i will give you all of me

i will give you all of me by ssaarah

I handed Jac a cup of punch and leaned down to kiss her cheek.
"How are you feeling?"
"I don't know...." She sighed. "I feel like everyone's walking on eggshells." I looked over at her sister, the usual light in her eyes pretty much gone. I knew Jac wanted to be with her more but it was hard living so far away.
"What do you want them to do love, throw a graduation/baby shower party?" I smirked and she chuckled a little.
"I just wish I was here more.....I wish I was with you more." She shook her head. "I feel like I'm being pulled into a bunch of different directions by all the people I love." I nodded. 

"I'm sorry." I was too. I was sorry I left her at all, sorry I took a new job I didn't even enjoy, and sorry that I couldn't make things right for her family. I knew it wasn't my problem but god when you loved someone the way I loved Jac? All you ever thought about was making them happy. It was crazy. I loved my family but I'd never felt anything like what I felt for the girl in front of me.
"It's not your fault baby." She sighed. "I'm also feeling guilty about wanting to drag you back to our room and having my way with you." She said it in such a serious way I started laughing.
"I'm sorry about that too. But don't feel guilty." I smirked, kissing her mouth. "We'll havve time later."
"Tell me more about that please. I need good vibes right now." I grinned and wrapped an arm around her, pulling my body against hers.
"First of all? I am dying to see you out of that damn sundress." I growled into her ear.
"But I thought you liked it," she gave me an innocent look and I was reminded of watching her put that dress on, forgoing panties and leaving me to know she was commando all day.
"My girlfriend is a tease,"
"Go on with the dirty talk." she grinned. A dirty tease....my dirty tease.
"I would, but your aunt keeps staring at us and I swear it's like she can read lips," Jac laughed and turned her body into mine, her arms draping around my shoulders as she let out a sigh that I wasnt' sure was sad or happy.
"I love you so much..." she trailed off and then frowned, "When will I see you again?"
"You can see me right now." I forced a smile and she nodded.
"That's true." She got on her toes to kiss me and I wrapped my arms around her, holding her close. "I never want you to let me go Dean." She whispered.
"I'm with you on that pretty girl." I licked my lips and wondered when the right time to tell her my news was.
"I hate it when you leave and I don't know when I'll be with you again." she said, her eyes going glassy and I held her face in my hands.
"I quit my job." I said seriously, looking into her eyes.
"...what?"
"I hate it Jac. I hate my boss, I hate living with no friends or famiy and I really fu.cking hate being without you."
"Dean." Her eyes were wide and she moved her hands down to my chest. "You better not be fu.cking with me now." I laughed.
"I'm not fu.cking with you. But I do need a place to live, my brother is using my bedroom as a work out room. So I'm hoping this time you wont back out on living with me?" Jac shook her head as she open and then closed her mouth.
"Yes!!! God please!" she wrapped her arms around me and held me tight and I swung her around before kissing her hard.
"Though your apartment might be a little small too..."
"What? It's just the two of us." I shrugged.
"I was kind of hoping it'd be the four of us." I admitted, nodding to over where her sister was talking with a few other teenagers. "If she wants to at least." I noticed tears forming in Jac's eyes and I frowned at them, but she looked happy.
"Really? You want an insane pregnant teenager living with us?!"
"Well when you put it that way..." I laughed as my words trailed off and I pressed another kiss against her lips. "I want to make you happy. I want Lyss to know that she has our support and protection... that she isn't alone."
"I don't know what I did to deserve you," she said in a whisper, making my chest ache because it was me who didn't deserve her. "Thank you."
"So is that a yes?"
"What about Gran?"
"Your dad said not to worry about it. Your aunt is moving in to take care of her and he's not doing a full tour, just a few nearby states," I replied nonchalantly and Jac's eyebrows shot up in surprise.
"You talked to him already??"
"Yeah." I nodded, not telling her that I also told her father I fully intended on marrying his daughter as soon as I felt we were ready. Jac was it for me. The one. But our relationship had been mostly long distance and I didn't want to rush her by moving too fast too soon.
"You're crazy Dean." she said seriously as I wiped the tears away from her eyes softly. "Straight up nuts." I laughed.
"Of course we still have to ask your sister if she even has any desire to live with us. She might not want to." I shrugged.
"True...she barely wanted to live with me when we were kids." Jac winced though I'm sure she was exaggerating. Lyss was a little difficult, but I could tell she idolized her sister.
"Don't worry we'll get a place so that Lyss can have her own space and we can have ours."
