guess there's a chance that i'm falling quite hard over you

guess there's a chance that i'm falling quite hard over you by ssaarah

 

 

 

I ran up to Travis on the grass, throwing my arms around his neck as I squealed.

"You won!" I exclaimed, seeing his face light up as he saw me thank god. I was worried maybe he hadn't wanted to after this week.

"We did." he smirked at me, holding me tight and lifting me up as he kissed me. Yum. Once our lips parted and I was back on my feet, I glared and hit his chest. Hard.

"You're an ass."

"What did I do?" he asked, genuinely taken aback.

"You disappeared for a week." I replied, though I was in too good a mood after them winning and that kiss to be really mad. He just smirked wider and cradled my head in his hand as he angled his down to nuzzle my nose.

"It was a busy week." he said nonchalantly, kissing me quickly once again before pulling me into a hard amazing hug. "I missed you." I instantly gave in, loving how he felt against me, how he smelled. Ugh.

"We're giving quite a show." I said quietly, knowing I was blushing as I watched Will and Rob give variying expressions of disgust.

"I'm shameless." Trav grinned at me and pulled away, only to wrap his arm around my shoulders and pulled me closer. "We're throwing a party because we won the big match. You should come baby. If the team agrees, of course."

"She can come if she can keep her tongue out of your mouth." Rob muttered under his breath.

"I'm not making any promises." I whispered to Trav, winking dramatically and making him laugh.

"I'll remember you don't like kissing when you're a little older." Travis teased his nephew and rumpled his hair.

"Is mom coming?" Will asked, turning towards me with hope in his blue eyes. I nodded.

"She was here the whole time sweetie, she just stepped away at the end for a phone call. " Will smiled.

"Did she see me take down that kid?! He was twice my size!" I nodded and laughed.

"She did. And so did I. You're like a beast out there." Will beamed at the compliment.

"Someday I'll be as big as Coach Travis and then I'll take down everyone." He said sure of himself as we walked across the park to the other side where the cars were parked.

"Me too." Rob added, nodding seriously.

"And then a tiny blonde will bring them to their knees too." Trav whispered into my neck and I shivered, feeling my face flush.

"Where are we going?" I asked, turning in his arms as we reached his bike.

"Adam's. He lives a few blocks away, has a huge back yard with a barbecue all ready." I set my hand on my stomach and hummed a happy sound.

"Good I'm starving." I said, grabbing his extra helmet. "Try to obey at least half of the rules of the road." I teased him.

"Never." he climbed onto his bike, and I glared at him as I did the same, "Either that or you can walk." I snorted as I wrapped my arms around him.

"You're a lost cause." I muttered as Travis zigzagged through the cars as if we were rushing to the hospital instead of a party. Idiot.

"Here we are." he announced as he stopped suddenly in front of his brothers house.

"Were you trying to get us killed?" I spat back, chucking me his helmet as he clearly tried to keep from fucking laughing. He got off the bike and set our helmets on the handles as he reached for me.

"No, you'd go to paradise and I'd go to hell. I'd miss you." he grinned and pulled me closer to nuzzle against me before grabbing my hand. "Don't be mad baby's what's life without some excitement?" I shook my head at my crazy man, relief rushing through me at how easy and us we were today. I had been doubting it lately and.....god I just thought too damn much. I wanted to just have some fun.

"Dear god Lila, hope that Reece never finds out he drives like that." Colbie said, shaking her head as she got out of her car, Will and Rob following behind her. "Actually make sure none of them find out." She said under her breath as Travis rolled his eyes and I blushed.

"Can I get a motorcycle?" Will asked his mom and Colbie glared at Travis.

"See what you did?" She asked, though she was smirking still as she set a huge bowl of fruit salad on the table everyone else was gathering at.

"Why didn't you tell me? I would have made something..." I trailed off and Travis laughed.

"You mean you would have bought something." He teased and I stuck my tongue out at him, causing him to grab my waist and lean in. "What did Will say about keeping your tongue to yourself?" He asked before kissing me hard, the kind of chaste, easy kiss that was about happiness and genuine affection, not just attraction. My whole body tingled with it.

