we're almost there

"Where are we going?" I asked, turning towards my boyfriend who looked gorgeous in dark blue jeans and a black v-neck t-shirt, his eyes covered by sunglasses as he drove down the highway.
"I'm not telling you Lil stop asking." He shook his head and I sighed dramatically but we both knew i was smiling.

"Enough time for road head?" I smirked and Travis laughed.
"Yes." He smirked as he swerved across the lanes, always the speeder no matter how much I yelled at him.
"Not if you're going to drive like that." I said seriously.
"I thought you said we'd take your bike." I pouted.
"My bike is already there." He replied, looking very pleased with himself.
"Oh." I smiled and stretched out in my seat. "Well wherever we go I'm excited." I said honestly and I was. We hadn't had much us time and it would be nice to spend a long weekend together. Hopefully naked.
"Me too." He pulled off to the beach exit and I turned towards him.
"Are you stealing Jax's ideas?" I asked and he just growled.
"I wanted to take you to the beach long before Travis even knew Colbie." He snapped.
"Oh really? So you're the romantic one in the family then? Lucky me." Travis laughed, since I was being a smartass and he loved that.
"Yes Lil, you know me. I'm all about flowers, chocolates and that s.hit." he said in a tone which was sarcastic mixed with amused.
"I wouldn't mind some chocolates from time to time." I teased.
"I have plenty at home, cupboard next to the fridge." he said back with a smirk.
"Don't you think I already know it?" I laughed, smiling to myself at how he also kept my favorite ice cream at his place all the time. Not a romantic my ass. He kept driving as he kept hsi hand on my thigh, squeezing it gently as he watched the road.
"I had no idea you liked the beach to be honest." I broke the silence.
"I like it when there's no one and I can relax."
"Of course." I laughed as he took a left turn then parked in front of a beautiful beach house right next to a brand new motorcycle.
"What are you saying? That I'm a loner?" he grinned, unbuckling his seatbelt and leaning into me so that his face was an inch from mine.
"No, you like being with me only." I teased him then cupped his cheek and kissed his lips quickly.
"Cheesy." he grinned wider before pulling away and getting out of the car before looking at the bike. I followed him but didn't care about drooling over new bikes when I could look at the isolated beach and the beautiful house.
"Did you rent this place?" I asked. He shook his head and set a cigarette between his lips, "No I bought it."  Wait what?! He bought a vacation home?
"You didn't tell me anything."
"It kind of was an impulsive purchase." he said back.
"I never pictured you as a beach house guy." I admitted with a laugh, but even as I said it I could feel Trav in the place. It wasn't a frat house or a girly beach theme. It was masculine but comforting, just like my man.
"No?" He smirked as I walked into the large kitchen which was streamlined with high end appliances.
"No but I think it suits you." I grinned before plopping down onto the black couch. "It suits me too." I admitted, stretching out. "Now all I need is some wine."
"Coming up." He smiled and reached into the fridge where there was indeed some wine chilling, ready for us.
"Maybe I don't get chocolates and flowers but wine and beach houses are better." I laughed, my eyes taking in the great view of Travis' as.s as he searched for a corkscrew. Every inch of him was so damn gorgeous.
"I know my girl." He replied, looking back at me as if he'd caught me checking him out and smirking wider. "Like what you see?" I nodded emphatically.
"Yup." Travis laughed.
"Shouldn't you be wearing a bikini?" he asked so seriously I laughed.
"We just got here!"
"So what? Don't tell me you didn't pack a bikini in that ridiculously small bag." he grinned as he poured two glasses of wine.
"Maybe there's no bikini, so what?" I said and smirked eventually, a naughty smirk that left Travis groaning as I accepted the glass he was offering.
"No bikini no beach." he said monotonously, his eyes fierce.
"So jealous." I said back, rolling my eyes and using a teasing tone since it was more like he was possesive. "Are you going to give me a tour of the house?"
"It's not going to be for free." he replied, taking a sip of wine and then reaching for my hand which I took and squeezed.
"What is really?"
"Not this house, that's for sure." he made a face, as we toured through the house and I thought how lovely it was but also very him.
"There are a lot of bedrooms." I commented, looking at him from the corner of my eye. "Are you planning to have a big family?"
"I already have a big family." he said back flatly as he led me to the master bedroom which was huge, with an amazing view and even a terrace. For now though, there wasn't even a bed. Or anything really. "This is our room." he announced, and I drooled as I thought of painting the back wall and putting a huge bed in the center of the room.
"You should paint." I said seriously, the off beige walls making me cringe a little.
"YOU should paint." He corrected and I turned to look at him smiling genuinely with me.
