as long as you're mine we can stand the test of time

as long as you're mine we can stand the test of time by ssaarah

I watched as Chloe downed another shot of tequlia with the ease of drinking water.
"How many is that exactly?" Chloe turned to glare at me.
"It's New Years Eve, I've been playing the good girl for months I deserve to have some fun." I smirked and shook my head.
"Playing the good girl? You?" she shot me an offended look.
"I haven't been in any tabloids, I haven't had more than a couple glasses of wine at a time, and I haven't gotten laid in basically forever. Good girl." 

"Please don't talk to me about your sex life Chloe you're like my sister." I leaned against the bar as I winced.
"You are such a downer! You should be thanking me for dragging your as.s out of your office for once instead of moping around."
"I'm not moping." I spat back, glaring at my niece, who just rolled her eyes.
"Bullsh.t Ames. You're moping like a lovesick puppy!" I glared further.
"I'm definitley not lovesick" she shook her head and leaned into me.
"You need to give Milena a break. She did just what I would have done in her shoes."
"How would you know what happened with-" I stopped, remembering that girls shared too much as she winced.
"I swear I need to get friends who aren't in lust with my family members. Talk about knowing too much about your sex life." she cringed and nodded towards the bartender who was practically drooling over her. "Another!" she grinned.
"...what do you mean you would have done the same?"
"A guy I've wanted for years finally wants me back, but makes sure I know it's just one night. Do you know how degrading that is?!"
"Degrading?! She didn't seem upset!"
"Hard to be upset when your dream guy is seducing you Ames! I'm sure she woke up and felt terrible about herself, like she was used. So going out and finding another guy so she could use him is kind of textbook in a fucked up way." I blanched at my neice. Chloe never ceased to surprise me whether it was with her ability to out drink me, or moments like this when her smarts seemed to top mine.
"But even if you're right, that just means I'm not good for her! I'm a fucked up mess and I hurt her she's way better off without me." I protested which made her glare at me with an intensity that made her look so much like Ava I shut up.
"Excuse me? Did you just insult my uncle in front of me?" I felt my mouth twitch into a smile and she sat down, her face softening. "Just because one girl broke your heart doesn't mean you're not good enough for Mila. She's not perfect either. We're all mostly fuc.ked up anyways." I swallowed as the thoughts in my head tried to get their way out of my mouth but being vulnerable wasn't something I loved.
"I already drove one girl into rehab Chloe." She scoffed.
"Is that what you think? That Odette took drugs because of you? Ames she was addicted way before she fell for you. If anything you were the one thing that kept her from going off the deep end! And the thing that pushed her to get help." she grabbed my hands. "I know you're going to pretend like this girly conversation never happened later and that's fine but first listen to me. You're a great man. You're smart and caring, and fun and one of my best friends even if you weren't my family. But you are, which gives you the added bonus of being a hottie." she added and I laughed as she turned back. "Now get your head out of your ass and go tell the only girl who's really turned your head in years what she means to you!" she said as she nodded towardss the entrance to the club where Mila was walking in looking like a goddess in a white dress that was both classy and effortlessly sexy at the same time. "Hey! Hot bartender!" she called out and he turned back to her.
 I groaned, but my need to be overprotective was pretty underminded by my need to talk to Mila. I reached over and kissed Chloe on the cheek before bolting towards her, though I was a little too late. Another man had already noticed her and she was laughing sweetly at whatever he said. A possesive growl went through me and I knew then that even if i still had reservations about being good for her? I couldn't let her move on. I couldn't let her fall in love with a better man ever. Because watching her fall in love, get married, maybe even have kids? It would kill me.
"Milena." I said her name roughly and I might as well have just growled "Mine." since that was how I felt.
"Ames." she blinked, her eyes wide with shock and the same sadness I recognized from the mirror.
"We need to talk." The guy turned towards me with an annoyed expression on his stupid face.
"I think I was already talking to her man, get in line." My hands rolled into fists and I saw Mila's eyes dart towards them before she inserted herself between the guy and me.
"Okay, let's go." she nodded and pulled me away before glaring. "I'm sorry if you don't like it when I talk to other men Ames but I do have a life. I'm sorry, I would have gone somewhere else if I had known you'd be here." her voice was strong and steady but I could see in her eyes that she was anything but.
