I'm gonna fly like a bird through the night.

 

I walked into YSL late, the door swinging shut behind me as the sales girl straightened her posture a little more while I raced past her towards my older sister, “I’m sorry I’m late. I had to drop Gabe off with Ben.”


Mila smirked back, probably not buying my story which was actually true. Maybe it wasn't the whole story, but still. “You’re fine. I just got here.” She grabbed tan crocodile pumps that I was almost positive she had in her closet, “What do you think of these?”

“Don’t you have those exact ones in black?” I laughed, raising an eyebrow as I handed her a cup of coffee from her favorite cafe down the street.

“Yeah, so?” She pouted, putting them down and grabbed the cup out of my hands.
“You have too many clothes," I laughed.

“There is never a point where I have too many clothes," She winked back. “But fine. I won’t buy any shoes… Can we go to Bulgari? I want to look at the watches.”

“So how have you been? I feel like we haven’t talked in months," I asked as we walked down the street.

“Things have been great!” She told me honestly with a giant smile. “Work’s been good. Personal life’s been great-“

“You mean your personal life with Ames?” I cut in and smirked as her mouth dropped, “Mom told me. So Dad and her walked in on you two?”

She sighed, “It was insanely embarrassing and Dad almost killed Ames.”

“Dad’s insanely overprotective over you,” I said monotonously, probably jealous since my relationship with my father on the other hand? It wasn't so great. “I am a little offended you didn’t tell me that Ames and you were officially a thing.”

She shrugged, “You were busy I’m sure. Plus we just wanted to start the relationship fresh, without family input. Mom and Dad weren’t supposed to know as soon as they did, but I guess the entire family knows now.”

I smiled at her, “I’m happy you’re happy. You look so good Mila.”

She bit her lip and tried to stop smiling but it was close to impossible, “He makes me happy… It’s going so well that I feel like it’s a dream. What about you? Catch me up on your life Cam."

I grinned back at her, "Like a dream, huh?"

"Oh shut up and stop deflecting!" She nudged me while I bit down on my lip, realizing that the next words out of my mouth were going to be very hypocritical.

"Ben and I are seeing each other..." I trailed off, knowing that my sister loved him but maybe didn't approve completely of my relationship with him. It was a real touchy subject in my family and even though my mom pretended to be thrilled over it when we spoke the other day? I knew she had her doubts.

She nodded her head, "I knew that it was only a matter of time... Are you happy?"

I smiled genuinely and nodded my head, "Of course I am! I've been in love with Ben since I was Gabe's age... I feel like it's a dream," I added with a wink while she rolled her eyes,

"No wonder I never tell you anything!" She shook her head, holding the door open for me as we made our way into Bulgari. "So I'm assuming that mom knows."

I nodded my head and walked straight towards the new collection, eyeing a rose gold piece that I'd seen in a magazine recently. Of course I had the money, but it was hard buying an 11,000 euro watch when I had rent coming up, summer camp and daycare for Gabe to pay. The one downside to being a mother. "She was supportive," I replied, not letting my families negativity bring me down. I was happy... genuinely happy. "She's glad that I'm so happy," I added with my smile still in place.

"And dad?"

I shrugged, "I only spoke to mom."



She sighed, “He’ll be happy for you. I know you and dad aren’t close as him and I, but you’re his kid! He loves you and Gabe. Maybe not Ben as much as before, but we’re all family.”

“I’m sure he’s not as happy for me as he is for you and Ames," I said, almost sounding bitter. But sometimes I genuinely hated my father for how he treated me... I know that he wanted the best for me, but he had a bad way of showing it.

She scoffed in reply, “Please. He’s incredibly hesitant. After the whole fiasco of him catching Ames and I groping each other on the couch, he’s been insane. Ames and I haven’t seen him together since. We’re waiting for an opportune moment.” She smirked as she looked at a black and gold men’s watch, “What do you think of this?”

“It’s gorgeous. Who is it for?” I cocked my head to the side.

“Ames’ birthday is coming soon," She grinned at me, looking happy and lost in thought. “I kind of wanted to throw him a surprise party with family and friends. I’m not sure though… I wonder if it’s too soon.”

I eyed my sister, “You’ve never been this worried with a guy.”

“I’m scared it’s all too good to be true," She told me honestly with a sigh. “I just want to be with him. We’ve been through so much and I don’t want to screw it up…”

“Ames wants to be with you. Ben told me he’s been fantasizing about you for years.” .

“What if I don’t live up to those fantasies though?”

“How’s it been going? Honestly.”

She exhaled, “Amazing. We’re together all the time and I love it. I love being around him and I hate it when he leaves, but what if it’s one sided?”

“He wouldn’t keep spending time with you if he didn’t want to Mila.” I grinned, “How’s the sex going though?”

She stood there silently as she bit her lip, giving me a look, “We actually haven’t had sex yet.”

“What?!” I widened my eyes.