"Like you want to save money on painters by getting your girlfriend to do it or you want me to paint paint?" I asked, surprised since this was his place and my murals would put my touch everywhere. Travis just laughed.
"I don't care about saving money." he answered instead of being direct, I immediatley smiled, ideas forming in my head for every room we passed.
"You also need a bed." I pointed out. "Where will we sleep?"
"In the sand?" He suggested and though I knew he was kidding I had to admit nothing would be better than waking up with his arms around me right next to the ocean.
"That could get messy." I said instead, wrinkling my nose.
"So could things we do in a bed." He countered, a smirk appearing instantly on his face.
"True." I laughed. "Touche."
"Bikini." He said finally after we'd walked through all the rooms in the house.
"I didn't know we were coming here maybe I don't have one."
"Ha. I know you." I laughed and reached into my bag to grab my swimsuit.
"Are we going tanning? You're looking pale." I teased since I was the palest girl on earth instead.
"Ha. You could be a ghost for how pale you are." I pouted as I pulled off my t-shirt.
"That doesn't sound like a compliment." I said and chucked the fabric at him which he just caught instead of ending up in his face. 
"You look like a porcelain doll baby." he said while I slowly took off my jeans too, knowing I was distracting him.
"Is it good?" I basically purred as I pushed my underwear down my legs.
"So f.ucking good." he muttered, his eyes roaming over my body slowly, touching me with his gaze the way I knew he wanted to but wouldn't because he was enjoying the build up. I pulled on a black binki as I bit back a grin before looking at Trav.
"Aren't you afraid to break me?"
"That's my biggest fear baby." He replied and his voice was almost too honest when he said it, pulling on my arm to bring me closer to his body to press his lips against my stomach. I sighed softly as they trailed up my torso and the cupped my head before he captured my lips with his. It was a deep real kiss and honestly almost nothing compared. My chest ached and sweelled at the same time, pulsing with love and adoration as I surrendered to his kiss willingly.
"I'm much stronger than I look." I whispered against his mouth, his words touching me in a deep way.
"I know." his hands gripped tighter in my hair as he claimed my mouth again, making my whole body feel electric, both hot and cold and ugh. I loved it.
"Are we going swimming?" I asked when he pulled away, tying my bikini top behind my neck and pulling my hair into a ponytail.
"If you want." he nodded.
"I think I want to just relax a little." I replied. He smiled.
"Great. There's a big porch outside the back." I followed him to the back and watched as he grabbed the bottle of wine and walked back to me.
"This is so nice." I sighed. "I feel like we haven't spent relaxing time together in forever."
"We should do it more often." He replied, topping off my glass and sitting next to me on the outdoor furniture, pulling me close into his body.
"I agree." I nuzzled into him and enjoyed the sounds and sights of being so close to the ocean, the weather, the scent of the beach, everything was almost too perfect I was waiting for something bad to happen.
"You're thinking really hard." Travis pointed out, kissing the top of my head.
"I'm thinking that this is too good to be true." I admitted. Our together time had been interupted far too often with work or family or ex drama, or Jax being an a.ss.
"Are you impressed then?" I could hear the grin in his voice as he tried to lighten the mood.
"I'm pretty easily impressed." I laughed, taking a sip of the yummy wine.
"No you're not." he pointed out, raising one eyebrow at me with an amused look on his face.
"Why not?"
"You weren't impressed the first time I bought you a drink." he retorted, smirking.
"Because you just wanted to fuck me 30 minutes after meeting me!" I laughed.
"See? Not impressed." he shook his head, "And you weren't impressed when I acted as professional as possible when we were working."
"You weren't that professional-"
"And you weren't impressed either when I was gentle and cheered you up when we skipped the aquarium thing." he cut me off as he went on, his eyes still glued to mine"But when I acted like an a.sshole and I was in an awful mood? You were finally impressed." I laughed at his words, shaking my head as I cuddled into him.
"Is that how you remember how things went between us?" 
"Yep. That's how it was." he nodded.
"Uh I'm not sure about that."
"I'm right, now be impressed." he grinned and pressed his lips against mine to stop me from arguing with him. "Nothing bad is going to happen." he said softly once he broke the kiss.
"You're a ridiculous man." I whispered, cupping his face and pulling it back to mine for more kisses that could probably save the world if they needed to.
"I fit you then." He smirked against my mouth and pulled me closer to him, playing with my hair absently.
"Barely." I felt myself trying not to laugh before he started instead.
"Oh god Lil." He shook his head and I leaned mine against his strong chest, feeling very happy.
"This is so nice." I sighed lookng out towards the beach. "I'd love to paint out here some day."
