Baby, I want you.

Ben walked into the bedroom and the second his eyes found mine, his lips curved into a gorgeous smile. Behind him, the clock read 3 AM and surprisingly, I felt wide awake. We'd spent most of Christmas Eve at my parents and I was thankful it had gone so well. Despite the way my sister looked at the two of us with a knowing look on her face, my boys were happy and that was all that mattered to me. Honestly, I couldn't even remember the last time I had been so happy. "He's finally sleeping," He announced quietly, walking to the bed and laying down next to me, glancing at the nightgown I had on. I'd grown accustom to sleeping in his shirts during our sleepovers that I wanted to mix it up, to look sexy. I only hoped that I didn't look like I was trying too hard instead.... which technically I kind of was, but that's besides the point. 

I bit down on my lip, looking at him through my lashes, "I hope so, his presents are already under the Christmas tree." 

"Well done maman," He grinned at me as he reached for my body, pulling me against him and kissing up my neck. We had been in this same situation for months now, trapped in a bed that left us frustrated and wanting more. We had tried to go on a date and it had been perfect until his mom had called, saying that Gabe wanted me really bad and she didn't know what to do anymore. So we had gone pick him up again, wondering what was happening to our boy who had always been pretty independent despite his age and our conclusion had been that he was living a transition phase because of school and he needed us more than usual. I didn't mind since he was literally my life, but it also meant no dates and, of course, no sex. 

"It was a nice night, wasn't it?" I shivered as I wrapped my arms around his neck to hold him against me.

He nodded, breathing against my skin and making me want to shiver all over again. "It was," He agreed quietly as his hands reached for my leg to hook it around his waist, "Except for the part where I had to put Gabe to sleep."

"He ate too many sweets and was too excited," I said with a soft laugh that made Ben smile against my skin. "What are you thinking about?" I asked after a few seconds of silence, my own thoughts on him, us. I wanted to ask a million times what we were doing, but couldn't ever find the words or the courage. It was crazy how this man could have my heart for most of my life and make me feel like the most beautiful girl on earth one second and leave me nervous the next. 

He pulled his head back to look at me, his hand reaching for my hair to push a wisp behind my ear while he considered the question. "That I'm a lucky man," He started. "And that you're beautiful," He added then pressed his lips against mine.

I responded to the kiss immediately, tightening my hold on him as I parted my lips for his tongue to slide into my mouth, letting him savor me since it'd been a long night of trying to hide us. He shifted his body and moved it on top of mine, my legs going around his hips almost automatically as his hands slid under my nightgown, caressing my thighs, my sides, my skin on fire under his touch.

I moaned into his mouth, my heart feeling like it might leap out of my chest just like every other time he kissed me. I'd never get enough. My head fell back as I broke the kiss, breathless and shutting my eyes tightly to regain composure. His lips moved down my neck and my entire thought process went out the window, the only thing I could grasp onto was how bad I wanted him. "Mmm..." I trailed off and sunk my teeth into my bottom lip, his mouth finding one of my lace covered breast at the exact moment his thumb brushed back and forth against my pierced nipple. I saw stars; not sure how I'd respond when he'd finally make his way inside of me. "Ben," I said in a hushed moan, lifting my hips up to meet his.

He pressed into me and his sweats were the only thing separating me from his erection. The ache between my legs was almost painful. "Look at me," He said and even though my eyes were closed, I could feel his gaze on me. 

My eyes fluttered open and I smiled as our eyes met, that feeling of love so overwhelming I'd never understand how I could spend the last few years of my life without him. "Hi handsome," I said quietly, reaching for his hair and tangling a hand in it. A smile played on his lips and he flinched slightly when I moved my hips again, my nightgown already pushed up and exposing the matching panties underneath which weren't much more than a scrap of lace. "I feel overdressed right now," My lips curved into a smirk as my hand dropped down the back of his neck, snaking when it got to his shoulders and letting my palm run along his hard chest. 