"Lila. What a nice surprise." Adam grinned and scooped me up in his big arms.

"Hey, you have a wife, put her down." Jax's voice rang out as Adam let go of me and his brother wrapped his arm around my neck while I tried not to literally drool over the Cole family gene pool. I guess now I knew what my friends meant whenever they came over to my house. Too bad his parents hadn't had more kids. Then again it might have meant a cardiac arrest for the single mom's who were eyeing me from the other side of the yard.

"Hey squirt." Jax pulled me in for a side squeeze and I rolled my eyes.

"Squirt? Really?" He shrugged casually, always the laid back easy going one out of the three.

"Thought it was better than hotstuff in the presence of the coach." He winked at me as Travis shook his head.

"Not to worry, he's not a jealous man." I joked, though it was true.

"What do I have to be jealous about?" He asked with a brow raised making me narrow my gaze at him.

"Is there anyone coc.kier than you?" I asked, stepping up and pressing my hands against his hard chest, loving how the muscles in his abdoman contracted whenever I touched him.

"You sometimes." he said softly, sending me a heated look that was anything but innocent and left me a little achy.

"Only when it's deserved." I replied grinning and pulling away if only because I was this close to shoving my tongue down his throat. Again.

"When is it deserved?" He teased and I rolled my eyes before following his view over to my sister. I had explained her love life problems earlier, my brothers were being impossible. Again.

"She's still a little bummed you know." I said quietly, reading the look on his face.

"Hey Colbie." Travis smiled at her as we walked up. "Do you know my brother?" he asked, and I saw what he was doing. If anyone was good at cheering up a woman it was Jax. She nodded as she tucked her hair behind her ear.

"Adam? Sure. Will and Rob live as one person and I can't tell how many times I went here to pick my son."

"I meant Jax." he smirked and nodded to his other brother, who got the hint and gravitated closer to us again.

"She doesn't know me but I know her." He cut into the conversation, being his usual charming self. "I saw you so many times at the games."

"Careful sis, he's famous for his lines." I teased him.

"I don't know what you're talking about." He said back, blinking at me innocently, "I'm the perfect gentleman, I swear I'd never use one of those lame lines just to win a girls heart."

"Gentleman my a.ss." We laughed as Travis grinned at his brother and patted his back before dragging me away. "Let's go grab a beer. I could drink a pool, I'm so damn thirsty."

"Do you think it's a good idea?" I asked instead, knowing it might be good for her ego to be hit on but also knowing Jax was no good for her in the long term. Or the short term.

"Jax will do nothing but keep her entertained for the night." he shrugged and poked my nose to make me turn back to him. "Don't start over thinking."

"Do you have some kind of mind reading powers or something?" I asked, raising a brow at him.

"I just know you." He said simply, grabbing a few beers from a cooler and popping them open before handing one to me.

"Thanks." I grinned and clinked mine to his.

"What are we toasting to?" He asked with a grin that was both sexy and adorable at the same time.

"To a great win." I replied taking a long sip of the cold drink.

"And a great girl." He added, making me flush but roll my eyes.

"Don't get cheesy on me Cole. It doesn't fit you." Travis laughed.

"Maybe not." He grinned.

"Hey Lila." Trav's mom smiled and hugged me before pulling away and beaming at both of us. "I'm so happy to see you both." She looked like her face might stick that way and Travis looked like he was groaning on the inside.

"If you're wondering what that face is? She's picturing what your kids will look like." Trav's dad laughed as he grabbed a beer and I blushed furiously.

"Good god Mom." He shook his head but I brushed past my terror at the thought.

"A baby with Cole and Trenton genes? It's be too perfect to even exist." I laughed and then turned to watch Will and Rob playing keep away with Rob's baby sisters doll. How old were they again? 5?

Trav walked over to them, catching the doll mid-air and giving it back to Poppy before picking her up. "You should stay away from guys, they're mean."

"They suck!" She exclaimed, and when she walked past Rob, she used her doll to hit her brother on his head. "Meanie!"

"That's my baby." Travis chuckled.