Mila shrugged, “After all that happened… I didn’t want sex to complicate it. We were trying to start over, so I asked him if he wanted to wait and he was okay with it… I mean I’m hard up anytime he’s around, but it’s refreshing that the relationship is so much more than that…"

I laughed, "Ever since Gabe's found out about Ben and I, he keeps appearing whenever I'm in the mood... It's like he can sense all the signs and all of a sudden is there."

"Your son's cock blocking you?" She laughed back while I rolled my eyes.

"I wouldn't put it that way..." I trailed off, remembering how it was much easier sneaking around than actually having everyone knowing about us. "But maybe a little."

"Good then we can be hard up together," Mila joked and stared at the watch once more. We'd made a whole circle around the store and she still had it on her mind.

"Just get it for him," I said and then grinned. "But when you give it to him, wear just that and be waiting for him on his bed."

She looked up at me and smirked, shaking her head, "No wonder you were the one to get knocked up at such a young age."

I just smiled at her, ignoring her comment since she always made it clear that she agreed with my parents on that subject. So maybe I was young and didn't make smart choices, I didn't regret having Gabe though. Him and Ben were my life now. I also didn't want to point out that I had much better taste in men than she did and that Ben was always there for me, even when the rest of my family wasn't. "We're looking at places right now," I said as my smile grew more genuine.

She widened her eyes, "So you two are back together for good then?"

I nodded my head, "My one regret is letting him go the first time... I'd never make the same mistake twice."

"Gabe's probably ecstatic," She smiled at me, motioning for the sales clerk to show her the watch.

"He's confused," I replied and let my smile falter. "It's been a little draining going back and forth between mine and Ben's loft, but he's planning on moving into mine until we find something together."

She shrugged, “He’s just expecting the worst… He just really doesn’t want to get his hopes up.”

I nodded, lost in thought, “I hope he comes around. Ben and I are working everything around him to make him the most comfortable he can be.”

“And that’s all you can do." She smiled at me then looked back down at the watch, “Okay… I hope he likes it.”

I rolled my eyes, “It’s a 15,000 euro watch. He’ll love it.”

She sighed, “Okay and if he doesn’t, I’m blaming you.” She shrugged at me, walking up to the register to pull out her card, purchasing the watch, “Alright, the next place we’re going is Agent Provocateur.”

I smirked, “So I’m assuming the watch isn’t the only gift you’re planning on giving him.”

She laughed as we walked towards the boutique, “It’s been months! We both have been insanely hard up. I think our relationship is past the point to where I can trust him. Plus, we’ve been spending the night at each other’s places. God, being in a bed with him? The sexual tension is palpable Cam!”

I laughed, “Why are you making him wait again?”

“I thought it was a good idea… I regret it every time I see him shirtless.” She pouted, “I could spend hours devoting my time to his abs.”

I groaned, “Do I need to hear this? I still remember that one time in high school when Mom and Dad went out of town and I could hear you and your boyfriend at the time moaning and the headboard banging against the wall.”

Her mouth dropped, “Perv!”

“The whole building could hear you two!” I exclaimed with a laugh.

“He was my first boyfriend," She shrugged as the two of us walked into Agent Provocateur, Mila grabbing different things immediately to try on as the sales woman grabbed them from her to start a fitting room.

I stared at a few pieces, knowing that I didn't need to buy more since me and Chloe had just gone lingerie shopping last week... where I spent about two whole paychecks on lacy pieces that would hopefully end up in pieces on my bedroom floor. “Let me treat," My sister told me with a smile, “The wheels in your head are turning as to why you shouldn’t buy something here, so let me get you something.”

“Thanks," I smiled back at her, not even about to say no. We rarely had sister time and she never spoiled me.
“I’m your big sister! I should supply you with dirty lingerie to screw your boyfriend in," She winked at me.



I bit down on my lip and thought back to the place Chloe and I had gone to last week. Now that was dirty lingerie, Agent Provocateur though? This was more classy. "Will you be living vicariously though me?" I asked with a smirk, remembering back to when I was single and not having sex. She had to be hurting. I mean, my sister always had a boyfriend, pretty constant since the day she turned 16 and my dad gave her permission to date.

She wrinkled her nose, "You're a mom. You're boring instead."

My mouth fell open and I laughed, "I'm having sex every day, at least twice a day... What about you?"

She sighed and shook her head, "I kind of hate you right now."

I grinned and looked at a few sets, bypassing the black ones and going for red. I had a tan right now and looked really good in red garter belts. "It really helps that we've been staying together..." I trailed off, thinking about how much my life had changed over the past few months. I could honestly say I'd never been happier. I'd spent so much of my life doing the single mother thing, always having Ben there for me and being a great dad, but actually raising our son together in one house? It was a whole other world. Life had gone from great to damn near perfect.



“Sounds like a dream.” She winked, “That piece would look amazing on you Cam. And as much as I don’t want to think about it, I think Ben would love it.”

