almost believing this was not pretend let's go on dreaming...

almost believing this was not pretend let's go on dreaming... by ssaarah 

I hovered in the doorway of Jac’s office, listening to her talk to some woman complaining about….something…. mostly I was just watching her speak, focused on her lips…..I was seriously conflicted. I’d met with Kiley’s boss after she offered me the job and…..damn if it wasn’t a dream job. But leaving Texas? Leaving my family and friends, the only place I’d ever known? That would be hard enough without…..without knowing I was about two seconds from falling for Jac. It was ridiculous I know to think about a girl I’d just started dating when thinking about changing my entire life but….she was something else. What was I going to do? That’s when Jac noticed I was there and covered the receiver with one hand to whisper,

"I'll be done in a minute."

"Take your time," He replied and walked up to her, massaging her shoulders slowly and feeling how her body melted against mine. I loved that….I loved how she reacted every single time I touched her.  

 "Yes," she turned back to the phone. "Mrs. Davis, that glitch was a one time thing. I can guarantee that Allure Events is the premiere event planning company for the South. Let me direct you to the manager of human resources and we'll see what we can do for you." She listened for a second before transferring the call and hanging up the phone.  

"Bad day? I can come back," I said softly thought it still seemed to make her jump. She seemed really out of it.

"No. Don't stop touching me please," she replied, setting her hand on my wrist and shot me a killer pout that made my di.ck twitch. I smiled softly and moved my hands back to her shoulders, massaging them slowly and pulling her body back against mine.

“What are you doing now?” I asked.

“I could use a drink.” She admitted, turning her head to look up at me and grin. I couldn’t help it, I leaned down and kissed her, softly. Bad idea…..I grabbed her waist and pulled her into me, cupping her cheek and kissing her harder, slipping my tongue into her mouth and listening to her moan softly.

“Mr. Mcgarritty….I’m trying to work here.” She said pulling away and smirking. God she was so beautiful. My chest tightened at the news I had to tell her, but a part of me? A part of me just wanted to act like nothing was different, that we could go on and have the possibility of being a couple. I wasn’t sure I was leaving after all, and treating things with Jac as normal would show me if she was worth staying for. God that sounded stupid. And awful.

“Sorry.” I pushed through my thoughts and kissed her again.

“I don’t think you’re really sorry.” She breathed against my lips, walking backwards until she was up against the desk.

“I'm not.” I admitted wrapping my arms around her and setting my forehead against hers. “Do you want to get that drink?” I asked, worried that if I stayed here kissing her any longer then I wouldn’t be able to control myself…and as much as I wanted to act like things were normal? I couldn’t sleep with Jac without her knowing I might be leaving……right?

"In a minute..." she trailed off and ran her hands down my chest, resting them on my stomach and making my entire body react. I couldn’t explain the way I felt about her. It wasn’t just attraction….although that was definitely part of it….but there was more than that.

"If we stay here? I'm not going to be able to keep my hands off of you..." I admitted. Jac pushed herself onto her desk and sat down, yanking on the bottom of my shirt to guide my body closer to hers. Oh my god. My fantasies were on hyper drive. I had actually had more than one dream with Jac in this actual position and it was hard to stop my mind from wandering.  

"You say it like it's a bad thing..." Jac trailed off slowly, looking like she was thinking hard about what was happening. I wanted her. So bad….

"Not bad..." my hands dropped onto her thighs and moved up a little. "But what I want to do to you?"

"Mhm?" she mumbled after I stopped and I lowered my head to brush my lips up against her ear, "Not here Jac."

"Then stay with me tonight," she whispered back, biting her lip and looking almost nervous despite the seriousness I saw in her eyes.

“Stay with you….” I trailed off, my mind telling me it was a bad idea, but hell did every other part of me want to say yes.

“Yes.” She smirked, her hands slipping under my tee and running across my stomach slowly. Fu.cking hell if she wasn’t making it difficult.

“I don’t have a nosy brother at my place.” I laughed and leaned into her touch trying to figure out exactly what to say.

“Let’s get that drink first.” I said running my hands up her arms and cupping her face to kiss her lips swiftly. I knew she’d think I was acting strange, I had been telling her for weeks how much I wanted to spend a night with her and now I was avoiding the issue.