"You're learning how to deal with boys so fast." I grinned at her, poking her side and making her giggle as we walked towards one of the benches placed around the backyard.

"I don't like boys." She said seriously, leaning her head against his chest and looking at me while holding her doll close.

"Hey, I'm a boy!" Travis protested, setting her on the table and then sitting in front of her, scooting over to give me some room too.

"But you're an uncle!" she blinked her eyes at him, her little head confused and it was adorable.

"I'm your favorite." he smirked at her, ticking her sides and making her toss her head back as she laughed.

"Stop! Mom! Stop!" She screamed through giggles, damn she was so cute. I rescued her, knowing all too well about tickles as I grabbed Travis' hands before I leaned against him.

"I got this." I winked at her and she let out a breath, holding her tummy,

"I'm hungry. No one wants to play with me or eat. They're all old."

"Go to mom and ask her some food, then Lila and I will play with you cutie." Trav smiled, kissed her cheek and let her go, watching her nod before running away awkwardly.

"You're good with kids."

"No, I'm good with girls."

"You're good with boys too, otherwise we'd be having no celebration." I said against his mouth and he chuckled.

"Maybe." I watched as Poppy jumped up and down next to her mom waiting for food.

"She might be the cutest little girl I've ever seen." I admitted. Something about her made you want to scoop her up and never stop cuddling.

"I know." Travis beamed and I smiled as he watched her.

"You should have kids." I told him seriously. He looked back at me.

"I want to." I swallowed as I thought about what I was going to say.

"The day at the hospital.....you seemed terrified. Like it was the worst thing that could ever happen. I know the timing was wrong and maybe even I was wrong....but it seemed like such a harsh reaction to a man who wants to be a dad." I said in a rush, trying not to ruin the nice thing we had going, but also wanting to be more open with him. Travis looked at me, with that stare that made me think he was looking inside of me.

"It wouldn't have been the end of the world Lila. But we weren't even together then. I want kids but I don't want to raise a child into a complicated situation. We weren't ready for that." I nodded.

"I get it."

"You were scared too." I nodded.

"I was terrified." I admitted. "I'd never thought I was very maternal and I thought it would change everything about who I was."

"But?" He asked, reaching out and running his thumb along my cheek.

"I don't know. There was a part of me that felt a little empty when I found out it wasn't true.....I told you that already. It wasn't the right time. But it made me realize I want it. I want this." I motioned around to the backyard. "Family and friends with kids and playing and happieness." I smiled. "Damn I'm sounding like a lame hallmark movie." I laughed.

"I like it when you talk without thinking baby." He said, looking down at me with such adoration it made me melt.

"I'll remind you of that the next time I blurt out something that pisses you off." I joked and Travis laughed.

"But after I'm pissed we get to make up...." he whispered against my ear, a promise in his tone that made me shiver.

"Uncle Travis I got a hot dog and potato salad!!!" Poppy called out, bouncing over to us.

"Oh yummy. I love potato salad." I told her, poking her nose and making her scrunch her little face and laugh.

"Me too! We're like twins! Except you're old." She nodded and I bust out laughing.

"You should tell that to Travis, he thinks I'm a baby." I teased and Poppy made the cutest confused face.

"What?! Babies are tiny and can't talk!!!"

"That's not true. You can talk and you're still a baby." he said back he watched Poppy scrunch up her face.

"I'm not a baby anymore." she protested loudly, reminding me of myself when I was a little girl. Travis faked a thoughtful face as he watched her.

"Really? Because I've heard that if you're not a baby you don't get cuddles." he said seriously, even though I was close to laughing as Poppy's mouth dropped open and she looked a little worried. I broke, laughing as I turned to the little cutie.

"He's kidding. I get plenty of cuddles even if I'm a grown up girl."

"Nonsense." he shook his head again, wrapping an arm around my shoulders and pressing a chaste kiss on my cheek, "As I said, you're a baby too."

"Uncle Travis always cuddles me to sleep." She pointed out and I looked back at Trav, grinning as I thought about what he did before I went to sleep. But that was something Poppy still had time to learn. Like 15 years.

