don't make things complicated, we just gotta get it together

don't make things complicated, we just gotta get it together by ssaarah 

I stopped outside of the station where Nick worked, my stomach flipping as I thought about what I was going to do, how I was going to say it. I was a coward, I wanted nothing more than to run away and mope about losing him instead of trying anything to get him back. I shook my head and forced myself to push through the doors.

“Hi can I he-“ Nick’s deep voice stopped as he looked up at me. “What are you doing here?” I swallowed.

“I just-“ I started, moving my bag from one shoulder to the other awkwardly. Dear god why did he like me at all I was such a spaz!

“You just what? Got done screwing your ex and came to rub it in my face?” he spat, not even looking at me.

“Okay…I deserved that.” I nodded, walking closer to him but he stepped back walking away to straighten some papers. “Look..can I please try to explain?”

"Explain what? Because I pretty much saw all I needed to when you had his tongue down his throat." He spat back.

"Nick, please just listen to me!" I begged as he took a seat  finally looking at me with tired frustration.

"Fine. Go ahead."

"What you saw was bad, but if you could just let me explain, you'll understand!" I pleaded again.

"Didn't I just say you could explain?" Fuck…..I was sounding like a moron.

"His name is Nolan and he's my ex… The one I've been hung up on..." I trailed off, "He came in and said all these things that I had been wanting him to say for months. It was like a dream come true and honestly I thought it was what I wanted and you were the last thing on my mind. Then he kissed me and I didn't feel anything! It was nothing, and then I pushed it more, wanting to feel that same thing that I did before, but still nothing. All I could think of then was you!!" I was rambling….I knew I was….and I knew it wasn’t helping because Nick just rolled his eyes.

“I'm not going to fight for a girl who doesn't want me." I shook my head,

"I do want you!! That's the thing. When I was kissing him, all I could think of was kissing you…." I trailed off.

"Really?"

“I’ve been an idiot.” I replied, shaking my head. “I wasted months moping after the guy I thought was the one….but you brought me out of that” I smiled. “The way you treat me is better than Nolan, better than any guy I’ve ever met, and I can’t believe I lost you.” I swallowed.

“Brooke….” He trailed off running his hands through his hair. I walked up closer to him this time, almost touching him.

“I want to fight for you Nick….because I do want you. Every part of me wants you.” I pushed my hair back as my heart rate sped up. “Just being this close to you makes my stomach flip. I know we haven’t been dating long and it’s not like I think you’re the one or anything, but the way you make me feel? It would be stupid of me not to try and find out.” Nick ran his tongue over his lips and shook his head.

“I dunno Brooke.” His voice was low and I felt like someone had punched me in the stomach. But hey….at least I tried this time right?” I swallowed.

“I’ll keep fighting.” I gave him a weak smile. “God you had to wear glasses today didn’t you?” he looked up at me.

“I always wear my glasses at work.” He replied with a confused look on his handsome face.

“Such a turn on.” I admitted, feeling myself blush as Nick gave me a slight smile.

“Yeah?” I nodded and he ran his hand through his hair before scratching the back of his neck. “Well you’re one to talk, it’s hard to be mad at you in that dress….” He said honestly, his eyes roaming over my body and stopping at my short skirt. I walked a step closer again, feeling braver by the way he was looking at me.

“Then forgive me…” I said softly. “Please….” I leaned in and pressed my lips softly against his, waiting for him to respond. 

"Don't make a fool out of my Brooke…" he breathed out against my lips. I shook my head quickly and looked into his gorgeous eyes.

"Never… I swear." he licked his lips,

"Then I guess I can understand a moment of weakness when it comes to exes…" he trailed off and I finally let out the breath I didn’t know I was holding. 

"Thank you… I was almost expecting you to just say no…" I bit down on my lip with a small smile and he smirked,

"Is that why you wore this dress?" he asked, "Because I couldn't say no after I saw you in it?"

"Maybe…" I kissed him once more before hearing someone clear his throat and we pulled away.

 "Can I go on my lunch?" Nick asked, giving the guy a sheepish grin as he nodded,

"Yeah. Be back in 30." he nodded back at him before he turned back me.

"Speaking of lunch. I had an insurance policy." I pulled out a tupperware box out of my bag. "If you didn't like my dress, I brought you cheesy chicken to win your heart." he grinned,

"Wow, you're pretty close to perfect, aren't you?" I smirked,

 "Maybe."

"Well let's go out for a few minutes. I need a break..."

“I'm really sorry.” I swallowed and shook my head. Nick grabbed my hand, squeezed it tight and then pulled me into his hard body, tilting my head up.

“I think you’ve said it enough.” I gave him a weak smile and he returned a lopsided grin that was so adorable I felt like I was melting.

“I don’t know what came over me. It was like I had wasted so much time trying to get over Nolan that I hated the thought that he wasn’t really the one.” Nick nodded.

“I guess I get it.” He shook his head. “But god walking in on that was fu.cking awful.” I swallowed thickly.

“I wanted to be with you that night.” I said seriously. “I was so nervous and I drank way too much.” I shook my head again.

“Why were you nervous?” he asked, sitting down at a picnic table at the park across the street as I opened my Tupperware and handed him a fork. I felt myself blushing.

“I don’t really know.” Nick took a bite and groaned.

“Damn Brooke….” He shook his head. “This is so good. All is forgiven.” I laughed.