“Um.” She said looking a little rejected and honestly? I couldn’t blame her. “Okay.” She ran her fingers through her hair and slipped back into her heels, another pair of sky high ridiculousness that just made me harder for her.

“Hey.” I stopped her, pulling her into me and wrapping my arms around her waist. “I want to go home with you tonight.” I said seriously. Jac bit her lip but I could see she was still feeling hesitant.

“But?”

“But only if we don’t get too drunk.” I teased and she laughed.

“I'm sure I can hold my liquor much better than you McGarritty.” She said, pulling away from me and walking towards the door but I was too busy watching her as.s as she moved…..ugh.

“I wouldn’t bet any money on that Duchannes.” I said following her into the elevator and immediately pulling her in to a steamy kiss that I couldn’t stop. If I was going to leave? I wanted to remember her. I wanted to remember the way she felt, the way she smelled, the way she tasted so sweet and moaned like a goddess whenever I kissed her.

“Dean….” She breathed out, killing me even more as I kissed down her neck, biting down just slightly before the elevator pinged again and I pulled away.

“Just a preview.” I smirked and I watched her face flush. Jac pressed her body into mine as she smiled slowly.

"I'm bringing you home tonight... You have no say in the matter now."

"No?" I grinned back and the doors opened. Jac straightened her body back up and shook her head, slipping her hand into mine. It was a more…couplely gesture than our usual lust filled touches….but I still liked it

"Nope." I gave her hand a little squeeze and we walked out of the elevator side by side.

"Where are we going?" I asked as Jac gave the ancient building security guard a wave. She was so cute.

"I think I have a few bottles back at my place," she said with a wicked smile. Ugh.

"If we go back to your apartment? We won't get a chance to drink," I said in a serious tone.

"No? What would happen instead?" Jac raised an eyebrow and tilted her head up to look at me. I kissed the top of her head and smiled before averting away and trying to think through this. She was too damn irresistible.  

"For starters? I'd devour you... every inch of your body," I said in a low voice and I watched her shiver.

"It sounds similar to the dream I had last night..." she trailed off and bit down on her lip.

“Trust me, the reality would be better.” I said seriously, my di.ck getting uncomfortably hard just thinking about it. Then again, around Jac? What else was new….

“So then what’s the problem?” she asked in a soft voice as she pressed her body into mine gently, her eyes wide and blinking though I knew her thoughts were as dirty as mine.

“No problem….” I trailed off, trying to think of what to do. I didn’t want Jac to think I wasn’t interested, I was more than interested, I was bordering on obsessed, but I also didn’t want to lead her on if we had no future together. Then again….I didn’t really want to tell her that I might be leaving and end our future now. Selfish? Yeah. I was a bastard.

“So my place then?” she smirked and I swallowed thickly before nodding.

“Sure.” She furrowed her brow at me and ran her hands slowly up my chest.

“You seem….nervous.” she pointed out, proving I was acting just as weird as I thought I was.

“Maybe I am.” I teased, trying to push back the feelings and just be with her. Either way I wanted to be with her. I wanted to make her laugh, make her smile….make her come so hard she’d never think of another man….okay that last one wasn’t fair. But it was true.

“Can we take your bike?” she asked, biting down on her lip in excitement. Fu.cking adorable. She might be my perfect woman…..and I might be walking away from her. But that was just the thing wasn’t it. Might. Nothing was certain.

“Anything you want baby.” I said, wanting to make her happy for as long as I possibly could.

"I love when you call me that," she replied quietly and smiled back at me as we headed over to my bike, and I tried not to check her out the whole time but I couldn’t handle it. She was too hot. Even on that terrible first date I wasn’t able to stop looking at her.

"Can you ride in that?" I asked, staring at her long legs and the skirt that showed them off.

"I'll just press my body up against yours so nothing shows," she replied, smirking and pulling the helmet over her head as I did the same. She held my body behind me and as I started moving her hands wandered. She was killing me. It was taking everything I had to not pull over and fu.ck her against the nearest tree…..by the time we got to her place her hand was basically over my di.ck which was now hard as a rock.

"You make it damn hard to focus Jacquelyn," I grinned at her as she I pushed her helmet off and ran her fingers through her long hair.

"Literally or -" She smirked and I leaned over, cutting her off with my lips, cupping her chin with my free hand and then sliding my palm down her neck.

"Literally..." I trailed off with lips still against hers, so soft and tempting.

