Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy?

is this the real life? is this just fantasy? by sassy 

I closed my eyes and let the warm water splash on my face, it feeling so good I was tempted to just lean against the wall and fall asleep there. Showering at 4:30 in the morning was usually the only way for me to wake up completely, but there were times like this when it just made me want to sleep more. Mostly when I had Cami in my bed sleeping like an angel.
I sighed and felt a pair of arms wrap around me, making me jump a little because I wasn't expecting that. There she was, my love, smiling. "What are you doing out of bed?" I asked and turned to face her. God her naked body was such a view...that piercing. Ugh.
"What are you doing awake this early?" She retorted, blinking her eyes as the water cascaded down us.

I lowered my head, tilting her chin up with my fingers and didn't waste another second, kissing her hard. The list of things I had missed while being apart was pretty much neverending, but starting the day with her, showering together, was definitely on top. "Early call time," I responded after breaking the kiss, a pout appearing on her lips and making my chest tighten a little. Despite both of us working in the same world, our schedules couldn't be more opposite. It sucked both for us and Gabe, everything was harder to handle but still easier than when we were apart. "Will you be able to bring Gabe to school?" I asked when she didn't say anything, knowing that our boy was our first thought always in our daily planning.
"Of course," She said and smiled again.
"Perfect." I said and smiled back at her, knowing we'd make this work no matter what. After all being parents together would never be harder than being it alone. I reached for some shampoo and tangled my fingers in her hair, washing it slowly, "I'll go pick him up."
She tilted her head back and closed her eyes, moaning a little when I massaged her scalp, "Mhm. This feels so good." She said in a whisper as her hands landed on my chest.
"The perks of living with your boyfriend..." I trailed off, letting a small smirk play on my lips as I watched her closely, enjoying the view that was an amazing one. She was so stunning she took my breath away.
"True, so many." She agreed and opened her eyes before frowning a little, "We don't have time for sexy stuff right?"
I laughed at her expression, how adorable she was, but then I sighed, "We don't, unfortunately." I shook my head as I rinsed her hair carefully, "We'll make up for it tonight."
She cuddled against me, looking content no matter what and let me wash her body too, "It's still night." She pointed out in a silly small voice.
"Sorry baby." I smirked and kissed her forehead, letting my hands move up and down her body a few more times before turning off the water. "I'll make you breakfast."
"At least we still have a little time for ourselves before starting the day." She offered with a sigh and a smile as we both wore our robes. It was all so natural, so familiar, it amazed me how much and yet so little had changed between us.
"Look at my baby being so positive." I smirked at her, grabbing her hand as we walked in the dark of the apartment toward the kitchen.
"I don't have much to be negative about these days." She whispered as we walked past Gabe's room, no sound coming from inside which was a good side. We were constantly paying attention not to show too much when he was awake and night had become the only time when we could really relax. And act like horny teens.
I turned on the lights of the kitchen, letting go of her hand regretfully, "I don't have any." I winked at her.
"Then I must be doing something right," Cami grinned back at me, probably not knowing how much truth was in her words. She was doing everything right, I felt like we were falling in love all over again...well, I was.
"Always," I replied, watching as she bit into her bottom lip and tried to hide her grin. "What?"
"What?" She repeated and leaned against the counter, keeping her eyes on me. I laughed softly and shook my head while she folded her arms in front of her on the flat surface, "So what are you making for breakfast?"
"Omelettes?" I asked, walking to the fridge and opening it up, making sure we had all the right ingredients. Gabe was a growing boy and surprisingly ate a lot of food, which was something I'd never complain, but it felt like we constantly had to go grocery shopping.
"That sounds great," She said seriously. "What are you shooting today? Are you going to be naked again?" She asked with a smirk.
I shook my head as I reached for all the ingredients, genuinely happy to keep my clothes on for once. It wasn't fun to be naked in winter. "No, I'm shooting for Nautica." I answered simply and put a pan on the stove as I eyed Cami grabbing two plates.
"Good." She said back and wrinkled her nose before turning around to make some coffee but hiding her gorgeous face from me.
"Good? Are you jealous?" I asked, though I was just being silly and teasing her. She, of course had nothing to be jealous of, my job was what it was.
She turned to me again, biting her lip, "Of course not." She answered matter-of-factly, breaking eye contact in favor of looking into the pan where the first omelette was being made.
