I'm gonna fly like a bird through the night,

I'm gonna fly like a bird through the night, by nadiaa featuring a leather vest

I stepped into YSL and smiled widely at the rack of the insanely beautiful pieces of clothing that and I felt like I was in heaven. I waved at the sales woman who greeted me and showed me a few new items that I immediately fell in love with. I had so many clothes yet I couldn’t stop; some people called it a problem, I called it my life.

I heard the door open and shut as my younger sister walked in flustered, “I’m sorry I’m late. I had to drop Gabe off with Ben.” She told me.

I smirked because I’m sure that wasn’t the complete story, “You’re fine. I just got here.” I grabbed  tan crocodile pumps, “What do you think of these?” I asked her.

“Don’t you have those exact ones in black?” She laughed, raising a brow as she handed me a cup of coffee, probably from my favorite cafe down the street.

I pouted, “Yeah, so?” I said putting them down and grabbed the cup out of her hands.

“You have too many clothes.” She laughed.

“There is never a point where I have too many clothes.” I winked at her. “But fine. I won’t buy any shoes…” I rolled my eyes, “Can we go to Bulgari? I want to look at the watches.” I told her as she nodded.

“So how have you been? I feel like we haven’t talked in months.” She said as we walked down the street.

“Things have been great!” I told her honestly with a giant smile. “Work’s been good. Personal life’s been great-“

“You mean your personal life with Ames?” She cut in and smirked as my mouth dropped, “Mom told me. So Dad and her walked in on you two?”

I sighed, “It was insanely embarrassing and Dad almost killed Ames.”

“Dad’s insanely overprotective over you.” I said monotonously, “I am a little offended you didn’t tell me that Ames and you were officially a thing.”

I shrugged, “You were busy I’m sure. Plus we just wanted to start the relationship fresh, without family input. Mom and Dad weren’t supposed to know as soon as they did, but I guess the entire family knows now.”

Cam smiled at me, “I’m happy you’re happy. You look so good Mila.”

I bit my lip and tried to stop smiling but it was close to impossible, “He makes me happy… It’s going so well that I feel like it’s a dream. What about you? Catch me up on your life Cam."

She grinned back at me, “Like a dream, huh?”

“Oh shut up and stop deflecting!” I nudged her as she bit her lip and seemed uneasy.

“Ben and I are seeing each other…” She trailed off, telling me something I already had my suspicions about. As much as she tried to hide things about her life and be secretive, I knew more than she let on. I just didn’t want her to get hurt. I still remembered what happened the first time they decided to break it off and how heartbroken she was, even though she tried not to show it. I was her sister; I knew her.

I nodded my head, “I knew that it was only a matter of time… Are you happy?” I asked honestly because despite all the issues, if she was happy, I didn’t care how.

She smiled and nodded, “Of course I am! I’ve been in love with Ben since I was Gabe’s age… I feel like it’s a dream.” She added with a wink, making me roll my eyes.

“No wonder I never tell you anything!!” I shook my head, holding the door open for her as we walked into Bulgari, “So I’m assuming Mom knows.” While I confided in my father most of the time, she turned to our mom. They has both gone through surprise pregnancies at a young age.

She nodded her head and walked towards the new women’s collection and admired the beautiful time pieces. One thing I could say about my sister was that she was incredibly selfless, especially when it came to Gabe. She was probably thinking about all the things she needed to get Gabe before she could treat herself with an expensive watch.

“She was supportive. She’s glad that I’m so happy.” She said with the smile still in place on her face.

“And Dad?” I asked, knowing that was a sore subject for her.

She shrugged, “I only spoke to Mom.”

I sighed, “He’ll be happy for you.” I told her honestly, “I know you and dad aren’t close as him and I, but you’re his kid! He loves you and Gabe. Maybe not Ben as much as before, but we’re all family.”

“I’m sure he’s not as happy for me as he is for you and Ames.” She sighed.