"Some day you will. But not this time. This time is not for working." I sat up and gave him a mock shocked face.
"Are you saying you won't work at all this weekend?" He grinned and shook his head.
"I'm sure we'll get a work out or two in." He smirked. "But no. No work." I felt giddy with how much time I had with him, I knew how fast it would go by and I didn't want to waste even a second.
"Are you in the mood to work out?" I asked, wiggling my brows at him as he smirked.
"I'm sure I could be convinced." He grinned a wolfish smile as he drug me to him, kissing me hard and fisting my hair to deepen the kiss.
"I feel like you're doing the convincing." I laughed, swinging a leg over his lap and kissing him back, wrapping my arms around his neck. His arms went to my thighs, sliding up before wrapping around my waist.
"I want to tie you with this." He growled, playing with the strings on my bikini. I moaned and pressed harder against him.
"So inventive." I slid my hands up and down his chest, loving how hard and warm he was everywhere. "I like it." I grinned.
"But you like everything I do to you." he pointed out as he shot her a smug grin.
"Just because you happen to do all the right things." I bit down on my lip as I looked at my handsome man who rolled his eyes, since that was obviously an understatement.
"I changed my mind." he announced out of nowhere.
"About what?" I asked and pouted a moment later, "Not about tying me up I hope."
"Your bikini is not resistant enough." he explained as he shook his head, "It'd broke after a minuted and my fun would be ruined." he said the words so seriously that I started laughing.
"What are you suggesting?"
"I don't know, there should be a rope somewhere in this house." he shrugged and I could see the naughty wheels in his head working and I decided to tease him more.
"Nope." I shook my head, "My wrists are too delicate."
"Too bad I don't have any of my ties here...." he went on, barely listening as he kept up with his fantasy. "My belt could work." I laughed but this time it was breathy as I thought about it.
"We can't plan everything! Surprise me." I whispered.
"Should I blindfold you too?" he asked back, keeping a straight face.
"Oh god Trav!" I felt myself blushing though why I wasn't sure, we both knew I liked the idea. Travis nibbled at my jaw as he smacked my as.s playfully.
"Fine baby, I'll give you the best surprise of your life."
"Yay." I grinned and wiggled against his lap, making him groan.
"Are we starting now?" he rose a brow.
"I'm hungry." I pouted at him and he grinned wider and pulled me in, kissing up my neck until he tugged on my ear. "I want you needy for me." He whispered, pushing a shiver through my body.
"You want a needy girl now? I thought that's why you didn't have a girlfriend before me." I teased him.
"And then you came along and changed everything." He teased right back, his hand spanking me lazily.
"Yeah I'm amazing aren't I? How do you even handle it?" He shook his head, but couldn't really say anything since his ego was worse than mine.
"Will you help me furnish the place?" He asked, nodding back into the house.
"Of course. But that would involve shopping." I pointed out. He made a face.
"I was hoping more along the lines of you using the internet." I laughed and combed his hair back with my fingers.
"Do you want it like your place?" I asked, knowing his style pretty well. He shrugged.
"I'm guessing my family will all stay here some time or another."
"So maybe I shouldn't buy a sex swing for the spare bedroom?" I pursed my lips to keep from laughing but Trav started and I couldn't hold back anymore.
"Dear god Lil." He shook his head.
"I'm taking that as a no?" I asked through my giggles making him poke my sides.
"Ah you're so smart." he teased, "How did I find a girl that is so hot and so smart?!"
"You didn't. I did." I retorted and he just rolled his eyes.
"Are you into that?" he asked suddenly, confusing me.
"Finding hot men?" I furrowed my brows as I shot him a silly look, "I was. I stopped." I added as I laughed at my silly joke, watching as Trav's face became more amused.
"Hilarious baby. No sex swing then." he said quietly as he watched me.
"Would you like that?" I asked back, totally having been joking before but now I was curious. He made a face as he thought about it.
"It sounds like it'd be awkward." he paused which relieved me since clearly he hadn't tried it with anyone else. "And we'd break it even before coming." I laughed long and shook my head.
"Okay, no sex swing. But youre killing my creativity." I added with a fake pout that made him instantly lean in and kiss me.
"What about you make of one of the rooms your room for creativity?"
"What does that even mean?"
"Pick a room and use it to paint, to make your art."
"Are you serious?" I ask, blinking back at him.
"Wouldn't you like it?" He asked. I softened. Lately we'd been a little moody with each other, both of us not having enough alone time and stupid shi.t getting in the way. I'd accused him of not growing and changing in the relationship. But I didn't even notice how much he was. Hell he'd basically bought us a vacation house.
