask her to take me back bt for what? For hearing her say that I wasn't enough, that she wasn't enough, that we couldn't work and all that bullshit. Fuck no. It would go away, it'd pass just like everything in life. I ran my hand through my hair, hoping that I would find some comfort in my brother, the one I had been pushed away for weeks now. I wanted to be alone, I didn't want anyone to see how deeply Lila had wounded me. I had been an idiot, I was still an idiot.
Laughter reached my ears and I stopped walking, I blinked, thinking I was allucinating because I thought that was Lila laughing. It couldn't be. Maybe I had one drink too much. My feet started moving again as I headed to the back of my brother's house and there, I was sure I was allucinating. For real. Because I could see Lila, laughing with my brother and looking happy. "F.uck." I said and rubbed my hands over my face, the voices gone, but when I focused my look on the porch again, Lila was still there, with my brother. "What the f.uck are you doing here?" I asked, still not sure if I was seeing the reality of things.
She finally noticed me and stopped laughing, her face dropping. "Travis-"

you're gonna miss me everywhere

you're gonna miss me everywhere by ssaarah

"Want a beer?" Jax asked, rummaging through the mini fridge on his porch. I shrugged.
"Got anything stronger?" He sighed.
"Lila." I set my head in my hands and swallowed.

maybe we're all that we needed

maybe we're all that we needed by ssaarah 

I smirked as Jac dusted her hands on her apron and I came up behind her unable to keep my hands to myself and wrapping them around her waist.
"I love when you smell like cake," I said and brushed my lips against her neck, inhaling that sweet scent.
"Souffles," she corrected before tilting her head up to look at me.
"Isn't that the same thing?"

My head is animal.

I stood back up and set the souffles on the top of the stove,  closing the oven and dusting my apron off when two strong arms wrapped around my waist. "I love when you smell like cake," He said and brushed his lips against my neck, my whole body feeling him when he did that. 

"Souffles," I corrected him and tilted my head to grin at my man. 

you take me the way i am

you take me the way i am by ssaarah

I kicked off my heels, uncharacteristically leaving them strewn in the entry way before falling into my couch and letting my eyes shut. I'd had a shoot today, plus a test at school, followed by a fitting for a runway show this weekend. I was exhausted...then again I wasn't sleeping much either. Tristan and I had agreed to take things slow, one step at a time and I was happy. Then again I was getting laid by a sex god. Seriously, the man could fuck like no one I'd ever met. The only difference between that and every other guy I'd been with? After we were done we'd stay wrapped up in each others arms, talking about our day, or our families or anything really. Or I did. He mostly just listened. He was a really good listener. I'd never just talked to a man like that before. Ever. Except maybe Ben and that didn't count. I checked the clock on my wall and sighed. I had thought I would be home an hour before I was and I had told Tristan he could come over for dinner right about-there was the knock at the door now.

Everything I touch turns to gold, oh sugar.

"Hey," I grinned as Chloe opened the door, leaning in to kiss her. 

"Hi," She whispered against my lips. "I just got home, I didn't have time to cook." 

"Oh so you can't really do it all.....I think this might be a deal breaker for me," I said, clearly trying not to smirk as she narrowed her eyes at me.

"Careful Williams, more talk like that and I won't be putting out tonight." She rethought that and then shrugged. "Or I'll only put out once tonight."

"Such awful threats. I think maybe we could order some food what do you think?" 

we're all the same inside

 

"Can we please!?" Gabe asked, jumping up and down and looking like the super cutie and also super spoiled boy he was.

"Please was the magic word little man." Cami grinned. "Let's go pick up dessert for everyone what do you say?"

"Yay!!!! Auntie Chloe do you want dessert too?" He asked and Chloe smiled and reached out to grab her nephew and place kisses all over his little face. "Eww stop it!!" He squealed.

"I do want dessert. Get me whatever you're having."

"Auntie Chloe is a copy cat." I smirked at them.

She shrugged. "I just think Gabe has the best taste." She winked at him and he grabbed Cami's hand.

"Come on let's go!!!" Cami laughed and reached out to kiss me and wink at my sister before our son pulled her out the door.

Chloe slumped on the couch setting her feet on the ottoman in front of her.

"I never knew painting could take so much out of me." She grinned.

you're crazy and I'm out of my mind

I held my cup in my hand as I got out of the coffee shop, thinking that myabe today could be a decent day. My everyday goal was only to end the day and go to bed, trying not to get too mad or upset. So far, it was going well, I had the day off and that meant I could ride all day, forgetting my own thoughts while getting lost in the road.

Something, more like someone, ran into me, the tiny body hitting me full force and before I could even see who it was, I knew it was her, my body recognizing her before any of my other senses. "Oh sor-" Lila started but then she cut herself off as she looked up into my eyes. "Hi." She said softly.

"What are you doing here?" I asked, my eyes cold as ice and my blood hot as fire already.

