i wont make the same mistake twice.

"Mom." Will looked up at me with that look in his eyes again. "Are you sure you're okay?" I nodded as I left the bathroom.
"My stomach is a little upset." I said which wasn't a lie. I was so nauseated during this pregnancy when with Will I'd maybe thrown up once during the entire 10 months.
"Do you want me to make you some soup?" He asked, looking adorably concerned but at the mention of soup my stomach churned again.
"No thanks." I winced. Will pouted up at me.
"Where's Jax?" He asked softly. I swallowed and tried to keep from crying in front of my son. As it was I'd kept up appearences during the day only breaking down once I was in bed, crying myself to sleep each night. I missed Jackson so much it ached and the added weight of the baby growing inside of me was wearing on me hard. I didn't know who I was...I didn't know what to do.
"I don't know." I shrugged, pulling my hair into a bun at the top of my head and considering putting on something other than a tank and yoga pants but then reconsidering because it was the only thing that was comfortable right now.
"I miss him." He said honestly and my heart broke all over. I knew that breaking up with Jax was making a decision for both me and Will without even consulting him. But I couldn't stay with him and make the same mistakes all over again. It would be easier for both of us to get over Jax now then when he decided he didn't want to be with us anymore and our baby was old enough to remember him walking out on us.
"Me too." I admitted softly, holding my stomach as it churned and my eyes threatened to burst with tears.
"I told him not to hurt you." Will muttered under his breath as his voice cracked just a little and he turned to walk away. I shook my head and pulled Will into a hug.
"Oh baby.....this isn't his fault." I whispered softly, not knowing how to explain it. I still had no idea how to explain to Will that he was going to have a brother or sister. It was hard enough explaining about Jax who at this point was more of a father to Will than Nick ever had been. Will loved him. I loved him. The wave of tears was just barely holding back as I rocked with him.
"If he knew you were sick he'd want to be with you." I sighed.
"He knows I'm sick." I admitted, not mentioning that yes, he did want to be with me. He always wanted to be with me and I was always the one pulling away. Eventually he'd get sick of me. It would be so much easier this way. Before either of us could say anything else there was a knock at the door.
"I'll get it." Will pulled himself out of my arms and I thought I noticed him wiping his eyes with his sleeve. Shi.t. How did my life get this way?! I heard him open the door and some muttered voices before it slammed shut again.
"Will!" I ran down the stairs. "You can't slam the door in people's"
"It's Dad." He replied, his eyes looking more angry and hurt than I'd ever seen him. I widened my eyes.
"What?"
"It's dad at the door. Tell him to go away." he ran up the stairs to his room and slammed the door.
"Colbie? I can hear you talking." Nick's voice sent a chill through me and my stomach churned again. I braced myself before opening the door and looking into the face of my ex.
"What are you doing here?"
"It's my house. You're my wife." He replied softly, looking more smug than I remembered.
"Um. This is MY house. And I am not your wife anymore." Nick tilted his head to the side.
"Are you sure?" I set my hands on my hips.
"I sent you divorce papers three times Nick." I replied seriously.
"Yes well, when we were together I supported you and by law I'd have to keep supporting you for half the time we were married even though I know you don't need the money." I blanched at him.
"You didn't sign the divorce papers because you didn't want to pay me alimony?!" I exclaimed, completely flabbergasted. He was right in the fact that I didn't need the money. I'd gotten along fine without it.
"Seemed like the easier way originally." He replied.
"Originally?" I shook my head. "Why are you here?" He tilted his head to the side as he looked me up and down and I realized that the first time I'd seen my ex in years I probably looked awful. Not exactly the picture I wanted him to see.
"I see Will is still angry with me." He sighed, pushing his way into the house.
"Um. You abandoned him. You didn't come to see his games, or to his birthdays, you didn't even send a card Nick!!"
"Well I'm learning from my mistakes Colbie." He said calmly. "I would like to get the divorce settled right away. I'll concede to pay minimal alimony if agree that I get the house." I shook my head in disbelief. This wasn't happening. I was dreaming. This was completely ridiculous and I didn't have time for it.
"Are you fu.cking with me right now?" He blinked.
"Such language. Do you speak like that with our son around?" I almost threw the closest object to me at him.
"Dont you DARE talk about how I raise our son! You don't even have the right to call him your son!! Where is this coming from Nick?! You want the house?!"
"It is in my name...."
"YOU LEFT US!!!!!" I exclaimed. "You can't just come back years later and say you want the house?? And all of a sudden you want the divorce?! What changed?!"
"Simone and I are getting married." He said simply, almost as if he was speaking to a child. "She said she always loved this house." He shrugged. I took a few deep breaths because I was pretty sure I was close to murder at this point.
"You came back here to steal my house so you and the woman you cheated on me with can live here? Did I hear you correctly?"
"Not just that. I do want Will in my life. He is my son after all."
"Get the fu.ck out of my house Nick. Right now." He narrowed his eyes at me.
"Technically this house is in my name Colbie." I shook my head as I ran my hands through it. My stomach was churning and I was getting really dizzy. 
"Get out or I'm calling the police." I said seriously, knowing just as well as he did that with my brother on the force he'd find some way to keep in him jail overnight no matter who's name the house was in.
"I want my son back in my life Colbie. I want whats mine. You can use your family name as much as you want but legally I have a right to Will and to half of what we had in our marriage."
"YOU CHEATED ON ME!!!! You haven't given two sh.ts about Will! My god Nick did you ever care about either of us?!" He sighed.
"At the time marrying you was the only viable option." I reached out and slapped him hard across the face. Twice.
"Get out of my house." I said again.
"I'm trying to be civil here Colbie, but I have good lawyers. They assure me I have a case. Especially now that I see how unstable you are with our son right upstairs." I grabbed my phone and started to dial when he threw his hands up. "I'm leaving. Maybe you should get a lawyer too." He looked back at me with pity in his eyes as he shook his head before he left.
"Fuc.k." I muttered as I quickly found Parkers name in my phone and called with shaking hands.
"Hey baby sister." He picked up after the first ring, even though I knew he had to be busy.
"Parker?" I choked out through the sobs I couldn't contain anymore. "Nick's back. I need a lawyer."