"Did you dress up for me?" He reached for my wrist and pinned it above my head, holding it in place while my other fingers twisted in the sheets. I felt like I could cum from the way he looked at me alone. 

"Do you like it?" I asked instead and let my eyes flick down to his chest, his body so flawless. 

He brushed his nose against mine, "I like it a lot." A smirk played on my lips when my eyes met his and my cheeks turned pink, "But I like even more what's inside the nightgown."

I bit down on my lip again as I squirmed just so slightly underneath him. "What would that be?" I asked with an innocent tone that didn't match the look in my dark eyes.

He lowered himself onto me once again, his lips and hands already away from me and making me miss them. "You," He said simply and pressed his lips against my neck, them leaving a trail of kisses as he moved them down my collarbone until he reached my chest where the fabric met my skin. His hands ran up my thighs and grasped the hem of my gown to push it past my hips and then further up until my navel was exposed.

"Ben," I said in a whisper, my eyes on him and my lips slightly parted as I held my breath, waiting for his next move.

"What baby?" He asked, looking at my face while he kept worshiping my body, kissing my flat stomach before capturing the hem of my panties with his teeth and yanking them down. I gasped but lifted my hips, helping him pushing the piece of lace down my long legs before he adjusted his hips between my thighs again. "You're not going to stop me right?" He asked when I didn't say a word, his tone low and gentle like it always was with me. In that moment I felt like when we were teens again and it was our first time together, Ben waiting for me to give him a sign, anything, to go all the way. Nerves hit me again just like that first time, while at the same time, I knew that I wanted nothing else... no one else. I was going to be in love with this man for the rest of my life and we had waited too long. 

"No," I replied in the same hushed tone, only my breath was getting heavier. Truth was, I couldn't stop him even if I had the slightest doubt... which I didn't. "I'd never stop you," I added, wanting to reassure him since I knew the way he thought and that he wouldn't go on further until he was 100% sure this was what I wanted. I wanted it so damn bad. 

Without another word, he peeled the nightgown from my body and discarded it behind him on the floor. His gaze dropped down me and I was pretty sure that I felt my body blushing, the effect he had on me almost unreal. I reached for his shirt and pulled it over his head, my hands immediately dropping to the top of his sweats and trying to push them down when he grinned at me. "There's no rush," He replied and I wanted to ask him if he was serious. We'd been waiting for what felt like an eternity and I was afraid if tonight didn't happen, I might explode. 

"I want you," I replied and bent my leg at the knee, leaning it against his hip. He tilted his head down and pressed his lips back against mine, grasping my waist when both of our hips met and a moan escaped me. His lips left mine in favor of moving down my neck, teasing me relentlessly. "God, I want you so bad..." I trailed off and closed my eyes, lifting my hips again to feel his erection. I could feel his touch everywhere, feel his lips all over my body even though they were only on my neck. 

"I'm here baby," He groaned as his hand reached for my knee, pushing it down gently until my leg was laying flat on the mattress. With his other hand he finally pushed down his sweats, getting rid of them as quick as possible before he adjusted himself between my legs.

A low moan escaped me the moment our skin met while I nearly died for how close he was to being inside of me. The anticipation was almost unreal. "Finally," I breathed out and wrapped my arms around his neck, pushing him against me so that there wasn't even an inch between us. 

He pulled his head back just so slightly, his eyes finding mine and staring at me as his hand traveled down my side until it stopped on my knee, holding my leg from its back. "I can't believe it," He confessed in a low voice, voicing my own thoughts since we had waited so long for this moment. 

My lips curved into a smile, but I didn't say a word. Instead I leaned into Ben and kissed him, moaning against his mouth when he rocked his hips against me, the friction between us unbearable. With a quiet groan he shifted his body and positioned the head of his dick against me, my dark eyes widening a little before he entered me in one roll of the hips, pushing all the way inside of me and feeling better than I could ever imagine. 

The growl that escaped him was as deep as my moan, they came from our core and spoke for the moment. "I missed you so much," He breathed out as he propped himself up on his palms, glancing down to where our bodies met as he pulled back then pushed all the way inside again.