"Where will you work?" She asked, her face suddenly etched with worry.
"Well apparently Allure has had a hell of a time trying to replace me....it wasn't that hard to get my old job back....with a raise. I figured then it was meant to be." Jac wrapped her arms around me and held me tight.
"You're making me very happy." She admitted, her voice breaking a little. I held her back and kissed the top of her head.
"I'm hoping for sexual favors in the near future." I joked and she laughed.
"You would have gotten those anyways." she grinned, pulling back and kissing me quickly.
"Really.....so what does this get me?" I wiggled my brows at her and smirked.
"It depends on what you want..." Jac trailed off and bit the tip of her tongue and I recognized the look she got when she was thinking dirty.
"I don't know.... Lets hear a few ideas," I faked a serious face and even let out a sigh. Jac leaned into me as she laughed and kissed me, not exactly an innocent kiss either. Her tongue swept across my lips and I was helpless to stop myself from opening my mouth against hers and kissing her harder, groaning into her mouth.
"She has to get used to us kissing sooner or later," she said with her lips still on mine.
"I don't know if she ever will. We're a lot to take in," I retorted, pulling my head back and smirking down at her.
"I agree," she replied and smiled again, flipping her head over her shoulder and looking at Lyss. She stuck her tongue out at her sister and then rolled her eyes, talking to her friends and then ignoring us. "Maybe we can just visit her every so often. Send postcards," Jac wrinkled her nose as she joked.
"You're cute." I grinned and tugged her closer to me. "But I think you're right about the kissing thing." I admitted, cupping her face and kissing her again.
"Get a room!" Lyss shouted from the other side of the kitchen making us break apart again.
"She has a good suggestion." Jac said with a look in her eyes that told me I would really love whatever it was she was thinking about right now.
"Your room is down the hall and the walls aren't exactly soundproof." I grinned, knowing all too well Jac wasn't very good at being quiet. Not that I cared usually. But some of her sisters friends were already eyeing my girlfriend and even though they were far too young for her and I knew they were far from a threat? I didn't want them getting any other ideas.
"You're no fun." She pouted her lips at me and I smiled, running my thumb over her bottom one.
"I can be fun." I said in a low voice.
"Sometimes." she shrugged and I spun her around in my arms so she was pressing her as.s up against me.
"Do you remember when we first started dating....at that gala where I set you on the bathroom counter and basically devoured you?" Jac's breath caught and she nodded slowly.
"Mhmm...."
"I want to do that again....but with more room." I nipped at her ear lobe. "And I want you to be screaming. Can't do that now can we?" Jac shook her head, not saying anything but I could tell by her eyes how turned on she was. "Are you wet?" I whispered in her ear, forgetting our surroundings as I imagined her dripping down her thighs.
"I'm soaking..." she trailed off and tilted her head up, her look screamed 'fuck me" and damn did I want to. Long and hard.  "Don't you want to feel me?"  she asked, brushing harder against me as she gave me that fake innocent look of hers.
"Yes." I growled, shooting her a warning look because fu.ck she was killing me.
"Are you angry? This is your fault...." She reached behind me, helping me slip my hand under her short skirt from behind before I was brushing against her wet panties. This had to stop.
"And I hate myself for it. God Jac...I can't walk around with a hard on like this in front of youre entire family."
"You think it's comfortable to be dripping wet?" She asked, turning back around and shooting me that fake innocent look that made me want to bend her over and spank her for being such a damn tease.
"We need to change the subject before I drag you to bed by your hair." I admitted, running my hands through my own hair as I tried to think about anything but all the different ways I wanted to fu.ck my girlfriend.
"The way you're looking at me is so sexy...." She bit her lip and I groaned again, shutting my eyes.
"Then stop looking at me." I smirked and turned her back around but damn it all that did was press her as.s back against me. This was insane. I was a grown as.s man not a hor.ny teenager and yet whenever I was with Jac? It was like I'd never gotten laid before. I blamed long distance. She leaned her head back against my chest and I wrapped my arms around her tighter.
"I'm glad she made it out of high school before all of this..."  She said quietly and looked at her sister who was surrounded by a big group of guys. There were girls there, but most of her friends were guys which was no surprise. "But god does she need a break from boys for a while." I laughed.
"Were you like that in high school?"
"I was a bitch in high school," she retorted, wrinkling her nose.
"It's no surprise considering our first date," I joked, though I had a point...not that I had been on my best behavior that night either.
"We decided that that night didn't count."
"Right," I nodded with a smirk, "The second date was a hell of a lot better..." A shiver ran through her and I perked up some more.