“Apparently food is the way to your heart.”

"When it's this good? Definitely." He scarfed more down and I grinned. That was another thing about him, most guys appreciated that I could cook but nothing like how he did. He made me feel so special. 

"What do you usually eat?" Nick shrugged,

"Usually frozen pizzas… or hot pockets." he grinned and I shook my head,

"That has to change." I grinned at him, "You have to get something with nutritional value in you and I need to work on some skills… so you're going to test all my food." Nick smirked,

"Is this how it's going to go now? You're going to boss me around?" he winked.

"You'll be eating more delicious food." I mentioned.

"Deal." he grinned, "So tell me… why were you nervous?"

 "Nervous when?" Nick eyed me,

"At Scarlett's birthday party. Why were you so nervous that you had to drink?" I swallowed,

"It had been a while Nick… I was scared as I was a bit rusty. I mean the only action I've had in the past few months was with my vibrator." I spilled out, my damn mouth just spewing and making Nick smirk widely.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to say all that, but honestly, you make me so nervous when you're just around me, and the thought of sex even made it worse." Nick smiled,

"We don't have to rush-"

"No!" I interjected, quickly. "I mean, I don't want to wait…" I bit my lip, "I want you… as soon as possible."

 "Are you sure? Like I said before, I don't want to pressure you at all."

“See that!” I exclaimed. “That’s what keeps making me nervous!” he rose a brow.

“What?”

“You being all Mr. Good Guy, trying not to pressure me and everything.  Kind of makes me feel like you don’t want me.” His eyes widened.

“What?!” he said again, this time with indignation. I smirked at the look on his face and gave him a slow smile.

“Stop worrying if you’re pressuring me….stop worrying if I'm nervous or if I’ll regret it. I want you. Show me what you want. Stop being the good guy Nick.” I watched as his eyes went a full  shade darker.

“Fucking hell Brooke.” He growled under his breath.

“What?” I gave him my best innocent face and he groaned.

“I have to be back at work in 20 minutes!” he exclaimed making me laugh.

“Oops.” I bit down on my lip and he just groaned again he shook his head as his eyes kept getting darker, the heat in them intensifying and wondering if he was thinking the same thing I was…..which was mounting him on top of the coffee table.

"Okay… how about tomorrow? I have the morning shift, but afterwards, I'm free…"

"Really?" I asked with a small grin.

"Are you not wanting me now?" he teased, but god I was so far past teasing….

"God no… I know I want you Nick… Really fucking bad." I licked my lips as I thought of running them all over his body.

"Then come over to my place tomorrow… I have the next day off." he told me, "We can spend all night in bed… not sleeping."  he smirked and I let out a small groan,

"You know, if you keep talking like that, you might not get back to work today." Nick grinned,

 "I need my job, so I won't try to tease you much more."

"Shame…" he nodded and the heat in his eyes made a shiver go through me.

"I know, all I want to do right now is be fucking you……Right now Brooke…" I felt about 10 degrees warmer as a sudden picture of him just taking me up against the nearest tree invaded my thoughts and we both looked back at each other with heat filled glances.

“Damn it.” I swallowed, shaking my head as I looked down and away from his eyes that were slowly melting me.  “Talk about something not sexy.” I smirked and Nick laughed, a sound that was ridiculously sexy without even trying to be.

“Okay.” He grinned, his eyes taking an obviously different route as he stared down my dress then seemed to think better of it. “How have you been?” he scratched the back of his neck. “I honestly haven’t stopped thinking about you. Wondering where you were and what you were doing.” Damn him. I was already two seconds away from jumping him right in the middle of this park and now he had to be precious and hot?!

“I went to Vegas with Mase.” I forced myself to talk about anything but straddling him and his eyes perked up.

“You went to Vegas?” I nodded.

“He had one of his crazy VIP “I'm an internet mogul” parties and I tagged along as part of his entourage.” I smirked though Nick looked…weird.

“That sounds like you were dancing around him in a bikini while he and his buddies got high and drank too much.” I busted out laughing at that.

“More like I watched him turn down girl after girl while sexting my best friend and I got super wasted to forget about how I’d possibly lost the best guy who’d ever been into me.” Nick’s lips curved upwards at that one.

“Yeah?” I nodded.

“Mason might think I'm an alcoholic at this point….” I trailed off.

"Mason's an idiot." he smirked, making me laugh. I nodded,

"He is, but the weekend really made me miss you… I didn't even want to be near any other guy…" I reached over and grabbed his hands. 

“I'm sorry I made you feel like you had to drink that way…" I shook my head,

"It's nothing I didn't deserve. It just made me realize that I really like you."

“I couldn't stop thinking about you either." he said honestly, "I was pissed, but still I missed you." I tugged on my lower lip with my teeth and grinned.

"Really?" he nodded, "God, that makes me feel a thousand times better." Nick’s phone started beeping then and he took it out of his pocket, reading it and then sighing.

"My break is over." I pouted,

"Damn…" Nick stood up, grabbing my hand as we walked back to the station,

"Don't worry… you're coming over tomorrow, right?" I nodded,

"Definitely and I can cook you dinner." Though I was more looking forward to dessert.

 "Sounds amazing." he smiled, leaning over and kissing me, hard, leaving me feeling wobbly and so worked up I’d need to take a long bath.

"Thank you for forgiving me…" I breathed out against his lips.

"No problem beautiful."