 "I want your lips all over me," she breathed out pulled back slowly, her grin getting wider she slipped off the bike and stared at me.

“Right here? That’d give quite a show for the neighbors.” She shrugged.

“I don’t really care.” She said honestly as I swung my leg over the bike to walk over to her.

“I didn’t know you were an exhibitionist Jac.” I teased, doing what she wanted and pressing my lips against her sweet neck. God all of her was sweet…..

“I just forget everything else when you kiss me.” She breathed out softly arching her back so her breasts crushed against my chest.

“As sexy as that is I still don’t want the pervy guy looking out the window right now to see any more of you.” She pulled back and looked up at the open window and rolled her eyes.

“He’s asked me out a few times.” I made a face and she grinned. “You know you make that face whenever any guy looks at me right?” I felt a twinge of annoyance at her words, not at her just ….well just that she was right. I was always on the defensive when it came to her and other guys, when it usually never bothered me.

“I must like you.” I said, easing up and following her inside, watching her as she walked.

“God your as.s is fantastic.” I said under my breath and she turned as she grinned at me.

“People tell me that all the time.” She replied, her eyes sparkling like they always did when she was in a good mood. Which was a change from when I found her in her office…I loved that I could make her happy.

“Girls too?” I questioned and she shrugged.

“All the time.” I sucked my lips in and tried not to grin as my thoughts went more than dirty and Jac smirked at me. “You’re about to ask me if I’ve ever been with a girl aren’t you?” I shook my head.

“I was just picturing it…..but have you?” she reached her door and grabbed her keys before letting me in.

 “What if I said yes?” I reached for her waist and pulled her towards me.

“I’d wonder if it was a one on one thing or a threesome situation.” Her face flushed as she ran her hands up my chest.

“Have you ever-“

“Been with a woman?” I interrupted her. “A few times.” I teased her and she laughed but shook her head.

“No had a threesome.” I shrugged.

 “Once. Have you?”

“Was it two girls or two guys?” she grinned and I made a face.

“Girls!” I exclaimed as she walked into her kitchen and pulled out a pitcher of what looked like margaritas.

"I was joking," she bit down on her lip and opened the cupboard to grab two glasses.

"What about you?" I stepped behind her as she poured slowly, moving my hands to her hips.

"Never. I'm bad at sharing," she set both glasses around and turned in my arms, wrapping hers around my neck and tilting her head up to kiss me again.

"Good," I dropped my hands to her as.s and lifted her up, her legs automatically wrapping around my waist as I kept kissing her. I pulled back for a second, trying to undo her shirt which wasn’t easy when I was so focused on holding her up and kissing her. She smirked and reached down to pull her top over her head for me. Then she pressed her lips back against mine.

"Good?" she broke the kiss and trailed more down my neck, nipping and sucking, and not playing fair at all….she felt so good.

"I'd never be able to share you," I groaned as Jac bit down hard, making me groan.

“Where's your room?" she pointed behind us, pulling her head back to grin,

"Finally..."

“I guess I did forget about those drinks.” I smirked walking into her bedroom and tossing her back on it before hovering over.

“They were just a ruse to get you into my bed anyways.” She teased, reaching for the hem of my shirt and pulling it over my head. I had a flash of conscience for a second, the smart part of my brain telling me that I had to stop this and tell her the truth before we got too far….but then her mouth was on my chest and I forgot everything again.

“Fuc.k Jac…” I groaned as she ran her tongue along my stomach, her hand running over my erec.tion as my hands moved up her legs.

“Yes.” She nodded as she pulled on my jeans pushing them down and slipping her hand into my briefs. I moaned something unintelligible because she seemed to know exactly how to touch me that literally made me forget everything but her. I swear I felt mindless, my body only focusing on how it felt and how badly I wanted to make her feel just as good.

“I want to be inside of you so bad…..” I heard myself trail off as I kissed her jaw, her neck, the swells of her chest. God I wanted her naked, totally naked and open to me before I finally slid deep inside of her.

“You should feel how bad I want it too…” she whispered, her hand still stroking me as she let her other hand guide mine in between her legs. I didn’t waste any time teasing her, I just slipped my fingers inside her panties and touched her, reveling in her loud moan, fighting my brain and telling it as long as I was pleasing her I wasn’t an as.shole….as long as it was all about her…..but it wasn’t …as it was just her hand was enough to make me come and we’d barely started.