I scoffed in reply, “Please. He’s incredibly hesitant. After the whole fiasco of him catching Ames and I groping each other on the couch, he’s been insane. Ames and I haven’t seen him together since. We’re waiting for an opportune moment.” I smirked as I looked at a gorgeous black and gold men’s watch, “What do you think of this?” I asked her.

“It’s gorgeous. Who is it for?” She cocked her head to the side.

“Ames’ birthday is coming soon.” I grinned at her, thinking about how happy I was to be with him celebrating his birthday. “I kind of wanted to throw him a surprise party with family and friends. I’m not sure though… I wonder if it’s too soon.” I said doubting myself.

She eyed me, “You’ve never been this worried with a guy.”

I sighed, “I’m scared it’s all too good to be true.” I told her honestly, feeling sick to my stomach. I was falling in love with Ames and I didn’t want to lose him because of some stupid f.uck up that I accidentally made… I wanted this to work out so badly. “I just want to be with him. We’ve been through so much and I don’t want to screw it up…”

“Ames wants to be with you. Ben told me he’s been fantasizing about you for years.” She pointed out.

“What if I don’t live up to those fantasies though?” I shrugged.

“How’s it’s been going? Honestly.” She asked as we looked at all the jewelry.

I exhaled, “Amazing. We’re together all the time and I love it. I love being around him and I hate it when he leaves, but what if it’s one sided?”

“He wouldn’t keep spending time with you if he didn’t want to Mila.” She grinned, “How’s the sex going though.”

I stood there silently as I bit my lip, giving her a look, “We actually haven’t had sex yet.”

“What?!” She widened her eyes.

I shrugged, “After all that happened… I didn’t want sex to complicate it. We were trying to start over, so I asked him if he wanted to wait and he was okay with it… I mean I’m hard up anytime he’s around, but it’s refreshing that the relationship is so much more than that…"

She laughed, “Ever since Gabe’s found out about Ben and I, he keeps appearing whenever I’m in the mood… It’s like he can sense all the signs and all of a sudden is there.”

“Your son is cock blocking you?” I laughed back at her.

She rolled her eyes, “I wouldn’t put it that way…” She trailed off,  “But maybe a little.”

“Good, then we can be hard up together.” I joked back with her as I continued to stare at the watch. I didn’t realize it, but we had circled the entire store and I still had it on my mind.

“Just get it for him.” She said with a grin, “But when you give it to him, wear just that and be waiting for him on his bed.

I looked up and smirked, shaking my head, “No wonder you were the one to get knocked up at such a young age.”

She smiled at me, ignoring my comment, “We’re looking at places right now.” Her grinned widened.

I widened my eyes, “So you two are back together for good then?”

She nodded her head, “My one regret is letting him go the first time… I’d never make the same mistake twice.”

“Gabe’s probably ecstatic.” I smiled at her, motioning for the sales clerk to show me the watch.

“He’s confused.” Her smile faltered, “It’s been a little draining going back and forth between mine and Ben’s loft, but he’s planning on moving into mine until we find something together.”

I shrugged, “He’s just expecting the worst…” I told her honestly, “He just really doesn’t want to get his hopes up.”

She nodded, lost in thought, “I hope he comes around. Ben and I are working everything around him to make him the most comfortable he can be.”

“And that’s all you can do.” I smiled at my little sister. Sometimes I wondered if she was the older sister mentally. I smiled back down at the watch, “Okay… I hope he likes it.”

She rolled her eyes, “It’s a 15,000 euro watch. He’ll love it.”

I sighed, “Okay and if he doesn’t, I’m blaming you.” I shrugged at her, walking up to the register to pull out my card, purchasing the watch, “Alright, the next place we’re going is Agent Provocateur.” I grinned at her.

She smirked, “So I’m assuming the watch isn’t the only gift you’re planning on giving him.”