"What about you?" I asked quietly, only wishing that now that we were back together we wouldn't have the same problems that we had had in the past. I was well aware that there was no relationship with no problems at all, only I wanted us to work this time. We had to.
She broke into a big grin, setting two cups of coffee on the table as she glanced at me, "No I'm not going to be naked."
I laughed at her joke, liking the relaxed mood between us even though I knew that eventually we'd have to have a talk about us and our future. "Not even for me?" I retorted, grinning myself as I finished making the second omelette and set one on each plate.
"You said we didn't have enough time for that right now," Cami said and added a silly pout, making me wish we could climb back into bed and eat our breakfast there. Along with other things, breakfast wouldn't be enough.
I grinned and wrapped both of my arms around her, pulling her body into mine, "Tonight."
"We'll both be naked tonight," She whispered and smirked at me, the look on her face giving her away. "Are you hungry?"
I let out a laugh and my grin remained in place, "You can't do that."
"Do what?" She slid her hands up to my chest, an innocent expression on her face.
"Talk about being naked and then ask if I'm hungry," I replied and moved my hands to her hips, pressing a chaste kiss against her lips before regretfully pulling away once more. "I'm always hungry," I added, grabbing both of the plates from off the counter and handing her hers.
"For me I hope," She winked and picked up her fork, cutting a piece off and bringing it to her mouth to eat it.
"Always." I sighed, walking to the fridge and grabbing some oj for my baby.
She shot me an amused look, taking the bottle from my hand and pouring some of the orange liquid into her glass, "What's that sigh for?"
"Because I can't eat you now." I smirked at her as I sat next to her, wrapping my arm around her shoulder to pull her to me and kiss her lips at first, then I got carried away and nibbled at her bottom lip.
"Ouch." She protested in a silly tone, still keeping her lips glued to mine and smiling.
"Sorry." I smirked wider as I kissed her away, pulling away regretfully but setting my hand on her thigh since I had hours to go without her and I didn't was to waste even a second now.
"So-" She started but Gabe's voice cut her off.
"Maman?" He asked in a little voice, sounding as sleepy as he looked.
I tensed as I let my eyes bounce between Cami and our son, wondering for how long he wad been there and if he had seen something. "What's wrong little man? It's still early for you." I said quietly and stood up, walking to him and picking him up. I knew he was already too old for that but I couldn't help it.
"I had a bad dream." He pouted then yawned, wrapping her arm around my neck and resting his head on my shoulder.
Cami walked to us, caressing Gabe's cheek as she smiled at him. For what he knew she wasn't even supposed to be there, but I was hoping he was still too sleepy and out of it to realize that. "It's over now. We're with you." She reassured him as she pressed a kiss on his forehead, "It was just a dream...you need to get some more sleep, you have school later."
"I don't want to sleep again." He said and yawned again, his body disagreeing with him of course.
"What if I take you to my bed?" I offered as I looked down at him, "You can't have nightmares in my bed."
"Okay but I want maman."
Cami shot me a look and took him from my arms, "Deal baby." She said softly as he adjusted himself in her hold.
I kissed his forehead before letting them walk out the kitchen, knowing that I wouldn't see my boy until later in the afternoon. I sat at the table again, crossing my arms against my chest as I looked outside the window, one million thoughts crowding my mind. Cami and I still needed to talk, we couldn't keep hiding from our son, we couldn't keep going back and forth between my apartment and hers...decisions needed to be taken. "We need to tell him." I said to her as she stepped into the kitchen again, running a hand through her dark hair.
Cami parted her lips as she looked taken aback, but nodding her head in agreement anyway. "Do you think he knows?" She asked and widened her eyes a little.
"He's very smart," I replied and pivoted my body in the chair to face her. He was just a kid, but he wasn't a baby anymore and we were wearing robes only, not to add that we weren't supposed to be together and not only we were but he had caught us being pretty close.
"He is." She stepped between my legs and let out a sigh, looking lost in her thoughts which were probably the same I was having. Gabe had always knows us being apart, rationally I knew that he'd be happy to have a family, a real one, still I couldn't help worrying too. "We need to talk about this first... what we'll do with our places. Should we live at your place and sell mine? Sell both and start over?"
I pressed my lips against hers, a quiet way of shutting her up since I wanted to take this slow, talk about it without stressing. When I pulled back, a smile was playing on my lips, "What do you want?"
"I want us to get a place together," She answered, surprising me.