“I want to taste you.” I whispered, desperate to make it about her, to satisfy her enough that I wouldn’t have to feel bad about not being honest.

"I want you inside of me..." she trailed off, biting her lip as I kept rubbing her clit, hard then slow, tracing careful circles the way I knew she liked from our time in the bathroom a week ago. I slowly slipped one finger inside of her and her back arched upwards, moaning again.  

"Like that?" I asked in a low growl, working another finger in and pumping them slow. I didn't wait for her answer, lowering her head and kissing up her thighs. I pulled his fingers out of her gently and pulled her panties down her long legs, running my hands back up her thighs and taking her skirt off too.

"Take your pants off," Jac whispered, watching me as I took in her body. It was perfect….but she still wasn’t naked.  I just shook my head and grabbed behind her knees, pulling her body closer to mine and then pushing her legs apart.

"Take your bra off," I ordered. My gaze was at her breasts and she arched her back, reaching behind her and unclasping her bra, tossing it aside before covering her breasts with her hands, cupping and kneading them as I watched her….it was hypnotizing..

 "Touch me..." She didn’t need to ask me again. I was all over her the second she finished saying it my body hovering back over hers as I kissed her. My hands ran up her smooth thighs to grab her ass and squeeze while my lips trailed down her neck and then to her chest as I took one of her breasts in my mouth. She was flawless. I couldn’t remember ever, ever being this….crazy over a woman. I wanted to stay like this forever. I wanted to lock this room and make love to her until we physically couldn’t anymore.

“Dean….oh my god!” Jac let out a moan that I felt in my entire body as I nibbled on her chest, pacing myself since my lust clogged brain was begging to just take her hard and fast. But I couldn’t….I couldn’t….I-

“Damn it!!!!” I had to force myself to pull away from her and roll to my side. Looking at the ceiling and cursing my goddamn conscience for being so strong.

“What’s wrong?” Jac rolled her body to mine and set her hand on my stomach, sliding it up my chest slowly. “You don’t need to worry about protection anymore if that’s what you’re worried about….” She trailed off and I thought I might die right there. She was killing me. I looked over at the mischievous grin that was on her face and shook my head.

“Fu.ck…” I ran my hands over my face and stood up, zipping my jeans over my erection uncomfortably and trying to figure out how to word this.

“Dean….” Jac’s voice wasn’t low and breathy anymore, it was more….worried. I didn’t blame her. God I couldn’t even look at her because she was so beautiful it messed with my head.

“I'm….I have to tell you something before we do this.” She looked back up at me with her eyes widening and she pulled her sheet over her body as if she was protecting herself.

“Okay…..” she said softly, cautiously.

“You know how I told you my ex was in town and I was having dinner with her?” Jac just nodded, but the look in her eyes changed, she looked…..she looked devastated and I hadn’t even said anything yet.

“You slept with her….” Jac trailed off and I gave her a shocked look.

“No!! God….of course I didn’t.” She blinked back and I shook my head and reached for her, sitting back on the bed and pulling her into me. “I told her about you baby….I know we’re not…like together for real but I want us to be.” Jac relaxed in my arms and I felt even worse.

“Okay….so then what’s wrong?”

“She offered me a job. A really great job.” Jac pulled back.

“So you’d leave Allure?” I swallowed thickly.

“I’d um…..I’d be leaving the country actually. It’s in Vancouver.”

"Vancouver?" she repeated. I just nodded and she looked away, not saying anything at all for far too long.

"Say something Jac," I begged, tightening my arms around her.  

"How long have you known?"

 "I never said yes," I replied and she shook her head and looked at me.

"But when did she ask you?"

"A week... A little less than a week."

"Why didn't you tell me sooner?" Jac asked, sounding…hurt and vulnerable. I hated it.

"Because I never said yes..." I repeated…holding her tighter almost as if I was afraid she was the one leaving. "I didn't want to upset you."

"So you waited for the moment I got naked to tell me?" she asked with a little more edge to her voice. "We were about to have sex Dean... at least I thought we were!"

“I know.”

“So then what the hell?!” she was looking around the room and I noticed her bathrobe hanging on the bed. This would probably be an easier conversation if we were both wearing more clothes. I tossed it to her, grabbing my tee from the floor and pulling it over my head.

“I was selfish. I was afraid if I told you that we’d be over and I wasn’t ready for that yet….”