I laughed as we walked towards the boutique, “It’s been months! We both have been insanely hard up. I think our relationship is past the point to where I can trust him. Plus, we’ve been spending the night at each other’s places. God, being in a bed with him? The sexual tension is palpable Cam!” I exclaimed, making her laugh.

“Why are you making him wait again?” She said sarcastically, making me sigh.

“I thought it was a good idea… I regret it every time I see him shirtless.” I pouted, “I could spend hours devoting my time to his abs.” I fantasized in my head.

She groaned, “Do I need to hear this? I still remember that one time in high school when Mom and Dad went out of town and I could hear you and your boyfriend at the time moaning and the headboard banging against the wall.”

My mouth dropped, “Perv!”

“The whole building could hear you two!” She exclaimed with a laugh.

“He was my first boyfriend.” I shrugged as the two of us walked into Agent Provocateur and I was mesmerized. I loved lingerie, even if I was just wearing it for me. There was nothing sexier than matching pieces of lace underneath my clothes. I started grabbing different things to try on as the sales woman grabbed them from me to start a fitting room.

I could see Cam stare longingly at a few pieces, “Let me treat.” I told her with a smile, “The wheels in your head are turning as to why you shouldn’t buy something here, so let me get you something.” I told her.

“Thanks.” She smiled back at me.

“I’m your big sister! I should supply you with dirty lingerie to screw your boyfriend in.” I winked at her.

She bit down on her lip and grinned, “Will you be living vicariously through me?” She smirked back at me, knowing I had to be hurting. I had boyfriends pretty constantly for the last nine years and this was the first time I was really showing restraint.

I wrinkled my nose, “You’re a mom. You’re boring instead.”

Her mouth fell open as she laughed, “I’m having sex every day, at least twice a day… What about you?” She showed off and I glared.

I shook my head and sighed, “I kind of hate you right now.”

She laughed, looking at the lingerie, “It really helps that we’ve been staying together…” She trailed off. She was lucky to have some that was close to perfect for her. I had been searching for that person and I hoped and prayed that it was Ames… I was a hopeless romantic and looked up to my parents love. That was also my downfall because I knew how rare their situation was. Most one night stands don’t last 25 years of marriage and three kids. It was hard to live up to that kind of relationship, but I never stopped trying… even though it was a failure in the past.

“Sounds like a dream.” I winked, “That piece would look amazing on you Cam.” I smiled as she looked upon a red lacy piece, “And as much as I don’t want to think about it, I think Ben would love it.”

She nodded at me, “He would. Although those corsets are gorgeous, I think Ames would probably get hard at just the sight of you in something skimpy.” She smirked, “I feel bad for the poor guy. He probably has blue balls.”

I rolled my eyes, “If there’s a female version of blue balls? I have it.”

“Like I said before, why are you doing this?” She reasoned once more.

I sighed, “You know how I’ve been in the past when it comes to guys and sex. I care about this relationship with Ames a lot… It’s been a few months now. I think it will be a good gift for Ames’ birthday.” I smirked thinking about how I couldn’t wait for that night, “I’m going to go try my stuff on.” I said, walking back towards the fitting room where a sales woman was waiting back there for me, to help me with the corsets.

“How are you going to get those on without help Mila?” Cam hollered, with a chuckle, from another fitting room.

“I’ll figure it out.” I said, walking out in the black and ivory corset, “Alright, tell me what you think, because I already love it.” I grinned at myself in the mirror.

She walked out, standing next to me, “Is he more into boobs or ass?” She smirked.

“Honestly, I’m sure he doesn’t have a preference at the moment.” I pointed out, “But I think he prefers my chest.”

“Then this is perfect.” She smirked, “After you change out of that… because I can’t stop my eyes being drawn to your chest… you need to tell me more about you and Ames.”

I laughed, “Untie me.” I told her as I turned.

“Seriously, is this going to be functional? I mean Ames is going to have to cut you out of this Mila!” She exclaimed.