"I thought you want to wait for that." I said quietly, brushing her hair off her face as I kept my eyes on hers, not wanting to miss even a bit of her reaction.
She licked her lips slowly, giving me a questioning look, "Is that what you want?"
I smiled into her eyes and shook my head, "I told you, I only want what you want and what makes you happy." I explained quietly, meaning it.
At that she frowned a little and her lips curved downwards, "But I can't decide all by myself. Tell me what you think at least." She insisted, I could see why. This was a big step, one of the many we were going to take. Or I hope we would.
"I like the idea of getting a place together." I started, wrapping my arm around her waist loosely as she leaned her a.ss against my thigh, "It'd be a fresh start. It'd allow us to get it like we want it, it'd be the beginning of the rest of our life together."
She listen and nodded, "I feel like a but is coming." She commented quietly.
"The only thing I'm worried about is Gabe." I said shortly since at this point I didn't really care where we'd be as long as we were a family. The thought alone of coming home to my love and my son everyday was enough to fill me with absolute joy. "And also it's a lot of work, I don't want you to stress over anything."
Cami smiled at my words, still looking lost in a thought. How couldn't she be? We had a lot to think about. "I have nothing to stress about," She replied and shook her head. "Not with you on my team."
I cracked a smile that rivaled hers and dipped my head to nuzzle her neck. "We make a good team," I said quietly against her skin, guessing that as much was right. All the struggle of being a parent, or at least most of it, came from being one alone and now that we had each other in this way again we'd go through anything.
"We do. I think Gabe will be happy... It'll be a change, but definitely one for the best," She said softly, making me appreciate those little moments of peace with her. It was so much better than the real world.
I pulled my head back, but she didn't move, her eyes closed. "Are you falling asleep?" I broke into her thoughts and she let her eyes flutter open to look at me again and smile.
"No, just enjoying your company," She said honestly. "Are you ready to hear all the 'I told you so's' from our family?"
At her words, I made a face since that was what I dreaded the most. Our families loved us of course but sometimes they were too nosy or too...just too much. "Do we really have to tell them?" I asked as I pursed my lips together.
She let out a chuckle, giving me an amused look before nuzzling my neck again, "I'm afraid we do. We can't just show up one day and act all lovey dovey."
"Why not?" I asked, being silly as I allowed myself to smirk.
She peeked up at me, her arms wrapped around my waist and I swear, I never wanted her to move from there. It was where she belonged, in my arms. "It'd be even worse." She shot me a small grin.
I sighed, running my hand through her hair and smiling, "So you're telling your family and Chloe and I'm telling my parents?"
"You don't really want to tell Chloe, do you?" She asked as she set her chin on my chest to look up at me.
I shook my head, "I'm getting a headache just thinking about it."
"It can't be that bad." She laughed lightly, the sound making me smile wide at her like a moron.
"You'll tell me." I grinned and poked her nose before kissing it.
Cami lifted an eyebrow before wetting her lips by running her tongue across them slowly, "I'll tell Chloe."
I gave her a skeptical look, knowing her far too well, "What's the catch?"
"You have to break the news to my sister," She tried to reason with me, knowing I'd rather avoid her sister at all cost instead. Mila was overprotective of Cami to the point that hated me and while I could yell at Chloe to shut her up I couldn't do the same with Cami's sister...at this point I'd rather tell my own sister. A groan escaped me before she could get in another word and my head was already shaking. "No deal?" She broke into a grin.
"God no," I said flatly.
She smiled and relaxed her body in my arms, "We should tell Gabe tonight."
"At this point telling Gabe doesn't even worry me anymore." I said seriously as I made a face.
"Because nothing sounds as bad as breaking the news to our sisters?" She turned her smile into a smirk, reading my mind like she always did. I was so transparent to her, and I liked it, I thought that it was one of the many things that made us strong together.
"Exactly." I agreed with a sigh, running my hand up and down her back as I wished it was night already. "But yes, we should tell Gabe tonight."
Silence fell in the room and I enjoyed it, knowing both Cami and I were lost into our own thoughts which were the same anyway. I felt as if I was in front of a huge buffet and I was starving, but at the same time I was afraid I'd get a stomachache from eating too much. "What should we tell him exactly?" She asked eventually, breaking the silence.
"That maman and papa really love each other and love him a lot too so from now on we'll always be all together?" I tried, having no idea of how to say to my own son that I was back together with his mom, "Should we tell him that we'll move too?"