“That was selfish.” She said, pulling the robe tight across her body and making me feel like the biggest jac.kass alive. “What about your family? Your friends? You love your job here!”

“Trust me….it’s not an easy decision for me…but the job. Honestly if it wasn’t for you it’d be a no-brainer.” Jac blinked.

“If it wasn’t for me?” Damn it why was this happening now?! Why couldn’t if have happened months ago before us, or even in a few months when I’d feel like I could ask her to come with me if we were still together!

“I think I could really fall for you. I’m crazy about you….”

“But…” Jac finished for me and I sat down next to her again.

“But it’s crazy to turn something like this down simply because a relationship MAY work out. Most relationships don’t!”

“So…..you thought you’d get me naked first and then tell me you’re leaving the country?”

“Trust me…..No….I….you make it hard for me to think when you’re around Jac. I didn’t want to hurt you….would it have been better if we’d slept together first?” I asked seriously and she shook her head slowly. The crazy thing is….ugh I still wanted her….even now when I’d messed up royally my body was on fire for her. It always was.

“So then…..what does this mean?”

“I…..I don’t know. What does it mean for you?”  Jac parted her lips and ran her tongue over them slowly as she seemed to think about it.

"I think it means that you either go and we'll never know what this could have been," she motioned between us and then set her hand on her knee, her legs crossed Indian style on the bed. "Or you go and we don't work out for whatever reason -"

"Or we do work out and -"

"And you always wonder what kind of opportunities that job could have brought you?" she shook her head. "It's a great job, you said it yourself. Turn it down for me and you'd always hold that over me."

"I wouldn't do that to you and you know it," I said while she picked at the polish on her nails.

"I don't know Dean... I think I'd blame myself either way,"

“So…..” I trailed off, feeling like I’d gotten punched in the gut. Jac ran her hands through her long hair, pulling it to one side and fu.ck if I didn’t want to run my own hands through it.

“So?” she asked.

“I haven’t even accepted it yet…”

“But you will.” Jac stated and that’s when I knew….

“Yeah….I think so.” She shrugged.

“Then there’s not really much else to say.” I felt like I was going through a break up or something. But it felt worse than any other break up I’d ever been in.

“We have god awful timing….” I said, looking off at the wall because I felt like my chest hurt when I looked right at her.

“Yeah…” she was picking at her nails and I reached out and cupped her hands with mine.

“You’re going to break one of your nails if you keep doing that.” I teased, but really…god I just wanted an excuse to touch her again.

“Dean….” She pulled back, wrapping her arms around her legs.

“I know.” I stood up. “Do you want me to leave?”

"Yes," she said quietly. My stomach sunk. I knew this was coming and yet it was still harder when it happened. I turned to walk towards the door but she stopped me.

"No. Stay... Please." I turned around and watched as she adjusted her body back against the bed,

"Are you sure?" she nodded.

"Come here," Jac lifted the blankets up and I walked back over to her, climbing into the bed and wrapping my arm around her tiny waist.

"I'm sorry," I said as I tightened my grasp on her.

"I'm happy for you," I could hear the lie in her voice and she pulled her head back and forced a smile while I cupped her cheek with my hand, moving it down to her neck. I felt her shiver again and I couldn’t help it. I kissed her.  A soft chaste kiss….but still I kissed her.

"What was that for?" she breathed, my lips still inches from mine.

"I couldn't resist."

"Dean..." she trailed off, killing me and I moved my lips to her neck, not kissing her but hiding my face against her body.

"I should go Jac..."

"Stay with me tonight... I'm not ready to miss you," she whispered.

“All night?” she just nodded, and then adjusted her body against mine, her head nuzzled into my chest. Damn she felt good in my arms. Too good. Good enough that I’d be willing to give everything up for her right now if I could….

“Then…then we’ll just be friends.” I looked down at her and squeezed her tighter against my body.

“Friends…..okay.” I’d take anything she was willing to give me, I didn’t want to lose her even in the short months I might be here. She just….she made my day better. And even if I couldn’t have her, I could still see her. Right?

“That won’t be easy.” She said softly, her hand fisting at my shirt as she nuzzled against me.

“No….not easy.” It would be hard as fu.ck. Hell it was hard enough for me to not start grabbing her as.s right now!