"Is he good?" I asked softly, running my hand through Poppy's thin hair while she tried to climb up on Travis like a monkey.

"He reads me fairy tales too and let me brush his hair." She added making me laugh. Damn he loved hsi family so much. I loved knowing that side of him and always treasured the times I saw him let it out.

"I wish I had an uncle like him." I winked at the little girl.

"What are you telling to my baby? Should I be worried?" Adam joined us, bending over to pick his daughter who fought him instead, making it obvious that she had other plans.

"She was just telling me how much of a good uncle I am instead." Trav grinned up at his brother, leaning back against the bench and holding me a little closer. Adam let go of his daughter eventually, Poppy running away a second later as he shook his head. "I hope next one is not another girl. They drive you crazy." He sighed.

"Tell me about it." Trav glanced at me and I just rolled my eyes. Adam's eyes bounced between us before he took a seat next to us, his face giving him away.

"So Lila, how is Travis treating you?" He asked, clearly teasing his little brother. I took a moment to appretiate his good looks, still gorgeous but just a tad more put together than Jax and Travis, while they were practically carbon copies of each other. Probably because he was more put together.

"I treat her like a fucking princess." Travis answered before I could and I rose a brow at him before he leaned in to nuzzle my neck. "Isn't it true baby?"

"It is...usually." I grinned and gave Travis a wicked look that had him chuckling and tugging me closer.

"Usually huh?" Adam grinned back as if he'd gotten his way but Travis nodded.

"Yes the rest of the time I have to treat her like the insatiable woman she is." He said though it was more to me than to his brother. I felt my face flush and Adam rolled his eyes.

"Anyone seen my wife?" he asked, scratching the back of his neck. I felt Trav laugh as I smirked and nodded across the yard.

"She's talking to my sister." I pointed her out and Adam grinned as his gaze caught on hers. She must have felt it because she looked towards us and saw him grinning at her, giving him a wink that made Adam's grin turn into a smirk.

"You guys are cute." I commented, feeling warm and tingly just looking at the exchange between the married couple. And they even had kids. Two of them. I was impressed they managed to still look at each other the way they did. Travis pulled me closer as Adam's eyes rolled over the word cute and he got up to go over to his wife.

"How did they meet?" I asked, turning towards Travis. "I'm so curious as to how the Cole men fall in love." I smirked and Travis reached out to play with a strand of my hair.

"I wonder why." I leaned in to him harder and kissed his mouth softly.

"Tell me!"

"Cuddles and story telling. Just like a baby." Travis teased me and I shrugged.

"Only compared to you." Travis smirked at me before wrapping his arm around my waist and pulling me into his lap.

"You knew from the beginning I'm an old man, and you still wanted me. So you can't complain now." he teased her, holding me close. I moved to wrap my arm around his neck as I looked down at him.

"I'm not complaining, your stamina is impressive despite your age."

"It is." he agreed and leaned in, cupping my head with his hand and kissing me. Hard. I almost got lost in it until I remembered where we were.

"People are staring at us." I whispered as I pulled back. Travis kept his eyes on me, hot and intense, making me shiver.

"Let them stare." he shrugged and I sighed as I tucked the hair falling into my face behind my ear.

"You didn't tell me about Adam." I said eventually, changing the subject.

"He met Liz in high school, fell in love with her, married her then knocked her up. Twice." he said quickly, looking amused at his description. "End of the story."

"That tells me nothing about how he fell in love with her." I replied, knowing the story was probably adorable and Travis was glazing over it. Or maybe that's just how it was and they were always soul mates. No drama, no questioning it. That would be nice.

"Haven't you seen her?" He asked, his eyes moving over to where Liz was chatting animatedly with Colbie and Jax. "She's perfect." He said admiringly. That was a serious compliment coming from Travis I knew.

"She's lovely." I agreed and watched as Adam came up behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist, kissing her neck. Travis nuzzled mine and I turned to look at him.

"What are you thinking?" I ran my fingers through his hair and shrugged.

"That you're real bad at telling love stories." Travis laughed and squeezed me closer.

"I missed you." He grinned and I rolled my eyes though my insides went all fluttery.