"I am so in love with you right now," Cami responded, not really answering my question.
I cracked a wide grin and pulled her closer to me, "Just right now?"
"Always instead," She leaned her head against my chest and a second later I pressed a kiss against the top of it.
A laugh escaped me, "I love you too, but you didn't answer my question."
She pulled her head back to smile at me, "We'll take it slow. Start by telling him how in love we are and see how he takes it."
I nodded, "If he takes it bad then we'll put it off?"
She pursed her lips together and then smiled again, "I think he'll be happy instead."
"I hope so." I said seriously, thinking that maybe he'd need some time to adjust but in the end everything would be fine, "It's not like we're giving him any other choice anyway." I added as a second thought.
"What?!" Cami laughed softly, nuzzling my neck and keeping her body glued to mine.
"He will have to learn to see us together, I'm not letting you go for any reason." I pulled my head back to grin at her, being silly even though I meant it too.
"I know." She beamed at me, "He's aready seen us a lot together though, I don't think he'll get used to this faster than we think. It'd probably take longer to get used to his new room."
I processed her words, keeping her close to me and enjoying the relaxed mood between us since I knew it wouldn't last long. It was almost time for me to go and I hated it. "You're right." I agreed, knowing that our little man always had trouble sleeping whenever he changed his bed, "We should take him with us when we'll have to pick a new place for us."
"If it were up to him, he'd want a mansion with a pool and an arcade room," Cami laughed softly, reaching for my hand and tangling her fingers with mine. Her eyes grazed the clock and she wrinkled her nose, knowing that I'd have to leave soon.
"That doesn't sound so bad. What's that face for?" I smirked and nuzzled her neck until she was smiling again.
She tilted her head to look at me, leaning in for a soft kiss and letting her lips linger against mine before kissing me once more. "You have to leave me soon," She whispered and pouted again.
"I'll never leave you." I smiled at her cute face, knowing what she meant but wanting to make the moment light. And it worked.
Her pout turned into a smile again, it being enough to make my heart skip a beat. "So no work today?" She asked back, beins as silly as I was being.
"Yes work." I sighed, not happy about the thought. Sure I liked my job, it gave me enough time and money to take care of my family, only time wasn't ever enough really. "But I'll be back soon."
"How soon?" She asked stubbornly, wrapping her arms tight around my waist as she pressed every inch of her body against me, as if she had no intention of letting me go.
"So soon you won't even have time to miss me." I said as I held her just as tight, guessing that we had missed each other so much during the last year that now we were basically obssessed. I didn't mind it.
Cami shook her head and grinned, "Impossible. I always miss you instead."
I grinned down at her before pressing a kiss against her forehead, nose, and then lips. "Don't you work today?" I asked quietly, pulling my body back from hers slowly.
"Yes," She wrinkled her nose. "Putting makeup on half naked male models. Life is so hard."
I raised one eyebrow at her, shooting her an amused look, "How come they're never female models?" I asked, part of me genuinely wondering that.
She shrugged nonchalantly, "I have no idea, maybe you should ask your mom. Are you jealous?"
"No, I'm your favorite model anyway." I said back and forced myself to pull back, pouring myself more coffee instead because I knew I needed it to face a whole day full of fashion nonsense.
Her eyes took me in as she bit down on her lip, a silly expression on her face which was sexy too anyway. "You are." She said simply, leaving it at that even though her eyes were already flaming with lust.
"You're mine." I smirked at her before downing a full cup of coffee, forcing myself to keep my hands to myself.
"But I'm no model." She protested, a small frown forming on her face.
"You're so much better." I said seriously, meaning it. Models were usually shallow and not even that good looking really, while Cami had the looks and the brain, she was perfect.
Cami's eyebrows shot up and she tried to resist her grin, "The best even?"
I let out a laugh and wrapped one arm around her waist before leaning in to kiss her cheek, "You are. I have to go get ready now unfortunately. What will you do?"
She didn't waste one second, a full out pout on her face before she sighed, watching me stand up and stretch my body out. "I might go back to bed and cuddle our little man for another hour," She stood up.
"Lucky," I said simply and reached down for her hand to link it with mine.
She smiled back and gave my hand a squeeze, "I'll save some cuddles for you."
"You better." I smirked as I lifted our hands to press a kiss on her knuckles, my eyes still on her face and her beautiful dark eyes.