"If you keep this up maybe we'll give Lyss's baby a cousin to play with."
"Would it be so bad?"
"Bad? No... but I don't know how well we'd be able to handle one teenager and two babies all under one roof. Like you said, my place isn't big enough."
"Yeah sure." I laughed and she sighed as a look got dreamy on her face.
"I sent you a care package once."
"You sent me a pair of boxer briefs with a post it telling me to wear them the next time I skyped you." Jac grinned so wide and nodded.
"That was a good night...has anyone ever told you that you could be an underwear model?"
"Isn't this night suppossed to be about me?" Lyss asked, coming out of no where before smirking. "Although she has a point. I walked in on him coming out of the shower last time you visited...." She made a whistle and I think I actually felt myself blushing.
"Lys!!" Jac exclaimed.
"She didn't see anything." I rolled my eyes.
"Nothing good at least." Jac's sister smirked and Jac rolled her eyes.
"I'd be upset but I'm afraid I'm going to have to get used to it."
"Get used to what?" Lyss asked and I gave Jac a look. I didn't know if she wanted to talk to her sister about moving in herself or with me, or if she wanted to wait. Hell I'd only given her the idea a few minutes ago, I'm sure she had to process a little.
"How would you feel about living in Texas for a while?" Jac asked her slowly to gage her reaction. Her eyes went wide instantly and we both grinned, "It doesn't have to be permanent, but for as long as you want... We can get a bigger place for -" She wrapped her arms around Jac and if she started crying I knew Jac would and then I'd have 2 crying women on my hands. Dear god. 
"Thank you," She said, pulling back and smiling at her with glossy eyes.
"I told you I'd always be there for you," Jac smiled at her.
"I thought you were going to move back home instead," She said quietly then looked at me.
"It was his idea actually... I guess we're going to all learn how to be parents together." Lyss got wide eyes and looked so young, so innocent.
"Really? Thank you," She said to Dean and hugged me too.
"Anything for family." I said seriously and Lyss pulled away.
"Sh.t you two are serious huh?" She asked, looking between Jac and I.
"Damn right." I agreed and Lyss nodded.
"I guess I wouldn't give up sex for a man unless it was true love either."
"God Lyss." Jac shook her head and she sighed.
"I'm going to have to now that I'm fat." She growled at her stomach which was barely changed at all.
"You're not fat." I said, knowing my role as a man and besides it was the truth.
"And if I have to hear you complain about being fat for the next seven months? I'm kicking you out of our new house." Jac added.
"We're buying a house?!" Lyss asked, her eyes wide.
"Well I don't know if an apartment would fit all four of us...." She admitted.
"There are a lot of options. We'll have to spend so much time together deciding." I grinned as I pulled Jac closer, the idea of being with her every day was making me hard. I was totally whipped.
"Oh man." She smirked.
"Eww. I'm leaving." Lyss said turning around but then backtracking and wrapping us both in a hug. "I love you guys. I expect to be the maid of honor in your wedding."
"Lyss!!" Jac exclaimed, shaking her head as I laughed.
"I'm sure you will be." I grinned, winking at my girlfriend who widened her eyes but didn't say anything. Jac wraped her arms around my wasit after Lyss walked away,
"Is the idea of marrying me making you hard? Or is that your phone in your pocket?" I laughed and lowered my head down to kiss her, soft and slow until she was melting against me.
"Definitely not a phone," I said against her lips and pulled my head back to look at her.
"I know that we haven't really talked about it, but I'd say yes," She said and I felt my chest swell. We both knew we fell for each other hard and fast but the fact that she would be willing to marry me? I was a lucky son of a bi.tch.
"I know." I kissed her forehead though I hadn't really. I hoped so. She grinned up at me with a silly look on her face.
"How'd you know??" I shrugged, feeling like I'd won the lottery.
"Just a haunch."
"My future fiance is such a smart man," he replied and pulled away but reached for my hand pulling me away and out of the house.
"Where is my future wife taking me," I asked, caught up to her, wrapping an arm around her waist and kissing her neck. 
"I haven't showed you the rest of the property yet, and since we're leaving tomorrow, this is the last chance," she answered with a coy smirk.
"Are you sure you're not just trying to get me alone?"
"Always," she said and tugged me in the direction of the stables, pushing me against the wall once we were inside and fuck I wasn't complaining. I wrapped my arms around her waist and then down to her ass and her smooth thighs. She didn't miss a beat, unbuckling my belt and then my jeans, slipping a hand into my pants and running it along my erection. Ugh.