"I'll ask Liz instead. Plus I'm wondering if all Cole men are as impressive naked." I smirked wider and Travis took his turn to roll his eyes.

"Well I am." Jax's voice said from behind me. "Too bad we all know you only have eyes for the grumpy one."

"He's not so grumpy when I'm around." I took a glance at Travis' amused face. He was so damn hot my whole body ached. I was one lucky bit.ch.

"Eww. Won't you two eye fuc.k each other on your own time?" Jax grumbled.

"This is my party, it is my time." Travis replied, though his eyes were still on me as I tried not to laugh.

"I thought we talked about you getting yourself a girlfriend." I turned to Trav's brother and he shrugged.

"We talked about you cloning yourself."

"Colbies here!" I pointed out. Jax looked over to where my sister was playing with Poppy and sighed dramatically.

"She shot me down." Travis and I both started laughing.

"Good for her." Travis shook his head. "You couldn't handle her anyways."

"Eww. I don't want to think about someone handling my sister." I said scrunching up my face as I shook my head. "But she does need it." I added as an afterthought and that's when Travis poked me.

"Since when you're all so shy and act like you aren't aware that your sister has a sexual life?" He asked.

"Since she's my sister and I don't want to hear about it!" I protested, it was one thing to talk sex with Colbie, but hearing how men wanted to sleep with her? That made it a little too personal. "Would you like to know about your brother?" I asked, trying to make a point but doing it badly, especially when they exchanged a look that told me they told each other pretty much everything. Which made sense. But that meant he knew about ME. "Oh god should I be embarrassed?" I asked as I felt myself start blushing. I was far from a prude, in fact I liked things kinky usually, and I didn't need everyone knowing that. Travis laughed again and shook his head.

"Don't worry he knows nothing." he grinned as he glanced at Jax.

"Eh, since you two got together he doesn't say anything anymore." He said with a sigh, blowing his hair out of his face and I snapped my head back to my man.

"Did you tell him about us before instead?"

"Oh come on Lil, it's not a big deal." he smirked wider, looking amused which was starting to annoy me. Kind of. "Isn't he your bff now anyway?"

"No...I mean yes, but it's still kind of awkward. Now I know that he knows things...oh god you two are terrible." Whatever. As long as he didn't know specifics.

"Don't worry, I don't know much except for you're really good." Jax laughed as he sat next to us and I kind of wished he'd go away. I loved him. But I wanted boyfriend time. I shivered at that thought. I sounded almost domestic.

"At least."

"Don't pout baby." Travis said, leaning into kiss me. How would that stop me from pouting? I loved his kisses.

"What are you guys doing later?" Jax cut into the silence, and I noticed the look on Trav's face. He was just as annoyed.

"What do you think?"

"Man you're depressing me." He shook his head, "You two are starting to act like youre joined on the hip." I reached out and hit him, since honestly we had hardly seen each other lately.

"That's not true!"

"Travis told me you're feisty..." Jax trailed off, his best shit eating grin on his handsome face as he teased me. Good heavens.

"Why don't you go bother someone else?" he spoke before he could add something else, "Like go to Colbie, I'm sure she'll be happy to turn you down again."

"I never fail twice." He smirked at us before walking away.

"What do you want to do later?" Trav asked quietly once we were alone again.

"I have to look at a few houses with my realtor." Travis rose a brow at me. I had mentioned to him I was thinking about buying a house but he probably didn't know how serious I was.

"Really?" Trav pulled me closer and nuzzled my neck, making shivers go through my whole body.

"It will only take a couple hours if you wanted to do something else." I smirked and he nodded.

"I'll be too bored after a couple of hours." He grumbled and I laughed.

"Well then maybe you should find yourself a girlfriend who's more needy." I leaned in and kissed him softly, but his hands around my waist pulled me in harder and I'd be lying if I said that I didn't enjoy how much affection he was showing me in front of his family. It made us feel back to us again. Real.

"I should find myself a girl who's less of a smartass instead." He teased, though he was grumbling so I was sure it was half true too.