"I-" She started. "I wanted coffee?"

"You're 30 miles away from your place." I pointed out.

i'm always there with you

i'm always there with you by ssaarah

"Can we please!?" Gabe asked, jumping up and down and looking like the super cutie he was.
"Please was the magic word little man." Cami grinned. "Let's go pick up dessert for everyone what do you say?"

i want this hole gone

i want this hole gone by ssaarah

I slipped out of my cardigan, feeling too hot even though a few minutes ago I'd felt cold and decided I needed to sit down, maybe get a cup of coffee. Lucky for me there was a coffee shop around the corner. Unlucky for me? I ran into something big and hard when I was reaching for my wallet in my purse.
"Oh sor-" I started but then a familiar scent hit me and I looked up into the familiar eyes of Travis Cole. "Hi." I said softly.

something about the way you move

something about the way you move by ssaarah

I looked in my closet and sighed. Everything looked so. Mom. Or professional. There was nothing that really said girls night out anywhere. I used to have a hundred little black dresses but where was I going to wear them now? I gave up and got into my car, the sensible one of course, not the sporty one I'd always dreamed of having when I had the money, and drove to my baby sisters place. She opened the door and looked back at me.
"You look like shi.t." I told her seriously. She shrugged.

even when I lose I'm winning

I killed the call with Travis, sighing to myself since he was in a state he not only refused to get out from, but he refused to admit it either. That meant that tonight he wouldn't go out with him. I texted Colbie, ready for my daily dose of teasing.

"What are you doing?"

What I got back was a picture of an extremely sexy Colbie, her body wrapped in a dress that didn't leave much to the imagination. "Going out with my sister. What do you think?"

"Holy shit Colbie you can't go out looking like that!!!!" I texted her back even though, of course, she could. She was just...wow.

"Why not?"

give your all to me I'll give my all to you

I walked into the small room part of Cami's gallery which would soon become her office, bending over to grab a bucket of paint. My eyes moved to Gabe who looked super serious while he pained on the lower part of the wall, so much into his work that he didn't even notice me. Once back to the only other space of the gallery, I grinned at Cami who was staring at a wall herself, but she didn't look as serious as her son, she looked a little tired, and mostly happy.

I set the bucket she had asked me for next to her, "Do you need something else?" I asked, kissing her cheek.

"Keep working and don't get distracted." She grinned at me as she pulled her hair up in a messy bun, ready to go back painting.

I confess you are the best thing in my life.

I stared at the wall in front of me, a little tired but mostly happy. The gallery was coming together and instead of paying for someone to come in and decorate, I had decided to take care of everything on my own. Except for my boys, I hadn't asked for anyone's help and even though it was a lot to take on? I had no regrets. I had wanted this for so long, I didn't want to miss even a moment. 

"Do you need something else?" Ben asked, breaking me from my daze as he kissed my cheek.

"Keep working and don't get distracted," I grinned at him as I pulled my hair up in a messy bun, ready to get back to painting.

if you just say the words I'll up and run to you

I bit down on my lip and stopped in front of the door of Nolan's office, smiling to myself before knocking. When I didn't get any answer back, I frowned, hoping he'd be there since this was probably my last chance to do something he had been wanting me to do for months. Opening the door slowly, I peeked my head in and smiled wider when I saw him, sitting at his desk with a serious look on his face which changed as soon as he lifted his eyes to meet mine. "May I come in?" I asked, keeping my eyes on him. When he nodded, I stepped inside the room and closed the door behind me. Then I locked it, it making Nolan raise his eyebrow at me. "I have something for you and I need some privacy." I added innocently as if answering to his questioning gaze.

And I can't stop 'til the whole world knows my name.

My office door opened slowly, Eva's head peeking in as she smiled wide at me. My serious expression changed as soon as my eyes meet hers. "May I come in?" She asked, keeping her eyes on me. When I nodded, she stepped inside the room and closed the door behind her. Then locked it, making me raise a brow at her. "I have something for you and I need some privacy," She added innocently as if answering to my questioning gaze.

i need you darling come on set the tone

i need you darling come on set the tone by ssaarah 

I heard a knock at the door and my stomach did flips. Tristan was here. I checked the timer on the oven that the lasagna was cooking in and then made sure the soup was still simmering before running a hand through my hair and walking to my door to open it.
"Hey." Tristan grinned and I bit down on my lip as I shamelessly checked him out. Usually I saw him in suits, business attire and yes, he looked sexy in them but this Tristan was wrapped up in a cashmere sweater and dark jeans...I was pretty sure I was drooling.

When I wake up I’m afraid, somebody else might take my place.

"Hey," I grinned as Chloe opened the door, biting down on her lip as she shamelessly checked me out. I returned the favor and let my eyes travel down her tight body, wanting to groan for how perfect it was and how long it had been since I'd seen her naked. Too fucking long. 

"Hi," She breathed out finally, stepping aside. "Come in."