"Fuck Jac..." I groaned and let my head fall back against the wood wall as I focused on the feeling of her hand on me.
"I've wanted you all day.....all week...." She moaned as she kissed my neck, my jaw, nibbled on my ear.
"I want you every fucking second." I growled and reached for her long ponytail, pulling it back slightly so she was at just the right angle for me to crash my mouth against hers.
"Touch me...." She moaned into my mouth, reaching down and cupping my balls before going back to slowly jacking me off. I groaned and slid my hand up her skirt. "Tell me what you want to do to me when we're not together."
"I could just show you." I grinned and let my fingers slide up her legs only to find she wasn't wearing any panties anymore.
"I took them off. Easy access." She smirked but then groaned as I easily slid two fingers into her.
"I think about doing this. I think about fucking you every way I know over and over and over again." I growled. "Damn it Jac keep that up and I wont even get inside of you." She gave me a sultry grin and worked my pants down, my erection straining towards her.
"I've always wanted to do it in here..." She said slowly, bitng her lip and moaning as I curled my fingers inside of her and thumbed her cli.t.
"Allow me to make your fantasies come true baby." I grinned, tugging her closer and wrapping her leg around my waist. "I'll expect you to tell me all of them." 
"It might take a while since I have a lot," Ja smirked back before she moaned when I curled my fingers to hit her just where she needed it. Her hand tightened around me and I shut my eyes tight before looking back at her.
"Is it usually my fingers inside of you?" I asked, trying to keep focus on her while she pumped my dick in her soft perfect hands.  She shook her head and shot me a begging look. Ugh. That look killed me. I pulled my fingers from her moving my hands to her ass and lifting her up, switching our positions so that she was the one against the wall. Jac's eyes were glassy with lust as her back hit the wall her mouth opening to speak but before she could I positioned myself at her entrance and sank into her in one thrust. Fuck....
"Oh my god!" Jac rushed out in one long breath, setting her head against the wood, her long dark hair cascading behind her. I was hypnotized watching her as I pulled back and then pushed back in again, her pussy tightening further each time. "That's more like it," she moaned out, her eyes flicking back towards me as she gave me a sexy smirk.
"I could spend hours inside of you..." I groaned against her neck and then dipped lower, down towards her amazing cleavage. Jac pulled one arm away from my neck and struggled to pull off her top before she gave up and just tugged one side down with her bra, freeing her breast and offering it to me by arching her back.
"I might not last hours,"
"Lucky you recover quickly." I grinned and squeezed her as.s in my hands as I pushed deeper and took her breast into my mouth, teasing her ni.pple with my tongue.
"Dean...." She pressed her chest harder against me and I bit down, pulling back a little and savoring her gasp.
"Mmmhm?"
"Do that again." She looked back at me with wide lust fogged eyes and i grinned as I grabbed her other bra strap in my teeth and tugged it down untill both her breasts were free and I moved my mouth to the other, biting down right away. "Yes! Just like that...."
"You want it rough baby?" I growled, feeling her tighten against me as I picked up the pace. "I can give it do you. " I got a better grip on her and pressed her harder against the wall before I sped up, fuc.king her hard and fast as my mouth moved from her jaw to her neck then back to her chest.
"Fu.ck...." her hands dug into my back as she held on and she moved her hips against mine.
"Cum Jac....I want to feel it." I raised my head to look into her eyes. God I loved her so fu.cking much I could barely keep it together when I looked at her. Especially when she was like this, open to me, close to falling over the edge and so damn beautiful. She sighed and then tensed around me, her pussy getting tight as hell and I knew she was going to break with me.
"Dean!!" she breathed out and then I felt her release, her head thrown back, moans coming from that sweet mouth. It was a damn good view. I sped up, thrusting fast and hard as my orgasm barrled down my spine and then shot everything I had inside of her. I heard curses coming out of my mouth as I came but I wasn't exactly sure what I said. She had that effect on me. Every damn time. I hugged her tight against me when we were both spent and I spoke against her hair.
"I love you," I said seriously. I had never felt more for someone in my entire life.
"How much?" she asked with a grin and I pulled back to shoot my smartass girl a look. "I love you too baby,"she added.
 "How much?" I turned it back around on her and she laughed. "What are you thinking about right now?"
"How we're going to be able to do that all the time now..." she trailed off, and I felt myself get a little harder just thinking about it.
"Finally," I said and smiled back at her.
"When will you move your things back?" I grinned and pressed my body up harder against her, making her moan a little.
"It's what now....like 5?" She gave me a strange look and nodded.