"I'm sorry." I echoed in the same tone I had been using with her all night.
"What do you want?" it was a struggle not to touch her, to kiss her, to possess her as I'd wanted for most of my adult life.
"You." I said seriously, shooting her an intesnse look that made her eyes dialate and her breath visibly quicken.
"Oh? For how long this time?" It was like she'd reached out and slapped me and it would have stung less if she'd spat it at me the way I deserved it but instead she hung her head and stared at her shoes. I reached out and tilted her head head up where it belonged.
"As long as you'll have me." Her lips were parted slightly and it was damn tempting but I held on to my control to explain. "I don't deserve you Mila. I don't know if I ever will but I want you anyways...not just physically, though I want that so bad it hurts. But mentally, emotionally. I haven't let myself want that in a long time. But you're worth it. You're worth everything."
“What does that mean?”
“It means I don’t want to see you move on with anyone… not unless it’s with me.”
“Ames… you said you’ll never forget.”
“Honestly, I won’t…” I admitted, “But it doesn’t matter anymore. I’ll always remember, but it won’t mean anything. You had your reasons for doing what you did and I will never put that against you ever.”
“Ames…” Mila trailed off looking worried but hopeful, “Where is this coming from?”
“Seeing that guy paw all over you.” I closed my eyes before reopening them, “It pissed me off. More than I thought possible. I never got that jealous over anything Odette did…” It wasn't why I had changed my mind, but god I felt possesive and she wasn't even mine. Yet.
“I told you I can’t wait forever for you Ames.” She crossed her arms over her chest.
“No more waiting…”I responded immediatle, “If you still want to be with me. I want to be with you Mila. I need to grow up and admit what I’ve wanted for years. You.”
“Ames… if you’re just getting my hopes up to run away scared again… Please don’t. I don’t think I could recover…”
“I’m ready to be an adult Mila.” I reached out and pushed her hair back, “I want this, with you. I was stupid before and I want to try and fix us."
"I-" she swallowed and ran her hands through her hair. "I'm doing good being alone, I'm finding out who I am without a man." she was rambling and it was so hard not to take her into my arms and beg her to be with me.
"I don't want you to base yourself off of what we'll have. I want to support you in finding yourself. But I also want to date you exclusively." Mila looked up at me, blinking through long lashes.
"Am I dreaming?" she whispered and my control broke. I cupped her face in my hands and pressed my lips against hers. I traced her lips with my tongue and when she whimpered into my mouth I groaned and threaded my fingers tight in her hair as I kissed her harder. "Yes. This is a dream." I chuckled.
"It's not. And you still haven't answered me." she pulled away and my hands itched too pull her back into my arms but I gave her her space.
"Yes." she nodded and I reached for her again but she held up her hand. "But we start over." I blinked.
"Start over?" she nodded.
"Yes, clean slate. No blaming each other for anything, no bringng up shi.t that happened, just....two people starting a relationship." I nodded.
"That sounds fair." I agreed, better than fair. She was forgiving me, way faster than I had. I should be worshipping her.
"And no sex." I blinked back at her.
"....No sex?" I repeated, watching her try to get her thoughts in order.
"I'm never going to be used again Ames. I'm not going to risk it. So if it's not a deal breaker, we'll only be working on the mental and emotional part for a while." I felt like I'd been kicked in the gut. The minute she'd said yes my dic.k had responded, jumping to life at the thought of being back with the girl of my dreams.
"Um.....how long is a while?" I winced and Mila laughed which made me glare at her.
"I'm sorry but seeing you squirming is super adorable. Just until I know we're real.....is that too much to ask?" I shook my head.
"No.....but god it'll be so damn hard." she walked back into my arms and bit her lip as she looked up at me with a wicked gleam in her eyes.
"Literally." I rose a brow and lowered my mouth to kiss her quickly.
"My baby is a little tease." Mila flushed and leaned into me harder.
“I’m your baby?” she asked with wide bright eyes.
“Yeah and I’m making sure I’ll never f.uck this up… Even without sex.” I managed to strain out.