“Better than falling for you and then losing you.” She said it under her breath but that was when I knew I couldn’t start anything now as much as I wanted to. I’d already hurt her enough. I didn’t need to hurt her anymore.

“I'm sorry.” I whispered, letting out a deep sigh. “You’re not the only one who was falling.”

“Let’s not worry about sorry until tomorrow morning.” She said softly, wrapping an arm around my waist as I let my legs tangle with hers.

“Until tomorrow then….” I said softly, letting my eyes shut and take in how fu.cking perfect her body felt in my arms. She pulled her head back and parted her lips.

"What are you thinking about?"

"Honestly? About how beautiful you are."  Jac smiled slowly and moved her hips against mine. How she kept doing that without dying was beyond me…..

"You're a good man Dean..."

"But?" I raised an eyebrow as her words trailed off. Jac shrugged,

"No buts." I grinned back and kissed her forehead, silence falling between us again.

"What are you thinking about?" I asked as my fingers traced down her neck.

"I can't say,"

"You can tell me..."

"I'm thinking about how bad I still want you," she admitted and slipped her hand under my shirt to rest on my abs.

I groaned and shook my head. “You can’t say that to me……” I choked out and she just looked over me, her eyes admittedly still flush with desire.

“But it’s true.” She whispered, pressing her hips harder against mine. “Don’t you still want me?” her voice was breathy and I realized I had held my breath when she pushed against me. Damn it….

“Do you think it’ll be easier if-“ I started but she put her finger over my lips.

“One night Dean…what could it hurt?” I looked at her, knowing I’d say yes, knowing I had no power to resist but also knowing it had every possibility of hurting both of us….but if she’d let me I’d sure as hell not turn down the chance to be with her before I left.

“One night then……one night to pretend that you’re mine.” I heard the words come out way rougher than I’d intended but she just pulled at my body until I was hovering over her.

“Prove it…..prove I'm yours.” She whispered softly, making me so damn hard I nearly lost it right there. She reached for my shirt again, pulling it over my head and tossing it aside before helping me shed the rest of my clothes.

“Baby….” I kissed the indent in her neck as her hands ran over my body just the way mine had hers….like she couldn’t get enough, like she was memorizing every inch of me. I’d never had a woman touch me with the fervor that Jac had now….and it felt damn good.

“Don’t tease me Dean….just make me yours for tonight.” She kissed up my neck as I groaned loudly against her, ripping off her robe before attacking her body with my mouth as she shook beneath me. God the reactions she made with me were so sexy…..

“I won’t be able to hold back much longer Jacquelyn…you are the biggest damn temptation I’ve ever had in my life.”

"Yeah?" Jac said with her tone still breathy, as I flicked my tongue back and forth across her nipple, flicking my eyes up to watch her before biting down gently and making her moan. Loud. Ugh. I propped myself up on my elbow and took her breast back into my mouth, grabbing my dick with my fist and stroking it as I kissed and teased her breats one at a time, trying to relieve just a little of the pressure without finishing this too fast.  

"Your body..."

"What about it?" Jac pushed her legs apart and tried lifting her hips to touch me.

"It's perfect," I replied and rubbed the head of my dic.k back and forth across her pu.ssy, the wetness glistening on it. I wanted to tease her…make her beg for it but god I was about to beg for it myself…..

"Oh my god..." She breathed out, and I lowered my head to kiss her neck, still rubbing her and teasing her with my di.ck….

"I want you to ride me... I want your perfect body bouncing up and down on top of me," I groaned and bit into her neck, working the tip of my di.ck just barely inside of her and then pulling out. Jac didn’t say anything….she just moved her hips for more of me but before she could get it I switched our positions so her body was straddling me. Best. Damn. View. Ever.  She set her hands on my chest and pressed her full breasts together, leaning closer to me until our lips were touching. Parting her lips, she slipped her tongue into my mouth and adjusted her body as she moved a hand to my erection, slowly guiding me inside of her as she moaned against my mouth. I froze as she took me in, slowly. So fu.cking slowly. One inch, then another…..and another…I was swallowing her moans but she was capturing mine because damn it all to hell she was easily the tightest woman I’d ever been inside and I still wasn’t all the way in her yet. Then her lips pulled away from me, her hands splayed on my chest and her breasts pushed together between them as she held her breath and took me the rest of the way, gasping as I immediately grabbed her hips and held her there so she couldn’t move.