"5:30 by now." She teased, leaning in to kiss my neck softly.
"Then they should have dropped everything off a few hours ago." Jac pulled away from her sensual assault on my body to look at me with wide eyes.
"I can't believe you kept this from me!!" She said, but she was grinning so wide. "I'm so happy." she admitted, her whole face looking bright and perfect and I think I might love her too much if that was even possible.
"It's my job to make my girl happy." I grinned and Jac wiggled against me, as if reminding me I was still inside of her, as if I could forget. I groaned and cursed. "You're trying to kill me." Jac grinned and smiled into my eyes.
"Before we move into our new place we have a lot of fantasies to fulfil in my place...." she trailed off. "And so little time to do it." I rose my brows as I felt myself get rock hard all over again....the effect she had on me was nuts.
"Tell me...." I trailed off, grabbing her as.s harder in my hands.
"It's so hard to focus on anything but your hard di.ck..." she smirked and I leaned down to kiss her slowly, mirroring the movements of my hips and loving how she moaned in my mouth before I broke away and trailed more kisses down her neck, feeling overwhelmed by just how much I needed this woman.
"What are you doing to me Jac?" she shivered in my arms and peeled off her shirt and bra at once, finally having the room.
"Right now? I'm seducing you," 
"You don't need to seduce me, trust me." I slid my hand up to take her full breast in my palm, kneading it and making her moan as I made slow love to her. "But thank you," I added before she tightened around me and I groaned.
 "Lay down so I can ride you."
"Fu.ck baby...." I backed up and found a bench, holding her with me and sitting so she was straddling me with my di.ck still buried deep inside of her.
"Good enough...." she moaned, setting her hands on my shoulders as she started rocking back and forth and then up and down.
"Ugh I want to fu.ck you forever...." Jac whimpered, my body rewarding her words by getting harder inside of her. Jac was really good for my ego. It wasn't just that she was hot. She was more than hot. She was sweet and caring and a fu.cking goddess in bed. Or in a stable. Or anywhere. She was basically a walking wet dream and I got her all to myself.
"Do it." I groaned, my hands moving from her breasts down to cup her as.s, tapping it lightly until she moaned.
"Again..." She begged and I pulled my head away from her neck to smirk at her.
"You want me to spank you Jac?" I asked slowly. She nodded.
"I want you to do everything to me..." She admitted, her nails digging into my shoulders and I groaned from her words and how she tightened hard around me.
"You kill me." I spanked her perfect as.s again and then moved my hand to press against her cli.t, knowing if she didn't go off soon, I was finishing without her. The view of her, her words, the way she felt tight and hot and amazing against me? I was a goner.
"No deaths," she grinned and rolled her hips, closing her eyes when I hit just the right spot.
"Keep your eyes open," I groaned, wanting to see her come apart from me. Her eyes flew open and she crashed her lips against mine in a kiss that had her coming against me, her body going limp as I grabbed her hips and filled her over and over.
"I love you," she muttered against my lips while my hands found her perfect ass, helping her bounce up and down on top of me like a fucking vision.
"F.uck baby...." I gritted out and pulled back, looking into her gorgeous eyes while I came hard again inside of her. She leaned her hands back on my knees, her breasts bouncing while I emptied myself inside of her. Oh god I'd be jerking off to this moment for a long time....not that I'd need to do that as much anymore.
"Dean..." she moaned his name, still moving until I had finished and reached for her waist to pull her back to me, loving the feel of her skin against mine...
"Uh god....I almost proposed to you just then." I admitted, still reeling from my orgasm as I pulled out of her with a groan and moved her so she was lying against me on the bench.
"I would have said yes." She grinned a tme and I leaned in to kiss her as I moaned.
"I'll remember that."
"I can't wait to live with you....to wake up to this every day.." She trailed off as her hands ran down my chest.
"Finally...." I said softly. "I never should have left Jac."
"I agree." She smirked. "But I forgive you....besides think of how much we got to know each other being forced apart like that. "
"My girl always sees the best in everything." I grinned and kissed her again. "I hate apartment hunting. I'm afraid house hunting will be worse." Jac laughed.
"What if I tell you we can test out every house?" she wiggled her eyebrows and I quirked mine, feeling myself smirking.
"That would make it more interesting.....i'm surprised your fantasies include being watched by a real estate agent though." I joked and she laughed again.
"That would make his or her day." She grinned. "We're awesome. I'd watch us" She winked and I reached out to pull her closer.
"I'll remember that too." I grinned. "I love you."
"I love you too."