"You'd get bored from that.....you can come with me if you want. Tell me what all to be grumpy about in the houses he shows."

"He?" Travis shot me a look and I nodded.

"Yeah my realtor....you don't have to. Or I could reschedule." I offered, not wanting to ruin how good it was between us right now.

"So many options." He smirked and I sighed softly.

"I just want to make you happy." I said seriously, my hard working filter gone after a few hours of him holding me. Damn him.

"I'm pretty happy right now, doesn't it show?" he asked, leaning in and looking into my eyes, giving me that feeling in my stomach as if it had flipped over.

"It does, but I'm worrying about later." I admitted as I slid my hands down to his chest, ugh every inch of him was so hard....

"You have nothing to worry about." he answered in a low tone before agling his head to kiss me. "I'll still be happy when I'll see you again later." I adjusted myself on his lap, a little off kilter from a kiss that had obviously been hard to keep chaste.

"So you're not coming with me?" I asked slowly, forcing myself to think about my words.

"Unless I have to." he shrugged. "I'd feel kind of bad if I left my boys party so early."

"I hadn't thought about that...I love how much you care about your team."

"What's the catch?" He asked as I smiled at him, looking suspiciously at me.

"No catch silly man." I laughed. "It's set."

"I can meet you at the last house you'll look and then we can go have fun." he suggested and I grinned as I wondered just what that meant. With Travis I never knew.

"I think I'll stay here with you and reschedule with my realtor instead." I said, making him raise a brow at the sudden change of plans. "I can't go since I don't have my car here anyway."

"Admit it, you planned this from the beginning and it was just a trick to stay with me all night."

"You're so clever. I can't get anything past you." I rolled my eyes as I texted my realtor to reschedule and slipped my phone back into my bag.

"Isn't that why you like me? My cleverness?" He wiggled his brows at me and I started laughing.

"Yes." I agreed, still laughing at how silly he was being.

"I knew it." he nodded, looking all proud of himself like his nephew after he'd won a game. Cute. But I wouldn't tell him that.

"Yes yes." I watched as Travis's dad pulled his mom into his arms and spun her around the hard. Damn. There was so much happiness in the air it was a little overwhelming. In a good way.

"My parents used to dance like that." I sighed as I watched what real true lasting love looked like. Travis nuzzled me softly.

"I'm sorry." he seemed conflicted on how to respond but I shook my head and smiled.

"No, it's a good memory. I like thinking of my dad like that, looking at my mom like she made the world go round the same way they are." I turned to Travis, wondering how it looked from the outside when I looked at him. If my feelings were just as transparent. I could see the caring in his eyes, saw the emotion he felt for me. It was love, a different kind of love maybe than what I felt, but it was warm and comforting nonetheless. I felt safe and warm and cuddly which wasn't something I felt usually. It was nice mixed with the hum of arousal that was always just under the surface when I was with Travis.

"Do you have many memories like that?" he asked, treating me with kid gloves I knew but I could tell he really wanted to know. I nodded, my eyes feeling itchy because I didn't talk about my dad that much. It took me a while to say anything about him at all.

"My parents were really in love, the kind of love you read in books or see in movies..." I trailed off and took a deep breath before continuing. "They looked at each other just like your parents and I remember that when I was little I wondered how it was possible for to people to stay together forever, and at the same time I wanted that too." It was as strange feeling, explaining things I didn't admit to myself to Travis. I realized how much I trusted him. With my secrets and my hopes and my fears.

"And when you grew up?" he asked quietly, not like he was judging me but more like he just wanted to know me more.

"When my father died everything changed you know." I shrugged. I changed....my family changed. Some for the good. Tragedy always brought people together and that had certainly been the case with my family. We'd always been close, but it made us closer. "Even now sometimes I catch my mom with a look in the eyes that shows how much she still misses my dad, it's so sad." Travis held me closer and I leaned on him, enjoying his warmth.

"Does that scare you?" he asked, still talking softly as if not to frighten me. "I mean to get hurt so deep. Again."