"Tonight, when we'll all be home, we'll have a cuddle party." She said with a silly face that was adorable too and fit her perfectly. Moments like these felt like time never passed and we were the same Cami and Ben that fell in love when we weren't even old enough to really know what love was. Circumstances had changed of course, but how much I loved her? That hadn't changed. I was still crazy for her and the thought of adjusting to this routine again, with her and Gabe, make my heart explode with happiness.
I let out a soft laugh, "Those are my fave." I grinned at her as I led her back to my room, hating that out time together was already over.
We stopped in the doorway, both of us looking at Gabe who was asleep in our bed, his tiny body curled on one side. "He looks like an angel." She whispered with an adoring smile on her face and reading my mind.
"Only when he sleeps." I grinned as I wrapped my arm around her once again, squeezing her body against my side while I thought about what Tristan had told me about Cami and I having more babies. "Baby..." I started, not knowing how to ask her the question without feeling like an idiot.
"Yes?" She asked, looking up at me.
"I was wondering if you're on the pill." I said quietly, guessing that I'd be okay both if she was or she wasn't.
Cami blinked as she kept her gaze on me, the silence killing me and making me feel bad for some reason too. "Of course," She responded after a few seconds that felt like hours. She smiled and wrinkled her nose, "Where'd that question come from?"
I shrugged my shoulders, "I was just wondering."
"I am," She replied. "Were you worried that I wasn't?"
"Not exactly worried, since I asked you now after weeks that we're sleeping together..." I trailed off, speaking my mind even if it meant looking bad or stupid. Now that she knew how I felt towards her I had no secrets anymore and I was one hundred percent honest.
She nodded her head as she gave me a weird look, or maybe it was just me being biased, "Do you feel better now?" She asked with a grin on her lips.
"I would have been fine even if you had said that you weren't." I shrugged nonchalantly, my eyes moving on Gabe again as I thought about when he was a baby. Sure it had been a hard time for many reasons, but I still remembered how great it had felt to become a father and I wasn't scared of feeling that again.
Cami bit down on her lip before turning her head to let her gaze match mine, a thoughtful expression on her face. "Have you ever thought about having another?" She asked quietly.
"No," I answered simply and she moved her eyes back to me, making me wonder what she was thinking. "I mean, while I was dating, I just assumed I wouldn't have another."
She nodded her head and tore her gaze from mine in favor of looking at our son again. I didn't like talking about the past, just like I didn't like hearing from her either, the thought of her with other men still bothered me to no end, even now that she was mine again. "We can revisit this conversation another time," She offered with a smile. "We have all the time in the world now."
"We do." I agreed quietly, still processing her words, "I wouldn't mind it though."
She furrowed her brows, setting one hand on my chest, "What?"
I shrugged nonchalantly, "Having another baby." I said simply even though it was far than simple. Babies were a lot to handle, both phisically and mentally, but it was always worth it.
"Do you want one?" She asked carefully and I had no idea of what her opinion was on the matter. Mine though, was a very clear one, only I didn't want to push things.
"I'm not saying I want another baby right now." I started, picking the right words, "I never thought I'd have another one, but it was because I wasn't with you. It's all different now that we're together and I think that Gabe would be happy to have a little sister or a little brother. I'd be happy too."
Cami smiled at my, the look on her face one I liked a lot. She looked happy. "I love you," She said, turning her head back to look at Gabe, smiling wide.
I wrapped an arm around her waist and lowered my head to press my lips against her ear, "Why are you blushing?"
She shrugged her shoulders, "What, no I love you back?"
"I love you," I said back softly and kissed the place below her ear, sending shivers through her body. "We can talk about this later."
"Okay," She nodded her head and tilted it in my direction to smile at me, pressing a kiss against my lips. "I'd be happy too... if we had another kid. Not now, but some day."
"We'll get there." I said against her soft lips, having a hard time pulling away because I didn't really want to. "For now, we can keep practicing."
She frowned, pouted too, broing her dark eyes into mine, "Lies, you have to go instead."
I sighed as I wrapped my arms tight around her to pick her up and hold her pressed against me, as close as possible. "I'll make up for that later." I whispered before kissing her hard, pouring myself into that kiss and wishing I had more time to spoil her.
"I wonder how." She smirked a little as she broke the kiss, her voice breathy.
I set her back on her feet, pulling away regretfully and winkind as I headed to the closet, "You'll see."