"Yes." I nod and climb into his lap. "I'd love it. Thank you Travis." I lean in and nuzzle his neck, inhaling his sent, feeling how warm and hard his body was around me. I loved him so much I didn't even know how to handle it sometimes.
"Your welcome." He hugged me back tight and I sighed against him, just enjoying the moment. I'd always known someday I'd fall in love but I never knew it would be this all consuming. Travis was everything. And I needed to stop taking him for granted.
"I'm sorry." I whisper into his neck. He pushes me back so he can look into my eyes with confusion.
"For what?" A deep breath comes out of me as I process my words.
"For being a bad girlfriend lately." I shrug. He let out a long sigh and I knew I had said the wrong thing even if I knew we had to talk about this. I didn't want to fight thought.
"You're not a bad girlfriend Lil." he started and I parted my lips, but he kept going "I remember when we got together and you told me you didn't know how to be a girlfriend. Do you remember what I told you?"
"You told me many things Trav, I don't know what part exactly you're referring to."
"Many things? I don't know about that." he smirked to make the moment lighter as he pushed my hair behind my ear, then  turned serious again, "I told you I didn't care, that you just had to be you."
"And I told you I wanted you to be you." I nodded, agreeing with him wholeheartedly.
"That you didn't want me to change." he reminded me.
"I don't want you to change who you are. I want you to still work hard and play harder and be bossy and moody and love me the way that only you can. But I feel like I'm changing. And I hate being the only one."
"What do you mean?" I shrugged.
"Before you I was just a young girl who had her whole life ahead of her-"
"And you don't think you have that now too?" I smiled softly.
"You didn't let me finish. A girl who had her whole life ahead of her to fall in love and want a family and a future with someone and responsibilites outside of just me."
"And now you want more?" He asked, his brow raised.
"Now you are my future Travis. Even though we're both wildly independant when I look ahead a few years or even many many years I want you there." Travis cradled me closer in his arms.
"Is that a bad thing?" I shook my head.
"No it's a wonderful thing. I'm so lucky to have met you and fallen for you and for you to feel the same way. I just don't know what we do now. I'm afraid sometimes we're stuck in a place where we need to move forward or we're not really going anywhere." I shrugged. "But when you do something like this;" I waved around to the house. "It proves that you see a future with me too." Travis nodded.
"When have I ever given you the idea that I didn't want a future with you?" He asked. I sighed, running my hands through my hair as I contemplated my next words because I was pretty sure they were going to piss him off.
"I feel like from everything I know about Karlie you moved much faster with her." I admitted. "And I also know that you stayed with her even though you knew things weren't working anymore. I need to know we're doing things right this time, but I don't have anything to compare it to other than her and I know that's not fair  but it's how it is."
"I don't want you to compare it to Karlie, ever." he said in a low voice, and I could tell he could be easily mad depending on what I said next, but that wasn't what I wanted. "You're completely different from her." he added in a softer voice.
"I know that." I said back hurriedly.
"That's a good start." he took a deep breath, setting his large hand on my lower back and tracing circles on my skin with the tip of his fingers. "What do you know about me and Karlie?" he asked after a moment. I took a deep breath, wondering where exactly he was going with this.
"That you two lived together, that things didn't go well in more ways that one...that you cheated on her." I answered quietly.
"But you don't know all the rest, like when we started dating or how fast or slow things moved with her." he pointed out and raised one eyebrow at me.
"I'm not sure if I want to know all the details." I admitted.
"Now you have to know the whole story and listen to me." he paused and made a face, "Maybe not the whole story." I set my hands on his chest as I prepared myself.
"I want to know."
"It took forever before Karlie and I got together and it took a long time before we started living together too. I don't think it should matter anyway, because what we are is different from what I was with her, but I want you to understand that the only thing that moved fast was the awful ending." he started quietly, moving his free hand to tangle in my hair and play with it idly. "I learnt from my mistakes baby, I'd never do anything of what I did with her with you. If I'm still with you after two years and after all the fights, if I'm here still trying to make you see how I see our relationship it's because I love you and I see a future with you too. I have no idea of what's going to happen but I know I'm going to be with you. When you say I don't love you and respect you enough I'm like f.uck, what did I do wrong? And I get mad because I don't think I deserve it, because I love you and respect you a lot."
"I say things too fast sometimes, without thinking how you'll take it or how it sounds. Sometimes it's not even what I meant it just comes out so wrong." I sighed.
"It's been 2 years baby. I know that about you." He kisses the top of my head and I smile at him. I can't remember the last time either of us were this honest without being angry and it felt like a thousand pounds were being lifted off of me.
