it's better to fell pain than nothing at all

I pushed Lila's wheelchair out of the hospital and towards my car, feeling relieved that we could finally leave this awful place. Both of us, alive.
"I could've walked you know." She protested under her breath, glancing up at me briefly.
"Sure." I rolled my eyes and opened the door of the passenger seat of my car, ignoring her protests.
"I'm not sick, I hate being treated like I am when I'm not." She went on, her tone definitely annoyed.
"Yes you're not sick but you got into a car crash, got a surgery and even slipped into a coma. Don't you think that's enough?" I asked back, helping her up on her feet and into the car.
By the time I was climbing on my side she was already glaring. "But I'm good now." She replied stubbornly.
I sighed, taking a second to cup her face and stare into her gorgeous eyes. "You're better. But you're not fully recovered, you still have stitches and you have to rest and take care of yourself. Let me take care of you, do it for me." I told her softly as I kissed her tenderly.

you've been on my mind girl like a drug

I watched the dawn of the third day without Lila, considering to light another cigarette then deciding against it. My eyes focused on the sky and I was surprised I could even stand on my legs or stay awake, during the last days I had been in Lila's room nonstop, I hadn't slept, let alone eaten, I hadn't even really talked since I refused to speak to anyone except for the doctors of course. They had even tried to keep me away from icu at the beginning but I was paying for everything and it was the love of my life in a coma so there was no way I'd let anyone tell me what to do. The only breaks I took were the ones out of the hospital to have a smoke. I often found myself wishing this was just a bad dream that would end soon, instead I was wide awake, always too terrified that the moment I'd fall asleep and stop listening to the beeping that told me that Lila's heart was still beating it would stop instead.

faded

I walked into the hospital like a tornado, my heart beating so fast I didn't even how how it was possible since I wasn't even sure I was breathing. "I'm looking for Colbie Trenton." I said hurriedly to the woman standing at the desk, "There was a car crash and she's pregnant and-" I started, trying not to lose my damn mind, but was that even possible when you had heard your girlfriend's car crashing against another one while you were on the phone with her? I didn't even know how I had been able to function, call the police and drive to the hospital without having a heart attack.

happy ending

I let out a long sigh as I realized I was awake, but kept my eyes shut while I wondered if Jake was still asleep. I felt his strong arm wrapped around me and his hard chest pressed against my back and our bedroom was quiet, so quiet it almost felt unreal.
As I slowly opened my eyes they landed on the framed picture on my nightstand and I found myself smiling at the picture of my kids, our kids, Jackson and Rosie. Never in my whole life I had imagined I would have had two kids by the age of 30, but here I was instead.
"Oh so you are awake." Jake whispered in a groggy voice as he lifted himself a little, just enough to kiss my shoulder and follow my eyes. "It's weird not having them around, is it?" He asked a moment later, reading my thoughts perfectly like he always did.