“You shh.” I told her as she loosened the straps and then changed back into my clothes, “Alright, so what do you want to know?” I asked her, taking the things to the counter.

“Anything.” She smirked, “Except details about the dirty stuff. I have my own to fulfill my desires.”

I laughed, “Nothing different than what I already told you. I laugh with him, I have fun. I can’t remember a relationship that felt so easy. He doesn’t care when I ramble about the new fall line or my blog… He’s encouraging and I’ve never had a guy be like that with me.” I could feel my cheeks hurting from smiling so big.

“You look like a chipmunk.” She smirked.

I bit my lip, “Tell me honestly what you think about him and I. I haven’t been able to talk to many people about us, so I’m nervous. Maybe I’m just trying to make it better than it appears.” I rambled.

“Honestly? He’s Ben’s uncle and that’s a little weird.” She shrugged her shoulders, “But you’re happy and that’s all that matters.”

I groaned and handed the clerk my card, “Is it weird?” I’m sure a bystander would comment on the weird family dynamic, but Ames and I were not related in anyway.

She pursed her lips together, “You’ve heard the phrase keeping it in the family, right?” She bit back a smirk as I felt the urge to slap her.

“It’s not like that!!”

“No? Because one day when Ben and I get married, he’ll be my uncle…” She trailed off. It didn’t matter – I mean it was Ava and Ames’ mother that caused all this. He was closer to my age than his sisters.

“Then I guess I’ll just have to marry Ames first.” I stuck my tongue out at her, making her laugh.

“Sometimes I feel like I’m the older sister instead.” She sighed with a smile. “Can you put the red piece in a different bag?” She asked the lady at the counter who nodded and then separated our lingerie, “Thank you.” She smiled.

“Because you already live like an old married woman?” I joked back. After Cami got pregnant, she really settled and calmed down. I on the other hand had my crazy moments, mine just tended to not have continuous repercussions like getting pregnant…

She laughed, grabbing her bag as we walked side by side, “No.” She shook her head, “Trust me, there is nothing old about the things we do to each other…”

“My sister, the little slut.” I faked a sigh as she elbowed my side, “Ouch!”

“It’s not slutty if I plan on marrying Ben.” She pointed out.

“Do you?” I asked, holding the door open as we walked out.

“Of course!” She rose a brow, “When did you first hear me say that I wanted to marry Ben Lindsell?” She asked.

I smirked, “Probably when you were two and saw him naked during bathtime… See even then you were a little slut.”

She laughed, elbowing me again, “You’re awful. That never happened!”

I shrugged, “Maybe it didn’t happen that young, but I think when you were 8, you were enamored with him and followed him around like a lost puppy.”

“He was cute!” She reasoned with a grin, “You want to talk about following people? Do you remember how much you wanted to be around Ames??” She smirked.

I nodded, “Yeah, yeah. He was cute.” I winked, “I was a sucker for that blond hair, blue eyes thing he had going on, plus, when I was allowed to date, he was 21 and I had my fantasies. I thought he was so distinguished and mature.” I laughed.

“Perv.” She smirked at me as we just walked along the sidewalk.

“Yeah, I’m the one not having sex.” I pouted, “Just a few weeks left.” I kept telling myself.

She laughed, “You’re not going to die! I went months without any before Ben and I got together. It’s just a low period. Believe me, when you do start, you won’t be stopping.” She smirked as I could imagine, thoughts ran through her head.

“I’m actually jealous of you.” I rolled my eyes, “Enough. I can’t think about sex anymore.” I shook my head.

“Okay, I won’t rub it in your face anymore…. I do have to go though to pick up Gabe from daycare. Ben is at work today.” She told me.

I pouted, “Okay, tell the little cutie Dexter and I miss him and can’t wait to see him.” I pulled her into a hug, “I’m really happy for you and Ben.” I smiled.

“Thanks Mila and thanks for treating.”

I shrugged, “What are big sisters for?” I winked, waving goodbye.