"I know you shouldn't have to say these things. I know I should know it because I know you. But it does give me comfort to hear it. At the end of the day I am still a young girl who's new to this whole relationship thing. I'm learning from my mistakes too, it's just I don't have a lot compare to."
"If it makes you feel better to hear it I'm happy to tell you, but I love you and that's the most important part. Everything else will find a time and a place."
"I know. I wasn't saying this to accuse you of things. I was saying it to prove that I know you love me and see the future I see. You're mine and you're never getting rid of me." I smirked and Travis chuckled lightly.
"I have no desire to." I let out a deep breath as I cuddled against him.  "This is such a nice place." I said softly. "It would be a joy to paint here. I could do a whole beach collection."
"That's a little cliche don't you think?" he raises a brow at me and I love that he knows my style well enough to know the kinds of things I like to paint.
"Not just of the ocean or sunsets, that would be boring. Though I might do a few just for practice. But we'll see. It would be fun to have the family here."
"It would." He agreed.
"Speaking of family...." I trailed off. "Have you talked to Jax?"
"No." he answered curtly, leaning back against the bench and staring at me. I just stared back for a second. We had gotten into a lot of deep conversations today we might as well get through them all.
"I know you don't want to talk about it..." I trailed off slowly.
"But?"
"But why?" I asked simply with a shrug. "I know you're stubborn and he's not being the good brother and friend he usually is but it's been so long Trav, can't you give him a chance? He's still your brother." He shook his head.
"Believe me Lil, I'm more than ready to talk to him, I'm not ever mad anymore but I think he should come to me. I'm not going to make the first move because he's the one in the wrong." he paused, pulling his hands away from me to run through his hair, "He knows I'm here to talk whenever I want, the problem is that he won't. He's so f.ucking focused on being the boyfriend of the year that all the rest of his life doesn't exist anymore. He shut me out."
"I think you're a little too hard with him." I said softly, "Even if you have any right to be." I added.
"I do." he groaned, "I even talked to Adam but he's a lost cause." I grinned at his choice of words since I knew my man all too well.
"A lost cause? Let me guess, everyone who doesn't agree with you is too."
"Yes." he smirked back at me. "He's no help."
"Jax will come around." I said, the words almost empty to my own ears which sucked. Travis shrugged.
"I have plans for us for tomorrow."
"Really?! What?!"
"You shouldn't be so surprised." he grinned at me, squeezing my wrists in his hand, "Tomorrow's Memorial Day and my cousin is throwing a barbecue."
"I never met any of your family members."
"Because my parents and my brothers aren't part of my family." he said, making me roll my eyes, "They don't live where we do, that's why."
"Where? Where are we going?" I asked.
"My new bike is going to take us to Napa, where my cousin Tara lives." he explained, "If you like the idea, of course."
"In Napa?!" I asked, a feeling a big smile form on my face. He nodded.
"I guess you like the idea."
"Will there be wine?" I asked, already imagining the pretty scenery and delicious drinks.
"I assume so. Tara owns a bakery that's right on a winery."
"Oh wow. Good wine and good food. How could I say no?" I smile and cuddle against him. "Jax is being such a stupid head." Travis tensed when I said his name and then started laughing for real. "What?"
"A stupidhead? Is that a real term?"
"Um yeah. It means he's being stupid in his head." I replied as if it was obvious because it was.
"How old are you again?" he asked.
"Probably the youngest one at your memorial day party." I sighed and Travis laughed some more.
"Yeah probably." he agreed. "You're almost 15 right?" I smacked him.
"And you're 100." I pouted.
"I look damn good for my age then." he smirked and I saw the carefree Travis, the one who was more fun than anyone and the one that ironically looked young and happy.
"You do." I agree and lean in to kiss him hard. "So is your cousin more like you or more like Jax? Or like Adam?"
"Are there only three types of people in the world to you?" He asked, pulling me into his lap and resting his hands on my as.s.
"Yes. All the people in the world can be broken down into Jaxs Adams and Travs." I say seriously, joking but it was kind of true."
"Who's your favorite type?" he asks.
"Adams." I say without hesitation and he spanks me firmly.
"Try again."
"Not fair! I only like Travis' when I'm allowed to get them naked." I smirk. "They're obviously the best in bed." I wiggle my brows at Trav and he sighs dramatically.
"I knew you were just using me for sex."
"I told you when we got together that's all it was." He spanks me again and I squeal as I wiggle in his lap.
"I'm also very wealthy." I roll my eyes.
"So am I. How does that help me?" I ask. "I guess I love your soul too." I admit, not meaning to get serious but doing it anyways as I set my hands on his chest.
"Do you?" He asks, blinking back at me.
"It's old. But I love it." I tease.