I nodded at my sister, “He would. Although those corsets are gorgeous, I think Ames would probably get hard at just the sight of you in something skimpy.” I smirked, “I feel bad for the poor guy. He probably has blue balls.”

She rolled her eyes, “If there’s a female version of blue balls? I have it.”

“Like I said before, why are you doing this?”

She sighed, “You know how I’ve been in the past when it comes to guys and sex. I care about this relationship with Ames a lot… It’s been a few months now. I think it will be a good gift for Ames’ birthday.” I smirked thinking about how I couldn’t wait for that night, “I’m going to go try my stuff on,” She said, walking back towards the fitting room where a sales woman was waiting back there for me, to help her with the corsets.

“How are you going to get those on without help Mila?” I hollered from the room.

“I’ll figure it out. Alright, tell me what you think, because I already love it.”

I walked over to the mirror, standing next to her and looking at the black and ivory corset that made her look like she actually had boobs. It was a first. “Is he more into boobs or ass?” I smirked.

“Honestly, I’m sure he doesn’t have a preference at the moment," She pointed out, “But I think he prefers my chest.”

“Then this is perfect.” I smirked, “After you change out of that… because I can’t stop my eyes being drawn to your chest… you need to tell me more about you and Ames.”

She laughed and turned, “Untie me.”

“Seriously, is this going to be functional? I mean Ames is going to have to cut you out of this Mila!” I exclaimed.

“You shh," She told me as I loosened the straps and then changed back into her clothes, “Alright, so what do you want to know?”

“Anything.” I smirked as we walked over to the counter, “Except details about the dirty stuff. I have my own to fulfill my desires.”

She laughed, “Nothing different than what I already told you. I laugh with him, I have fun. I can’t remember a relationship that felt so easy. He doesn’t care when I ramble about the new fall line or my blog… He’s encouraging and I’ve never had a guy be like that with me.”

“You look like a chipmunk," I replied, referring to the goofy ass smile on her face.

She bit her lip, “Tell me honestly what you think about him and I. I haven’t been able to talk to many people about us, so I’m nervous. Maybe I’m just trying to make it better than it appears.”

"Honestly? He's Ben's uncle and that's a little weird," I shrugged my shoulders. "But you're happy and that's all that matters."

She groaned and handed the sales clerk her card as she got rung up, "Is it weird?"

I pursed my lips together and shrugged again, not knowing what to say since sure Ames wasn't that much older, but he was my boyfriends uncle and my son's family... One day he'd be my family too. Okay, he was pretty much my family now. "You've heard the phrase keeping it in the family, right?" I bit back a smirk as my sister looked like she might hit me.

"It's not like that!!"

"No? Because one day when Ben and I get married, he'll be my uncle..." I trailed off, not sure what that would make him to Mila, but it didn't sound good either way.

"Then I guess I'll just have to marry Ames first," She stuck her tongue out at me, making me laugh.

"Sometimes I feel like I'm the older sister instead," I sighed, still grinning at my sister. "Can you put the red piece in a different bag?" I asked the girl at the counter who nodded and separated our lingerie. "Thank you," I added with a smile.

"Because you already live like an old married woman?" She joked back.

I laughed and grabbed my bag, walking side by side with Mila. "No," I shook my head. "Trust me, there is nothing old about the things we do to each other..."

"My sister the little slut," She faked a sigh while I elbowed her side. "Ouch!!"

"It's not slutty if I plan on marrying Ben," I pointed out.

"Do you?" She asked, holding the door open for me while I silently prayed we were done shopping.

"Of course," I said and lifted an eyebrow at her. "When did you first hear me say that I wanted to marry Ben Lindsell?"

She grinned at me, "Probably when you were two and saw him naked during bathtime... See, even then you were a little slut."

I laughed and elbowed my sister again, "You're awful. That never happened!"

She shrugged, “Maybe it didn’t happen that young, but I think when you were 8, you were enamored with him and followed him around like a lost puppy.”

“He was cute!” I reasoned with a grin, “You want to talk about following people? Do you remember how much you wanted to be around Ames??”

“Yeah, yeah. He was cute.” She winked, “I was a sucker for that blond hair, blue eyes thing he had going on, plus, when I was allowed to date, he was 21 and I had my fantasies. I thought he was so distinguished and mature."


“Perv," I smirked at her as we just walked along the sidewalk.

“Yeah, I’m the one not having sex.” She pouted, “Just a few weeks left.”


I laughed, “You’re not going to die! I went months without any before Ben and I got together. It’s just a low period. Believe me, when you do start, you won’t be stopping.”


“I’m actually jealous of you.” She rolled her eyes, “Enough. I can’t think about sex anymore.”


“Okay, I won’t rub it in your face anymore…. I do have to go though to pick up Gabe from daycare. Ben is at work today.”


She pouted, “Okay, tell the little cutie Dexter and I miss him and can’t wait to see him.” She pulled me into a hug, “I’m really happy for you and Ben.”


“Thanks Mila and thanks for treating.”

She shrugged, “What are big sisters for?”