“I’m sorry… I don’t mean to make you uncomfortable.”
“I know… I know why you’re doing this though. If I want you, and if that means celibacy? I’ll do it.” She smiled and then pulled me closer, pressing her lips against mine and wrapping her arms around my neck as she kissed me hard and I restrained myself from not groping every inch of her body.
“Thank you.” she breathed out against my lips.
“No problem beautiful.” I smiled big, something I did a lot with Mila when we were happy. “Now let’s go tell our personal cheerleader,” I nodded my head back to Chloe who was at the bar, “And enjoy what’s left of this year.” I reached out and tangled my fingers with hers, kissing her knuckles just as Chloe let out a squeal.
“Are you two?!” She asked excitedly. Mila nodded.
“We are…”
“Oh my god. I’m an awesome matchmaker.” She winked, grabbing herself another drink, “The two of you need to go make some babies now.” She grinned at the two of us. I wish. Well not the babies so much as the practicing.
“Chloe, we’ve just made up. We kind of have to pace ourselves.” she joked as she smirked at me. Damn woman was going to kill me.
“Pshh, you two were like meant to be together.” She rolled her eyes, handing Mila a drink, “Now relax, because it’s almost midnight.” I wrapped my arms around Mila's waist, now that she was finally mine I didnt want to take my hands off of her, innocent or not.
"My shift is over, so now you can finally give me that dance you promised." the bartender grinned and Chloe and she shot him her best Lindsell smile.
"You got it stud." she grinned and I tightened my hold on Mila, this close to jumping the guy with 8 million questions about how he planned to respect Chloe but Mila just bumped my hip with hers.
"Please, that guy is harmless compared to the ones she usually goes out with." I groaned and Milena laughed. "Calm down gorgeous, you'll get wrinkles with all those worried faces." she turned in my arms and I looked down into her eyes, eyes that I'd seen miserable for so long that now looked bright and so beautiful I felt lost in them. I was terrified. So scared I'd hurt her again, but was too damn selfish to give her up.
"Dance with me." I pulled her out to the dance floor with the other couples and then grabbed her waist to have her body flush against mine as I slow danced even with the fast song.
"Mmmm keep these moves up I'll be regretting my celibacy desicion." She moaned against my chest and I laughed, cupping her head to kiss her lips softly.
"Trust me, I'm going to be making you regret it." she blinked.
"I thought you said it was okay-" I pressed a finger agaisnt her lips.
"I think it's smart Mila, but that doesn't mean I wont be teasing you every step of the way until I get you back in my bed again." Her body shivered and heat filled her eyes, making me know she loved the idea of me teasing her slowly, but I didn't have time to start as people around us started the countdown to the New Year.
“You ready for the new year?” she asked with a pretty smile.
“Now I am…” I nodded, feeling happier than I had in a while.
“Ten, nine, eight…” Mila was grinning up at me like I was the only guy in the room which worked for me since I hadn't seen any other girls in a long time.
“Thank you for forgiving me…” she breathed out.
“I can say the same.” I reached out and pushed her hair out of her eyes.
“…TWO! ONE!!!” The room said in unison and erupted into cheers. Before I could reach down Mila was standing up on her toes to press her lips against mine. I wrapped my arms tight around her waist and held her tight against my body as my tonge licked into her mouth over and over until we realized we'd forgotten to breath.
“How do you do that?” Mila pulled away breathlessly.
“What?”
“Make my heart speed up and slow down all at once?” she grinned.
“Must be a gift.” I smirked and Mila laughed, a sound that drove me nuts it was so sexy.
“Happy new year Ames.”
“Happy new year’s to you too Milena.” I reached down and kissed her again, a tiny moan leaving her lips.
“Is it bad that all I’m thinking about right now is taking you back to my place and straddling you?” She whispered, her whole face turning red as my dick pressed uncomfortably against my zipper.
“I’ll go get a cab.”  I was only half joking, but Mila laughed.
“No, not yet. I need to stop thinking with my body…” she trailed off, “But god, know it’s not you… I want you so f.ucking bad.”
“Who wouldn’t?” I winked even though I was just as desperate for her.
“Shut up.” .