“Gotta give me a minute baby….” I said through my teeth and she bit down on her lip and cocked her head to the side, letting her hair fall to her shoulder. It was the fu.cking hottest thing I’d ever seen in my life, her naked body on top of mine and her face looking at me in that way while I was this deep inside of her.

“But I want more….” Fu.cking hell……I groaned and pulled myself up so our chests were together and I moved one hand to cup her face and kiss her softly.

“I want to give you more Jacquelyn, I will give you more but if you want me to last you gotta start slow.” She just nodded slowly. I was usually pretty happy with my endurance, Stamina was surely not something a woman had complained about before. But with Jac? Maybe it was because we’d both worked ourselves up over and over for this, or maybe I’d just never had anything so damn tight surrounding me before but I was ready to lose it.

“I’ll start slow Dean…..god you feel even bigger than you look.” Her eyes closed and her head fell back in pleasure as she pushed me back down and slowly started to rock her hips. I thought just being inside of her was the best feeling but this……oh my god.

“I keep getting bigger every second….” I admitted, watching my fantasy come alive as her hips started speeding up, despite her promise to go slow her body was soon bouncing on top of mine and the sight was hot. Too hot. It would be ingrained in my brain for life and I knew it. “Damn it Jacquleyn.” I cursed again and let my hand go to her hips, helping her move even more as she started shaking above me. But she was nuts if she thought we were about to be done. Nuts. “You make me crazier every second too….” How could I leave?! How could I even fathom leaving someone who made me feel like this. Everything about being inside of her felt good. No. It felt right. Like we belonged. Like nothing could ever be better and yet it did every time another second past.

"Mmm..." she moaned, letting her eyes flutter open to look at me. I couldn’t decide where I wanted to look, I was torn between the look in her eyes and watching as I pumped inside of her. Just then she clenched her muscles around me and I groaned, dropping my hands to her ass to move them with her.

"Fu.ck," I gritted out, and Jac slowed down, giving me the slow start I’d asked for but maybe a little too late. She lifted her hips, almost losing all of me and then went down torturously slow. It was epic. Easily the best sex of my life and we weren’t even done yet. She repeated the moves again and again, running her tongue up my neck and biting just under my chin.

"You drive me so crazy too," she whispered, tangling a hand in my hair and grasping it to pull my head back more. My fingers sunk into her skin as I lifted my hips up to meet hers with every thrust….that feeling plus Jac’s lips moving along my jawline until our eyes were back on each others…it was perfect. She smiled at me and lowered her head to press a soft kiss against my lips, pulling back just enough to bite on the bottom one as she tightened around me again. "God, you feel so good..."

"Do I?" My hands moved to her hips in a bruising grip, flipping our positions again, this time without leaving her body. I pulled back and then slammed into her hard, all self control totally out the window as Jac screamed.

"Fuc.k!!!" I grasped her leg and propped it on my hip as I fuc.ked her, fast and hard….taking her the way I’d dreamed about but god it was so so so much better…..

 "Baby..."

“I'm sorry I can’t hold back anymore….” I choked out but she shook her head.

“Don’t be sorry….harder…please!!” I just stared at her for a second in total awe before smiling slowly and grabbing her hip driving into her again and again and again until the room was a blur and all I could see was her staring into my eyes.

“You have no idea how fu.cking hot you look…..” I said as I held off my release with everything I had. “You’re close….” She nodded and looked like she was struggling to find words which honestly was even hotter…..

“Yes…” she breathed out, nodding as her hands moved to her breasts and she bit down on her lip. “Are you?” I smirked and shook my head.

“Baby I’ve been close since we started….let go….let me feel you.” She groaned and shut her eyes tight before letting them fly right back open as her head threw back and she called out her climax…..damn her puss.y was tight as hell already but when she came? It was indescribable.

“Dean!!! Oh my god!!!!” I groaned as I reveled in her pleasure soaked eyes before finally letting myself let go, coming hard inside of her knowing she was moaning but it was drowned out by my roar. I called out her name and fu.cked her hard, milking every last millisecond I could before slumping against her body, still deep inside of her. Her arms wrapped around me as I kissed the curve of her neck.

“Jacquelyn….” I whispered against her skin.

“Mmmm?” Damn her and that sound. That sound killed me and brought me back over and over.