"Fuck," I rushed out under my breath, a moan escaping me when he pulled back again, this time almost slipping completely out of me. Lifting my hips up to meet his, I took every inch I could get. I felt needy, wanting as much of Ben as possible. Every good emotion possible was flooring me; excitement, arousal, love... god, I was so in love with this man. The truth was, I never stopped loving him. "I missed you so much," I mimicked his words as my head fell back into the pillow. 

He lowered his head and I closed my eyes for a moment to catch my breath, feeling his lips on my neck first and then my collarbone. My eyes fluttered open just as his mouth found my breast, teasing the small piercing and I swear the pleasure went straight to my core. I wanted to scream. "You're soaking," He said instead while my teeth sunk into my bottom lip. 

"Mmm..." I moaned, moving my hips slowly and nearly dying from how good he felt inside of me. 

Without another word, he slid his hand between my legs and started rubbing my clit carefully. I saw stars. A much louder moan left me as a grin spread across his handsome face, "Shh baby."

"You're driving me crazy," I said in a whisper, smiling back at him and feeling like my heart might actually pound out of my chest. 

"I'm trying," He said back as he kept smiling at me, wearing his feelings on his flawless face and not worry about it.

I bit down on my bottom lip, struggling to hold back. "Did you forget how to do it?" I asked in a breathy teasing voice, my own lips curved upwards as I stared up at him.

He shook his head, "I don't think so." He answered in a low tone as he reached for my leg, lifting it off the bed and in the air then pushing it towards my own body. His hips pulled back before hitting mine again, the new angle causing a new kind of friction and almost making me orgasm on the spot. 

My mouth dropped open and my body tensed under his while he lowered himself further, pressing his lips against mine and kissing me hard, our tongues playing together as he pushed inside of me deeper and deeper at every thrust. My nails were sinking into his shoulders but either he didn't notice or didn't mind. The only thing I was sure of was that he'd have marks in the morning. "Ben..." I trailed off against his mouth, so damn close.

"I want to stay buried inside of you forever," He groaned as he moved his lips down my neck again, sucking and biting while he kept pounding inside of me.

"If you keep saying things like that, I'm going to cum for sure," I said honestly, my fingers tangling in his hair as I moaned into his ear. "Oh my god," I said in a whisper, my breaths hitched and my nipples hard against his chest. 

"Are you close?" He asked in the same low tone I had used, groaning when I tightened around him. "Fuck."

I grinned as he groaned, tightening again, this time to tease him. As bad as I wanted it to last, I wasn't going to be able to hold out forever... luckily, I already knew that this man had enough stamina to spend the rest of the night inside of me. I parted my lips, the three words I'd been dying to tell him for weeks now remaining unspoken. I couldn't tell him that I loved him during sex, could I? "I love how you feel," I said instead, mentally slapping my forehead no matter how true of a statement that was. In fact, it was an understatement. 

"I love how you feel too," He said back in a whisper before locking his lips with mine, closing his eyes as he deepened the kiss. His hands moved to my knees, pushing them flat on the mattress as he spread me open for him to thrust inside of me harder.

I wrapped my arms around his neck as I moaned, my whole body tensing against his and telling him that it wouldn't be long before I came. "Ben," I breathed out against his lips, making him pull his head back to look at me as his hips followed only to hit mine a second later, "Ben!"

"God baby you're so amazing," He groaned when I tightened even more and he picked up a faster pace, his hands pressing on my knees and hid chest lifting off mine while his hips went back to mine again and again and again, every time deeper and harder to the point where I couldn't think straight. 

"Oh my god," I said in one quick breath, coming hard against his dick and not stopping. It felt every lasting, I wish it were. I felt him everywhere and my heart was pounding so hard I expected it to pound out of my chest. 