"Wouldn't it scare anyone?" I asked with a sigh and he didn't say anything. I could tell he was waiting for me to open up again. Okay. I could do that. "My dad and I were close. It was awful to lose him. I felt like I was drowning in sadness. But it was a different kind of hurt than my mom felt. That was the father of her children, the love of her life. I didn't understand that kind of love back then, hell I don't know it now. That would be a loss I don't know if I could bounce back from." I admitted, feeling almost empty from the admission. I thought I would never love someone that much. Falling for Travis had come out of nowhere. Hell he wasn't even my type. I knew we weren't anywhere near what our parents were but I already knew losing him would break me.

"Lil." He nuzzled my neck. "I'm not going anywhere." he said reading my mind and I turned, trying not to get too emotional as my chest felt like it swelled double the size it was.

"I love you." I whispered softly and he smiled.

"I know baby." He cupped my cheek and I leaned into it, not caring if I was seeming clingy or annoying him. Just enjoying the good intstead of waiting for the bad.

"How did you deal with it?" I asked softly. "You were in love. How do you move on?" Trav pulled back and stared at me for a second and I knew he was debating how much to tell me. I couldn't blame him because I did the same, kept walls built up so that no one could get too close. But I felt like a little of those walls broke down today and I could deserve to get through a little of his too. Relationships went two ways after all.

"This is heavy talk for a party." He said finally and I laughed.

"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to." I admitted, leaning in and kissing his cheek.

"I can tell you instead. It was very different for me Lil, it just happened..." he trailed off as if he didn't really knew how to explain it. I studied his face, knowing I was about to spew word vomit but not caring.

"You mean you two just broke up? Out of nowhere?" Travis smirked and I relaxed a little before he shifted agaisnt me and started talking again.

"No, it was a slow painful process." he answered and his expression turned more serious again, "It began with little meaningless things, then we started fighting, grew apart and eventually fell out of love." I listened, thinking about how I knew that could happen. With Colbie she hadn't seen it coming, her husband had left out of nowhere but somehow slowly losing everything you'd worked for with a person sounded harder. But then they both sucked.

"It sounds really sad." I voiced my thoughts. "Didn't it hurt you?" He nodded, seeming lost in a million thoughts that I wished he would just say but understood why he couldn't.

"It did a little, but I'm a big man and I heal fast." I looked back at him and tried not to smack his chest as I rolled my eyes.

"You forgot to say old too." I added and Travis leaned in, pressing his face into my neck as he spoke.

"I'd never hurt you Lil." He muttered, sounding both desperate and guilty at the same time. I knew he would never hurt me. At least not on purpose.

"I know you wouldn't." I smiled at him and he held me tighter. Did he love me too? Did he know it and just not tell me? I wasn't sure, but as much as I knew he didn't want to hurt me? Every time I didn't hear it back I felt a stab of pain.

"Did you tink you were going to marry her?" I asked, suddenly so curious about the woman. I wondered how she looked, what she did for a living, if she was really over him.

"I don't know." Trav made a face as he thought about it. "I think I thougt it might happen eventually." I nodded, knowing he was in a place in his life where it was time to start thinking about that and I was still very young. But did that matter when you found the right person?

"Don't worry I'm not going to ask you to marry me." I smirked. "I'd need to ask Jax what kind of ring you'd like first." Travis blinked at me and then bust out laughing, shaking his head as he squeezed me closer.

"You kill me Lil." I grinned and leaned in, deciding it was enough deep talk for today.

"Do I need to change before we go out tonight?" I asked, looking down at my top and shorts. He shrugged.

"Not if you don't want to." He sent me a look that told me I'd be ending up naked either way and really I only wanted to impress him so who cared if I was a little more dressed down wherever we went. I took a final sip of my beer before I leaned in to whisper in his ear even though there was no one around.

"I want to get drunk and then let you do everything you want to me." I whispered, feeling the heat between us intensify instantly.

"Everything I want huh?" He asked, not bothering to be quiet like me as he sent me a smoldering look that could set me on fire. I nodded.

"I'm a handsy drunk. I might be difficult to keep in public."

"I think I can handle it." He replied, smiling as he pulled me closer and I leaned my head against him in what had already been a perfect day. And it was just going to get better.