“One night is not near enough……” We laid there for a while, listening to our unsteady breathes as I tried to hone in on what I was feeling. Because I was feeling everything….it was a little overwhelming….

"I know," Jac said finally, tangling her fingers in my hair and moaning again as I pulled out of her, reaching for her waist and setting her against me. She shifted slightly, propping herself up on her elbow as she looked at me. And I mean really looked at me. Her eyes moved across my whole body, her eyes telling a story that I wish I knew the ending to.  

"You're so beautiful..." I trailed off and reached for her head, tucking her hair behind her ear and then pulling it down to meet mine.

"You're driving me crazy," Jac whispered against my lips and kissed me hard, turning me on all over again…not that I’d ever been turned off. She was flawless….and I was in trouble. She pulled her head back a few inches and nipped at my lip, grinning slowly as her hand slid down my chest and my breath hitched as she reached my erection. She ran her fingers against it with feather soft touches before gripping tight and stroking me. Fu.cking hell…..to

"What am I going to do with you?" I groaned as she sped up and started kissing my jawline.

"You tell me..."

“Jac….”

“Does one night mean only one time?” she asked, cocking her head to the side and giving me those wide innocent eyes that killed me.

“Fu.ck no.” I said seriously, grabbing her face and kissing her hard. “But that won’t be enough either.” She swallowed and stopped stroking me, grinning when I actually heard what sounded like a whimper coming from my throat. She felt that good.

“What would be enough Dean?” she asked softly, splaying her hand against my chest. I just stared at her for a second, looking into the beautiful eyes of a girl I should have made mine years ago.

“Come with me.” I whispered softly, the words leaving my mouth before I had a chance to process them. Jac just looked at me and then shook her head.

“Don’t be crazy.” She whispered and I tilted her head back up to meet mine.

“I'm serious. You can cook anywhere, hell we can probably find you a better job!”

“And when we break up then what? I'm stuck in Vancouver with nothing.”

“But what if we don’t?” Jac shook her head.

“There’s no way that you can say we wont now Dean. It’s crazy to even think about.” I rolled over to capture her body under mine, feeling her warmth radiating against me, her silky skin pressing against my body and making me rock hard all over again.

“And you can’t say that you’ve ever felt like this…..you can’t tell me I'm the only one who’s blown away by what we are together….”

“This is post-sex talk Dean. You’ll feel differently tomorrow….even if you don’t. I can’t leave the country. It’s crazy.”

“So….then where does that leave us?” I asked, my heart heavy. She shrugged.

“Right now? In my bed.” She lifted her hips against me and I groaned.

“It can’t be just one night baby, it can’t.” She bit down on her lip and I caught her checking me out again, not that she was being subtle….not that I was either. I couldn’t get enough of her.

"It doesn't have to be just one night..." she trailed off, running her hands all over my chest like she couldn’t get enough of me either.

"So you'll come?" My heartbeat quickened but Jac just smirked at my choice of words.  

"I will if you make me..." I let out a small laugh, loving how she was still the same Jac but knowing she was avoiding the question at the same time. I was going to lose her. I was going to gain a hell of a lot, but I wasn’t going to have her…..and that kind of killed me. But as long as I could have her? I was going to make the best of it.

"Are you ready for me again?" I asked, not wanting to ruin the night and trailing my hand between her legs, rubbing her and feeling how wet she was for me.  

"Mhmm..." she smirked and pressed against my back to lean closer to me. "When are you leaving?"

“If I take the job? A month.” She blinked.

“So….then we have a month.” She moaned as I teased her and I swallowed.

“I can’t just fu.ck you for a month knowing I'm leaving. That makes me an as.shole Jac….” She shook her head.

“Not if it was my idea.” She smirked and lifted her hips, silently asking for more. “But you’re going to have to spoil me…..” she trailed off biting down on her lips as I groaned.

“I’ll do more than spoil you….” Her hands were moving up her stomach to cup her breasts and it was driving me nuts.

“I’m waiting….” I thought about telling her it was a bad idea, that a month was enough time to fall hard for someone and hell I was already falling. That it would make it worse, that we should just cut our losses and stop now. But there was no way in hell that was happening. No way I’d turn down a chance to touch her, to kiss her….I couldn’t imagine not touching her anymore. I guess we’d come to that when we got there.

“Spread your legs baby…..I’m about to spoil you for the rest of the night.” And the month…..if I could stop there…..