His pace remained the same but I could see the look in his eye and feel his body tensing up just like mine had done. Not more than a few seconds later he was coming, his groans making me want to cum again. The man was so damn sexy. "Oh mon dieu," He said quietly and a grin made its way onto my face as I laid my head back down on the pillow, reaching a hand for his hair and tangling my fingers in it as I guided his gaze to mine. We smiled at each other for what felt like an eternity, his hips still grinding against mine but so slowly he almost felt motionless on top of me. Again, those words were on the tip of my tongue but I felt scared. I'd lost him once, I'd be damned if I'd let him go again. I mean, it took us this long to get here after all. 

"Can we do that all night?" I asked and bit into my lip as I grinned at him. 

He grinned back at me, looking into my eyes as he kissed my lips lazily. "All night every night?" He asked back, already knowing that one night would never be enough. We already ruined our second chance at being together, this time I wanted to get it right. 

"Thinking about the future already?" I bit down on my lip, whispering instead of talking.

He slid out of me slowly as he nodded, "Is it bad?" He pressed his lips against my neck before rolling over onto his side, wrapping both arms around me in the process to keep me against him. 

"A future with you?" I asked and shook my head, setting my palm flat on his hard chest and draping a leg over his. "It sounds perfect," I added in another whisper, almost as if I were afraid to have this conversation, afraid that I might scare him off. We were still so young and while we already had our son, sometimes I was scared that Ben still wanted to live the lifestyle he was around every day; endless amounts of women throwing themselves at him, all the alcohol he could drink, VIP treatment at every club in town. I didn't fit that lifestyle... sometimes I wasn't even sure I fit the role of his girlfriend. Shouldn't models date other models or actresses?

His eyes flicked down to meet mine and I was sure that I was bright red, "Really?"

"It's all I've ever wanted," I replied sincerely. That much was true, he was all I ever wanted, raising my son with his father. We'd be able to give him the one thing we never truly could: a family. 

He stared at me for a few seconds, "Does it mean...?" The words fell from his lips and showed his insecurity, a feeling more than common with me when it came to Ben and our relationship. I wanted to give him the world but I was constantly afraid that I wasn't enough.

"You tell me what it means," I said simply, resting my hand on his chest as I stared up at him, our bodies motionless and the room unrealistically quiet.

"I..." He trailed off one more time as he broke eye contact, taking a deep breath before looking at me again. "I want to be with you, go back to how we were." He paused, a smile begging to play on my lips but I still felt like it was all a dream, "No actually I want to build a future with you and Gabe rather than thinking about the past. You're the one for me Cami, you've always been and I'm sorry if I let you go the first time."

I was grinning before I could even fully digest his words. My heart was pounding so heart that I felt actual butterflies. I realized at that exact moment that I wanted this more than anything, that I'd been waiting forever to hear him say he wanted a future with me and Gabe. "Are you sure?" I found myself saying, still afraid that this moment might disappear at any moment. 

"I've never been so sure of anything in my entire life," He said and kissed my forehead, my nose wrinkling because my lips wanted to be on his instead. 

"I've loved you ever since we were kids," I said as a whisper, tangling a hand in his hair to guide his head back to mine. "I never stopped and I should have let you go instead."

"Cami..." He trailed off as my lips found his neck, every inch of my body that was touching his was on fire. I wasn't sure how I could go so many years without touching him and now I wasn't sure how I'd be able to stop. 

My teeth scrapped against his neck and I inhaled his cologne, the scent enough to drive me crazy. "I love you," I whispered in his ear before pressing a kiss behind it. 

He pulled his head to look at me, his lips widening into a big smile. "I love you too," He said back with no hesitation, both of us looking happy and relieved that we'd finally said it since I knew I'd been thinking it for forever. 

I smiled back at him as I bore my eyes into his, letting him take advantage of that moment of silence to pull me even closer to him before he angled his head to kiss my lips. The kiss was perfect, I was melting into Ben's arms and everything finally felt right. I broke the kiss regretfully, my lips still close to his as I kept smiling, "What now?"

He didn't resist and pressed another quick kiss on my lips, "Now everything you want."